Chapter 59 Only by knowing yourself can you have good karma

Think of those days alone.I wrote a lot of words on the computer, asked myself a lot of questions, and then wrote bit by bit, slowly sorting out the clues.Keep sending out, oh, so I am such a person. I once found that I was too good-looking, I once found that I was too afraid of losing someone, I once found that I lived a life that was too dependent on others, I once found that I was very powerful, and I also found that I was really ugly. I'm really not the kind of person who can walk away from the book bag route. I have found that I really like to play tricks. I have found that I have abused and overdrawn the trust of my relatives.

Just like later I also found out that I am actually quite tenacious, I found that there is nothing to make things difficult for myself, I found out that I can be so shameless even if I go all out, and I also found out that I actually have a little integrity, I found out slowly I also have a little word of mouth. In the past, I didn't care about anyone's criticism of me behind my back.Now, if you point at my nose and scold me, I can also smile. A friend said: Why, you can change so much now?who helped you? Yes, many, many people have helped me. But the most important person is Liu Tong.

We always care about our own image in the eyes of others, and we are eager to get to know strangers whom we have only met twice or three times, and gossip about people who have nothing to do with us in private.But among these people, they don't even know themselves very well, but are anxious to understand others. Fortunately, for the past few years, I have often been alone in my loneliness.So my best friend is only myself, writing before going to bed, and thinking about it when I close my eyes. Day after day, I gradually see my vanity, selfishness, shortcomings, and all kinds of secrets and evil thoughts that no one knows.Every time I sadly accept the conclusions of "I'm so ugly", "I'm really not a cultural person", "I really don't have any capital", "So sometimes I'm really a motherfucker", my mood goes down to the bottom .When others scold you, you can still refute. If you scold yourself, you don't even have the chance to refute, you can only accept it.

But it is also like this. One day, I suddenly felt that I didn't care so much about what other people said.Because, what kind of person I am, I know better than anyone else, how good I am and how bad I am, long before you find out, I basically discovered it.So I will no longer worry about gains and losses from others' accusations against me, but improve quickly, correct quickly, and make up quickly. In the process of growing up, the biggest problem is not the misreading of ourselves by our friends, but our unwillingness to admit the self that our friends say.The you in the eyes of your friends does not coincide with the self in your eyes. This is the important reason that hinders us from becoming better.

So, my dear ones, spend more time understanding yourself and less time dealing with others.Because in the end, there is no one else who can give you the most beneficial help except yourself. If it is the first time to sublimate in my life when I was admitted to Hunan Normal University in the third year of high school, and it is the second time to enter the TV industry with specific goals, then the completion of this diary means that at that time I probably knew that I was Who has already sublimated to the third stage of life.It is hard work and comforting to realize who you are when you are approaching the age of 30.

While these points don't apply to everyone, and even though I still get angry occasionally, the best part for me is that even if you don't want to fight, these are all ways you can convince yourself to fall back. October 11, 2012