Chapter 13 fall season

Both Guan Rongjia and An Yisi were the first graduates of the private junior high school that was established in Taipei in 1962 and was known for corporal punishment since its enrollment.Neither of them got in. Rong Jia gave up her place in the women's high school and sold her face to her female relatives who run the school, and was invited to "support" and promote her as a top student; It's about friendship. The school has strict management, and male and female students are not allowed to give or receive privately, but one is often praised in public, and the other is often punished in public, they are both considered celebrities in the school, and they are familiar with each other even if they have no chance to talk to each other.Once, Rong Jia and Yi Si were detained in the principal's office after class, Rong Jia was preparing for an academic competition, and Yi Si was fined to clean up because of a crime.Yi Si took a broom and walked around Rong Jia, peeking at the model students with their heads down and working hard. The girl's white and tender skin and smooth lines from ears to neck actually aroused the boy's inexplicable excitement for the first time in his life.For a long time, Yisi plucked up the courage to talk to Rong Jia. Rong Jia not only responded kindly, but also invited him to eat a biscuit, leaving the most beautiful memory for Yisi's painful three years in junior high school.After graduating from junior high school, the two lost contact until Rong Jia, who came home late after tutoring after the second year of high school, encountered a small hooligan in Ximending, and Yi Si happened to help her out of the siege before meeting again.

"The first reunion was in 1967, in Ximending, no, it was 1966," Rong Jia said, "I remember my father working overtime every day to prepare for the extension of compulsory education to nine years. "Rong Jia recalled the past events that had passed for more than ten years.It was the first reunion for the hero to save the beauty. Afterwards, the two started a formal relationship, and they broke up when she graduated from university and she went abroad to study.They didn't see each other for five or six years, and they met again at the border between the United States and Canada.Leaning on the railing, Rongjia took a deep breath of the fresh, steamy air next to Niagara Falls, and exclaimed, "The air here is really good!"

"Fortunately, there was no nine-year national education before. Otherwise, I would not have failed the entrance examination in junior high school. If I did not fail the examination, my second mother would not have taught me to meet you in school." Yisi completely ignored the beautiful scenery in front of him, staring at the ponytail The side face of Rongjia, I still feel that Rongjia's lines from ears to neck are very sexy.He flattered and said affectionately with the literary accent that he thought Rong Jia would buy it: "If you have to be in hell to meet angels, then I was beaten by the old witch for three years and it was not in vain."

Rong Jia thought of Yisi who shaved his head and was always called out to be punished in court meetings, looked back and smiled and said, "Did I know you when I was in junior high school?" "Yes, you are the number one in the school, you are so high above, you never thought that you will fall in love with a bad student who is like a scum!" Yi Si embraced Rong Jia from behind, clasping his four hands tightly, and the two of them, who were about the same height, had their cheeks pressed against each other. together.He likes to hug her from behind like this the most, but it still feels unreal to hold her with his hands like buckets.The education of scholar-bureaucrats was rooted in the minds of that generation, forming a spiritual moat between the two lovers.Yi Si sometimes feels that the label of "bad student" is like an invisible straw mark of a death row prisoner, which is always stuck in his neck and will follow him until the moment he falls down.

Rong Jia said softly, "I fell in love with a handsome bad student." He was wearing an indigo-colored Haizhuan long coat, and he flew to kick the tofu-eating little hooligan to the ground. It was a classic scene she would never forget. "Are you handsome? Didn't your father think I'm too short and wants you to consider eugenics?" Yi Si seemed to be joking, but felt a little bitter in his heart.Yisi looks like his mother, with delicate features that are almost feminine, but his body is short and stocky.When the two were dating in Taiwan, apart from his academic qualifications, Yisi knew that they also disliked his height, style of conversation, and age.

"Is your height alright? What my dad cares most about is that you are younger than me." Yi Si was only born three months later than Rong Jia, but Xu was one year younger.Rong Jia smiled and said: "You also know that my mother has the final say in my family. She herself is not married to tall people. She never disliked my father, and she never said that height is a problem." But Mrs. Guan wrongly criticized Yi Si as a "concubine".It was later found out that Yisi's mother was the first wife who was neglected after arriving in Taiwan, and that it was the second wife who accompanied An's father on the scene to socialize. The two young people have already broken up, so there is no need to continue discussing this issue.

