Chapter 9 Chapter 09 Brother, Come Marry Me
Speaking of excitement, Li Shufen stood up.Her belly was so big that it looked like a big conch.When she sat in the seat, the seat protested and creaked.Standing up from her seat, she had to rely on the strength of her hands to prop up a few times on the table, so that the whole class sweated secretly for her, worrying that when she was not paying attention, the big ball would be like the ball just now. Like a Nezha born out of this world, it rolls round and round on the ground.
Li Shufen said, what kind of behavior is a love triangle?Typical bourgeois behaviour.Here, we are not trying to target Fang Zijin.Everyone knew that she was in love with Lu Qiusheng, and they were formally engaged, so the whole school knew about it.But now?She had a big fight with that volunteer again.What is the Volunteer Army?is our cutest person.I'm already engaged, but I still fall in love with our cutest person, what is this?She clenched her right hand into a fist, knocked on the desk in front of her, and said viciously, this is deceiving our volunteers, this is playing with the feelings of the volunteers.I hope everyone can tell me what kind of nature this is...
Suddenly, Li Shufen's face was distorted and deformed.Her face was originally fleshless, with a thick dark skin covering the bones. Probably due to pregnancy, the thickness of her face gradually increased, and the melanin also faded.Now, when her face is distorted, the fading black rolls out, like a large swath of dark clouds rolling and surging, the muscles of her face are dislocated, the corners of her mouth are crooked, and one eye is wide open , but the other narrowed into a slit.When the whole class was watching her in amazement, she suddenly let out an earth-shattering cry.This loud cry was like a thunderstorm in winter, and it was so powerful that even the classroom shook violently.After screaming, her body bent down, as if in slow motion in a movie, slowly and slowly fell to the ground, writhing and screaming on the ground.
All that seemed a little unreal, so the students didn't believe it was true at the time.Also because Li Shufen was too domineering, the moment she fell to the ground screaming, no one stepped forward.Later, several classmates left their seats, gathered around her, and asked her what was the matter calmly.
Fang Zijin pushed aside the crowd, walked in front of her, and saw a small pool of water stains under her seat, and the edge of the water stains had dried up.Looking at her cotton trousers, they were all wet.Fang Zijin quickly stepped forward to help her, and asked, when did it happen?Li Shufen gave her a hateful look, and turned that deformed face away.Wu Limin squeezed behind Fang Zijin, and said angrily, what time is it?You still pretend to be like this, do you want to give birth to the child in the classroom?Although Li Shufen was arrogant, she was still somewhat afraid of Wu Limin. She had to say that she felt something was wrong all day long.Just now she felt that something came out, but she kept holding back.Wu Limin heard that it must have happened.He turned to other male students and asked them to help take her to the hospital.Fang Zijin waved a hand and said wait a minute, let me check first.
All the male classmates were driven outside.The female classmate lifted Li Shufen to the desk and lay flat on her back, and then formed a circle to block her body.Although they all studied medicine, Fang Zijin was the only one who knew how to deliver babies. She was the one who took on the difficult task.She stood beside Li Shufen and took off her pants.When her triangular part was exposed in front of all the girls, the girls all ahed in unison.Li Shufen's birth door was already wide open, and a small bloody hand protruded from there, and several dark purple fingers stretched feebly like the claws of an octopus.Next to these claws, there is a pinch of fluff.
Fang Zijin asked her in surprise when her water broke.Li Shufen didn't understand the meaning of breaking the water.Fang Zijin had to explain to her that babies are nourished by amniotic fluid.Before the baby is born, the placenta will rupture and the amniotic fluid will flow out naturally.This is a sign of production.Some women break their waters first, while others have labor pains first.While struggling in pain, Li Shufen told her that last night, she went to the toilet more than a dozen times. At that time, she only thought it was peeing, but she never thought it was amniotic fluid breaking.Fang Zijin asked her again, your child's hand has come out, don't you know?She said that at the beginning of the political study at night, she already felt that something was wrong, but how could any private matter be compared with political study?Moreover, tonight's political study is so important.She wanted to have a roof top first, and then go to the hospital after finishing her political studies.
Some students asked if they should be sent to the hospital immediately.The affiliated hospital is still under construction. The southeast corner of Zhongshan Park is Changhe Hospital, which is one of the six famous hospitals in Ningchang.However, from the medical school to Changhe Hospital, there was only more than one kilometer of road, but the Jiefang Avenue was under construction, and the road was closed, so we had to make a big circle from Wucheng Road, about four to five kilometers, and there was a long section It's the wilderness, farmland, dams, fish ponds, etc. No one can tell what accidents will happen on the road.In addition, it was midnight, and there was only one doctor on duty in the obstetrics and gynecology department of the hospital.If a pregnant woman needs to deliver, the doctor must be in the delivery room.If a new mother comes in, the hospital will have to send someone to call for another doctor urgently.If no one is giving birth, the doctor must be sleeping in the bed.It takes time to send it to the hospital from here, and it takes time to find the doctor.Li Shufen's situation is very critical, and what is lacking is time.Her amniotic fluid has been flowing for nearly 20 hours, and the fetus has another hand stretched out. If you want to keep the fetus, you have to race against time.
Fang Zijin began to command these students like a female general.She said to a female classmate: "You go to Director Yu and see if she has time. If so, ask her to come immediately." She said to another female classmate: "You go to find some male classmates, and go to the school to find the time." Get all the boiling water in the boys’ dormitory and girls’ dormitory. Get a pair of scissors and some wine, and get some sewing thread.” Fang Zijin squeezed out of the circle surrounded by female students, came outside the classroom, Most of the male students are still waiting here, like soldiers waiting for orders from their commanders.When Fang Zijin appeared, they were noisy.Someone asked her how Li Shufen's condition was and what did they need to do?Some people also said that if she treats you like her husband, you still help her?Isn't this revenge with virtue?Fang Zijin ignored this and said loudly to them, which one of you has wine on you?Take it out quickly.A few students took out the jug from their bodies and handed it to Fang Zijin.She didn't pick it up, but stretched out her hands and asked someone to pour the wine on her hands.
Back in the classroom, Fang Zijin asked Wu Limin to help him.Two female classmates grabbed Li Shufen's feet and separated them.Fang Zijin stood between her legs, carefully grabbed the baby's hand, and stuffed it hard.Under Fang Zijin's command, Wu Limin put her hands on Li Shufen's belly, and following Fang Zijin's gesture, moved the little hand hidden in her belly to the upper part of her lower abdomen.Some students said loudly, boiling water and scissors are brought, what should I do?While Fang Zijin was busy, he instructed other students to soak the scissors and thread in white wine, and put the boiling water aside temporarily.In March, the weather was cold and cold, but Fang Zijin's forehead had already seen fine beads of sweat.Wu Limin pushed and paved Li Shufen's belly in a hurry, and at the same time did not forget to pay attention to Fang Zijin.She shouted loudly, someone wiped Zijin's sweat.When her classmates wiped her sweat, she was holding the baby's little head with her hair exposed, and instructed Wu Limin to hold Li Shufen's lower abdomen with both hands and push it down like kneading dough.Fang Zijin used skillful energy while ordering Li Shufen to use more force.
