Chapter 11 Section 10 Feng Wanyu

My grandmother Feng Wanyu's eyes are long, between double eyelid and single eyelid.The eyes change depending on how long she sleeps and when she is in a good or bad mood.If you see her eyelids drooping, don't even ask and you'll know she cried the day before.Her eyes are very quiet, she can stay still for a long time, you know her heart is also quiet, she is not thinking about how to deal with her mother-in-law, how to punish the servants, how to spend more pocket money with her husband.Only a woman who enjoys peace and happiness can be so quiet. That was after my grandfather was attacked by articles in the newspapers.His days at school and in various halls and clubs were much deserted.He also admitted this, as long as he still has his share in learning and earning money, he would rather not ask his opponents for help and counterattack in their magazines.Besides, he is used to going to cafes and libraries, where there are many indirect companionship of strangers.One night when he came home, he had two theater tickets for Mei Lanfang's performance in Shanghai in his pocket.Mei Lanfang's theater tickets were very hard to come by, and he bought these two tickets by chance.In the afternoon in an Austrian cafe, a Russian Jewish bum who speculated on various tickets sold theater tickets to his table.Of course, this is a ticket much higher than the normal fare.If the jerk who got together sold a piece of fox fur, or a crystal dish known as Louis XVI, or a Kyrgyz hand-woven tapestry, and sold it on Yan Shi's table, he would probably buy it too.Sometimes when the peddlers go ahead, someone will reveal that Yan Shi has been duped, bought a fake product, or paid a high price, and Yan Shi will just laugh at his own stupidity along with others.He didn't want to tell people that the first reason he bought fakes was because Lu Yanzhi was used to being rich, and the second was because he couldn't bear the troubles of bums.The wretches want to curry favor with you in such a sinful way in order to exchange crappy goods for money, flattering to the sky, but knowing that only by buying the goods can you erase a pitiful and disgusting face from yourself.

Returning home with the theater ticket in hand, Wan Yu went to the hall to take his briefcase and took off his coat.He thought of the theater tickets in his coat pocket, and turned back to get them.At this time, I heard Enniang talking.Enniang has several accents: that of the headmistress, that of a loving mother, and that of a sick woman at the moment.Enniang suffered from a lot of illnesses, including pain in her heart, head, waist, legs, and palms.Many women's diseases are their weapons, and Enniang is best at using this weapon. Once she thinks she has been bullied and needs to fight back, she will use it.

"There's no need to eat Dangshen... It's useless... Eating it is a waste of money... Is it easy for Yan Shi to earn that money? Can I afford to waste it on me?..." Enniang obviously heard Yan Shi enter the door , raised his voice. Yan Shiman does not need to come back, the cafe can be his living room, and the library can be his study or bedroom.He put on the slippers that Wanyu had arranged for him, and looked at the cherry wood stairs.Now it is the most difficult section of Huangshan or Taishan or Emei.Please ask for anything, he dragged his feet up the dangerous peak of cherry wood.

"Enniang." He called at the door. Enniang looked at him, then at her hands. Enniang suffered from this kind of trembling disease at the age of thirty-two. Her hands trembled when she was concentrating.But she still has to insist on half of her independence. She doesn't want others to strike a match to light a cigarette for her. Instead, she has someone hold the matchbox for her and she holds the match herself. After repeated aiming, she completes the lighting action.She sent all the servants out for errands that afternoon, and only her four-year-old granddaughter, Danqiong, was by her side.She gave Dan-joon an instant training and thrust a box of matches into the girl's hand.The cooperation between the two finally succeeded, but the flames that suddenly appeared on their own hands scared the four-year-old Danqiong into tears.The girl kept crying until Wanyu came back from buying some snacks at the street corner.That was Wan Yu's rudeness to her mother-in-law.She hugged Danqiong into her arms with a long face and said loudly: Don't let children do things that are not for children. Four-year-old children's hands cannot be used as matchbox pliers!Euphemistically, these two sentences made Enniang so sick that she couldn't get out of bed.

