Chapter 4 that distant watch

That year, she was only 20 years old, fresh and full like a peach blossom on a branch in spring.She has sung Huadan in the troupe since elementary school. She has a clear voice and a handsome appearance. She plays the little matchmaker in the drama vividly.He is 32 years old, and she is in the same troupe as her. He is the top card player, acting as a martial artist, with a silver gun, shaking vigorously. On the stage, they are Bawang and Concubine Yu; offstage, she calls him Teacher, and he teaches her how to move, sing, read and do martial arts, without any ambiguity.She quietly took his costume and exercise clothes, and rubbed her head in sweat profusely in the warm and cold spring breeze.Flying like a flag, her young heart is also fluttering.

Knowing that he is a man with a family, she still loves him.Like the gongs and drums beating harder and harder on the stage, her heart tossed, rose and fell, wandered, struggled to the beat of the drums, and in the end it was a lost city, falling inch by inch.On the stage, when her overlord was besieged on all sides by the river, she pulled the pheasant feathers on her head with one hand, and the sword in the other, and sang sadly: "The king has passed away from now on, and the song of Yu will live..." Weeping, committing suicide with a sword... She thought, that's what it's like to love someone. When he lives, she enjoys singing; when he dies, she is never alone.

It's not that he doesn't understand this lingering thought, but he can't accept it because he has a family and a wife.Facing her flowery youth, he couldn't promise her a future.He avoids her, avoids her, neglects her, and no longer performs on the same stage with her.The sweater she knitted for him was also politely rejected by him, but there were still rumors about it.In that small county, ambiguous news spread faster than the plague.Her father was a rigid old man, and immediately pulled her back from the troupe, locked her in the hut, and locked the door tightly. The brass lock is heavy, but it is difficult to lock an infatuated heart.That night, she jumped out of the window and over the wall to escape to his dormitory, threw herself into his chest eagerly, and said to him, let's elope.

Elopement also requires mutual affection, but they are not.He coldly pushed her away and walked away, leaving only two words: nonsense. That night, and many nights after that, she tossed and turned.Half a month later, when she returned to the troupe, she realized that he, whose career was in full swing, had resigned and moved south with his wife and children. Since then, there has been no news, and her heart has become an empty city.She knew that this love, from beginning to end, was actually a one-man show of her own, but she was too involved in the play to wake up. Fifteen years have passed, and she is already a famous artist in middle age.There is a happy and harmonious family, husband and wife are good.She created many classic stage images, but never played Yu Ji again.Because her overlord is no longer there.

During the Lantern Festival that year, she toured with the troupe.In a small town, she performed five performances in a row and received thunderous applause.The stage, applause, flowers, and cheers are all scenes she is familiar with.But there is something different clearly, there seems to be a pair of eyes, following her for a long time, like a prairie fire.When she went to look for it, she disappeared into the crowd again.After the curtain call, she was taking off her make-up backstage, when she suddenly received a note with a line of big characters scrawled on it: Fifteen years of staring eyes have never stopped.

She was stunned suddenly, and the 15 years of love was overwhelming in her heart—yes, it was him.She chased it out, and there was no one in the empty auditorium. She leaned against the pillar and burst into tears. The grudge against him that had been lingering in my heart for 15 years melted away in an instant. Yes, he has always loved her.It's just that he knew that at that time, she was a tree in full bloom in the spring, and this love was a slanted branch from her tall and straight tree. If he didn't cut it down cruelly, it would only destroy her.So, he has to leave.Now, she is a Zhutian Yang stretching into the sky, and every branch of her growth has his eyes watching affectionately.

That distant watch is the most beautiful gaze in life. Insights on life: Dilute sadness and depression with tranquility, dispel confusion and anxiety with calmness, look far away, even if it is called far away forever, there must always be one thing in your inner world, that is-love!