Chapter 63 chapter 2

In May 1994, an article co-written by Professor Liang and Yang Hong was accepted by a national conference, and both of them received funding to go to Qingdao for the conference.The meeting was borrowed from the guest house of the Qingdao Family Planning Office. At that time, several meetings were held there, and everyone thought that other people's meetings were about family planning.Seeing a large group of well-dressed men and a large group of young girls coming in and out there, Yang Hong thought it was funny to think that these people were all studying family planning. Yang Hong participated in this kind of national conference for the first time. She was very excited and humble, but she saw with her own eyes some seniors whose names had only been seen in periodicals and textbooks before, eating in the same restaurant with them, and sometimes Sitting at the same table, I found that they were all real people. Some of them ate very unflatteringly, and felt a little bit like waking up from a dream. It turned out that people who wrote books and studied university were also ordinary people. Three heads and six arms or something.Thinking in this way gave birth to some confidence, maybe I could also make knowledge and write books.

Yang Hong lived in a four-person room, and the roommate was from a university in Guangdong. His surname was Zhang. He was a few years older than Yang Hong, but he was not married yet, so he got along very well with Yang Hong.The other two were not in the same meeting, and they were not in the room most of the time, so they didn't say anything. Things like holding a meeting outside are very much the same, it’s nothing more than what you talk about and what you talk about.After talking about it, everyone's attention was focused on visiting scenic spots and shopping.The day before the meeting ended, Yang Hong’s club organized a day trip to Laoshan, and he was exhausted after returning, so Yang Hong took a shower as soon as he arrived in the room, lay on the bed wearing only cotton sweaters, and soon passed out. asleep.

In the dimness, I heard someone knocking on the door.Teacher Zhang went to open the door, and Yang Hong heard someone ask, "Is Teacher Yang from H University here?" "Yes. Please come in." Teacher Zhang said, and let the visitor in. Yang Hong didn't wear glasses, but heard a man's voice in a trance, and blamed Teacher Zhang for letting the man in without saying hello to her, so that people who came could see her like this.When she put on her glasses and saw who was coming, she almost fainted.The person who came was Chen Daling! The person she wished to dream of every day for four years but never dreamed of, the person she wished to forget every day for four years but never forgot, now appeared in front of her.It is said that she thinks day by day and dreams at night, so is she thinking about him during the day and not thinking enough?Or dreamed and forgotten?How many times have I imagined the scene of reunion, there are sorrows and joys, laughter and tears, but it is definitely not like now, standing in front of him disheveled and disheveled, and there is a witness of history beside him.

The two of them just stared at each other for an unknown amount of time. They really cared for each other without saying a word. They could only cry a thousand lines, but all the tears flowed to their hearts. "Sit, sit. Don't stand." Teacher Zhang pulled a chair and asked Chen Daling to sit down. Yang Hong woke up suddenly, and hurriedly said: "I'm going to change clothes." She found a set of clothes that could be seen, rushed into the bathroom, closed the door, and could still hear Teacher Zhang talking to Chen Daling.After Yang Hong changed her clothes, she felt flustered and short of breath, and had no strength to go out at all.She leaned against the bathroom door, closed her eyes, and listened to the voice she hadn't heard in four years.The voice didn't change, and the person didn't change. The years didn't seem to have left any traces on his face. His expression was still so calm and impeccable. Maybe that relationship didn't leave any traces on his heart?

The conversation that night can be said to be extremely dull.It couldn't be easier for Chen Daling to find Yang Hong, because the list of delegates for each meeting is posted on the wall on the first floor.When Chen Daling saw Yang Hong's name, she went to the service desk of the guest house to find her room number. Teacher Zhang said: "The secrecy work here is not very good. If you are a bad person, aren't they helping the evildoers?" Yang Hong felt that Mr. Zhang was a bit humorous and said something surprising on purpose.I also hate myself for my lack of humor.She hoped that Teacher Zhang would consciously avoid it and let her talk to Chen Daling for a while.

Teacher Zhang didn't seem to want to avoid it, but instead showed greater interest than Yang Hong.The focus of the conversation was quickly taken away by her. Although Chen Daling still talked to Yang Hong from time to time, Yang Hong himself was eager to join the conversation, but every time she was dragged back by Teacher Zhang. .In the end, it was Teacher Zhang who made a quick decision: everyone will go to the trestle bridge tomorrow to play. The other two people in the same room came back untimely. Chen Daling looked at his watch and said, "It's getting late, it's almost twelve o'clock, take a good rest and see you tomorrow." He didn't invite Yang Hong to go out for a walk, and Yang Hong didn't Did not dare to volunteer to send him off.It was too late to go out for a walk now.They're all in the same building, so it doesn't make sense to send them off. Fortunately, there's still tomorrow.