Yan Shi walked to Enniang's bed, sat down, lowered from a big man to a slender man, and picked up the dangshen and red dates on the bedside table.The scene is old in this bedroom.Yan Shi picked up a fine porcelain spoon and said to Enniang, it's better to eat Dangshen, it's all wrong, Dangshen is not wrong. "It's all my fault." Enniang said, her tears turned into worthless beads, and she sprinkled them on the ground.Otherwise, how good is your family?It's just that I come out more! Yan Zhi hurriedly said, how could this family be a family without Enniang?No one will be more kind to you.This is an old dialogue in an old scene, everyone has to say it, but it is useless for anyone to say it, and Yan Shi has to say it in the end.

"Why don't you add me? One piece of material is enough for one person to make a cheongsam, and one more person has to make two vests." This is also an old phrase, and it must be used every time in this old scene.It refers to when Yan Shi just came back from the United States, he took out a few pieces of clothing from the box.The mistake is that he doesn't know how to buy clothes for women, and the size of each piece is embarrassing. It is not enough to make two pieces, but it is enough to make one piece.He gave the two bright ones to Wanyu, and the dark ones to Enniang.Enniang giggled at that time, saying that Yan Shi was afraid that he would be embarrassed to have a young Enniang.Wan Yu immediately gave up her bright materials, and cut four vests out of two materials.But it was too late, Enniang felt sick in her heart, and it would come out when she was angry.

At this time, Yan Shi smiled and made a tent with Enniang.What a vest!Enniang can do whatever she wears (hang is pronounced here, which means popular), Shanghai women are only able to wear vests in the past two years, which is several years behind your Enniang! Comparing Enniang with Wan Yu in everything, Wan Yu has the upper hand in everything.The three of them went out by car, Wanyu could only sit next to the driver, and Yan Shi took the seat behind Enniang to accompany Enniang.Now he is glib and talking nonsense with his young stepmother, not only giving her the upper hand in euphemism, but also giving her the upper hand over all Shanghai women.Enniang pouted and gave him a look.Yan Shi knew that he had multiple identities at the moment, step-son, niece-in-law, and most importantly, the only male companion of this widowed woman.He didn't care how charming Enniang's eyes were, how obliterating her seniority and even her dignity.Enniang secretly wants to ask for whatever she wants from him. Enniang was sacrificed to the Lu family, and someone has to bear this sacrifice.

Yan Shi picked up the red dates of Dangshen again, saying that he was going to question Wan Yu, and at the same time was about to put the spoon into Enniang's mouth.Tears turned Enniang's face into a water lily.This is what Enniang wants: inequality, injustice.She deserves favoritism.An unfortunate middle-aged widow who doesn't even have one of her own children, if you want her to talk about equality and justice with others—for example, with Wanyu, that is precisely inequality and injustice. Yan Shi went downstairs, found Wan Yu in the kitchen, and said to her, come here, I have something to tell you.Wan Yu is also accustomed to inequality and injustice.At such a time, she unconditionally accepts her role as a doormat, and plans to go upstairs to accompany her husband when he calls, isn't she?

"Here, here are two tickets. The play sung by Mei Lanfang. You put it away." Yan Shi stuffed the two tickets into Wan Yu's damp hands. "Is Enniang going?" Yan Shi told her not to tell Enniang that he had had enough of one piece of clothing and two vests. At the moment, they were in the corridor between the kitchen and the living room. The lights were not turned on, and the light was borrowed from the living room and the kitchen.Wan Yu was just about to say something—maybe she wanted to say something like "I heard that tickets are always hard to buy", but Yan Shi stopped her.The footsteps on the stairs were pulled out by the embroidered slipper covers on Jiefang's feet. Enniang's illness was more than half recovered, and now she came downstairs to guide the dinner cooking.

Yan Shi made a movement and winked at the same time.Very subtle movements and winks, but none of them belonged to Lu Yanshi, he moved them from others—from the kind of men who have sex with women without telling their elders.Wan Yu was startled at first, and then glanced at her husband. That was the look my grandfather Lu Yanzhi always savored later on.That was when he discovered that his wife was actually very beautiful and glamorous, at least she had a dazzling moment of beauty. When Enniang arrived at the bottom of the stairs, Yan Shi and Wan Yu had parted ways and walked away.Yan Shi walked to the living room, picked up a two-day-old newspaper, and hid it behind a large advertisement for betting on dog racing and horse racing.Wan Yu was very cautious and didn't come into the living room.During dinner, Wan Yu glanced at Yan Shi again across a table of dishes.Lu Yanzhi's heart beat fast.He acted like a man just now, the kind of man who had to deal with his wife and concubine.But euphemism is content.Women seem to prefer to be the one in the dark.