Mrs. Guan and Mrs. An were both high-ranking civil servants who moved from the mainland to Taiwan with the Kuomintang government in 1949. At that time, the concept of "public servants" was not clear. They are well matched, but in the society back then, academic qualifications were in command, and the two minors had "disparity in identities": Rong Jia was an honor student at Taipei's first choice girls' high school, and a gangster from a maritime specialty who was famous for fighting, shouldn't even walk on the street. Together, let alone fall in love? When Rong Jia was supposed to be preparing for the college entrance examination without any distractions, her first love really affected her results in the entrance exam. Although she still got into National Taiwan University, she failed to get into the foreign language department that her parents expected.But she herself is quite open-minded, and thinks that as long as she studies literature, she is interested.Anyway, she was only responsible for studying since she was a child, and her parents have always been worrying about her future. She never thought about her future after graduating from the Chinese Department for four years.

Yisi was studying the five-year maritime college. When Rongjia was in his junior and senior years, he was called up to serve in the military at the right age.In those days, it was common for men to serve in the army, girlfriends to "mutiny", and relationships to fail.The two elders of the Guan family, who were originally worried about their daughter's boyfriend's poor conditions, were relieved. Unexpectedly, the two younger ones met through correspondence and holidays, and their relationship did not change.At that time, women’s youth was much shorter than modern women’s. The jingle used to ridicule female college students was “the freshman is pretty, the sophomore is arrogant, the junior raises the alarm, and the senior is not wanted”.Although Rong Jia’s parents planned for their daughter’s life to study abroad after graduating from university, they often reminded her that people like Yi Si could only be friends of the opposite sex, not counting them. They encouraged her to make friends with other “like-minded”, Boyfriends who plan to study abroad in the future are the right ones.

Under the double pressure of her parents and her age, the spoiled Rongjia no longer knows how to plan ahead for the future. On the eve of graduation, she also feels that she needs to face up to where her relationship with Yisi for many years will go. "Are you going to go abroad in the future?" Rong Jia, who was sitting on the lover's seat in the coffee shop, avoided Yi Si's raindrop kiss and asked a serious question again. "I love you, I love you so much!" Yi Si, who came out of the military camp on vacation, only wanted to be tender in his heart. Rong Jiabo said angrily: "You know if you don't go abroad, we will be doomed!" In Taiwan under martial law, it is not easy for citizens to go abroad. Except for a few royal relatives who can come and go freely, only "study abroad" is the right way.

Yisi hurriedly said: "I'm going to board a boat in the future. Doesn't boarding a boat mean leaving the country?" Rong Jia knew that was different, she felt very sad, and felt that she had no future with her loved one, so she kissed her boyfriend back frantically and said goodbye in her heart with tears in her eyes.Yisi's enthusiasm was further aroused by his girlfriend's initiative, and his blood was racing for a while, and his hands became dishonest. "Don't, Yisi, don't!" Rong Jia resisted responsibly, "Don't do this, I'm going home!"

Yi Si is really not reconciled, every vacation he has is not easy to come by.But after all, in the private seat of the cafe, there are limited things that can be done.He made up his mind that he must find a place to let their love fully mature. A month or so later, Rong Jia sat on the back seat of Yisi's motorcycle, with her face pressed against his back and her arms around his waist. She still couldn't believe that she had the guts to tell a big lie and told the team The teacher had an urgent matter at home, so he temporarily withdrew from the graduation trip, and let his boyfriend who stopped him take him away. After the double-loaded motorcycle left Taichung, Rongjia was full of excitement, fear, and romantic longing, so that she had no time to look at the scenery on both sides. All she knew was that they kept running into the mountains and passed a boundary. The stone tablet engraved "Guguan" "Two words.It was getting dark after that. There is no light pollution in the mountains, and the hotel room is dark even with thin window screens.Yi Si, who entered the door, did not turn on the light, and Rong Jia stood in the room with her head down, at a loss. "Rong Jia, oh, Rong Jia!" Yisi called and kissed her, picked her up and put her gently on the bed. Rong Jia's whole body was stiff, as if she was overly frightened, letting herself be manipulated.But since he accepted the instigation and left the team, and experienced the embarrassing scene of taking out his ID card to register for accommodation without escaping, a tacit understanding was formed, and