That night, Yang Hong naturally suffered from insomnia.Looking back on the scenes four years ago, those details that I have repeatedly chewed in my heart feel particularly unreal today.Did those things really happen?Or am I crazy about my own imagination?I thought that the reunion of the two would burn each other out of control like dry wood and raging fire, or it would be like a mountain stream, with endless love words and gurgling.Waiting for the real reunion is so unsatisfactory! But Yang Hong quickly forgave himself and Chen Daling.What else?Knowing that I am a married woman, will Chen Daling flaunt her feelings wantonly?He might be a married man, can I show my feelings again?He was able to find this place, which was already very nostalgic.If he was as unobservant as himself, and couldn't even notice the list posted on the wall, then this reunion would never have happened.

Thinking of the possibility of missing this kind of opportunity anytime and anywhere, Yang Hong felt heartbroken. I will pay attention to all kinds of clues wherever I go in the future, so as not to miss such an opportunity again. Yang Hong knew that Teacher Zhang was not asleep either, because she could hear her tossing and turning on the bed.It seems that Teacher Zhang is attracted to Chen Daling.It was love at first sight.Yang Hong thought, if someone is so attracted to Chen Daling, I should feel proud and proud, at least it shows that it was normal and reasonable for me to be tempted by him at that time.But how could Teacher Zhang fall in love with Chen Daling in such a short period of time?It can only be said that he came here for his appearance. Isn't this superficial and unreliable?I hope Chen Daling can think of this, I don't want Chen Daling to be tempted by it.I think this way for the good of Chen Daling.But a voice deep inside said sarcastically: You are just afraid that others will snatch Chen Daling away.You said you would let him go, but you are still a married woman, so what right do you have to be jealous?

I'm not jealous, why am I jealous?While defending herself, Yang Hong felt sour in her heart.Teacher Zhang didn't seem to notice that I had a relationship with Chen Daling at all.Maybe it's because I know I have a husband; maybe it's because Chen Daling and I hide it so well that she can't see it; maybe it's because Chen Daling has already let go of that relationship, so there's no need to hide it anymore, the word eroticism on his face has been taken from his heart Uprooted. Thinking of going out to play with Chen Daling the next day, Yang Hong didn't know whether she was sad or happy.Four years have passed, and when I see this person, I still wish I could spend every second with him, even if I don't say a word, it's still sweet.But tomorrow, not only Teacher Zhang, but also Chen Daling's two female graduate students will go out together.What if five people are together?Teacher Zhang showed his love to Chen Daling so blatantly, maybe the two graduate students were even more so.Like me, who is married and has nothing special, if he wants to win Chen Daling's heart, he can only rely on his nostalgia.But judging from today's situation, it seems that I have been beaten back to the original starting line all of a sudden, and I want to sit on an equal footing with others and fight for Chen Daling's love again.

Thinking of this, Yang Hong felt that what Zhou Ning said at the beginning was really reasonable.If I followed Chen Daling, I would be in fear for the rest of my life, because there would always be girls who would show love to him, and I would always be worried that others would snatch him away.Although morally speaking, one should be happy that Chen Daling is loved, but emotionally speaking, one really wishes that all the women in the world would turn a blind eye to Chen Daling. It would be better for Chen Daling to have something that can scare other people away. For example, if he is paralyzed in the lower limbs and sitting in a wheelchair, then other women will not love him. Only I will love him as always.But she immediately thought that this is not good. If Chen Daling is paralyzed, no matter how much I love him, his life will not be happy.Maybe it's just a scar on his face, then the women who value his looks won't want him, and I'll still love him.

Yang Hong began to imagine which of the several sets of clothes she brought could best show her strengths.She didn't know how Chen Daling's two research students were doing, but she estimated that they should not be much younger than her, because she also started to study for a master's degree after one year of graduation.Teacher Zhang is still a few years older, thirty years old.But they may all have one advantage, that is, they are not married yet.Thinking of this, Yang Hong was discouraged.It's normal for others to have that kind of love for Chen Daling, but it's really boring for me to think about Chen Daling even after I'm married. Yang Hong scolded herself, regretted getting married too early, and even thought about not going with them tomorrow, but she couldn't make up her mind after all. Instead, she anxiously wanted to go to sleep early, lest her eyes would be swollen and ugly tomorrow.