Chapter 33 hold your hand

On February 13, 1956, Ai Ling applied to write at the McDowell Literature and Art Camp.Meet Raya.At this time, Laiya was sixty-five years old and Ailing was thirty-six years old. At the end of March, the two exchanged visits to each other's studios.On April 1st they sat side by side in the great hall for Easter dinner.At the beginning of May, each other felt very interesting. On May 14th, Laiya bid farewell to the camp, and Aileen poured out her feelings to him.On June 30, Aileen's application period expired, and she moved into a fellow camper's house in New York. On July 5th, Lai Ya received a letter from Zhang Ailing, saying that she was pregnant with his child.Laiya writes back to propose to Ailing.

On August 14th, Aileen and Laiya held their wedding ceremony.Started the last love life of my life. Time, events, monotonous and boring.Nothing like the romance and passion of a first marriage. How could Aileen fall in love so quickly with her dignity and reserve?Many people have such doubts. "He is a rough person who likes to make friends, unlike me, but we are very close, and he feels redundant before he finishes a sentence." This is Aileen's evaluation of Laiya, which is very rare. Although he "understands", it is difficult to produce "compassion", and his words are somewhat helpless.Therefore, there is such a guess: Lai Ya is Aileen's choice in the face of life difficulties.His care and enthusiasm infected Ailing, and his intelligence and kindness moved Ailing.

The choice of Hu Lancheng may have the meaning of fate, but Lai Ya's appearance is so accidental.At this moment, she needs a husband, but not a Chinese.The reason may be the same as that her best friend is Yanying, not Su Qing. Is such a choice lucky or unfortunate?Like her first marriage, it is difficult to comment. Laiya is really kind to Aileen, she doesn't need to pay attention to trivial matters, she takes good care of her.He gave her the sense of security she needed, which was lost in Hu Lancheng.Hu Lancheng is a prodigal son, drifting with the wind, and he doesn't know where his roots are, so how can he be willing to give others safety?He can give her joy and joy, and make her want to die, but he can't give her "the years are quiet and peaceful, and the world is stable".

Compared with the short and beautiful union of the first beautiful time, the relationship between Ailing and Lai Ya is more like a marriage, plain and firm, step by step in the world of mortals.It cannot be said that there is no feeling at all between her and him, but passion takes a backseat.After all, eleven years have passed since the bright and green years with Hu Lancheng, no matter how good Liu Se Haoxue is, he has become a blue sky and yellow leaves. Such a marriage, although plain, is heavy.It was the first time I saw Laiya left so many diaries, and I was shocked and moved.Those details that record the life of him and Aileen are still preserved in the Maryland State Library in the United States. The quantity is huge, as dignified as their lives.

Lai Ya is a good person and also considered a talented person.He once invited screenwriters for Hollywood.Screenwriting is the most painful job in the dance of writing and ink. I search my brains to think about the story, but the format is monotonous, and I can never escape the dialogue scene.After a long time, the inspiration has dried up, and the talent has been stagnated by fame and fortune, and it has gradually fallen to the bottom.The sense of security he can give Aileen is always limited. Before they got married, Aileen was pregnant.Although Laiya proposed to her, she insisted that she kill the child.Aileen must be conflicted and painful, but what can she do?Two people with no fixed residence and meager income have given birth to a child. What do they rely on for a living?Not only was it a difficult problem for Lai Ya, but it was also a difficult choice for Aileen, who had just come to the United States and hoped to start over with writing.

I was full of sorrow, and thought of a Chinese saying: "The poor and humble couples mourn for everything."This grief is really straight to life, merciless. Life in the future is also so difficult and rough.The sales of her books in the United States are far worse than those in her home country, so she often returns to Taiwan and Hong Kong to earn living expenses.Her eyes bleed from the exhaustion of writing the script. Ai Ling has done such a desolate thing well, because there is no baseness in the heart, and there is no baseness in the natural person. When she was old, Lai Ya suffered several strokes and had to be taken care of by Ai Ling to recover. It is hard to imagine how this woman who can't even take care of herself in Shanghai learned to take care of others slowly.A woman will also grow into a woman, and she considers herself his wife.

Without Ailing, that kind and warm old man might never have been able to enter the Chinese people's field of vision.There are so many enthusiastic old people in the United States and the entire Western world, but they have nothing to do with the far east or China.He changed Ailes and influenced China.He didn't know until he died.