everything should have been said without saying anything.But just when the two met each other in flesh and silk, and Yi Si was deeply intoxicated, Rong Jia suddenly struggled: "Yi Si, don't, don't, please——" Yi Si planned for a long time, bowed and bowed in the army, begged his father for help, and did a lot of work for his colleagues, so that he was able to take a vacation during Rongjia's graduation trip.It was precisely after looking forward to it for a long time, seeing that her love was about to blossom and bear fruit, Rong Jia's soft words and pleadings could be heard without words, not only could not be deafening, but had the opposite effect at all.So he also murmured in response: "I love you, really, I love you. Let me love you..." All the while exerting strength on his hands and body in order to subdue it. Rong Jia suddenly turned her head, and tears fell down.Seeing that his lover was sad, Yisi immediately woke up, and he didn't dare to push forward any more. He said, "You don't want to? I won't force you." He fell asleep next to Rongjia, and pulled the quilt for the two of them. For a long time, Rongjia asked quietly: "Are you angry?" Yisi replied briefly: "No!" After a few seconds of silence, Rong Jia insisted in a weeping voice, "You're mad at me." Yisi's heart was actually blank, his brain hadn't returned to its place in his crotch, it was not the time to think and argue, and the question was just silence. After a few seconds of silence, Rong Jia suddenly hugged Yisi, buried her nose in his armpit, and said with a sob: "I love you! I love you!" Her rationality was covered by the determination and romance of the two of them who had no tomorrow. Yi Si felt the warm virgin body clinging tightly to him, and his hand swam over automatically without the command of his brain.He groaned in pain and begged: "Stay away from me, I'm afraid I can't help but rape you." Rong Jia was still crying, her body trembling slightly, as if she had made up her mind to devote herself, but she was crying very sadly.Yisi was troubled by the contradictory messages sent by his lover, and his heart was also struggling. His hands were stroking the smooth back of the woman, but the crying in his ears reminded him that he should not be reckless. Heaven and man have been at war for a long time. Love overcomes desire, and he bows his head. Kissing her forehead, said softly: "You want to wait until the wedding day, right?" Feeling that Rong Jia nodded, he said generously like a hero: "Don't worry, I won't force you." Rong Jia stopped crying, sobbing and said: "I'm afraid of getting pregnant, and then we can't be together—" Just afraid of pregnancy?Not angry, not unwilling?Yisi came to the spirit when he had hope, and said sincerely: "Don't be afraid! Don't you believe me? I will take responsibility. We will get married when I get pregnant. No, I will marry you before I get pregnant. I love you, really I love you, I just want to be with you forever—" His hand helped. "Yi Si!" Rong Jia cried out his name, her voice full of pleas for forgiveness, "How can you be responsible without my parents' consent? How can we get married?" "Okay, okay!" Yisi was completely awake when he heard his girlfriend mention "parents", and rolled away as he said in his mouth, "I won't touch you if I don't touch you!" Yisi's sweaty body was exposed to the cold air in the mountains and felt very comfortable. He felt a little drowsy in a daze, and thought in a daze, since it can't be a good thing, it's better to sleep and have a good dream than nothing. ... Just at the moment when he was about to fall into a dream—— "You're angry with me!" Rong Jia leaned over again. "No!" Yi Si felt that he would cry if he could.He begged: "Please, spare me, can you sleep? I got up at three o'clock in the morning and rode for a whole day. Let's just sleep, okay?" Rong Jia didn't speak, she wrapped her arms around his waist from behind, her tear-stained face pressed against his back.Yi Si sighed, although his eyes were still closed, he was already fully awake.The room was dark, it made no difference whether the eyes were open or closed, her naked body was pressed against his, thinking about it was even more unbearable.Yi Si reached out and slapped on the bedside lamp.Rong Jia was startled, bounced back, wrapped herself in the quilt, and asked in a trembling voice, "Do you want...do...?" "Let me see you," Yisi's voice was surprisingly calm and gentle, "I just want to see you, I can't do anything." Yisi gently lifted the quilt, marveling at the unreserved beauty of Rongjia in front of him, and never forgetting to promise: "Don't be afraid, I won't do anything to you..." With tears in her eyes, Rong Jia murmured: "Don't forget me... I just want you not to forget today... Will you forget today? Will you forget me?" Her bottom line is to keep her virginity for her future husband.She knew that that person was not her lover tonight! "Ah—how could you forget?" Yi Si answered Rong Jia's request with a painful voice, "I will never forget it for the rest of my life!" He thought that he had memorized every detail of his lover by savoring his lips and scanning with his eyes under the lamp that night. Even if