Chapter 25 Mount Lu, a dream of cloud forest and sea of ​​fog

Viewed horizontally as ridges and sideways as peaks, the distance and height are different. Ten years, I like these two words, it means that everything is gone and nothing will come back again.What time left for me is just memories, ten years of ups and downs, ten years of thoughts, when I look back on the past, I will still be hurt by fragments of memories.Ten years ago, I went to Lushan Mountain, which is the most beautiful in the world, in order to pursue a axis of landscape.In fact, I didn't make friends with anyone there, but the misty and dangerous peaks deep in the mountains are really unforgettable to me, and the exile of the flowing water under the Sandie Spring made me miss the water forever.For ten years, the pines and clouds on Lushan Mountain have not changed at all, but the girl who once wore a white dress has already changed her appearance.

At that time, Su Shi inscribed a famous sentence on the wall of Xilin Temple at the foot of Lushan Mountain: "I don't know the true face of Lushan Mountain, but because I live in this mountain." This poem with philosophical thoughts and Zen seems to always hide a paragraph that is hard to decipher. Mystery.It seems that walking into Mount Lu is like walking into a dream of clouds and smoke. We only see the peaks, mountains, hills and valleys of Mount Lu, but we will never be able to recognize the true face of Mount Lu.Because looking at the mountains and valleys from different angles, what you see in front of you are all different gestures.Whether it is a pine, a cloud, or a mountain, in everyone's eyes, an image can be conceived.Nature contains endless changes, and we live ordinary days in unprecedented scenes every day.

When I went to Mount Lushan, I relied on my feet, and I climbed five or six mountains before I reached its edge.The same is true for going down the mountain. The long stone steps seem to have no boundaries. I didn't return to the red dust until my last ounce of will was exhausted.It is said that after ten years of cultivation, I crossed the same boat. Under the waterfall of Sandiequan, I met a boatman who rowed for me. If this is also a fate, then I will never forget it when I am old.A friend said: "In the small world, all living beings are destined to meet each other, and it is even more rare to cross together. Buddhism believes in fate and should teach people to cherish fate." Once upon a time, we all believed in fate, and we loved to pursue cause and effect in everything. After too many reunions and separations, we dare not give and own easily.

Back then, I went to Donglin Temple at the foot of Lushan Mountain and made a covenant with Bailian.However, Xilin Temple, which is only one road away from Donglin Temple, has never been visited.If you miss it once, maybe it should be a lifetime. There is no deep regret, but you always feel that something is missing.Now when I read Su Shi's "Inscription on the Wall of Xilin", the pagoda that has only one side of Xilin Temple emerges in my mind.I don't know if Su Zi's ink remains on the wall of Xilin Temple.When Su Shi was demoted from Huangzhou to Ruzhou to serve as the deputy envoy of regiment training, he visited Lushan Mountain through Jiujiang.Only this song "Tixi Linbi" uses plain language to express profound philosophy in a simple way, which makes people who have read it feel intimate and natural.

The various landscapes of Lushan Mountain are beautifully expressed in a simple poem.We are the people in the mountains, trying our best to see the faces of the vegetation and the strength of the rocks in the blurred clouds and mists, and seek the true meaning of life.Su Shi's poems are simple in words and deep in meaning, and they are all about reasoning because of things, and they are sent to the taste of indifference.He writes poems without refinement, and always expresses a fresh and open-minded artistic conception with simple, smooth and vivid language.His poems are like his broad mind like the sea, advocating nature and getting rid of shackles.In the era of Song Ci, Su Shi's Ci surpassed the narrowness of describing the romance between men and women and the sorrow of parting.His boldness is not sonorous and resolute, but handsome and free and easy.

All of this is due to his relationship with the Zen Buddha. A person who has practiced Zen and enlightened the Tao will inevitably have a perfect and comfortable mind.You can bloom when you are lonely, you can start again if you miss it, and you can be amazing after being bleak.Therefore, Su Shi experienced ups and downs in the officialdom all his life and was demoted many times, but he was still able to be clear and open-minded.He has long been accustomed to the tempering of the world, and regards these as indispensable scenery in the journey.Walking all the way, he left many romantic traces in different regions, and how many people wandered under his pen and ink, just to imbue him with some handsome style and leisurely calmness.He was very close to a monk named Foyin in Jinshan Temple in Zhenjiang, and they often got together to taste tea and recite poems. In Hangzhou, he also made friends with many monks in West Lake Temple and shared Zen principles.

Su Shi's Buddhist affinity is not only presented in his poems, but even his beloved confidante, Wang Chaoyun, is also called "the goddess Vimalakirti" by him.This peerless beauty who was twenty-six years younger than him never gave up on him when he was at his worst.After Wang Chaoyun's death, Su Shi buried her in the pine forest under the Dasheng Pagoda of Qichan Temple at the southern foot of the Gushan Mountain in West Lake, Huizhou, and built Liuru Pavilion on the tomb to commemorate her, and wrote a couplet: "Untimely, only Chaoyun can Know me; play old tunes alone, miss you every time it rains."The cause and effect between them may also be a Zen relationship. Although they live a life as ordinary as fireworks, poetry and calligraphy have always been accompanied by Zen.This celestial girl Vimalakirti Wang Chaoyun came here to repay a debt of love, so she stayed in the world for Su Shi obsessively.When the love is gone, no matter how Su Shi tried to keep her, he couldn't find her breath.

Time flies, so decisive, maybe before we understand it, it has already said goodbye.Taking stock of the ten years, which person and which scenery left a deep stroke in my heart.How many karmic encounters still pass by in the end, and the broken rivers and mountains of the memory are reorganized, and what I remember is only spring and autumn.I thought it was so long that it seemed like a world away, but in fact it was only a few feet away. Getting old in a hurry is never a scenery, but a departure from people.I used to squander my youth as money, but later I realized that when the money is gone, it will come back, but the youth will never return.The little thought left behind is also worn away by the light, and one day it will disappear without a trace.

I don't know if I will meet Lushan again in this life. The oath that was once as light as floating clouds has drifted away with the breeze.Just like Su Shi, the parting between him and Lushan Mountain is forever. After that, the world will be ups and downs, wandering and scattered, even if the Buddha's relationship is deep, he can't take care of that much.Like Su Shi, I did not see the true face of Mount Lu clearly, but only had a dream in the sea of ​​clouds, forests and fog.In the dream, I can be the master of my own life, and I want to direct a perfect play, but I wake up from the dream before the play starts.It is said that people with a temperament like to dream, but no matter how long they sink into the dream, they will wake up one day.Just like parting, we cherish time with our whole hearts, time will still abandon you and me, and when there is nowhere to rest, we will part ways.

I have already admitted my cowardice in front of the Buddha, so I don't want to cause troubles, but I only hope that we will be safe.Even if you have unstoppable obsessions in your heart, let yourself move in a stable direction.And regard everything as weeds that grow wildly under the sun and rain. No matter how lush it is in spring, it will wither and turn yellow in autumn.In fact, it is not difficult to be born, it is because we take ourselves too seriously.As long as we stay silent for a long time, no one in this world will think that you still exist.When meditating, you can even forget yourself, so why force others to remember you.I can't help lowering my eyebrows and smiling, the moment of meeting, the moment of parting, living in the world, there is no need to see everything clearly.