When Yu Shanyao hurried over with the medicine box, the baby had already left the mother's body.Fang Zijin was calling for the scissors.The classmate who went to invite Yu Shanyao shouted excitedly, Director Yu is here, Director Yu is here.Yu Shanyao squeezed in and saw Fang Zijin was tying the umbilical cord.The child was covered in blood, with bruises on his body. It was a baby girl, who seemed to be dead, with no sound at all.When the students saw the child coming out, they were very excited, but they couldn't restrain their disappointment when they saw the child was not moving or crying.Some people say, why don't you cry?died?Li Shufen was in good spirits, without the slightest weakness of a mother in labor. When the child left her body, she sat up with her head hooked.When she heard that it was a dead baby, she immediately stretched out her big hands to hug the baby, and a crying sound similar to laughter came out of her mouth.Yu Shanyao immediately stopped her severely. Seeing that Fang Zijin had cut the umbilical cord, she quickly opened the medicine box, took out a bottle and a cotton swab, inserted the cotton end into the bottle, and dipped it into the liquid inside. , the white cotton turned light gray.She carefully rubs the swab over the umbilical cord.
Fang Zijin held the baby girl's two feet upside down, and slapped the baby girl's buttocks several times with not too big slaps.It was really strange that the baby girl started crying with a cry.Accompanied by the crying of the baby girl, all the students screamed excitedly, and then stopped suddenly.The air seemed to freeze at that moment.Everyone has an expectation in their hearts, hoping that Li Shufen will say thank you to Fang Zijin.Fang Zijin carefully washed off the blood on the baby, tore off a piece of Li Shufen's clothes, and stuffed her into Li Shufen's arms.Li Shufen took the child and looked at Fang Zijin blankly, as if she wanted to say something, but opened her mouth, but no sound came out.
"Which one of you will send her home." After Fang Zijin said this, he turned and walked away.
Fang Zijin's back view when he left shocked many people.For many years later, the classmates who were present at that time discussed her back at that time.Some people said that for some reason, the classroom was filled with a special aroma, and that aroma must not have emanated from the baby. The baby only smelled of blood.The fragrance came from Fang Zijin's body.It may be because Fang Zijin sweated when delivering Li Shufen's baby, and her sweat has a scent.Someone said that Fang Zijin's back was shrouded in a special light, like a kind of Buddha's light.She was like a god, turning away from them to some sort of godlike realm.
Because Li Shufen refused to say a word of thanks, Wu Limin was indignant.Fang Zijin just smiled and said, should I thank you?As long as the couple don't play tricks on me behind my back, it will be fine.
In mid-April, Lu Qiusheng finally assigned work.The fight had a great impact on him. He failed to stay in Ningchang and was sent to Hongchuan, where he was the section chief of the Bureau of Culture and Education.Their training class was carefully selected from all over the country. Most of them were assigned to positions above the deputy director level. A few of them had no actual positions before participating in the training class. They not only stayed in Ningchang when they graduated, but were also assigned to department-level positions. .Lu Qiusheng was temporarily suspended because of the fight, but was later sent to another place.When he changed jobs and entered Hengxing, he was an assistant battalion worker. He entered the training class with a half-level prerequisite and enrolled at the main course level.
After receiving this news, Fang Zijin felt even more guilty.She wanted to give him her body as a reward, but he didn't want it, so what else could she do for him?The only thing I can do is give him a ride.Fang Zijin asked the deputy monitor for leave and rushed to Lu Qiusheng's school early.The school has recruited new students, and as an old student, he can't arrange it, so a space adjacent to the corner of the stairs and the toilet is separated for him to live temporarily.The sewage system in the toilet is not good, it is always clogged, and the stench is stagnant and cannot be dissipated. This place stinks to the sky.Especially now that the weather is getting hotter day by day, the flies have found a good place and swarm in groups.The outside is ventilated, and the stench still has room to spread. Close the door, and the stench will linger and gather in Lu Qiusheng's small house.Fang Zijin is a clean freak, and she would never set foot here in the past no matter what.Today's situation is different, not to mention the stinky smell, even the mountains of swords and seas of fire, she has to go through it once.
Lu Qiusheng was bare-chested and wearing a pair of shorts, opened the door a crack, poked out half of his head sleepily, saw that it was her, quickly retracted his head, and told her to wait outside.She waited three or five times, and couldn't wait any longer. She pushed the door open and saw him cleaning the room in a panic.His room was really messy, with clothes everywhere, books everywhere, unwashed socks and papers all over the place.Before she arrived, he seemed to be still wandering in dreamland, showing no signs of leaving.
"Aren't you leaving today? Why haven't you cleared up?" she asked.
Lu Qiusheng glanced at the rickety bed, and reluctantly said, "Yes, I'm leaving, I want to sleep more. I won't have a chance to sleep in the future."
"You're so weird, why don't you want to part with such a stinking place?" When she said this, he gave her a meaningful look.From this special look, she suddenly read many subtexts.He is not yearning for this smelly shabby room, but for the place closest to her.What he is reluctant to part with is not the life next to the toilet, but the space close to her.She stopped talking and silently helped him clean up his luggage.
He walked out the door with his luggage, and she followed behind.She asked, lock the door?He said, in this smelly place, whoever cares about it will sleep.Stepping outside, he put his luggage on the back of his bicycle.He said: You go back.She said: I will send you.He pushed the cart forward, and she walked beside him.He didn't speak, and neither did she.Walking through the campus and out of the school gate, they always maintain their original form.Language is not important anymore, what is important is the journey we have gone through together.When the station arrived, he said, let's go back.I'm leaving.She still said, I will send you.He said it was all sent here.It's no different than sending it to the car.She said, I will take you to Hongchuan.Lu Qiusheng was taken aback for a moment, and said, forget it.Fang Zijin was very resolute, and said loudly, I regard you as my brother.
Fang Zijin took a day off and planned to come back that day.Seeing Lu Qiusheng's dirty clothes, her heart softened, and she stayed in Hongchuan that afternoon to help him wash his clothes all afternoon.Early the next morning, Lu Qiusheng rushed to the guest house to see her off.Just like when she sent him off, for a while, neither of them spoke.When we arrived at the station, we were about to break up. Lu Qiusheng couldn't help it, and said to her, promise me that if one day the No. 1 is eliminated, I will be promoted to No. 1, okay?
The station was very noisy, and the news of the bus inspection was broadcast over and over again on the loudspeaker.There are people carrying big bags and small bags on their backs everywhere, men can shout at the top of their voices, women are breastfeeding babies openly, and some beggars are begging around the crowd.Fang Zijin looked at the bustling crowd, and said beggingly: Brother, don't do this.If you meet the right one, marry me a sister-in-law, okay?
Lu Qiusheng said: "In this life, unless it is you, I will not marry any other woman."
"Brother, aren't you forcing me?" She was a little anxious.
"I won't force you." Lu Qiusheng said, "But I will wait for you, and I will wait forever."