he couldn't marry her in the future, he would engrave it in his heart for the rest of his life.Unexpectedly, a good night is short, but life is very long, so that when they reunited for the third time when they were over 60 years old, the version of his memory of this event has been wiped out, leaving only the young self how to keep promises, once big De Gaoyi is a current Liu Xiahui who can sit still! "I will always remember every minute of that night in Guguan!" Years of experience living in a country where relations between men and women are relatively open, and the growth of age has eliminated the shyness of the past. That night.Although the United States and Canada reunited on the border for the second time in the 1970s, the fate was only a short day and one night. After a farewell, thirty-five years later, the two reunited for the third time in Taiwan. It seems that this French restaurant in Taipei is not ordinary for Yisi, who is in a very good financial situation, to invite his ex-lover. A set meal recommended by the chef costs nearly 10,000 NT dollars, but the music is soft and the lights are dim. It is very suitable for lovers to talk, but the dishes are already When it was time for dessert, Rong Jia still felt that the distance between the two hadn't gotten closer.She stays in Taiwan for a limited time, how can she be willing to let her first love, which she has been thinking about for decades, become nothing more than a triviality?The situation forced Rong Jia to resort to her trump card. Regardless of the abruptness, she took the initiative to bring up that a bit embarrassing, but Yi Si promised to never forget the "first night" forty years ago. "You said that you would never forget it in your life. You are so cute! You crawled over from the bed, that look, so sexy! I often dream about your eyes at that time," she sighed softly, "There is something in your eyes Lantern, you just want to see me, and you don’t do anything!” "I'm old, and I can't do anything now." Yi Si responded with humor, mocking himself humorously.After quitting the boat, he followed his brother-in-law to the business world, catching up with the good years when Taiwan's economy took off.There are frequent parties in Taipei shopping malls, and he also smokes and drinks too much, and looks older than he actually is.I eat too well, and I usually have a car to travel around. I only drive a golf cart to the green on weekends. When I see the ball, I take two steps forward and swing it. I don’t exercise enough. I have gained a lot of weight, but I have been pampered for many years. On the contrary, his demeanor changed for the better, with fat and short fingers interlaced on his beer belly, facing Rongjia, with a calm attitude and bright eyes.He hasn't forgotten his first love, but men and women have different brains, unlike Rong Jia's memory which focuses on "small characters", Yi Si's memory only has "small words and big meaning".At least the Chinese-American old woman in front of him and the goddess in Yi Si's memory are no longer compatible. Even under the dim light, he can't see where there is any charm of his first love?Although the young woman on the opposite side seemed to be in good health and spirited, but she was plain-faced, with neat short hair and starry white strands that could not be hidden. It was not the same as the well-groomed Taiwanese women he was used to seeing over the years.After a while he said: "America advocates nature, so do I. You see, I don't even dye my hair." While Rong Jia explained how she couldn't dye her hair because of the bleaching effect of the chemical in the swimming pool every morning, she secretly realized that Yi Si had actually noticed that she was getting old.Since Rongjia left Taiwan to study in the United States after graduating from university, she rarely returns to her hometown, and even if she does, she only stays for a short time, but every time she is shocked by the changes in her hometown.Especially in recent years, the medical beauty and plastic surgery that has become popular in Taipei really made her, a foreign bun who came back from the United States, dumbfounded.Taipei is small, and the social circle is so small that it is easy to meet old acquaintances. This time, she first met Yi Si's sister An Xin by chance.An Xin is several years older than her and Yi Si, but she looks younger than Rong Jia in her 70s!Yisi's contact method is given to her with peace of mind.After the two lost contact at the U.S.