Chapter 23 Chapter 23 Qingchang.so lonely

There is nothing wrong with such an ordinary and reliable man accompanying him for the rest of his life. Even with Jozan, a girlfriend as close as Fiona doesn't know that he exists in Qingchang's life.This can only explain: First, she and Dingshan live a low-key life, never appearing in front of everyone in pairs, and their worlds are complete and independent.Two, she may not have had a true friend in her life.She only shares everything with her heart. She hadn't thought about getting married.I don't feel like I'm in love either.But she coexisted with this man. Waiting for the bus to Dongxi Township in the county seat.

She found an abandoned faucet on the side of the road near the garbage station. After turning it on, there was a piercing stream of water. She washed her hands and face to cleanse herself.The weather is extremely cold, and a heavy snow is brewing and approaching in the distance.Her rucksack is a 60-liter mountaineering bag, which has long been worn out and needs to be discarded.I have been reluctant to change it all the time. When the lace is broken, I find other ropes and reconnect it.I bought two pies at the food stand, sat in the simple waiting station, and ate lunch that had been delayed until two o'clock in the afternoon.While carefully guarding the backpack with the computer camera.

Traveling all year round, the stomach has been exercised extremely strong, and I never have stomach pain, diarrhea and constipation.No motion sickness, no allergies, no insomnia, no myopia.A person who is born ready for the road.Wearing a skirt in summer, the bare calf protrudes firm and plump muscles, the result of a long walk.This is what makes her different. It's two thirty in the afternoon.Squeeze onto the bus bound for Dongxi Township.A car full of locals, silent, dark-skinned, looking out of the window expressionless.Many more fell asleep leaning against their seats or luggage.She was sitting in the last row, and the ride was bumpy and the gravel road was in bad shape.Soon the car began to twist and circle on the mountain road.Constantly twists and turns, never-ending road.A woman in the front row pushed open the glass window and began to vomit. The glass splashed with vomit, which was food residue decomposed by gastric juice.There was a pungent and sour smell in the air, which was quickly blown away by the fierce mountain wind blowing in.

Before she left for Zhanli, Dingshan said, Qingchang, my father hoped that we could go back to Nanjing together during the Spring Festival.He hinted at the family's hope that the wedding would be near.Qing Chang knew that his father recognized her.Although his father taught at a university, graduated from Dingshan Nantah University, and his family was a family of well-behaved intellectuals, they didn't care about her past wandering like a beast.She works independently and has a certain reputation and qualifications in the industry, which makes her respected.Dingshan's family has also seen clearly that Dingshan is protected by a good family background and has always had a down-to-earth personality and is not suitable for a girl who cares about stalking.Qing Chang comes from Yunhe, a small town, but he is straightforward in his bones, which is reassuring.

Once, Dingshan's father cautiously asked her what she thought of the house.The 130-square-meter house that Dingshan lives in now is for getting married.He wanted to confirm Keicho's understanding of the integrity of the house belonging to Dingshan.The whole life of the Chinese is almost spent on the house.Is this a kind of bewilderment in the texture of life without knowing it?Apart from occupying a place within the scope, there is no other place to go, and there is no stability and trust in the heart.These concrete buildings sold at high prices, these divided square meters, at certain moments, have become stronger than the quality of life.

Qingchang knew that Dingshan's father was concerned about this matter.She has only uncles and aunts in Yunhe, and they have had a close relationship since she was a child. No one in her natal family would bother about her affairs.And she knew that most of the time, she just slept on the constantly changing travel bed.It is also possible that she died on the way to unknown destination.A house that she didn't invest in belonged to someone else, how could she have the desire to possess it.The other party didn't know what Qingchang had experienced.Qing Chang didn't talk about the past.She had already seen it clearly.Qing Chang said, Uncle, you don't have to worry.I understand.

In this way, no matter how economically and spiritually independent, in order to be accompanied emotionally and physically, one must face the trivial and vulgar reality.Facing annoyance.Face differences.So she never mentioned marriage.In Yunhe, if a girl is not married at the age of 25, it is a hidden disease of her parents.Fortunately, she lives in Shanghai, her relatives are scattered, and she is surrounded by mostly independent career women like Fiona.They live freely, without the pressure of public opinion and the environment.According to Fiona's ambition, she may not be married at the age of 35.There are thousands of men pouring out of the city every day, in office buildings, commercial centers, subway stations, shops, restaurants, fitness clubs... any place, any time, more than tens of thousands.In the turbulent crowd, if you want to find a pair of hands, how many people can be involved together.

For Qingchang, the meaning of marriage has been lightened.A state of being is a thing.Getting married is another matter.It is nothing but an integral part of the actual content of life, a functional being.Time will eventually define it as a habit, an order, a rule, and a structure.It can only be a property of the earth, not beyond it.Once it has nothing to do with the spirit, it becomes a thing of simple attributes.Just like a supermarket, it looks complicated and chaotic but is actually rigorous and orderly.It makes people's lives stable and easy to operate, that's all. She doesn't value it anymore.In fact, she was prepared enough to make a quick decision to do it or not to do it.Since she thinks marriage is optional, of course she can also choose to marry him after the Spring Festival.Although he was not the one she was waiting for in her heart.At least, she thought, sleeping at night with a body at a constant temperature exhaling breath.In the vast world, the body and mind are so lonely, and this loneliness lasts for a long time, gradually becoming an endless plain.Dingshan is a man who knows nothing about her inner world and is not interested.Don't restrict her freedom, don't need her to be with you all the time.Nor did he understand her beauty, her hunger.With it, she felt safe.

She can be by his side, willing to degenerate and live disheartened. The car drove from the top of the mountain to the bottom of the mountain.Take a hasty turn and drive on a bright road. Ah.On the left is a huge and empty reservoir with plenty of water. The lake is blue and clear, calm and calm, reflecting the surrounding rolling green mountains.The white road stretches into the distance like a streamer.Deeply hidden, yet at ease.Lost here unintentionally, it seems that the boundary of time has never changed.This sudden encounter is shocking, like a nightmare that cannot be woken up instantly, with a clear heart but no awareness.Willing only to follow it to its impending end.Lakes, mountains, forests, sky, roads, air, sunlight, all combined present a harmonious balance.

Soon, it was thrown behind by the passenger car.Remain in its own inherent impermanence and fullness. All this appeared in Qing Chang's sight for about two minutes.Qing Chang turned his head, immersed in the breath that was holding his breath because of the vibration.I was moved to tears by this beauty that is gone with the wind.