Fang Zijin really had nothing to say.What can she say?The only way is to stay away from him and let him gradually forget himself.She knew very well in her heart that she would never love anyone else except Bai Changshan in this life.Lu Qiusheng was still questioning her, asking her to promise that if Bai Changshan was eliminated, he would definitely be promoted to No. 1.Forced to do nothing, she had no choice but to agree.
On the day Fang Zijin sent Lu Qiusheng off, Li Shufen came back to class after her maternity leave.The roll call before class, when Fang Zijin was called, no one answered, Li Shufen frowned.The deputy squad leader explained to her that Fang Zijin had asked for a day off, the corners of her mouth curled up, and a sentence slipped out of her mouth: leave?Why don't I know?absenteeism.The next morning, when Fang Zijin didn't come back, Li Shufen had a fit and knocked on the table and said, "This is a very serious incident. No one in our class has ever been absent from class for more than two days in a row."For this kind of unorganized and undisciplined behavior, we must launch a serious revolutionary criticism.
Back at school in the afternoon, when a classmate told Fang Zijin the news, she just smiled wryly.On the way to the classroom, I met Hu Zhiyan very unexpectedly.Hu Zhiyan seemed to be waiting for her here on purpose, and came out of the bushes on the side of the road extremely suddenly, and stopped in front of her, so startled that she almost yelled.Hu Zhiyan first expressed his gratitude to her for delivering his daughter.Fang Zijin didn't have the slightest interest in talking to him, and said coldly, she did what she could and should do, which was normal.Hu Zhiyan was a little out of ideas, and he was just talking about those words, saying that he heard that if it was later, his daughter might not be saved, she was his daughter's savior, and he said he would recognize her as his daughter's godmother.Fang Zijin waved his hands again and again, saying that you should give up this idea as soon as possible, making me feel like I am seventy or eighty.
After striking up a few words, Fang Zijin wanted to leave early.She couldn't tell what was going on, but when she saw him, she felt uncomfortable all over, as if crawling with lice.When the lice crawled over, the skin would itch and goose bumps would appear.There was only one way to escape from this drudgery: escape.But he wouldn't let her go, and grabbed her hand.Fang Zijin withdrew his hand vigorously.If possible, she would have liked to have the hand chopped off, or washed with rubbing alcohol for hours.
Hu Zhiyan rubbed the hand that had just been pulled over her, and the movement of rubbing his hands made her feel that he was imagining rubbing a certain part of her body.She almost wanted to throw up.He told her very mysteriously that Li Shufen was planning to punish her and told her to be careful.Fang Zijin looked at him in bewilderment, wondering what his intentions were.Isn't Li Shufen his wife?Didn't they have a child?Is he setting a trap for her, or is he really betraying his wife?If it's the latter, isn't this person too terrifying?Even betrayed his own wife, what else can't be betrayed?She didn't want to fulfill his meanness, so she turned around and left.He stopped in front of her at a very fast speed.
"He's bright, I stutter for your own good." He said, "Why don't you appreciate your stuttering?"
"Thank you." She said coldly, "Let's leave your kindness to your wife and children."
"Grandma, why don't you understand when you're stuttering? Let's count the ball. Let me do good things when he is bright. Speaking of my daughter, you are so bright that you don't know, she is angry. She said that you deliberately disabled my daughter. What you're saying is that you're engaging in class revenge."
Fang Zijin was taken aback and asked, "Your daughter is disabled? What's going on?"
Hu Zhiyan explained for a long time, and the swear words fell all over the floor, Fang Zijin finally understood.His daughter, Hu Yuanchao, has a deformed left hand. The doctor said that depending on her recovery, she might be permanently disabled.The doctor said that this is not congenital, it is caused by external force.A baby's bone is soft, like dough, it becomes round when you pinch it, and flat when you pinch it.However, it is difficult to restore it after pinching it.The doctor asked Li Shufen if there was any external force when the child was born.Li Shufen immediately thought of Fang Zijin.Fang Zijin's hand once reached into her womb to fiddle with it. She must have pinched the child's little hand at that time and it was broken.She did it on purpose, class revenge.Li Shufen said that she must carry out the revenge of the proletariat, and let Fang Zijin know that the proletariat has stood up and called the shots, and will no longer let the bourgeoisie ride on its head to do its best.
Fang Zijin's heart skipped a beat at his words.She naturally thought that Hu Yuanchao's disability was caused by Li Shufen's ignorance and madness.She had broken her water the night before.She was still a nurse in the army, so she didn't even know this bit of common sense, and even mistook it for peeing.On the second day, the baby was about to come out, because it was born horizontally, the first one came out with one hand.A child's hand emerges from the delivery port, a distinct foreign body that she cannot possibly not feel.She ignored it and wanted to persist until the end of her political study, so she stuffed that little hand into it.The child's little hand may have been broken at that time.First a jealous wife, now an irrational mother.These two emotions are entangled and mad, and their power is overwhelming, capable of destroying everything and drowning everything.Fang Zijin was really scared. Even though she hated Hu Zhiyan, she still had to ask him for advice.
Hu Zhiyan deliberately put on a stern face, and said to her with a trace of malice, "As long as you obey me, I will stammer and guarantee that you will be fine."
Fang Zijin turned around and left.Hu Zhiyan stopped her again, and said to her with a playful smile that he knew that Lu Qiusheng had been exiled.He even told her bluntly that the reason why Lu Qiusheng was assigned to Hongchuan was because he was active in it.Lu Qiusheng has someone on top, and he also has a backstage.There is no benefit in fighting him, Lu Qiusheng is an example.He also said that he left Lu Qiusheng a way out of Fang Zijin's face, otherwise, it would have been even worse.He hinted to Fang Zijin, don't think that everything will be fine with the support of Yu Shanyao and Zhou Xinruo.If he wanted to bring Yu Shanyao down, it would be easy.
He smiled at her like a bad boy, saying that he knew that she had followed Yu Shanyao since the beginning of her work, and that they were snatched by bandits together.The two were almost killed by bandits, but it was Yu Shanyao who saved her.He raised one hand, pinched the two short fingers together in the air, and rubbed them lightly.What he held between his fingers seemed to be a small bug. When he rubbed his fingers, the bug writhed and struggled between his fingers, screaming and begging for mercy.He said: "I'll give you a chance to repay your kindness. One month. I'll give you a month to think about it. After one month, if you still stutter like this, I'll let her go to hell." .”
Fang Zijin's heart sank suddenly.The person in front of him has a heart like a snake and a scorpion, and he can do whatever it takes to achieve his goal.She believed that what he said was not just casually, he must have caught Yu Shanyao something.Because of the ambiguous relationship between Yu Shanyao and Zhou Xinruo, Fang Zijin no longer admits that she is his teacher.But Hu Zhiyan wanted to harm her behind her back, Fang Zijin still couldn't bear it.
"It's up to you. I have nothing to do with her anymore." After she deliberately said in a very cold and indifferent tone, she turned and left.She thought that if she showed an attitude of not caring about Yu Shanyao, he might not be interested in harming Yu Shanyao.
In the next two months, things really continued.