-Canada border, mutual acquaintances still heard news from each other intermittently, knowing that each had a family.When they reunited for the second time, they were not yet married, they were unmarried, but they didn't handle it well, and they broke up tragically. Rong Jia didn't dare to mention it casually.In fact, if An Xin hadn't heard that Yi Si was doing well now, even if he was an old man, Rong Jia wouldn't even have the courage to take the initiative to contact him. Her return period is long this time, there are few programs, and she needs to fill up a lot of free time, but she still hesitates until she is leaving in a few days before she dares to contact her. "It's more than a hundred years old, and it's just a phone call with an old friend I haven't seen for more than 30 years..." She deceived herself.However, it was first love after all. Although I didn't miss it every day after breaking up, I really didn't forget each other.She hadn't seen anyone yet, but she heard Yisi's voice on the phone trembling, and felt that time hadn't diminished her eternal status in his heart, and as soon as her vanity was satisfied, she made an appointment to see her logically.She wasn't particularly disappointed with his appearance. At this age, "whether he is" is more important than "fat or not", and "whether his hair is white or not" is more important. "How long has it been? Thirty-five years? The last time we met was at Niagara Falls." Yisi said lightly, smiling, "Do you remember, I couldn't do it at that time." Rong Jia softly called out: "You still remember!" His old face turned red. The second reunion had an embarrassing incident, and Rong Jia was quite surprised that she thought it was a big secret that she would not mention in this life, but Yi Si opened up and chatted rashly. The two lovers who had broken up back then made an appointment to meet in a third place.As soon as they entered the room, both of them thought about the unfinished meaning of that night in Guguan more than five years ago.Yi Si kissed Rong Jia, with infinite tenderness in his heart.This time it was different, this time it was Rong Jia who asked him to come.After she went abroad, she was busy adapting to the new environment. It was inconvenient for him to receive letters while traveling by boat.It was the first time that the container ship that Yisi worked on docked at the East Port of the United States, and he only stayed for a short time. He hesitated for a long time whether to call Rongjia to say hello.He was glad that he made the phone call after all, after all, he was his first love for many years, and he felt the resurgence of old feelings while chatting on the phone.Originally, Yi Si didn't hold any hope, he just wanted to ask about the current situation, he thought that even if Rong Jia said that he was going to get married, he would only offer his blessings.Unexpectedly, she told her lovesickness frankly, and finally told him that she needs to leave the country tomorrow and go to Canada to apply for a passport. She really hopes that he will come here for a while, and she will arrange a hotel for him to check in first.Although he knows that this trip is dangerous, if he fails to return after the holiday, he will be regarded as "jumping ship", and he may end up in the United States and become a black household.His predecessors warned him not to go to the border. The passport in his hand does not have a Canadian visa. It is like "traveling without a document" and he may be arrested at any time.However, all the scruples are no match for the heart of yearning, so Yi Si bites the bullet and goes to the appointment. "It's a good thing." In the hotel room where he could vaguely hear the roar of the waterfall in the distance and couldn't reach his fingers, his lips were able to explore the old place.Yisi thought to himself: "Everything is worth it!" When Rong Jiabi was in Taiwan, she was a little plump, kissing her lover's smooth skin, Yisi felt as if it were an illusion, the only thing that was at ease was that this was not their feudal and conservative hometown, it was Thousands of miles away, the hotel honeymoon suite next to Niagara Falls.Although they are not just newlyweds, the lack of the marriage certificate that will be filled sooner or later will not stop his enthusiasm.After serving as a soldier, Yi Si got on a boat and wandered all over the world for several years. He has experienced partners of various skin colors in major ports around the world.He took out his methods, carefully, gently, and slowly, he wanted to give his goddess a romantic first night. When Rong Jia's tears flowed down her cheeks, Yi Si Chu Chu thought they were tears of happiness.He gently kissed away one drop, two drops, three drops, five drops, eight drops, ten drops... Finally he asked in a panic, "Baby, what's wrong? Why are you so sad?" Rong Jia gradually turned from silent sobbing to howling.Yi Si hugged the beautiful woman into his arms, heartbroken and puzzled, ruffled Rong Jia's hair, murmured comfortingly: "I won't hurt you, I will cherish you very much, I love you... oh, do you know Know how much I love you!" Rong Jia buried her head on Yisi's chest and wept bitterly, intermittently telling about her sufferings in the five years since she left the country: the time she came to the United States coincided with the climax of the Diaoyu Movement, as long as young people who grew up under martial law in Taiwan still had a little blood , How can there be resistance to revolutionary romance?Rong Jia left her homework and joined the Baodiao Club, and because she was good-looking and could speak and write, she was pushed to the front row of the team. After going to New York for a series of parades during the summer vacation, she was targeted by vocational students from the Kuomintang and reported When I returned to Taiwan, I was blacklisted by the authorities. Not to