On the night of watching the play, Yan Shi went directly from school to the theater.It was raining lightly, and from afar, he saw Wan Yu holding the umbrella handle with both hands, which became a pillar for her.He didn't ask her what excuse she had to ask Enniang for leave.At this stage of the matter, he was already full of complaints and had no way to vent. When Wanyu ran towards him with slightly introverted feet and splashed water on the rainy ground, he answered with a complaining face.It seems that the three parties are a bit dubious.When he was sitting in his seat watching the play, the complaints in his heart soared, and he didn't even want to touch Wanyu with his elbow.When your aunt asked you to marry Wanyu, did you marry me?She asked you to make a lock to lock me, will you just do it?Now look at it, the most tightly locked is yourself.Wan Yu is satisfied, quietly being a good audience, being an audience under Mei Lanfang's stage is very lucky, and sitting next to her doctor husband to be Mei Lanfang's audience is even more lucky, she enjoys quietly with his own fortune. It wasn't until two days later that Yan Shi knew what kind of outrageous lies Wan Yu had told in order to watch that scene with him.She told Enniang that her mother was sick and was sent to the hospital in Shanghai from Wusong's hometown to see a doctor, so she went to the hospital to see her mother.She took advantage of the fact that Enniang didn't get along with her mother and sister-in-law.The driver told Enniang that it was not the hospital that took the young mistress to the theater the night before yesterday.Not only the young mistress was brought back from the theater, but also the young master Yan Shi.After all, Wan Yu and Yan Zhi have too little experience in lying, and they told the truth to a servant who should listen to lies most.The driver is always casually telling you what happened in your absence.In this way, he casually told Enniang about the young couple watching Mei Lanfang sing an opera on a rainy night.So Yan Shi received a notice from the concierge in class that day, asking him to call back home as soon as possible. It was Wan Yu who answered the phone.Yan Zhi knew immediately that something had happened.Wan Yu never answered the phone, the phone was next to En Niang's Pai Gow table. "Enniang is gone." Wan Yu said.She was still quiet, and there was crying in the background. Her four-year-old daughter and one-and-a-half-year-old son were scared to cry by Enniang's departure. Yan Shi asked Wan Yu where Enniang had gone.Probably Enniang's third aunt's house; Enniang's only relative in Shanghai often traveled around.It must be the third aunt's house, the third aunt loves to eat Beijing persimmons, Enniang left, and a pack of Beijing persimmons is gone, so I must go to the third aunt's house.Yan Shi was ruthless, let her go, let her act, let her die!Wan Yu didn't speak, knowing that he was ruthless, and his ruthlessness would shine at night.At around nine o'clock in the evening, Wanyu brought Enniang back.Enniang walks in front with her head held high, while Wanyu walks behind, her child bride-in-law's posture is more condescending. "It's okay if you don't come back. If you move out for a long-term stay, you should pack some luggage and take it away." Enniang justified herself and walked into the living room. Yan Shi and Wan Yu obediently followed her, listening. Enniang sat down on the sofa, looked at the ground in front of her and said, don't you know?I have missed you a long time ago, you are ignorant, so you must stay here, making it difficult for people to be a serious couple, and go out in the middle of the night to be a wild couple, and would rather be exposed to the rain.If it weren't for you, would people do such shameless things?This is a scholar's family, which generation has done such an unpleasant thing?In such a big house, upstairs and downstairs, you are so crowded that people have no place to squat, and you spend so much money to buy tickets to get close to the theater, don't you realize that you are redundant? Neither Yan Shi nor Wan Yu spoke.Yan Shi never wanted to win Enniang, he was used to losing. Enniang burst into tears as she spoke.Isn't it just two theater tickets?She doesn't deserve to hear the truth about such a trivial matter?She doesn't deserve Yan Zhi to spend a few more dollars to take a piece to the theater? Yan Shi said how hard it is to buy tickets, and when he can buy tickets again, he will ask Enniang to go.Next time I will definitely buy two good seats, unlike last time, when I sat by the door with Wan Yu, the two of them looked at each other crookedly! So Yan Shi accompanied his young stepmother to