Li Shufen engages in big criticism in class, criticizes party members' organization life, league members organizes life, criticizes in class meetings, and even publishes posters in class, which is also the theme.After being punished for fighting with Lu Qiusheng, although Hu Zhiyan was still the leader of the party group in the class, he basically stopped participating in the party group activities in the class, and he rarely even came to the usual classes.Li Shufen took the opportunity to seize the authority of the whole class.Li Shufen, who holds great power, is completely different from before. In other words, Li Shufen, who has given birth to a child and became a mother, has been transformed into a completely different woman.She used to be thin, with no flesh on her body, only dark skin.Now she has a big hair, more than twice as fat as before.It seems that the current Li Shufen should not be called Li Shufen, but should be called Li Pangfen or Li Shuangfen.Her hands are like two big white steamed buns just out of the cage, her face plate is like a balloon that has been blown up, and her pair of breasts suddenly become shocking, as if they are about to jump out of their shirts at any time generally.The only thing that didn't match her figure was her pair of legs. Those legs looked like a bourgeois lady whose revolution hadn't been completed yet.
This woman is so evil, the weather is only in May, and others are still wearing jackets, but she has already put on a short-sleeved shirt, and her two arms are exposed, as if soaked in formalin for thousands of years.She waved her hands and spattered and said, Fang Zijin's problem is not a problem of a certain person, but a big problem of where our party, our country and our people are going, and it is related to the transformation of our socialist motherland. The problem of not changing the color is related to how long the red flag can last.She tapped the table a few times with the back of her hand like a cooked steamed bun, and flicked her fingers like a white radish.If our socialism turned into capitalism, if our red flags turned into black flags, if we started suffering twice, who would like it best?Who is the happiest?Of course it is capitalism, those reactionaries who have deep hatred for us, and the lackeys of US imperialism like Chiang Kai-shek.Classmates, don't underestimate skipping a few classes, and don't underestimate the danger of having a love triangle or a love triangle.If we do not reflect and criticize, our socialist motherland will be destroyed in the hands of our generation, and the proletarian country won by the blood of countless martyrs will change its color.
Once, Li Shufen said with righteous indignation that we must be especially vigilant against those enemies who sneak into the revolutionary ranks.Now is not the age of war, it is already peaceful, and the enemy will not attack us with guns and wearing Kuomintang costumes.They hid inside us, nodded and bowed to us, gave us small favors, and talked sweetly.
Wu Limin couldn't bear it anymore, she stood up abruptly, and asked her what she meant by that.Wu Limin never had a good impression of Li Shufen, especially after she married a heroic woman, she became a celebrity and a role model, let alone Li Shufen.She said loudly to Li Shufen, have you forgotten that you fell down in the classroom like a pig and yelled?Not Zijin, can I have you today?You died here long ago, your conscience was eaten by dogs?
Fang Zijin pulled Wu Limin straight from the side.Wu Limin lost her temper and shouted to her, don't pull me.Let me finish.I just can't understand this kind of thing that only talks about people and doesn't act about people.You can't control your own man, so what's the point of venting your anger on others?You have the anger to go out on your man.Fang Zijin thought, this is really a big trouble, Li Shufen will fight her.I've been upset enough recently, if Wu Limin gets involved in this way again, if things get more and more complicated, wouldn't it be even worse for me?
Li Shufen has really cultivated well. She didn't develop this into a scolding war, but fought with Wu Limin, discussing with her the color of bourgeois sugar-coated cannonballs.She didn't know where she got so many revolutionary principles and slogans, like a heavy cannon with a steady stream of shells, the firepower was fierce and the target was accurate.Compared with her, Wu Limin was greatly inferior. She seemed to shoot here and there, at most she just passed by.
This debate ended in Wu Limin being speechless.
Just this night, someone posted three large sheets of paper on the college's bulletin board, with densely packed words written on them. The headline on the first sheet was "Exposing Yu Shanyao's Evil Face".The first sentence of the text is: Who is Yu Shanyao?Next, the article was miscellaneous about Yu Shanyao's parents, her older brothers and sisters, and how she went to study in the United States and became the fourth concubine of the son of a senior official in the Kuomintang government.He also said that the Kuomintang fled, but Yu Shanyao stayed. What is her purpose of staying in the mainland is still an unsolved mystery.Once, she was captured by a group of bandits under the banner of the Kuomintang guerrillas, but she was not injured.The bandit leader not only treated her like a guest of honor, but also sent someone to take her back in a sedan chair.In the face of this super beauty, where is the banditry?Could it be that Yu Shanyao has some special identity that even the bandit leader dare not attack her?It was this experience that turned Yu Shanyao into a heroine, from an ordinary gynecologist to the vice president of the hospital, and then the dean of the medical school.However, foxes always show their tails.After becoming a director, Yu Shanyao was unwilling to lose her decadent and decadent bourgeois life, and gave full play to the obscene methods she learned from American imperialism to win over and corrupt revolutionary cadres, so that individual revolutionary cadres who could not stand the temptation of capitalist beauty , fell into the arms of the bourgeoisie, and lost its revolutionary and fighting spirit.
If this happened a few years later, it would be a big-character poster, a revolutionary act worthy of praise.But in the early summer of 1953, people's attitude towards the big-character posters was completely different.The morning before the big-character poster was full of people, and a few people with high consciousness quickly reported to the human security department of the college.The Public Security Bureau determined that this was a counter-revolutionary slogan that appeared in the medical school, and organized forces to file a case for investigation.
Fang Zijin heard the news from Wu Limin.
That day, Fang Zijin went to Wu Limin's house to give Yu Aijun acupuncture.She originally wanted to try this treatment after she became more proficient in her studies, but Yu Aijun's muscle atrophy was already very obvious. If he didn't hurry up, even if he could be cured, his hands and feet might not be able to return to normal.She told Wu Limin her thoughts, and Wu Limin discussed with Yu Aijun again.Yu Aijun's opinion is very clear, anyway, there is no hope, and a dead horse should be regarded as a living horse doctor.It would be best if there is an effect. If there is no effect, I will not lose anything.When Fang Zijin went to Wu Limin's house, Wu Limin didn't come back, Yu Aijun was sitting in a wheelchair, and Yu's mother opened the door for her.
"Where's Limin? Isn't it a deal?" she asked Yu Aijun.
Yu Aijun said puzzledly, "Didn't you say that your school has a meeting?"
