Chapter 10 youthful olive

You can see the changes in the world; you can feel the rush of time; you can enjoy the fun of life.What could be better than this?Pushkin's love, or Hemingway's loneliness, or Lu Youqing's "Death Diary".No, really, I opened my mind and really couldn't find it again. Pushkin's love is reckless, Hemingway's loneliness is sad, but Lu Youqing's death seems so helpless. What is the most valuable in life? In the following story, the protagonist tells his own story, which may give us new enlightenment. The year I met Qingqing was in the third year of high school.

That collective ranking made Qingqing and I have a chance to be the front and rear seats. I don't know much about Qingqing.It’s just that I heard my roommate talk about her before, saying that she is the most beautiful one in our class, but I never paid attention to it, because I was so focused on my studies. Occasionally when I raised my head, I could only see Qingqing's long black hair, but I didn't seem to find anything else, and I didn't want to find out.In the future relationship, I discovered that Qingqing is indeed beautiful, with a pair of gentle eyes, and a pair of deep dimples when she smiles.

However, at that time, I didn't have the heart to pay attention to these things.Qingqing always likes to ask me a lot of questions, and I always answer her patiently.Afterwards, Qingqing always responded with a sweet smile. My roommates said that Qingqing was interested in me, and I always responded with a smile, taking it all as their jokes, but never made a bold idea.Qingqing is an introverted girl, how could she be so fond of me? Qingqing's contact with me became more and more frequent, and she even turned her head to chat with me about wide-ranging topics, and she talked more about herself.One night during self-study, I was immersed in a problem, a piece of paper landed firmly on my desk, and then Qingqing smiled faintly. I seemed to have a premonition of something. When I opened the paper, a line of English was reflected in my memory. Yanlian: "I Love You! Can you find me after class?" The signature was Qingqing, and my face turned red.Although I have experienced a first love that was not very successful, such a frankness is beyond my expectation.After class, I hurried back to the dormitory.However, I couldn't sleep that night, and Qingqing's smile always appeared in front of me...

The next day, Qingqing was always staring at me, but I avoided her intentionally or unintentionally, and just buried myself in my book.After school that night, I packed up my things and was about to leave, Qingqing called me, with a sad face, and then she sobbed softly, leaning her face on my shoulder.I felt powerless to evade, so I hugged Qingqing stiffly, facing Qingqing's confession, I clumsily and passionately kissed her over and over again.The feeling of the first kiss made me distraught. In the days to come, Qingqing paid more attention to me and always comforted me at the right time, which moved me endlessly.I really fell in love with her.

During those days, I had no intention of studying, and my mind was full of greenness, as if I saw her smiling at me while looking back, I couldn't do anything. In that exam, my grades plummeted. Facing the pitifully small score, my mood was extremely bad.At this point, I realized what a serious mistake I had made.I'm lost, I'm looking for a thousand reasons to hide the fact that I don't want to admit.However, I was wrong. I couldn't live up to my parents' expectations of me, and I couldn't face the cynicism of the villagers. Although I long for the unforgettable love and the undoubted vows of eternal love, the reality can't bring me luck and harvest.My fragile heart can't afford the heavy load of love.The reality can't allow me to stop and stop, I have wasted too much time, and now I can't afford to waste it!

Finally, I mustered up the courage to face Qingqing frankly. That night was very clear, and the moonlight poured on me and Qingqing unreservedly. "Let's break up," I said, "We can't waste our youth like this, we should pursue our own ideals!" Qingqing widened her eyes full of tears in astonishment. Eyes, "give me a promise, let me stay by your side for the rest of my life." Qingqing choked up.I shook my head miserly, what can I promise her?What else can I bring her other than pain, I am not qualified to promise, I turned my head, but my face was full of tears, and Qingqing's sad sobs came from behind...

For a few days, Qingqing didn't come to class. I seemed to have a premonition. If Qingqing changed the direction of her life because of me, I would feel guilty for the rest of my life.Later, I heard from her girlfriend that Qingqing cried for a long time that night, and she still called my name in her sleep... I was speechless, the embankment of emotion could no longer stop the surging tears, I turned my back quickly...it was mine Being self-deprecating and unapproachable makes Qingqing so sad. In the days to come, I used my hard work to get rid of the guilt in my heart. I was indifferent to all the fame, wealth and intrigue, and I was willing to be indifferent to the peaceful days and the love that had run aground.

Gradually, I let go of my guilt and uneasiness, and my grades gradually improved, and finally I came to a school far away from my hometown. Several years later, I still think of Qingqing from time to time, the eyes full of tears, the love affair that has been stranded for a long time, and the disdainful expression.I don't know whether Qingqing from afar will go well all the way, whether she will still stick to the promise of "the belt is getting wider and I will never regret it, and I will make people haggard for Yixiao"... Insights on life: In the vast sea of ​​people, if you can find someone you like and love each other, it is not easy, and it is also a great honor.Maybe everything is not what you think, not so perfect.Maybe it's not as good as you imagined, and it shouldn't be too bad.Life is not so beautiful in the first place, all happiness should be known and cherished.Talk more about caring and less about blame. People need to be considerate of each other.This is especially true between lovers.