Chapter 2 teenage past

When I saw Qingxue for the first time in the university dormitory, I knew that this girl from a certain city in the northwest was someone I owed in my previous life. Ann, can you hang up the mosquito net for me?She stood there, smiling softly and helplessly at me.I climbed to the top bunk to help her hang it. You must wait for me to eat.I don't want to go to the cafeteria alone. Shall we go shopping together?Show me a dress. Apart from her natural weakness and dependence, Qingxue is the most perfect girl I have ever seen.Pretty and simple. Everyone knows that if you want to find Qingxue, you need to find An Lan first.

Of course, Qingxue talked to me about everything.Sometimes, she crawled into my bed and huddled with me.The way she expresses her affection is like a warm puppy.Put your head on my shoulder and babble nonsense on and on.I've always been surprised that she didn't accept so many invitations from boys.She said, An Lan, don't laugh at me.I have liked a boy for 8 years. What nonsense, how old were you at that time. 12 years old.I am in the first grade of junior high school. Does he know? he does not know.She smiled softly.But he couldn't escape.We have been classmates since junior high school.The universities that I took the exam are all in the same city.

Also here? It's the Institute of Technology.It is only 5 stops away from our school.I will take you there in the future, and you can help me take a look. Like looking at a dress for you?We must know that our eyes have always been different.Like I like calico dresses, but you don't. I make fun of her.But I feel lonely in my heart.I don't know if there's a boy I've been secretly in love with for 8 years.Maybe it's happiness. On a Saturday afternoon, we went to Polytechnic together.On the other side of the big playground, a large group of boys are playing basketball.Qingxue said, guess which one he is.I said, the tallest and most handsome one.In fact, I saw a boy at a glance. He looked very ordinary, but he had a firm and silent expression.Cool look.As a result, the two boys ran over together.

Qing pointed to the boy and said to me, this is Su Yang.Then he introduced that handsome boy, his classmate Lin Ou. I remember the sunshine of that spring afternoon, shining brilliantly through the dense shade of the trees.Su Yang looked at me seriously, his eyes suddenly silenced my heart. That day we went to a restaurant outside the campus for dinner.Then go to the bar to play cards. Playing thousands of points is not my strong point, but the strange thing is that if Su Yang and I match up, we always win, and usually both of us get out of the hand, and we can score 400 points in one go.After three rounds, Qingxue quarreled.No, no, you two can't be together.It's really evil.

Then draw your cards and decide.Su Yang said. After touching the big and small cards, it turned out that I was with him. Su Yang and I won a big victory, and Qingxue and Lin Ou treated the guests to supper.Then two boys sent us back. We're going to get revenge next week, Lin Ou.Qingxue said with a smile. I know she just wants to see Su Yang again.Her feelings are without any pretense.OK OK.Su Yang patted her on the head lightly, the child should sleep well at night.Qingxue made a face at him.She is happy. It started to rain late at night.I turned on the flashlight and read Kafka's novels under the covers.Suddenly Qingxue bowed her head on it, Ann, I can't sleep all the time.

Want me to sing you a lullaby? No, just recite a poem to me.I would love to hear poetry. I sat up and turned off the flashlight in the dark rain. if you if you told me sentence by sentence pure words I wake up in the morning i remember it young years simple things if you said sentence by sentence Deep and shallow Yunfeixueluo words Qingxue sighed deeply.Her black hair flowed down long.I really feel happy, Ann.I really wish you could experience it with me. I know.fool.I reached out to touch her beautiful face. I remember that boy's eyes in the dark.He sat across from me, showing me how to play the cards with his eyes.I read every hint of his.I know every expression on his face.But we have no words.

In autumn we decided to go hiking. The lovely Qingxue actually wore a beautiful Kesmi skirt.Su Yang laughed unbearably, my child, are you going to a party.Qingxue said aggrievedly, I didn't know that I was here to climb this kind of barren mountains, I thought it was the kind with steps. Su Yang put her bag on his back, and then took off the denim jacket for her to put on.He turned to me, An Lan, and give me your bag too. I will carry it by myself.It doesn't matter. We climbed up in the direction of the current.There are lush shrubs and woods everywhere.I quickly found myself on the fast side.Su Yang was completely trapped by Qingxue, and it was difficult to leave her even half a step away.Qingxue screamed in fright from time to time.Lin Ou is responsible for opening the way in front, knocking down long branches and thorns.An Lan, don't get lost.Lin Ou called me.Won't.I'll be waiting for you up there.