Fang Zijin knew that Wu Limin was a party member and an advanced student, and his status was different from his own. Sometimes he didn't know what meetings they had together.Anyway, even if she was at home, it was impossible for her to help.Together with Yu's mother, she helped Yu Aijun to lie down on the bamboo bed, carefully rolled up his trouser legs, and took off a sleeve of his jacket.Fang Zijin opened the needle box, took out a silver needle, and wiped it several times with an alcohol cotton ball.Seeing such a long needle, Yu Aijun was a little worried and asked her if it hurt.She said don't worry, just a little bit, like a mosquito bite.As she spoke, she stretched out her hand and measured Yu Aijun's shoulder. After her fingers stopped, she pressed, found the shoulder point, picked up a cotton ball, and wiped it repeatedly.Before the needle was inserted, she deliberately talked to Yu Aijun to distract him.She said, you know what?The Korean War is coming to an end.Yu Aijun said, really?This is a military secret.She said it was a military secret, so Bai Changshan never told me.He wrote to say that there have been no battles on the Korean battlefield this year, and there have been partial ones.The two sides have been negotiating, and it seems that there is almost a result recently.While talking, she stuck the needle into his shoulder point, and he didn't even feel it.She pinched the handle of the needle with two fingers, turned it gently, and asked him how it felt, and he asked in a little surprise, did it go in?Fang Zijin said yes, do you feel it?He said no.She pushed the needle down a little more, and asked him how it felt when turning it, but still nothing.
Wu Limin returned when she inserted the second needle.As soon as she entered the door, she ignored Yu Aijun first, but said to Fang Zijin, Zijin, something serious happened at school.Fang Zijin picked up the third needle and wiped it with a cotton ball, not too enthusiastic about what Wu Limin said.Wu Limin said that there was a counter-bid in the school, and the Public Security Bureau has sent an investigation team into the school.Fang Zijin's finger that was not holding the needle moved on Yu Aijun's arm, determined the location of Quchi acupoint, and inserted the needle after disinfection.Wu Limin wrinkled her nose when she saw her injecting needles into Yu Aijun's body.Yu Aijun seemed to be fine, and asked her about the content of the anti-submission. She said that she seemed to say that Yu Shanyao was a KMT spy, and that she was messing with a certain leader of the college.
Fang Zijin's heart skipped a beat.finally come.she thinks.If it refers to this, it doesn't seem to be a counter-sign. She even believes that Hu Zhiyan must have made that thing, and the purpose is to completely destroy her protective umbrella in the school.Is this a counter-bid incident?So, is Hu Zhiyan shooting himself in the foot?Fang Zijin felt that he needed to think about this matter seriously, and then decide what he should do.This matter is related to herself, and she feels that she should do something.But what should I do?Because now I have to give Yu Aijun acupuncture and moxibustion, I can't concentrate on thinking.