mention that I had to return home, and my father, who was working in a government agency, was also implicated.Being in a foreign country, being attacked at home and abroad, my school grades have dropped. After two or three years, the scholarship is hopeless, not to mention the long-awaited Master of Arts degree. business.How could I have imagined that I could not find a job even though I had obtained a junior business certificate without a resident status, so I had to accept a Ph.D. in electrical engineering who could apply for a green card after graduation, and registered for marriage.This time, after she left the country and changed her visa, she would hold a wedding and move into the married student dormitory that was about to be filled.She asked Yi Si to meet to say goodbye, and they only have fate for one night.She doesn't love that person, she doesn't want to be chaste for a husband who doesn't have feelings, she loves Yisi, she should give herself to him at Guguan, she cries for him to understand, she can't let her parents feel that she is in America If they can't get along, the two elders still hope that she can help her younger brother study abroad in the future.And don't say she can't go back, even if she can go back to Taiwan, her parents won't let her marry a sailor who has been wandering all year round.How could she have the heart to disappoint her parents who devoted themselves to cultivating her and sending her to study abroad? ! "Are you just being cruel to me? Are you just letting me down?" Yisi felt the cold water pouring on him, and his heart was broken into powder.Although since Rong Jia left Taiwan, he no longer has any hope of staying with his beloved forever, and the deep-rooted love when he first separated has cooled down after five years, but since the man is unmarried and the woman is unmarried, the love is not extinguished. Not to death.Especially this time when Rongjia deliberately arranged a reunion, he overcame all difficulties and took the risk to come to the reunion, just because of the resurgence of passion, he lost his mind.Who would have thought that tonight he risked all difficulties to attend the appointment, but it was actually a farewell!Yisi felt a turmoil in his heart, broke his heart with pain, and shed tears.He closed his eyes in pain, and said heavily, "Why didn't you tell me on the phone?" Rong Jia didn't answer, she only acted defensively and became offensive, imitating Yi Si's previous behavior, and became obsessed with her boyfriend who died because of excessive sadness.Yisi was troubled and hurt in his heart, but he was a young man after all, his enthusiasm and anger rose at the same time under Rong Jia's provocation, he began to react, and he hated himself: "You are going to get married, Are you afraid of getting pregnant like me?" Rong Jia still didn't answer, her upper body had already slept on the other side of the bed. His body is enjoying the lover's lingering, but he is angry in his heart, how can his goddess be like a prostitute in the port?And she and him are only tonight, after tonight, she will be with another man, together for the rest of her life! Yisi suddenly yelled, "I'll fuck you!" and suddenly turned over to hold down Rongjia.The humiliated Rongjia was frightened for only a second, and pushed Yisi away with all her strength, and burst into tears: "I want you to love me! Woooo—you don't love me anymore——" Yisi immediately Shocked, he stood up and said, "Forget it, forget it, I'm leaving now, lest I miss the boat." Rong Jia cried and hugged him: "Don't go! I won't let you go!" "I won't leave, you marry me?" Yi Si didn't get an answer.He sighed, stroked Rongjia's hair and said, "It's not that your parents look down on me, it's you who look down on me. You'd better marry your doctor." Rong Jia hugged Yisi tightly, and refused to let go no matter what, feeling that she owed him the affection she could only repay with herself.She threw away her face and continued to cling, refusing to let go.In the end, Yi Si also wanted to make it happen, but it was too late, no matter how hard he tried, he lost his glory. After tossing and tossing until dawn, the two of them were so tired that they fell asleep, and this life unexpectedly failed a good night again.Worse than the last time, this time both of them were traumatized.When they left the hotel one after the other, they deliberately avoided their eyes.Yisi was worried that he would not be able to catch the boat, and was restless. Before he left, the hotel money was hung on Rongjia’s credit card. Later, when his husband paid the bill, he blamed Rongjia for being a poor student who lived alone in a high-priced suite. After a few years of marriage, I used it as an example of my wife loosening hands and repeated it in front of others in the form of small talk, making a small mistake an embarrassing memory, reminding Rong Jia time and time again that she didn't get what she wanted, and it felt like marrying her as a virgin A man who doesn't love.In the following years, she occasionally thought of the crazy night in the honeymoon suite at Niagara Falls, and she also reviewed whether Yi Si had a physical problem, or was she too hysterical