watch the same few episodes again. In those few days, Yan Shi and Wan Yu had more intercourse.They united closely in secret, isolated Enniang, and resisted Enniang.En Niang has to fight with Wan Yu for everything, there is always something you can't fight.Not everything can be used as clothing material, half of you, half of her, there is always something you don't have!Beside the pillow, he told Wan Yu that the next time you go out on a date with him, don't take the car at home, and call the driver at the intersection.In the darkness, Yu Yu let out a hum.After a while, he said, this is not because he is afraid of Enniang, but actually for Enniang's own good, otherwise it would be ugly for children to see an ignorant grandmother making trouble.Wan Yu hummed again.After a while, what he said earlier was ignored. He said that he was really afraid of Enniang, and that her poor background made him afraid of her.Wan Yu turned sideways to him, soft as a ball of dough, his hands and arms were the molds, squeezing her into a shape for a while.They seem to be having an affair.The affair was forced by Enniang, but Wanyu took advantage of this coercion, otherwise how could he give her so much skin intimacy? "I know, if Enniang wasn't so powerful, you would treat me better." Wan Yu said. It turns out that the existence of Enniang is also beneficial to him!It turned out that he also took advantage of this weird relationship!He's been using Enniang's persecution—unintentionally—to give his wife another explanation for his indifference.He spends five cents on being a husband, but the result he receives from Wan Yu is twelve cents.Anything can be pushed on Enniang; it's all because Enniang is in the way between them, so he has to hide his tenderness, consideration and sweetness from her.Otherwise, Lu Yanzhi was so good that Wanyu couldn't even imagine it, and couldn't bear it. Wanyu's birthday is on December 15th. Enniang bought birthday noodles early, cooked a table of four cold and six hot dishes, and bought a piece of Scottish tartan as a gift for Wanyu to make a short coat.She can love Wanyu in all kinds of ways. She is both an aunt and a mother-in-law. She has several layers of kindness in her body, and she does it thoughtfully and meticulously, leaving no room for others to fill in.There is no room left for Yan Zhi to fill in.In fact, Yan Shi completely forgot his wife's birthday.That night he was in a bar on the Bund, writing an article into Molao.When he got home, the whole family was asleep, only Enniang was waiting in the living room.En Niang said with a smile, if he didn't have dinner and birthday noodles, you can cook them for him.Only then did he understand what Enniang was laughing at.He doesn't take his wife's birthday seriously, she's watching a joke.When mother and son were alone, Enniang would rather believe in Yan Shi than take her husband seriously. He went to Sullivan the next day to buy a cream cake, then went to a jewelry store and bought a pair of pearl earrings.I don't know the true or false of pearls, but the style is suitable for euphemism.In fact, it doesn't matter if it suits him or not, the main thing is to make up for his broken promises and rudeness. At the dinner table, he cut up the cake and opened the small box to let Wanyu see if he likes the pair of earrings. "Oh, it's really thoughtful! The pale pink cheongsam on Ani's head is missing a pair of white beads!" Enniang said. He could hear Enniang's pain and loneliness.It was a loneliness that no amount of love could fill.Loneliness and pain have always turned into something else with Enniang, into tricky, mean, and sour like this moment. There was a flash of lightning in Wan Yu's eyes.Yan Shi once again discovered that Wanyu can be so beautiful, with such erotic eyes.She was grateful for what he had given and reminded him that they were going to suffer for it.But she is willing to suffer this kind of hardship, and she can't have enough of it. Sure enough, in the following days, the two began to suffer.Wan Yu went out to buy milk cakes or wool for the children, and when she got home, Enniang would say, "Little couple, drink a cup of coffee, don't be in a hurry, and there is no one at home to remind you."It's fine if you don't argue euphemistically, but if you complain about Qu and say no, where would you drink coffee?Enniang will smile, don't be in a hurry if you are in a hurry, it doesn't matter if you say drink, it's not like drinking with a strange man.If you say it euphemistically: I really didn’t drink it!Enniang smiles even bigger: Oh, are you still embarrassed?Enniang can only be happy when the young couple are affectionate.If Wan Yu still has something to