Wu Limin was very interested in talking about the anti-standard incident with her at first, but later she saw that Fang Zijin was getting more and more needles on Yu Aijun's body, such as Hegu, Huantiao, and Fengshi points, on Yu Aijun's arm and thigh, there were trees She was taken aback by the two silver forests, and said, Zijin, you plant trees on them.Will this hurt him?Fang Zijin said, thanks to you, you are still studying medicine.Wu Limin said, but our teacher never talked about this.Fang Zijin said, don't worry, the acupoints I pricked for him now are some common acupoints, mainly for relaxing meridians and activating collaterals.
After the injection, the Wu family began to have dinner.Fang Zijin finished a bowl of rice as quickly as possible, put the bowl away, said goodbye to Yu's mother and Yu Aijun, and left in a hurry.When I came to the door of Hu Zhiyan's house, I saw those trees and grass growing wildly, and every branch and leaf seemed to be stretched proudly.李淑芬坐在家里奶孩子，那孩子颇具有革命性，咬着李淑芬硕大的左奶又拉又扯，仿佛拉扯着一只白色带着褐色的布袋，布袋前端是被束在一起的尖形，由孩子的嘴拉扯着一忽儿向东一忽儿向西。胡援朝完成这件伟大的革命任务时，李淑芬在完成另一件伟大的革命任务：往嘴里扒饭。吃饭的不仅仅只是李淑芬，还有胡之彦，还有从山东赶来照顾孙女的胡之彦的老母。胡母时不时地对李淑芬说，别管孩子，你吃你的。孩子都这样的。胡之彦低头扒饭，似乎这一切与他无关。
李淑芬是正面对着门口的，第一个看到了出现在门口的方子衿，她那革命警惕性高的眼睛顿时瞪大了，带点质问地说：“你来做啥？”
方子衿不理她，甚至没有正眼看她。她的眼看着正面墙上挂着的毛主席和朱总司令的大幅画像。她同样以命令的口吻对着两位领袖说：“胡之彦，你出来。”说过之后，她转身就走。她的背后，传来李淑芬制止胡之彦的声音：“你不准去！”李淑芬的话对胡之彦显然不起任何作用，他的脚步声响起来，啪嗒啪嗒的，停在方子衿背后。
“他亮的，是不是刁毛想通了？”他问。
方子衿冷冷地说：“你么样看反标事件？”这话她是经过深思熟虑的。既然公安局已经将此定性为反标事件，胡之彦的日子一定不好过。自己在他面前有意提及此事，便是暗示他：你别得意了，我知道你的底细。
“反标事件？”胡之彦先是冷冷一笑，接着哈哈一阵大笑：“刁毛，反标事件？他亮的那帮混蛋饭桶，结巴他们懂得啥叫阶级斗争？刁毛反标事件，文大姐他亮的结巴可不这样看。”
文大姐？方子衿的心脏突然一阵疾跳。文大姐可不是一般的大姐，她是华中这片土上所有革命者的大姐，她还是其他一些革命者的大姐。文大姐是一尊称，也是对她革命事业的肯定。方子衿对这个称呼耳熟能详，也从广播中听到过她向全体革命者和反革命者作报告。这是一位令人尊敬的彻底的无产阶级革命者，有关她的各种传说比还要精彩。据说有一次，她被国民党特务给抓了，国民党要她交出地下党名单，脱光了她的衣服，用烧红的烙铁对着她的阴部，威胁她，如果不说，就将烙铁塞进她那里面去。她大骂，狗日的，有种的拿你的鸡巴来日，这算你他娘的啥？国民党特务将烙铁伸过去，烧得皮肉哧哧地响，她将嘴唇咬破了，就是没有吱一声。还有一个传说，她手下的一名地下党员被国民党的女特务勾引，和女特务在床上疯过了头，透露了共产党员名单。共产党的地下组织遭到极大破坏。文大姐抓住这个叛徒后，在他面前摆了一盆沙。文大姐正义凛然地对他说，日你妈，你不是鸡巴痒吗？老子让你日个够。叛徒不得不将那东西往沙盆里插，插得鲜血淋淋。她问，日够了没？叛徒说，日够了。她说，那好，老子让你当个饱死鬼。拉出去，把这狗日的给老子毙喽。
就是这个名动天下的文大姐，她不认为这是一起反标事件？
胡之彦大概以为方子衿不知文大姐是何许人也，又加了一句，你大概不知道吧？文大姐是周昕若的爱人。
方子衿当然知道，她甚至已经想到，胡之彦一定是那个告密者。她来找他，原是想给他一个警告，奉劝他别轻举妄动。此时她才意识到，在胡之彦面前，自己实在太幼稚了，他所做的一切，事前都有明确的计划。既然一切都在他的掌握之中，他就不会担心所谓的反标事件会砸到自己。如果说他有一个完整的计划，那么，自己在这个计划中，将会充当什么样的角色？
胡之彦说这只是开始，因为他不想逼她太紧，才小小地露一手。他叫她回去好好想一想，现在后悔可以，将来后悔就太迟了。他说过之后，不再理她，转身离去。
几天后，事件果然逆转，公安局的侦查小组撤出了，周昕若被停职反省，余珊瑶不仅受到了撤职处分，而且成了批斗会的主角。有几次批斗会全系师生都参加了，方子衿和其他同学一起，早早到了学院礼堂，分班列队坐好。礼堂的气氛肃穆庄严，大门两边，一边站着一名扎着武装带、手执步枪的民兵。礼堂正中上方，写着“批判大会”的黑字横幅，每一个字斗那么大，像是四堆黑色的炸药。会议由师资班辅导员主持，他刚刚被提拔为系办公室主任。主任站在台前，大声命令道：“把道德败坏分子余珊瑶带上来。”两个背着枪戴着红袖标的民兵，一人抓住余珊瑶的一只手，将她的手尽可能地向后架起，推着她向台前走来。系团总支书记和一名女学生在台上一角的广播设备后面高声地领呼着口号：“打倒道德败坏分子余珊瑶！”“打倒国民党反动派！”“彻底向资产阶级腐朽思想宣战！”“毛主席万岁！”“中国共产党万岁！”台上领一句，台下的同学就振臂高呼一句，一时间群情激愤。口号声中，余珊瑶被押到台的正中间。她穿着一件很土的粗布外套、一条黑色的裤子、一双很旧的布鞋，鞋上连袜子都没有穿。她原本是一头齐颈的短发，此刻头发被剪得很短，披散在脸上，看上去有点像妖魔鬼怪。
最初听说余珊瑶被打下去时，方子衿非常担心她被定性为国民党隐藏特务或者现代反革命，如果真是如此，那是要被枪毙的。现在听到呼出的口号是“打倒道德败坏分子”，罪行自然就轻了许多，方子衿悬起的一颗心，也就落了下来。坐在台下的方子衿，心情异常复杂。一方面，她确实认为余珊瑶是道德败坏分子，她有今天，是咎由自取。另一方面，她也看到余珊瑶是胡之彦图谋自己的牺牲品，是一个罪恶的灵魂送上神的祭坛的不怀好意的供品。曾经一度，方子衿产生了幻觉，觉得被押在台上的是自己的母亲，她的一颗心为母亲担心着，认为下一个时刻，将会有无数淫邪丑陋的手像地狱中跑出的饿鬼的手一般伸出去，伸向母亲白皙圣洁的躯体。那些黑色的手撕扯着母亲的洁白，撕扯出血光四溅血肉横飞。某些时候，她开始产生另一种幻觉，觉得那被撕扯着的，正是自己的处子之身，是自己准备作为神圣不可侵犯的祭品献给心爱的白长山的贞洁之躯。
