Chapter 61 My ambition can't work without you

I really want to say a little more about my feelings about writing the poem after puberty this time. The main character in the novel, Meteor Street, is quoted from one of my favorite comics, Hunter. I think it is easy to find that the main character is my "projected body". It’s not too unusual for me to use projective body writing, but not many characters have my own shadow, such as Ke Yuheng in the language...my first protagonist, although I don’t have super powers and I have a good balance But basically our logic for analyzing things is quite close, and the way we feel emotions is almost the same.

Why write a novel, I want to use the projected body "Meteor Street" instead of directly using the deity "Nine Swords"? Because nine knives are nine knives, it’s me, I hope that if I use my own name to write something, except for the prologue of the legend of the hunter who will “sometimes” be deliberately scribbled, other times what I write will be the same. It's "what actually happened".It’s best that every dialogue and every detail is at least exactly the same as in memory, otherwise, I shouldn’t use my deity to write about anything that never happened to me, especially good things.

(refer to http://retch.cc/blog/Giddens/7099622) In addition, there are some words that I have wanted to say for a long time in my heart, but lack the dialogue situation to show them.I'd be happy if a guy named Meteor Street could help me out with this.His mental predicament is my predicament eight months ago, when I was vulnerable, but now I should be strong enough to pat Meteor Street on the shoulder. After the plagiarism incident broke out at the beginning of the year, many disgusting things happened to me. In fact, I didn't write them out at the beginning. Why hold back?Because I was still foolish and naive enough to believe in the "adults" who assured me that they would deal with things fairly. Although they either lied or laughed and bitched me, they would still continue to help justice be practiced.So I learned to suppress my bigger anger and to wait.

But in the end those grown-ups completely betrayed themselves—not betrayed me, nor betrayed justice. I believe their own children would vomit when they saw their faces. Plus there was a nasty little episode. There is a guy who writes sour blog posts and I can't spell out my account number (probably thinks he is popular). He wrote a lot of shitty articles at the time, saying that Chen Hanning was not plagiarized at all, etc. Afterwards, the guy who I couldn’t spell out this account also knocked on my girlfriend’s msn. In the msn conversation, he told my girlfriend triumphantly that if he were me, he would have to pretend to be generous even if he thought he was plagiarized. Smiled and said something like: "Let's work hard together!", "I hope my works will inspire you" and so on---"insincere lies". To win the respect of everyone, judges love, readers love, bystanders love, ptt villagers love, Chen Hanning loves it more, Xindian High School loves it (it's just that reporters don't like it).

In comparison, the appearance of me struggling to pursue justice seems to be my small-mindedness. Why should I not pretend to be in line with the expectations of all parties, and it is more in line with my "personality interests"? He spent a long time encouraging my girlfriend how to make her boyfriend a great writer who everyone loves. All msn conversation records are kept. If I'm so good at pretending, so fake, so "good at being a human being", and so liking to meet everyone's expectations, wouldn't it be the same as the guy with your account that people can't make out if you fuck me, and become human garbage?Wouldn’t I just be like a dummy who can only be sour on others (there are a lot of sufferers) on blogs all day long and say something that I think is very powerful, but I can’t really practice anything in the “world outside the computer” ?

(It is said that this guy’s girlfriend is a fan of my book, and I had a big fight with him about whether it constitutes plagiarism. Thank you, this girl. I think if this girl finds out that her boyfriend is such a fake person in private msn, I don't know how sad it will be.) event lazy bag The details of that incident are very rich, and I have kept many things unsaid. It’s a big device, so don’t talk about it? no. It's because of me, no, time, time, chasing, begging, going down, going! I have to admit that there are many things that are more important than seeking justice, or, much more interesting.

If I were to look back at what happened back then, I would say: "Measurement is not a term invented for use on rubbish like yours." To train a master, I will find something else to practice, not those smug little people, they don't deserve it. Back to poetry after adolescence. There are many types of stories I have written, and each type of writing process has a unique joy in it. But "Hot Blood" should be the narrative style I am best at, because I can take it out of my own personality without any problem. I'm also very good at "deformed dialogue". After all, I'm a leader in nonsense speech --- otherwise, how did the legend of Ha Bang come into being? ? (In other words, please look forward to ha bang 2 for the time being, ha ha bang 2 I have temporarily sealed it after I wrote 20,000 words, because I found that I seriously scribbled!)

