Chapter 20 Chapter Twenty

So, after meeting E, Ding Yi said after a few words: "Your brother has cultivated to the point of becoming an immortal in the past few years!" E said, "Have you seen his friend?" "What's the matter, after a long time of trouble, he also has a girlfriend?" "Why can't he have it?" "I think he is good enough to be a monk!" "How did you get it?" "Feeling, totally feeling. I'm talking nonsense." "It's not all nonsense. But, does his friend have to be a girlfriend?" "What do you mean?"

"no other meanings." "Say it again." "If you understand it, just keep it in your stomach. If you don't understand it, don't ask." "Wow, really!" Ding Yi was dumbfounded. There seem to be a lot of things that have left us stunned these days, first the movie, then Brother Qin Han's talk, and now this news broke out. "He didn't tell me?" "How do you want him to tell you, wait until he falls in love with you?" "Really!" Ding Yi fell down on the sofa and laughed out loud. "Falling in love with me?" Ding Yi looked at his unshaven self in the mirror, and laughed for a while, then stunned for a while.

"You didn't lie to me, did you?" His smile infected E, and E couldn't help laughing.The two fell face to face on the sofa, laughing uncontrollably, and at the end of the laugh, they seemed to be laughing for nothing, as if they were just laughing at each other's smile. I suddenly felt a long-lost warmth.How far away it has been since people laughed together in this unbridled way!It probably dates back to childhood, back to the first day of the new year when the snow was flying, back to the time when the boy Ding Yi broke away from his mother and ran naked into the snow, among the colorful girls.

"But, but," E finally suppressed a smile and said, "Always suspecting that others are deceiving is also a kind of lying." Only then did Ding Yi stop laughing, and gradually restrained his growing emotion. "Don't ask him," E said. "Nonsense, am I stupid?" "No, he doesn't seem to care, it's just that we don't ask each other about this matter." "belief?" "No, get used to it." "Then how do you know?" "In the words of Qin Han, everything is just your own understanding or guess."

"So, is it true?" "Well, like Ann said in that movie: 'Do you know what's normal and what's not?' Do you know what's true and what's not?" "Does he know what you think?" “Neither of us explained our affairs to each other.” "Is it also a habit?" "Too." "What has he been doing all these years?" Ding Yi asked. "But I can understand such things." E said, "Although I am not myself." "You're not, but you understand?" "Is it impossible? It is possible, Ding Yi, let me tell you that it is possible. And very likely, that kind of love is more sincere, purer, and even nobler."

"how?" "Because, very likely, that is a complete heart-soul-to-heart-soul approach." Yes, there is no sex in the heart and soul, only sex in the heart and soul. "Then why aren't you?" "Get used to it. I've thought about it for a long time, and the conclusion is still: get used to it." There was a silence.Both of them seem to have the opportunity to look at each other and observe the imprints that time has left on their faces. But, how can sex be just a habit? E looked at Ding Yi, as if she was looking for something, waiting for something, or she had already heard my voice from Ding Yi's silence.

"Isn't it?" So Nading imitated me and said, "No, no, it should be language, expression, unique discourse, or a necessary ritual. How could it be just a habit?" E froze for a moment, or froze for a long time, and then almost jumped up: "Wow, that's a great word!" I think Ding Yi and E at this time are like Glenn and Ann in that movie (the scene in the bar). "Say it again." E's eyes were full of expectation. "Sex should be a kind of unique discourse..." "Oh! Really, that's a really good saying! I just can't find the words - ceremony, expression, words... Oh, that's great! Who said that?"

Na Ding looked at E excitedly, but smiled shyly; of course he knew who said it, but he didn't dare to take the merits of heaven for himself. E sat down in front of Ding Yi knee-to-knee, making no secret of the ease, joy, and even intimacy after the surprise. At this time, I already understood that the love between Ding and E was inevitable. "But I disagree with Qin Han on one point." E said, in a calm and slow tone: "Sex does not necessarily refer to physical differences. (Yes, yes, it is just a sign of the body.) Homosexuality is actually inseparable from sex. Different bodies are. Difference itself is sex. Different hearts and souls are looking for each other, and different paths are looking forward to meeting. Noting is the state of the soul.) In other words, the most fundamental nature of a person is not. The fundamental meaning of sex lies in not being..."

Oh, Eve, Eve!I wonder if E is Eve? "What's wrong with you?" E noticed that Ding Yi's breathing was a little tight. "It's okay, you say." "Actually, there is no sex in the soul, only sex in the soul. (My God, the hero sees the same thing!) Like Cynthia said: 'I want to take it off. I want him to see me.' What about me Body? Who hasn’t seen a body? It’s the soul! What you want to see and what you want others to see are actually the soul! Because the soul was once separated from “you” in the name of “I”...” Yes, the one who once floated on the water and then separated, the one who was once free in Eden and then separated, after all, is the soul... Ah, there is no doubt that Eve has come, Eve has already come to Qin'e!But when did she come?

