Chapter 9 8. To Brother GZ

GZ: Hello! Sent photos received. Li Zhe returned to China for a few days, and returned to the United States on December 22. I asked him to bring you five books. He will send the books to you when he arrives in Chicago.The five books are "Towards the Truth on the Cross", "Borges's Autobiography of Literary Theory", "Snow White", and Lu Yaogang's collection of essays including "The Flood at the End of Xin".I was afraid that Li Zhe would send the wrong book to you carelessly, so I made a list. If there is a mistake, I will ask him to look it up.

Have you received the few small books that I entrusted to you last time? After returning from the United States, my condition has not been very good. The indicators of kidney function are always rising slowly, which cannot be curbed by traditional Chinese and Western medicine. I feel dizzy and unable to do anything every day.Now I mainly practice qigong.Another person introduced "Qi Acupuncture Therapy" (acupuncture to adjust the Qi field), and I am planning to try it. I hope there will be a miracle, otherwise I am afraid that it will be difficult to escape "dialysis". The effect of "dialysis" is said to be good. The only thing is that once you do it, you will depend on it for life. You have to accompany the dialysis machine three days a week. It is very troublesome to think about it, but it can be regarded as "off duty" or "service". In healthy people It is also inevitable.

Sickness also has an advantage, it can avoid a lot of extravagant expectations, as if you are poor, but you seem to be calm and peaceful.The adventure of a ranger is often praised, but in fact, illness can also be regarded as a travel and adventure. The difference between the two lies in the danger. Outlook work.Lying in bed, I kept thinking wildly, thinking that facing life and facing death are the two inevitable situations of human beings, and this is probably the source of the two different religious views.Since a person has been born, it is impossible not to consider the problem of birth, and his salvation is generally contained in the exaltation of adventure-like joy, glory and love.It is impossible for a person to die without some speculation about the situation after death. The way of salvation must correspond to the absurdity of life and have a better dream.So, both kinds of religious awareness are necessary.After much deliberation, it is actually simple. Anyone who does evil is willing to believe that death is the end of everything, so that he can avoid the judgment of the doomsday. to have eternal value.Therefore, God is the supervisor of this world, that is, the supervision of divinity to humanity, and God is the next life, which is the call of divinity to humanity.This supervision and calling guarantee the beauty of this world and guide the eternal existence of hope. It is more interesting for people to live and die.From this, I think that the abolition of divinity is exactly the liberation of evil deeds, so any evil finds a relaxing psychological basis from it.Our journey from west to east made me feel the incomparable importance of religious spirit most deeply.Of course, the issue of religion is very complicated, and China is now in a period of religious enthusiasm, but there is a very noteworthy phenomenon, simply put: the word "repentance" is rarely heard.And the religious craze that lacks the consciousness of confession is afraid that it will go astray again.

Write these first.Now I am too tired just to write a few words.If there is a chance, I will bring you a few books, not many each time, but you can persist. Greetings to the whole family.Merry Christmas and good luck in the Year of the Tiger! Tiesheng December 18, 1997