I fell on the way, and my hand was pulled open by a thorn, but I finally reached the top of the mountain where there was no one.Climbing up the huge rock, I sat on the highest place and looked at the distant sea and rolling hills. The sun and the mountain wind were fierce.At this moment, I know that I can become one with nature. Su Yang arrived next.Qingxue was afraid that I would get lost, so she specially asked him to catch up. You really amaze me.An Lan.He is braver than boys when climbing mountains. got used to.When I was a child, I was raised at my grandmother's house in the country. I liked to climb to the top of the mountain and sit on the rock alone to look into the distance.

what have you seen See my dreams and disappointments. He turned his face and stared at me with sharp and sensitive eyes. For a short moment, we listened to the sound of the wind together.I burst into tears. Are your hands bleeding?let me see. Do not worry about it.A little injury.I put my hands behind my back. He stopped talking.Staring stubbornly at the tears in my eyes. Then Qingxue's cry sounded.Ann, where are you.We turned around at the same time. I gradually fell silent.When Lin Ou asked me to go to the movies, I agreed to him for the first time. Talking and laughing together, watching a boring movie.

At the school gate, this handsome boy said to me, An Lan, sometimes I wish you were a boy. why. Because if you're a boy, I don't have to worry that I'll like you. I laughed and hit him on the head.Lin Ou looked at me seriously, and suddenly said that girls would be happier if they were stupid.An Lan, you will pay for your sharpness. I left him and walked towards the dormitory.It was raining again. Qingxue sat on my bed in a daze.Ann, we had a fight. why. He said he didn't actually like me.She opened her beautiful eyes and looked at me bewilderedly.Why is he saying this to me.

My heart hurts, Ann.It really hurts.Her warm tears fell into the palm of my hand big and big. There was a bang in my head.I'll go to him, Qingxue, don't worry.I got him back, he was talking nonsense. Ann, you must help me.must.She clutched my hand helplessly. I ran out of the school in a daze and stopped a car.Walking to the big playground of the Polytechnic Institute, I saw a boy shooting basketball alone under the dim street lights.I sat down next to him and watched him quietly.Then he walked towards me, the rain dripping down the ends of his hair.His eyes looked at me stubbornly and silently. In just a split second, we understood what each other had to say. Sorry.An Lan.He lowered his eyes. Give her a call.Little girls can't stand this. We walked to the phone booth together.I watched him dial the number, waited for someone to call Qingxue to listen, and then listened to him explain that he was in a bad mood and talked nonsense.Listen to him coaxing her, asking her to go to bed early, and then promising to take her out to play tomorrow night.Then he hung up the phone. He said, I will take you back. no more.I can do it myself. He walked me outside the school gate, and we waited for the car to pass by.The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and we stood side by side in silence. The first time I saw you that day, you were wearing a white cotton skirt and barefoot sneakers.He said, you don't seem to belong to this unfree world.I looked at you and I said to myself then, you'll never get this girl. But I imagine that one day I can take you away.We climbed to the top of the mountain to see the sea in the distance.You can give me your wounds. I nodded with a smile.I said, but there has always been a Qingxue among us.Su Yang.When fate stretched out its hand, we had lost our freedom, and I closed the car door.I can finally let my tears flow down happily. That night, I had the only dream about Su Yang.It seemed that it was still that spring afternoon when Su Yang ran towards me on the side of the sunny playground.Short black hair blowing in the wind.I watched him get closer and was relieved to find it was just the two of us.There is no clear snow.There is no reality. After graduation, Qingxue and Su Yang returned to their hometown in Northwest China.Su Yang joined a big company to make software, while Qingxue became a teacher. Qingxue still received letters from time to time, sending their wedding photos a year later.I saw Su Yang's face still had the firm and silent expression I was familiar with.Qingxue said, Su Yang asked me to greet you for him. There is always someone between us.That time when I listened to a song, the person next to me was you.Suddenly understand that helpless mood. I no longer feel that it is a kind of happiness for Qingxue to secretly like someone for 8 years. Some people spend their whole life forgetting someone.did not start.So it's not over.