to force her partner to leave?After Yisi left, he went on a wild adventure, risked his life and rushed on the road, and jumped on the deck of the merchant ship that delayed his departure at the last minute.But in the end, he made a big mistake. After returning to Taiwan, he was not re-employed and was forced to leave his beloved sailing career. Fortunately, his brother-in-law who started the company took him in, and he started to learn to be a businessman from carrying the purse for his brother-in-law.In addition to the impact on his career in the future, his traumatic journey only proved that his lover looked down on him, and his goddess never hugged him again, and will never see him again. However, life is so unpredictable, they reunited for the third time in Taipei. "Why don't you remember?" Yi Si forced a smile, "It's a shame and humiliation in my life! Fortunately, my wife gave birth to two children for me, and I regained my confidence. Do you have any children?" Rong Jia shook her head and said no, she did. Three dogs, also like children.After Rong Jia finished speaking, she lowered her head a little lonely and concentrated on eating dessert. "Your hair style looks like when you were a child," Yisi looked at the side of Rongjia with her head hanging down. Under the dim light, she saw that her ears and neck lines were just like before. Suddenly, his heart moved, and although he had hidden it deeply, he had never forgotten it. tenderness, "Later you kept growing your hair long, and you often tied it in a ponytail." "It's not because you said you like me like that!" Rong Jia raised her eyes to look at people, and a few strands of hair fell down on her forehead, which reminded Yisi of the way she used to love to glance at him from under her bangs.All of a sudden, Yisi's brain began to automatically filter out the years from the signals received from his eyes, and the woman in front of him became more and more like the person he was familiar with when he was young.He reached out to hold Rongjia's hand. "Oh, you are still the same as before, but you saw me on the road and didn't recognize me? We will meet again in 2011..." Yi Si sighed, and then asked softly, "How have you lived these years? Are you okay?" The two had already asked each other hello when they were serving appetizers, but it was only after dessert that they held hands and asked again that Rong Jia felt affection. Tears rolled in Rongjia's eyes, she shook her head, and began to tell: Last year, someone saw her professor's husband and a Chinese graduate student kissing at the airport. She also expressed remorse, and the two consulted several marriage experts in an attempt to restore it, but she felt unforgivable.I have officially separated from my husband for almost half a year, and if I don't cancel it, I will be considered divorced.Although the two parties agreed to separate, it is still sad to end the marriage of more than 30 years.Living alone is boring, and she devotes herself to work. Unexpectedly, the company was hit by the financial crisis years ago, and its profitability dropped sharply. Senior employees were forced to take vacations. She changed from working overtime every day to having more than a month of vacation in her hands. The life changes are too great. Difficult to adapt, afraid of being depressed and sick at home, plan to go out to relax.But no matter where she goes for a long vacation, it is a huge expense. Fortunately, although her parents spend most of their time at her brother’s home in the United States, the old apartment in Taiwan is still vacant. became the only option.Originally, when she first arrived in Taipei, she felt more stuffy than in the United States. The weather was hot and humid, the house was old, crowded with people, the streets were full of exhaust gas, and the environment was terrible. It was not fun at all.But when I gradually got in touch with my former classmates and friends, we gathered and visited each other, expanding my social circle, and Rongjia’s life became more lively. Although I still felt that the living environment in Taipei was too bad, the warmth of human affection made her linger. .When Yisi holds her hand, Taipei will be her lovely hometown. He takes her home.Before she got out of the car, she leaned over and pecked his cheek like a foreign woman, and he took advantage of the opportunity to kiss her lightly.Yisi felt as nervous as eighteen years old. At the door of her house, which was still a Japanese-style house at that time, the hand holding Rongjia's chin was trembling. Yisi was a little dazed when he was driving home, thinking about the kiss after thirty-five years of absence.Thinking of the second reunion when Rong Jia cheered him up, she said that the meaning of "sex" in Western culture is only "sex", but "kiss" represents love, and the implication is to forgive him for his poor performance at that time.He has been playing around in the Taipei shopping mall in Huahua World for many years. Compared with other men who often go in and out of Fengyue places, he is considered clean and self-sufficient.It’s hard for Taiwanese men to talk about business without a hotel where there are “cute eyebrows”. When