她默默地祈祷朝鲜战争早点结束。白长山对她说过，只要战争一结束，他回国后的第一件事，就是和她结婚。她期待着那一刻，期待着以洁白的爱意和饱满的欢畅展现在白长山的面前，让他英雄的目光像春天的阳光般照耀自己起伏跌宕的山峦、沟壑逶迤的丘陵、潺潺欢跳的溪涧。在他火一般的激情和水一般的柔情中，完成她这一生中激动人心也是最为神圣的进献。
哥，快来娶我吧。让我早一天逃离这黑暗的陷阱吧。
她在心中一遍又一遍地呼唤。
看到鸭绿江大桥了，白长山心中狂喜。子衿妹子，哥回来啦，我们的好日子就要开始啦。他在心中对方子衿说。
天是蓝的，水是绿的，骄阳似火，滚烫的热情蒸腾着大地。自从驶离大桥的那一刻，白长山就被空前的热情包围着。鲜花在他的两边翻滚，如同一条滚动的花的黄河。灿烂的花灿烂的少女美丽热情鲜翠欲滴的脸蛋灿烂的阳光萦绕着灿烂的彩旗彩带，锣鼓声震天动地，秧歌舞豪情万丈激情奔放。白长山手握方向盘，脑子里出现了瞬间的混乱。混乱中，曾在他眼前闪过的那个手握彩带扭着大秧歌的大奶子女人双腿像安了弹簧一般动着，两只手摆成了一种奔放，尤其是她胸前的大奶子，就像白长山踩在脚下的这两只大车轮遇到泥水地打着滑儿一般，一会儿滚到这边，一会儿滚到那边。滚动着的大奶子没变，那张脸变了，变成了在月光下的海南岛香蕉林中见到的那个女人，女人的奶子和大白屁股一齐在他眼前滚动。那个女人竟然是他心爱的女人方子衿。
女人呀，一想起这个名字，白长山浑身的血就像是草原上狂奔的马一般放肆。打海南岛前，首长说，这是最后一场仗了。打完这一仗，都回家抱婆娘日鬼去，给老子日一群龟孙子出来。几年过去了，那话还像是昨天说的一般。不知这回是不是真正的最后一仗？至少，自己就快要有婆娘了，真的可以日鬼了。虽然白长山还不完全清楚自己将落脚何处，虽然还不能确定和方子衿的准确日子，可他的心里，已经开始享受新婚了。
铁甲洪流一路翻滚着，轰隆隆开到了沈阳。白长山将自己心爱的汽车交上去了，和战友们一起住在临时营地里，等待上级的安排。在这里，他给方子衿写了一封信。他在信中说：
子衿妹子，从跨上国土的那一刻起，我看到的每一个姑娘，都觉得像你。我现在觉得自己真是太幸福了，因为我知道我一直都在做的那个梦，很快就要实现了，我最爱最疼最牵挂的妹子，就快要和我生活在一起了。虽然我目前还不清楚我们的婚期将在何时何地，可我的心里，早已经开始度着蜜月了。
刚刚将这封信发出，通知下来了。白长山独自离开了营地，离开了一齐从血与火中爬过来滚过来的战友，登上了北上的列车。后来他才知道，一位志愿军的首长从战报中看到了白长山的事迹，点名将他要到了东北的白河，职务是首长秘书兼司机。
首长第一次见到白长山，在他的肩头猛拍了一巴掌。首长的巴掌有一种地动山摇的力量，据说曾一掌拍得一名日本鬼子头骨碎裂。首长拍白长山的时候，白长山的身子只是震了一下，没有晃动。首长大叫一声好，说，狗日的白长山，有种。白长山大声说，报告首长，首长狗日的更有种。首长盯着他看了几秒，突然转过身，打开身后的柜子，拿出一件像手榴弹似的东西扔给白长山。匆忙间白长山没有看真切，但首长扔过来的东西，就算真是手榴弹，他也应该接住。他一伸手接了，低头一看，乖乖，一瓶老白干。首长拿出另一瓶老白干，边往他面前走，边用牙咬开了瓶盖。白长山虽然没有完全明白首长的意思，却也咬开了瓶盖。首长将手中的瓶和他碰了一下，一仰脖子咕噜咕噜喝了大半瓶，然后举着手中的瓶看白长山。白长山将手中的瓶口对准自己的嘴，脖子一仰，咕噜咕噜咕噜，一瓶老白干喝了个底儿朝天。
狗日的，果然是条好汉。首长赞赏地再次转过身，回到自己的位子上，坐下去之前，似乎突然想起似的，问他，多大？白长山说，报告首长，过了八月二十七了。首长又问，娶媳妇没？白长山大声说，报告首长，我和毛主席发过誓，革命不成功就不成家。首长说，革命现在成功啦。狗日的，老子批准你，可以成个家啦。
白长山一听，大喜过望，立正说道，报告首长，我有未婚妻，她叫方子衿，是宁昌一所大学的大学生。首长看了他半天，多少有点酸酸地说，你狗日的能啊。行，你写报告，老子批准你。
白长山欢天喜地，安顿下来后的第一件事就是打结婚报告。报告打好了，他将报告递给首长。首长说，你日鬼这都不懂？这件事归政治部管，你把报告交给政治部，他们自然知道怎么办。白长山双手捧着申请报告，像是虔诚的基督徒捧着《圣经》，像是幸福的父亲捧着初生的儿子，像是清纯的少女捧着美丽洁白的和平鸽，像是跋涉者捧着经历千辛万难获得的天山雪莲，像是唐僧捧着从西天取回的真经，像是后来人们捧着神圣的红宝书。他来到政治部，将申请书交上去。他认为政治部应该为此举行一个神圣的仪式。可是，政治部那位干事的态度令他大失所望，对方只是轻描淡写地收下，往一本活页夹里一放了事。
“就这样啦？”白长山有些不甘心地问。
政治干事说：“我们会给对方单位发政审函，等对方的政审材料回来，政治部再研究你的申请。”
后来的日子，每一天都写着神圣。神圣的日子过得特别慢。过了一个月，还没有消息。白长山等不及了，跑到政治部去问。政治干事答复说，还没研究呢。这段时间，抗美援朝刚刚结束，需要处理的事儿太多，还轮不上。白长山气得嗷嗷叫，将首长抬了出来，说首长都已经说过话了。政治干事听说首长同意了的，口气顿时有些不同，又担心他打着首长的旗号，说既然首长同意了，那你能不能让首长批个字？白长山抓过面前的内线电话拨了首长的电话号码。政治干事听到他和首长通话，吓坏了，拼命说你别告诉首长，俺给你办还不成吗？俺求你了。
第二天，政治干事通知他，政审材料已经发给宁昌了，静候佳音吧。
白长山怀着无以表述的兴奋和巨大的幸福期待着那个激动人心的时刻。幸福就像是栽在他心田的玫瑰，连他自己都不清楚是什么时候种下的，后来就悄悄地长得枝繁叶茂，青翠可人。现在，这朵玫瑰含苞欲放了，花苞之上沾着点点的露珠，在阳光下晶莹剔透，七彩变幻着。花瓣像是绢织的一般，细腻中透着韧性，透着诱惑，透着温馨。上一次和平短暂来临，白长山感到从未有过的无聊，这一次和平可能会长久驻扎，无聊却再也与他无缘了，因为他的心里，玫瑰正在静悄悄地开放。
又一个月过去了，还是没有结果。方子衿在信中安慰他，可能是放暑假的缘故，学校人保科没人办公，或许要等到开学以后。她在信中说，像他一样，她心中同样充满了期待，等开学后，她第一件事就是去人保科问这件事。她甚至在信中描述她所想象的婚礼场面。她说，国庆节前，她去白河，他到车站接她，开着他那辆在朝鲜战场立过功的卡车，车头有一朵大红花，车厢两边有大红的喜字。她坐在驾驶室里，他开着车。他最好能借一台留声机，车上放着。到了军营，噼里啪啦放一挂鞭炮。晚上，和他的战友们开一个晚会，大家在一起唱歌跳舞表演节目。
整个夏天在焦灼燠热之中流走了。这一天，白长山陪着首长去市里开了一个会，回到办公室，有战友对他说，政治部打电话来让你去一趟。白长山一听，心狂跳不止。他知道，肯定是有了政审消息，大概是政治部已经批准了他的结婚申请吧。现在发电报通知方子衿，她还赶得及在国庆节前来白河。
他一路小跑着来到政治部，推门进去时，胸脯还在急剧地起伏着，大口大口的气从他张开的嘴上吐出。政治干事说，你歇歇，喘口气儿，我再和你说。白长山哪里等得及？趁着喘气的间隙吐出一个个字，将这些不连贯的字加在一起，只有一个中心意思，他等不及，希望立即知道。政治干事见他这样，便伸手打开了面前的抽屉，拿出一份材料，对他说：你的结婚报告已经研究过了，部里不同意你们结婚。
白长山以为自己听错了，大声叫道：“啥？你说啥？”
