Chapter 15 Loneliness in Florence

Who will feel your heart?Who will know that you are always torturing yourself but yourself?Who can understand your loneliness?Loneliness doesn't matter, you can use a book, a song, or a piece of moonlight to get rid of it.Once loneliness knocks on the door, it has carved its brand on you, and no one can escape.No matter which night, loneliness will appear again, gently, you can't resist. Feelings that cannot be obtained are loneliness, scenery that cannot be seen is loneliness, and decisions that cannot be redeemed are loneliness.Loneliness, no matter the time, no matter the place, will always invade our hearts unconsciously, making it impossible for us to get rid of it.When a person regards loneliness as the beauty of an appointment in life, and faces it with a calm and peaceful attitude, there will be no loneliness in the true sense.

(one) The movie "A Room with a View" depicts a beautiful love story that happened in Florence: In Victorian England, Lucy, a girl from the upper class, and her cousin Charlotte went to Florence, Italy for vacation, and met George, a young Englishman, living in a hotel with his father.Lucy was frustrated because she couldn't see the view from her room, so George's father gave Lucy the room he lived in. Lucy and George both fall in love.But George, who came from a working people's family, has a straightforward personality, and his behavior is incompatible with the red tape of the upper class that Lucy is used to. The reserved Charlotte is also very uncomfortable with George.

At one point, George couldn't help kissing Lucy, which was considered deviant in 19th-century England.Lucy thinks George's behavior is inappropriate, so she abandons him and returns to England. After returning home, Lucy got engaged to musician Weiss.Weiss is empty inside and very heavy on external etiquette, which is supposed to meet the requirements of Lucy's family, but Lucy feels the hypocrisy of red tape from him, and begins to miss George's youthful and frank passion that is a bit reckless and out of etiquette . At this time George returned to England and the two met again.But Lucy was still bound by the hypocrisy and prudence of etiquette and refused to say whether she accepted George's love or not.This made George at a loss what to do, so he had to leave sadly.

After several twists and turns, Lucy's cousin Charlotte sees that George is a bit reckless but loves Lucy, so she secretly arranges for George's father to inspire Lucy, so that Lucy finally abandons the shackles of ethics and finds her beloved. . The heroine in the movie has found a true love, but is constrained by the complicated reality, and it is difficult to find the emotions to fill her heart.There was loneliness in her heart, and this emptiness became a cage to trap her.Fortunately, she finally came to her senses, took the steps to pursue true love, and gained happiness.This love that originated in Florence finally came to a successful conclusion.

(two) He had never loved her, never, but married her anyway.Because at that time she wanted to stay in the big city and not go back to that rustic little town, and her father was an important government official in the big city. For his own purposes, he married her who was neither beautiful nor outstanding. She loves him more than anything.Not because of Pan An's appearance, but also because of his outstanding knowledge, because of his proud appearance, even his thick black hair and the way he frowns, knowing that he is not good enough for him, so everything depends on him, even He has broken ties with his old lover.What he did made people sad, but she was always reluctant to tell the truth.

He is always cold, with an indifference that rejects people thousands of miles away, unlike the man on the honeymoon, and she always tries to awaken his love with passion, but of course the result is always in vain, as if the harder she tried , the more in vain. After the honeymoon, he was even more confident, even flirting with other women in front of him, and it was not a woman.She cried and cried behind his back, but still smiled when facing him, but he turned a blind eye, still like an outsider. And just like that, a year later, she filed for divorce.This kind of marriage is like a corpse, it is nothing more than a waste of youth, and it is unfair to him, even though she loves him so much that it is difficult to give up.Love is too bitter, so it is better not to love.

But he refused to agree.He knows that if he loses her, he will lose everything now. She is still his prop, and he can't let her exit before the curtain call. She actually agreed to him, but she became thinner day by day.The classmates all envied that she found a good husband, who is talented and decent, and was also arranged in a government department, so she will definitely do well in the future.Only she knows that she can't tell others about her suffering, and if she does, he will be finished, and she loves him so much, and loving him means taking on everything from him, including forgiving and forgiving his betrayal and infidelity .