they go there, they can’t sit upright and seem out of place. Show without Miss.Pig friends and dog friends laughed at him for being afraid of his wife, and he said that he "had enough fun" when he was running the boat.In fact, after experiencing that grueling night at Niagara Falls, he lost confidence, and his fate with the firework girl was not as good as expected, and he gradually distanced himself from women.It wasn't until he met his wife who was ten years younger than him, who treated him very patiently and soon became pregnant, that the prodigal son settled down.Yisi loves his family very much, especially his son and daughter, and he has "respect" for his wife.But that is not love.He loved it, he knew it. The woman who fascinated him reappeared. "I'm getting old like that," Yi Si savagely attacked his old lover's appearance in his heart, wanting to give up on himself, "I don't even know how to put on makeup! I don't even dye my hair!" But why is he restless? "It's a good thing we only came here to make a fuss and left soon! We're a hundred and twenty years old, and we're just old friends..." As he thought about it, he took out his mobile phone, dialed Rong Jia, and said that he would farewell for her. Rong Jia said that he was leaving the day after tomorrow, and there was a lot of food in the refrigerator to deal with. If he didn't mind, it would be convenient to chat at home, so let her be the host and help digest the stock.When Yisi arrived, she realized that the stock was all fruits, and the staple food was bought from outside, so she cooked a meal and opened a bottle of red wine.The two chatted while eating, talking about interesting things in the past and the current situation of acquaintances. After dinner, Rongjia invited him to the balcony to watch the night view.The location of the old house is good. After being rebuilt into a building, the one assigned to the original owner is facing the forest park. It may have a pleasant view during the day, but it is dark at night, so what is there to see?However, Rong Jia, who was wearing a long dress with a backless and big flowers, leaned on the railing, and Yi Si naturally hugged her from behind. Yi Si's movements were very familiar, as if the two had practiced cooperation An endless dance.But he immediately became angry with himself, feeling that he had once again fallen into Rong Jia's preset trap. "An old woman dares to do this with me! You're playing me!" He thought angrily, but couldn't let go of his hand.Cheek to cheek, Yisi deliberately recalled the wrinkles and eye bags on Rongjia's face after this reunion to disgust himself, but the skin on his cheeks insisted on reminding him of his lover's skin as smooth as a peeled egg when he was young. The face, the old woman in his arms gradually transformed into the eternal Shaoai in his heart.His thoughts suddenly jumped to the famous quotes of other drinkers quoted by a lady in a certain hotel: "Love is all imagined!" He hated his own imagination, ordered his brain to stop associating, but couldn't stop.He pulled Rong Jia's body and kissed her deeply and passionately like when he was young. When she reached into his shirt and stroked the layers of loose fat around his waist, Yi Si was shocked to realize what was going on.He gently pushed Rong Jia away, and said helplessly, "It's getting late, it's time to go home." When saying goodbye at the door, Rong Jia pulled Yisi back and kissed her goodbye, she shed tears and said: "I love you." Yisi said painfully: "Stop it! It adds up to one hundred and two What's the point of saying this when you're more than ten years old?" 他不知道到了这个年纪，人还能为从前的那点事伤心，发动车子的时候，亦嗣后悔了一下没把降血压的药带在身边。他把冷气调到最高，又把车窗也降下来通风，避免头昏。亦嗣感觉这是另一个挫败的夜晚，榕嘉拿他一个垂老的有妇之夫来证明自己的魅力犹存简直是不道德，而他，哪怕激情不再都偏偏对她一点抵抗力也没有！他安亦嗣是一个什么大风浪没见过的老水手，竟然又着了关榕嘉这个女人的道？难道她这样勾引他，请了他到自宅款待酒菜，以为他会“收下”一个比自己老婆大十岁，热吻时完全不感觉冲动的老太婆？ 可是又一次亦嗣不记得自己是怎么把车开到家的。今夜更甚，他连自己怎么漱洗睡上了床都不明白，身边躺着为他生儿育女的妻子，心里想的全是榕嘉，样貌、声音，短头发、长头发，从前的、现在的，具体形象完全不重要，反正喜怒嗔乐，老了还是那个人！ 榕嘉也想着亦嗣，觉得回到了从前的感情。亦嗣现在老胖又不健康的样子并没有让榕嘉倒胃口，反而产生了怜惜，她真想陪在他身边，鼓励他和她一起去晨泳、打球、散步，过健康的生活。接下来两天周末双休，她打他手机没人接听，忽然想到他是有家室的人，周末是“家庭日”，可能不方便，心就痛了整天。离开那天她一早接到亦嗣的电话：“你今天就回去了吧？没有时间替你饯行了，就在这里祝你一路平安。以后……见面也不容易了吧。” “亦嗣，”榕嘉喊他，声音里已经带着泪，“你保重，我担心你的身体，多运动。” “你还是跟你先生和好吧，如果你以后一个人，我也不放心。可是我老婆没有对不起我，我想了很久，我不会离婚的。唉——”亦嗣的声音起先很沉重，叹口气后，他尽量轻快地说，“你们也老夫老妻的了，有什么过不去的？我对我老婆的要求不高，她找我麻烦，我就躲远点，我们有孩子，日子过得下去最重要。” 榕嘉说：“你能想到要不要和你太太离婚，我就很感动了。是我对不起你，可是当年我上了警总的黑名单……” 亦嗣有丝不耐地打断榕嘉的话头，道：“我没有想过要离婚，小孩都那么大了，怎么可以随便离婚？我也不会有婚外情，我爸爸有外遇，娶了二房，我妈妈孤独伤心了一辈子，我娶我老婆的时候就决定绝不能像我爸。怎么说呢，是我们没有缘分，我们的一切都过去了，配偶也是自己选择的。” 榕嘉感觉亦嗣的话说偏了方向，有点不高兴，带着反驳的语气道：“谁要你有婚外情？我怎么可能跟别人外遇？就算你和我都离婚了，我们也不一定会在一起的。” “你是博士夫人，美国留学生，”亦嗣冷笑起来，“你哪里看得起我们这种落后国家的土包子！” 两个人像小孩一样吵起来，找着对方的语病攻击，话不投机，不久说“再见”的时候已经没有意思要再见了。 榕嘉在飞机上怎么也睡不着，一路想着亦嗣，回味着两人的第三度重逢，觉得三十五年才一见的爱人，居然弄得再度含恨而别，懊恼非常，却又感觉今后自己是拉不下脸和亦嗣保持联系的了。 榕嘉回到美国家中，在她休假期间暂时搬回来，替她照顾狗的丈夫带了她的三只爱犬欢迎她归来。丈夫说她有时差，要她先休息，他会自行收拾东西关门离去。她躺在床上却睡不着，听到丈夫在外面喊着喂狗，后来又进屋来。她的心里想着亦嗣，想着他们在台北重逢后热切却毫无激情的长吻。榕嘉忽然觉得比自己还大了好几岁的丈夫已经算是个老人了，和女学生闹闹绯闻，能做得出什么来呢？哪怕丈夫现在还心里天天想着那个女学生，并不影响他们一起供房屋贷款和喂养三条狗呀。原来人可以心里想着一个人，日子却一天不落地过着。思想是谁钳制得了的呢？接个吻又是什么不可宽恕的罪呢？她想着微笑了，她无法原谅丈夫对婚姻不忠，忘了自己还计划过一个不忠诚的开头，只是亦嗣没能配合。榕嘉感觉漫长婚姻的美满和中乐透一样需要运气，将就一下，一辈子也就过了！榕嘉胡思乱想着更睡不着了，索性从床上一跃而起，走过客房门口时，驻足对正在收行李的丈夫说：“你那边的房租不便宜吧？如果你不介意住在同一个屋檐下，不用收了。”