"E, since when did you start thinking like this?" "It's been a long time, a long time." Ding Yi asked me in a low voice: At school?When E handed me the four-inch-wide red cloth, was Eve here?When we keep looking at others, has Eve come? / But sure, I say, Eve was far away when the "Rogue Song" was sung. E said: "Do you still remember what Glenn said in that movie-'The problem is that time, I always feel like I can't help lying'?" "Qin Han also asked me this question." "How did he say?" "He said that love that uses sex as a temptation is bound to include deception."

"Well, this is a bit too much. Sex, why must it be deception? You are right, it can also be an expression! Then why can't it be a more thorough, sincere, and extreme confession of love? " "It's just that I don't understand," Ding Yi said, "Why, Glenn always thinks it's a lie?" "Oh, the way I look at it," E said, "if he doesn't feel like he can't be naked, if he's unethical if he's open, if he's afraid to do those extreme physical expressions because of that, Tell me, would he feel that he was lying? Let’s put it this way: If in love, when making love, you should also grasp the scales properly (such as "skills in the room") and use some useless The public discourse of individuality, (for example, "reservedness" and "dignity"), do you think it is more like a lie?" Ah, marvelous!Ah, you are amazing!Did Eve bring you this wisdom? "Did you notice another sentence from Glenn?" E went on: "'In times like that, I can't always express my feelings with words.' So what does he rely on? What does he rely on, have you thought about it? Sex Oh! By body, by exposure, by action, by the kind of words that cannot be said during the day, words that cannot be said in ordinary times!" Well, yes yes, that word (son)—that remarkable word! "But if such words are not understood but regarded as dirty, if people have to cover up at such a time, you think, think about it, will Glenn feel that he is lying?" Yes, yes, that is lying, that is lying!Ding Da was overjoyed, and was so excited that he walked up and down E's room.Great E and great Eve, now Ding Yi is able to answer the question of the movie, now we finally understand the movie!More than understanding, let me say, it was simply a great redress of injustice—the clouds cleared and the mist cleared, the extraordinary words that had been buried and profaned finally came to light, and we could be confident in their goodness and beauty! E leaned against the window, looking out the window comfortably, looking at the nearby trees, the distant mountains, and the flying clouds behind the distant mountains. Ding Yi stared blankly at E, at E's silhouette reflected in the glass window, at the blue sky behind her. The blue sky is clear and far-reaching, and a big white bird spreads its wings and soars.The big bird fluttered its wings leisurely, and finally flew out of the window frame, overcoming the dryness of early spring and the irritability of early summer, and came to the midsummer season with the most abundant sunshine and rain! "What a brilliance, how bright the sun is, how clear the sky is after the storm..." a voice named Pavarotti sang all over the world. Doesn't matter? It was only when the sloppy Ding Yi walked into E's house for the third time that he noticed a framed picture on the desk, in which was a laughing little girl. "Were you born this happy?" "No, that's my daughter asking." "Ask?" "She asks everything." Ding Yi remembered that Qin Han had said: (E) Jie was not (married), but divorced. "An illegitimate child," E said, while glancing at Ding Yi's reaction. "No one approved, but God sent her here." E said again, as if she hoped that this topic would not end immediately. "Why didn't you see her?" "Who are you talking about?" "Of course I'm asking." "Oh, she's in kindergarten." This child really resembles her mother, and he will soon be exactly like E in middle school. "How old are you?" "Four years old." Well, it was the same when E was four years old, right?When E was four years old, Eve was still far away, and I had just arrived in Ding Yi.Four years old, that's when Ding Yi and I walked out of the house, walked into the sunshine, the wind and the fragrance of flowers, right?It was the time when we walked out of the yard and stood in the small street in front of the door, and we were ridiculed by others because Ding Yi was naked with that pretty bud?Was the future already written then?Or are you hiding in a tiny detail and biding your time?What is that detail that fate finally took a fancy to?A word for "love"—such as Ding Yi?Or "ruthless" - like asking the father?In short, when a particular detail has been chosen, the future is almost written into the present.How do you write it next? "Why don't you ask your father?" E finally reminded. "Ah, it doesn't matter." "It doesn't matter?" Ding Yi looked back at E, meaning: Is this a problem? But E still asked: "Who does it matter to?" "Of course it is to me." "I mean, are you okay with asking to have a dad, or are you okay with asking?" She's still asking: Are you indifferent to finding a lover, or are you indifferent to your lover having an ex-husband? / I don't care about other people, I don't care about other people's past, which is over... / But you don't want to ask.I don't want to ask, does it still matter? The timid Ding Yi stopped listening to me.The cunning Ding Yi no longer listened to me, but said to E: "How can it be asking? How can we be indifferent to asking?" "We?" E stared at Ding Yi closely, putting the word "we" on his face to compare and confirm. "Yes, we." Ding Yi was also moved by the sudden words. Chang'e turned around slowly, picked up the mirror frame, looked at it, looked at it carefully, and then hugged it into her arms. It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter what I tell you. /what? /As long as I love me, I don't care about anything. /The more you emphasize this, Brother Ding, the more worried I am... "Maybe," E said, "we should all hear about each other's past." "In the future, E, the days to come will still be long."