The post-adolescent poems are stories that I completed in a relaxed and happy way. Even when I went to San Diego, USA for a few days, I could go back to the hotel and write 5,000 words a day. See how happy I am. I love writing adventure novels about old friends who I have known for many years. The character Mori Hiroshi in this novel is based on my good friend Gushu in real life. He really works in Chunghwa Telecom, and he is really afraid of pain. He plays basketball very well, and often picks up girls. , but quite a sense of justice.He is a good friend. However, the fact that Gu Shu couldn't learn how to masturbate for 30 years was assigned to another character, Yang Zeyu.

Watermelon is the nickname of an old reader who knows where my pharmacy is and invited me to eat tofu curd twice. I use it casually, and the personality is much different, but the real-life version of Watermelon has a good personality. He is serving in the army and will be discharged another day. Let me help him find a girlfriend on the blog! Fat Boy Dragon is the name of a Teppanyaki restaurant I used to eat at Qingda Night Market.Delicious and cheap.In every group of good friends, there seems to be a fat man? ? ? Of course Yu Xiaowei is Shen Jiayi's incarnation.As for the three characters Yu Xiaowei, I used them when I called for names on the Internet last time. I hope this reader doesn’t mind. It’s better if you are happy. (Hunting 14 also used several names of everyone to contribute, I think only people whose names are used can see it, thank you.)

Ah Jing is a wonderful character.I like it very much. By the way, my basketball is obviously very bad, but when everyone played basketball together in high school, I was really called to guard a super powerful girl in the class next door. She is really strong, okay? I was shocked badly .Later, this girl who is super strong in basketball went to the United States to study at a graduate school, and also played on the local school team!America!You can know how I looked like a dog when I was electrocuted and my self-esteem was wiped out!  Compared with the distant goddess, Ah Jing who often plays with everyone is more heartwarming.

With this character, I missed a certain girl with the same identity.We all miss you. In this novel, there are also several easter egg characters that appeared in other novels. For example, Yang Zeyu in "Waiting for a Coffee". Ake in "Love, Two Goods and Three Bad". Bai Yan in "The Tenant Downstairs". Ouyang Potted Plant in "Killer, Unparalleled Justice". Ke Yuheng in "Language".I didn't examine the rationality of the time when those characters appeared, after all, they are all my stories!Just come to a classmate meeting across time and space, how about it! In post-adolescent poems, there are many scenes that make people laugh out loud, but there is one scene that moved me very much.There is thunder below. Watermelon was lying on the roof. When talking about the marquee of life, Watermelon pressed a cold beer on his forehead and said slowly: "The last scene, stop here, I put my face on Xiaozhen's big belly, Xiaozhen slowly Slowly patted my head and said...it's okay, we will be happy...hey, we will be happy..." I will never forget that I cried while writing this paragraph. After writing this story, I am reluctant to let these people disband from now on. In the future, I still want to use these partners to accompany me on adventures in the novel world! In addition to being good-looking, the novel also hopes to carry a powerful hidden theme. Discussing some of the "problems" I'm running into under this theme may not necessarily lead to answers. This is true in the real world, and it may be true in virtual stories. But I am like those few sentences mentioned in the novel: OK. Even I still don't get an answer. But I got strength. Lots and lots of strength to keep going. Hope you all do the same. It may not be that my novels have the structure of "small stories with big truths". The protagonists take a lot of trouble to take risks, and through the happy resolution of the final incident, tell readers what kind of answers we should think about in life. Real life is not so cool, so many answers are waiting for you to know! ! But we must, must have the strength to move on. I promise. I remember that two months ago, Ms. Mou, a reporter from Next Weekly, went with me to Ershui, Changhua for a whole day, taking photos of local travel and introducing ways to have fun.After filming was over, we chatted in the car. Reporter Mou suddenly said: "Among Taiwan's current writers, you should be the most influential one?" I was taken aback. In the past, similar conversations made me very, very, very embarrassed. I would probably say with a stiff smile: "Ah, no!", "Many people read the things written by so-and-so!", "So Is it right?", "Zhu Qiangshou's spiritual power should be stronger than mine", "It's best, you're talking nonsense" and so on.After all, many writers who host TV programs are the real celebrities. I am only widely known to humans under the age of thirty, but many adults still think that I am some kind of biological weapon. But after thinking about it for two seconds, I finally broke through the self-protection of Meteor Street in the novel and expressed my true courage. "I really hope what you said is true... because I have great ambition." My ears are probably red. "What ambition?" Reporter Mou was curious. I tried to say it as calmly as possible: "I want to change the world, and I need a bigger influence than I have now. Maybe it's not possible now, and my readers are young, but my readers will grow up one day, when they all After becoming the kind of adults they want to be, it is very possible to change the world together!" This is my ambition. I can't do it without you guys!