政治干事说：“昨天，我们收到了女方组织部门寄来的政审表。上面写得清清楚楚，方子衿出身地主，父母在土改时被人民政府镇压。政治部研究了这个事儿，这个女人的出身有问题，不同意你们结婚。”政治干事说过之后，忙自己的事。过了半天，见身边没有动静，又转过头来，见白长山仍然站在那里，嘴半开半张着，眼睛一动不动，整个人像是傻了一般。他有点担心了，问：“白长山同志，你没啥事儿吧？”白长山没有动静。政治干事吓坏了，说：“你别吓我呀。”边说边站起来，走到他的身边，推了推他，说：“喂喂，你咋的了？”
白长山身体的某一处，突然发出一种声音，一股液体从他的口里喷射而出。政治干事躲闪不及，那些东西全都射到了他的脸上，好浓的腥味。他伸手抹了一把，再看自己的手，一只手掌变成了鲜红。他诧异地看白长山，白长山已经直挺挺地向后倒去。他伸手去拉已经来不及。轰然一声，白长山重重地摔倒在地上。政治干事手忙脚乱，探过头去看，见他直挺挺像木头一样横在那里，眼睛睁得圆圆的，嘴巴大张着，嘴角沾着血迹。
政治干事大急，顾不得身上被染脏，一步跨过去，蹲下来，勾起手臂，扶他坐起来。白长山软软地耷在他的臂弯里，嘴一张，吐出第二口血。嘴再张，吐出第三口血。鲜红的血染红了白长山离开朝鲜回国时刚刚发的新军装，也染红了政治干事身上的旧军装。整间办公室里，充满了血的浓腥味。政治干事吓得大声地喊叫，隔壁办公室的几个人跑过来，迅速有人在楼里跑动。更多的人跑进来，手忙脚乱地抬着他，送上一辆汽车。在汽车上，白长山仍然大口大口地吐血，鲜红的血顺着车厢底板流动，流出车厢，滴落在路上，一路血迹斑斑。
医生事后说，如果不是及时送到医院，如果不是送进了设备先进的部队医院，白长山肯定没救了。此话的含义，不仅仅说明白长山这场病来得急来得凶险，还有一层没有说出的意思：主观上的放弃，成了治愈他的最大障碍。
白长山确实是万念俱灰，不想再活在人世了。他孤身一人活在这个世上，二十岁以前，并不完全明白自己为什么活着，直到认识了方子衿，才迎来了生命的春天。他将自己全部的希望寄托于和方子衿的爱情，那是他一生快乐和幸福的源泉，是他的终极梦想，是他生命最恒久的无穷无尽的动力。然而，残酷的现实给了他致命一击，幸福眼看就要走进他生命的大门时，被一双强有力的手给强行拉走了。在那一瞬间，他的生命被抽空了，他的希望被漂白了，他的灵魂已经彻底地死亡。军功章褪色了，身上的弹片失去了荣光，曾经有过的欢笑曾经洒过的汗水曾经流过的血，全都失去了意义。连生命都已经苍白起来，其他一切，还有什么值得珍惜？
最初的半个月，医院给部队下了五份病危通知书。直到一个月后，主治医生才暗松了一口气，向部队领导表示，病人已经脱离了危险期。白长山更希望危险一直持续着，甚至是某一天医生悲痛地对部队领导说，对不起我们已经尽力了，然后庄严肃穆地拉起白床单，盖住他的头。主治医生宣布他已经度过危险期时，他突然对她充满了仇恨。他认定她是一个没有感情不懂爱情的女人。他不懂冷血动物这个词，否则，他一定毫不犹豫地将这个词用在这个女医生身上。他甚至觉得这个女医生好可怜，一辈子不懂爱情是何物，一辈子没有过铭心刻骨的爱，那是何等可悲的一件事，简直就是一个可怜虫。
女医生在宣布他脱离危险期之后离去了，护士小姐也跟在她的身后离去。他们的身影刚刚消失在特护病房外，白长山就拔掉了手腕上的输液针。针头被拔出时，手腕的血汩汩地流出来。白长山看着自己黝黑的手腕上那一星红点，在他那横的竖的汗毛丛中一点点变大，就像一朵鲜红的玫瑰，在荒郊的野草丛中怒放着。他因此有了一种特别的快感，觉得自己踏上了一片轻巧的云，在广袤的蓝天下飞翔着。他在心中默念：暴风雨来得更加猛烈吧，美丽的血玫瑰绽放得更灿烂吧。可是，那朵血玫瑰并没有完全舒展身姿就凝固了。他甚至觉得那朵玫瑰窥透了他的心事一般，不怀好意地向他窃笑着。一个小时后，护士进来，看到掉在地上的针头以及地下湿湿的一片药液，似乎想说句什么，又硬是将话吞了回去。她走出病房，几分钟后，又随着医生一起进来。
“你咋的了？你再这样，我们要通知你的部队了。”女医生恶狠狠地说。
白长山根本没有将女医生的话当一回事。轮到护士给他吃药的时候，他趁着护士不注意，将那些白色的小药片倒进了痰盂里，又装着已经吃下去的样子。护士给他送饭来，他趁着护士离去后倒掉了，借口说不合胃口，吃不下。医生查房，问他的情况，他说他睡不着觉，要医生给他开安眠药。他注意到了，晚上护士最后一次给他的药中，多了一种小白药片，他抓过药片，装着塞进了嘴里，其实全都抓在了手中。等护士离去后，他将药片拿出来，小心地藏好，准备积到足够多的时候，一起吞下去。他确实不想活了，没有子衿妹子的日子，对于他来说，就像是没有了血液的身体，就像是没有了水流的土地，一切都已经没有意义。
二十多天后，他已经积下了一大堆白白的药片。他想，这么多药应该已经够了，他可以行动了。那个晚上，又停电了，整个医院漆黑一片，只有走道上，有值班护士点的一盏马灯微弱的光。白长山知道，此时整所医院绝大多数人都睡下了，连值班护士也都睡下了。他借助那盏马灯的微光爬起来，给自己倒了一杯水，抓起那些药片往嘴里塞。药片太多了，一次塞不下，他分了好几次。塞几片药，喝点水吞下，再塞几片药。将所有的药片吞完，他重新在床上躺下来，看着天花板，默默地说道：子衿妹子，哥走了。这一辈子，我们做不成夫妻了，我下一辈子再来找你。谢谢你给我的爱，让我在朝鲜那段日子过得充实而又美丽。那是我一生中最幸福最快乐最美妙的日子。谢谢你妹子，你给了我最美丽的感情、最温馨的回忆。有了这一切，我走向黄泉的路上，将不再孤单。
如果不是凌晨时分来电了，如果值班护士不是恰好被一泡尿憋醒，如果她没有那么高的觉悟，如果不是对白长山的爱情故事充满着理解和同情，如果没有那么多巧合的如果，白长山可能永远地离开了人世。
因为晚饭的菜太咸了，护士小姐睡觉前喝了太多的水，结果躺在值班室的床上，憋得实在是难受，无穷无尽的梦里，她到处找地方拉尿。跑到路边的一丛野草之中，刚拉下裤子，正准备尿个痛快，突然发现不远处有个男人走过来。她大吃一惊，连忙提起裤子就跑。跑到一间乡村粪坑，蹲下去便拉，稀里哗啦，哇，痛快至极。可是，这尿咋就这么多呀，拉了那么长时间还没有拉完，小腹仍然憋得难受。不好，这乡村粪坑只有半截土墙，土墙之上，有一个男人在偷看呢。她大惊失色，一提裤子就往外跑。不知怎么回事，她躺到了自己的床上，不留神就尿了个黄河滔滔长江滚滚，主任来了，大声批评她：你咋回事儿？这么大个人，咋就尿炕了？她一惊，醒了。醒来之后，伸手去摸了摸身下的床。谢天谢地，床单是干的。她跳起来往厕所跑，从厕所出来时，整个人都轻松了。此时她才发现，不知啥时候来电了，许多病房的灯没关。这咋行？这不是浪费国家的电力资源吗？
女护士一个房间一个房间去关灯，同时查看一下躺在床上的病人。被子搭在床下的，帮忙掖一下，手脚露在外面的，给放进去。走到白长山的房间，见他睡得很好，她关了灯就离开了。离开之后总觉得有什么不对头。What's wrong?Can't figure it out.她回到值班室，躺下来。房间很静，可不知从哪里传来一阵滞重的鼾声。她勾起身子，听了听，没有。再躺下来，又听到了那滞重的鼾声。此时，她脑中有了突然通电的感觉。鼾声？对，鼾声，正是鼾声不对。偶尔能听到白长山睡觉时的鼾声，那鼾声是畅快淋漓优雅欢畅的，就像一首小夜曲。可这次她听到的鼾声完全不同，沉重急促，仿佛正承受着千钧压迫。不对，这种鼾声太不对了。
女护士从床上一跃而起，再次进入了白长山的病房。她拉开电灯，走到白长山床前，认真地看他。他静静地躺在那里，鼾声如闷雷般轰响，口里有一大团肥皂泡一般的白色泡沫，那一团泡沫由许多的小泡组成，吸气的时候，那些泡沫往他的口腔里缩进去，呼气时，泡沫又冒出来，总有几个泡异常胀大，随后啪的一声破裂。女护士转身就跑，跑到医生房间，拼命捶着她的门。医生穿着睡衣出来了，一边往外跑一边往身上套工作服。医生跑进