say back, Enniang will be unhappy, what are you afraid of?Are you afraid that Enniang will follow you to make trouble?I'm not that cheap, am I?Wan Yu is about to kowtow to Enniang at this time, and Enniang will take advantage of the victory to pursue: why bother you two?Dodge me like a plague god like this!Don't worry, even if I'm too sick to move in the future, I won't bother you, I have to crawl out and find a clean place to die! When Yan Shi meets Wan Yu in the living room by chance, Enniang will pretend to be panicked and stand up from the Pai Gow table, apologizing all over her mouth: I'm sorry, I'm leaving right now, I'm afraid that I don't know people well for the rest of my life, or I don't know people well ! Yan Shi spends more and more time in the library and cafe.He completed a series of academic articles and leisure essays, but found that publishing articles was no longer a pleasure.Even the purest academic articles will cause disputes between this faction and that faction after they are published. He always falls into the trap without knowing how he has fallen into the trap.Literary wars are happening every day in Shanghai, and the literati have their own newspapers and magazines as their positions. You can't go your own way among them.But Yan Zhi still tried his best to go his own way.He is not free at home.So he hangs out all day.What else does he have out there?That's all there is to freedom. One night he and Wanyu talked about this fear of losing their freedom.Wan Yu looked at him unexpectedly.In fact, as soon as the words came out of his mouth, he laughed to himself in his heart.If Wanyu could keep up with his way of thinking, it wouldn't be Wanyu, and he wouldn't feel sorry for her and marry her.What Wan Yu didn't say was: Are you not free? !Are you still free? !He thought, Wanyu is really pitiful, he is not as good as him, he has been free after all.She never even had the freedom he once had. The next morning, Enniang was having breakfast in the dining room, and Wanyu stood beside her, cutting fried dough sticks into small pieces for the two children.Yan Zhi walked in.He said good morning to Enniang, asked about sleep, and cared about his appetite. Then he changed the subject and said that soon he would go out to attend a meeting. For three or four days, Enniang had to take care of himself alone.Wanyu's scissors opened their mouths wide and stopped in their hands.Enniang asked, Wanyu also going?Yes, the wives of the attendees are all there.Wan Yu can't tell those wives!Enniang, there are all kinds of wives, and there are always euphemisms to speak of. Yan Shi drank his coffee in sips.En Niang still ate her rice and pickles, the silver chopsticks tapped lightly on the edge of the bowl and the edge of the plate.Both Yan Shi and Wan Yu listened to her knocking. "It's just right, all Ala's family is going!" Enniang tapped the wooden fish with her silver chopsticks for a while, and came up with an idea. "Two villains and I, it's rare for us to go out to play together! Yan Shi is a foreigner, and he's going on a honeymoon, right? The time to get married to A Nitou is too tight, and there is no honeymoon. Now everyone will accompany you to spend the honeymoon !" "The school doesn't have this money to invite..." "Enniang can't afford this money? I'll treat you. I'll pay for the money from the two brats. You usually see that Enniang is very careful with money, and the money she saves is for this kind of time." !" It seemed that their car had started, and Enniang was hanging on the car door in despair. "Grandma will take you out to play with your parents, do you want to go?" Enniang said to the two children. Enniang is very popular among the children, and the children immediately said they would go. Yan Zhi wanted to attack suddenly, but found that he was ambushed instead.He immediately said that this meeting invites the ladies to participate, not to invite them to play; the subject is educational psychology, and the subject of this subject is more learned by the ladies than the husbands!He was disgusted as he talked, and he used up all the lies in his three lifetimes.En Niang knew that he was lying, so she smiled and said, isn't it? ...It's okay, you little couples are bored with me, and it's time for you to be idle. "Enniang, I don't want to go." Wan Yu said. She smiled at Yan Shi, expressing that she took his heart. In order to take her out and make up for a honeymoon, he did not hesitate to lie in front of the elders and juniors, ruining his own character.It's better for him to have this kind of heart than to have a real honeymoon.A hundred times better. Yan Shi said that the euphemism had to go.The wives of my