Chapter 35 worldly happiness

Yi Shu wrote the article "Hu Lancheng's Next Work", it seems that he was really angry.First, he severely derogated Hu Lancheng, and even scolded such words as "to be old and not die is to be a thief, which makes people want to vomit". Then, he sighed again: "No matter what Aileen's own thoughts are, it doesn't matter whether she was young and ignorant at the time. Anyway, if she had chosen an atomic physicist, such a thing would never happen today." : "I'm telling the truth. At this moment, I just feel that no matter how well Aileen's articles are written, no matter how open-minded her heart is, her happiness is by no means the traditional happiness of women in China or the world."

I have always faced Aileen with a passionate emotion, loved her, and loved those related to her.This kind of emotion is so strong that I don't know it, and I feel that something is wrong. I want to overthrow something, but I can't bear it. Following Yi Shu's question, I was thinking, did Aileen really have traditional happiness, or worldly happiness?Humbleness, numbness, calculation, and betrayal are almost all the themes of the secular world.Aileen uncovered the trump card of the world, and saw that the background was desolate, without even a little bright color. "Falling is a tragedy of time. As soon as the boyhood is over, he is expelled from the Garden of Eden. The accident at home has already happened in the vulgar and gloomy adult world." She talked about the trivial things in the world with a cold eye.

How can such a state of mind accommodate worldly happiness!And true happiness cannot be obtained in the dunya.True happiness, in my opinion, should be as calm and clear as the ocean. Moreover, for the tall and thin Ailing, it is difficult for people to associate her with tenderness and affection, and it is even more difficult to associate her with childbearing. I also thought, if it wasn't Hu Lancheng, who would be the first to have Aileen?An atomic physicist?I sorted out the people who I thought were good matches in that era, but I really couldn't think of them.After much deliberation, only him.

As for Lai Ya, the American whom Aileen met at the age of thirty-six, a warm, frail old man.What kind of fate did it bring to Aileen?How does she evaluate her relationship?unknown.Judging from her usual demeanor, maybe it wasn't for the money.She traveled between the United States, Taiwan, and Hong Kong to treat his illness.She seemed to seldom think about such things, so she made hasty decisions.When everything is a foregone conclusion, you can only accept it. Although she pays attention to all kinds of details, there are many shrewd characters in her novels, but it is rare for her own life to have a shrewd arrangement, all of which are made hastily.Sloppy, lack of rhythm, and even somewhat illogical, it is difficult to describe with a complete storyline.This added a lot of difficulty to my clear expression.Or it is just like this that people have more curiosity beyond their works.

What did such a worldly marriage bring her?If it is a legend, it is also because of the legend of Aileen.A talent like her will always be a legend, and neither Hu Lancheng nor Lai Ya can change it.No matter how secular marriage is, it will become a legend. Therefore, there is no need to be far-fetched and exaggerate her emotional life too much. Whether it is with Hu Lancheng or Lai Ya, it is not such a brilliant and brilliant personality; it does not constitute a lifetime of glory or stain.Because maybe she never really paid attention. Mr. Xia Zhiqing once wondered why some people who did not have a deep relationship with Ai Ling would keep them in her "Comparative Notes" photobook; while her two husbands, Hu Lancheng and Lai Ya, were absent, the reason may be this.

This is my guess.