She finally fell ill, and her complexion looked sour every day. Her parents thought she was pregnant, and when they went to investigate, it turned out that she had advanced liver cancer.But she was very calm, and said with a slight smile, a poet once said that life should be as splendid as summer flowers, and death as quiet and beautiful as autumn leaves. I really did it today, and there is nothing wrong with it. She finally died, and before he left, he leaned on her chest and asked her what wish she had?She closed her eyes and said softly, if there is an afterlife, I would like to be as beautiful as a flower, even if I only love you for one day.After finishing speaking, she closed her eyes and never woke up again, but a tear fell from the corner of her eyes.

Tears welled up in his eyes.At that moment, he realized how he had betrayed this infatuated girl. While sorting out her belongings, he saw her diary.It turned out that every time he showed mercy to a woman, she knew it clearly, there were some tears on it.One day, she wrote: I am doomed to be a fish with a broken heart, but he is my only water, but he refuses to give it, so I am only one person waiting slowly on the shore and dying.It turned out that she had known that her death was approaching.Love is dead, and this fish is no longer interesting to live.Only then did he realize that a girl with an ordinary appearance can also have such tenderness and heartache, but he completely ignored such a heart full of love.

Only after his wife's death did he truly understand love, and he discovered that this sentence in her diary made him really fall in love with her. Don't forget the true meaning of love for the sake of profit. (three) She is a rational girl who studied abroad in Italy and studied architectural design. In that romantic city, she never believed in the existence of illusory love.Until I met him, a man who studied music, always talked about all kinds of passion and romance, and put them into his life. He took her on a tour of almost all the sights of Florence.He told her that you can meet art and love in any corner of Florence. Dramas are staged from time to time, and every night is different. The streets are still fine cobblestone roads, but at the next corner, you will meet the dreams you once had.The beautiful scenery of the Florence Peninsula touched her romantic reverie, and she fell in love with him.

They dropped coins under the wishing well and made a wish, hoping to be happy together.But there was still a gap between the two, she and him were two people with different personalities, and she gradually felt that what he did was too illusory and unrealistic.When graduation was approaching, her family urged her to return to China and arranged a blind date with a man.Men are economical, so they are more suitable for marriage and life. After some hesitation, she chose to break up with him and return to China, found a stable job with a high salary, and started dating the man her parents liked.Life was like calm water, she lived day after day, but she still didn't marry that person in the end, and she couldn't find any taste of love from him.Although she told herself not to be too greedy, she still couldn't imagine spending the remaining decades of her life with that man. She couldn't help the little expectation in her heart, and spent the vacation time returning to Florence again.Walking on the once familiar streets, looking for memories of being with him.Standing by the wishing well where they had been together, she finally dialed his number, but he didn't get through.Holding her mobile phone, she looked at the people coming and going by the wishing pool, and seemed to see their original shadows. She didn't know how long she sat there, until it was time to return, she believed that the reunion scene in the love movie would not happen to them.She laughed at herself, and blamed him for being too unrealistic. When did she become a person who believed in romance and chance?It turns out that not every missed love has a chance to come back again. With regret in her heart, she returned to China.Later, she found a simple and gentle man to marry.Her husband was very kind to her, caring and considerate. She only dreamed about it at midnight, and occasionally recalled the love lost in the wind of Florence, and a faint sense of loneliness floated in her heart. Small things, faint feelings, feelings that have long passed away, and men who have disappeared are all unforgettable, and even take a lifetime to forget, why not be lonely?Because people always feel sorry for themselves, because they always feel lonely, because they don't want to forget everything in the past, because they don't want to face the present at night.Therefore, it is the past, the sadness brought by oneself, and the trace of loneliness that cannot be rejected.But loneliness can't be too long, otherwise it will become sentimental.Occasional loneliness will be a dose of sobriety, so that people can better face the hustle and bustle of the world. Calmness and calmness are a kind of wisdom.The finger of the Buddha holding the flower touched the hearts of countless people. Only the envoy of Kasyapa smiled knowingly. The smile was so natural and just right, making people realize what is truly enlightened and transcendent.The four elements mentioned in Buddhism are all empty, but it does not really exist, it just tells people a truth, to learn to let go.