colleagues are all there, everyone will wonder who Lu Yanzhi is?Is it so old-fashioned to leave the wife in the kitchen?Or there is a wife with small feet who can't handle it. Wan Yu said: "Enniang can't take care of two villains at home alone." Enniang said: "Ani, okay, let's go. If you can't bear it, you have to eat. Enniang is only useful for this, leading the villain and cooking vegetables, otherwise it will be even more white rice, right?" What Wan Yu wanted to say, Yan Shi glared at her.Yan Shi never stared at anyone at home, and he didn't have common knowledge with anyone, so he couldn't make it wrong to stare at anyone.Besides, he is usually at home and away from home, and he misses at least half of the affairs between women and master and servant, so nothing bothers him.His bad temper only comes out in his own heart, and he appears easy-going and unrestrained to others. He forcibly took Wan Yu away.In other words, Wanyu gave her the freedom of those two days; the freedom with peaceful scenery, mountains and water.They didn't go far, and drifted to Wuxi overnight by boat.When he arrived at the Taihu Lake, he was already in a gloomy mood.Although there was no sun when we disembarked in the morning, there was still a little shadow of the sun, but it rained at noon.The two of them were bored in the hotel, and they encountered damp hands everywhere they touched.It turns out that there is no place more depressing than a strange hotel in the winter rain, and no place that deprives euphemistic freedom more than the bedroom of this hotel.For him, Dongyu plus the hotel plus euphemism, he is like a trap. In Wanyu's view, Yan Shi's silence was her fault, so she had nothing to say to Yan Shi.Yan Shi found that there was almost nothing he could talk to Wan Yu about.Relieving the pressure from Enniang, he didn't know what to do with her. The next morning, Wan Yu said that he should go back.He asked why, all came, and En Niang was offended.Wan Yu smiled and said, haven't you already been here?She was really worried about Enniang and the child.He knew she didn't know what to do with him.Next door to them is a young man and woman, playing chess with hot wine on a rainy day. Downstairs they also met a Shanghainese couple, sitting in the dining room enjoying the rain and tasting tea. It seems that because of the strangeness of the small hotel, the tea is good or the rain is good. Yes, even the dim sum is better than Shanghai.Yan Shi and Wan Yu couldn't do them, they seemed to be anxiously waiting for the rain to stop, and when it stopped, they would rush to some good place, or the two of them could release each other after the rain stopped. Yan Zhi agreed to return to Shanghai by boat that night.Then a strange thing happened: both of them were relieved and at ease.Whether it was rain or tea, they began to feel that they had to hurry up to judge and spend their last few hours.Even they found the hut's charms: the paintings on the walls are authentic, with good handwriting; the country carpenter who made the cabinets was tasteful, and must have liked Ming Dynasty furniture; the bed was also made of good wood and carved, and there A bottle of wine with meal provided by the hotel. That afternoon at the end of December 1936 was an important day for the Lu family, because my grandfather and grandmother conceived in this hotel the second doctor of the Lu family, Dan Jue—my sister-in-law. Among the three children, only Dan Jue is the product of her parents' passion.On the carved wooden bed in the hotel, my grandfather was sweating profusely, and my grandmother was panting delicately. In the end, the two of them collapsed into a pile and remained motionless for a long time without making a sound.Later my grandfather would not even think about the experience because he didn't want to take credit for it.For many days after they returned home, he didn't even look at Wan Yu, a little unbelievable, and also a little bit fooled.But he didn't know what he had been fooled by, and who had fooled him. When my grandfather walked towards the desert of the wild grass, he thought of that rainy winter afternoon in 1936.But he knew that the person who was sweating profusely was not him, but a drunk.In other words, it doesn't have to be euphemisms that make him masculine, it can be any woman.One of the joys of those hour-by-hour carnivals in America is that there are no consequences at all.It should be said that he was fooled by the wine, Wanyu was fooled by him, and took the drunk man for Yan Zhi. On November 23, 1963, he felt that he wanted to go back and make up for the mistake on the euphemism.Otherwise it will be too late, and he will be too old to make up for it.