Chapter 14 Fourteen, thin ice

Snow, dancing in the light and shadow.This situation is called "a fox marrying a daughter" in some places.The long-lost snow, under the sunlight, melted away almost as soon as it hit the ground.Snow falls to melt, and only has life at the moment of falling.The temperature is not very low, so the snowflakes are big.Around the rotating hexagonal flower center, there seem to be many decorations.How exactly should snow be counted?If it is crystallized, then it should be called "one" What, or should it be called "one grain"?However, the snow that is flying all over the sky probably cannot be calculated in this way.

Of course, counting snow in terms of "slices" may seem bizarre.People can think of a petal or a fallen leaf from this.However, now, the flying snow that is floating and falling can only be described in this way.Like pieces of white petals flying and swaying, the snowflakes in the light and shadow are slowly falling down. Yizhi sat by the window of the study, watching the white dancing in the light and shadow.This so-called snowfall was already at the beginning of March. Although the snow was pure and white, people did not feel the chill. On the contrary, it made people feel that spring was just around the corner.

It really is like the sun and the moon fly by. Not long ago, the new year just ushered in, but February has already left in a blink of an eye.At this moment, one-sixth of the year has passed.Next is April, when you can enjoy the plum blossoms and cherry blossoms, and then the summer of fresh green eyes and suffocating wind.Half a year, a year, just passed away in the dream of seasons.At this time, Iori felt deeply that the years passed so fast, indeed only "time flies like an arrow" is enough to describe it. Childhood has never felt the passage of years so swiftly.From elementary school to middle school, he always longed for life to pass faster.After entering high school, even though I occasionally felt that time flies, I never felt panicked by it.Even in his twenties, he rarely cared about the passage of time.After the age of thirty, I began to feel confused. "Ah! It's already thirty before I know it!" After being amazed, he began to feel that time is not forgiving.

However, there is room to spare at this time.Once you are over forty, you will suddenly feel the rapidity of the passage of time.The stream, which was still gurgling in the lush forest just now, came out of the valley, and suddenly the flow speed increased dramatically.Fifty years old has passed, and sixty years old has passed.The passing speed is more turbulent.If he uses the analogy of river water, he may see that the flowing water rushes out of the steep cliff at a faster speed, and finally becomes a waterfall, flying down. However, Yizhi only saw snowflakes flying in the light and shadow, and he still couldn't hear the roar of mountains, rocks, flowing water and the roar of falling waterfalls.

The snow that fell in the morning sun had stopped near noon. Just after eleven o'clock, Iori left the study and walked to the suit wardrobe in the bedroom. At noon today, the city square will hold a groundbreaking ceremony at the site of Setagaya.Regarding the design, although there was some friction with the department store, it was finally decided in the form of Iori's suggestion.This kind of thing, if let him do it from the beginning, it will be much more appropriate.But things can't go so smoothly, which just shows the complexity of the enterprise. The snow has stopped and the weather looks set to warm up in the afternoon.Iori decided to try on the light brown suit.Although the wind blowing was still a bit chilly, he felt pretty good after wearing the spring clothes ahead of the season.

He had put on his trousers and was buttoning his shirt when Tomiko took out a tie from the closet. "Is this one good?" Tomiko chose a dark brown tie with fine stripes on plain ground for him.He picked up the tie, put it on his chest, and compared it with the full-length mirror of the closet, and felt that it matched the light-colored suit just right. "So be it." Tomiko already knows Iori's preferences.Although she has only been working here as a servant for two years, it is probably not wrong to entrust everything to her.After Tomiko picked out his tie, he picked out socks and a handkerchief for him.They're all brown in color.

It might be a psychological effect, Iori felt that after he broke up with his wife, Tomiko seemed to work harder.She used to come and go on time, but recently, she came early and returned late, and she didn't ask for extra money.She put all her heart on Yizhi, and her attitude of hard work and hard work was beyond her appearance.Although Iori felt that Tomiko would not intend to fill the position of his ex-wife, seeing her put her life to the test sometimes made her feel heavy. After Iori was ready to stop, Mochizuki drove his car to pick him up as soon as he lit his cigarette. "Even though it's snowing, it's getting warmer."

"It's an impermanent snow." The snow just now has melted, and the road in the sun is wet. Mochizuki slightly opened the car window, and said thoughtfully, "Miyazu and the others still plan to get married after all." "Miyazu...", "He and Aizawa, I received their invitation yesterday." Iori tried to calm himself down.He took out a cigarette from his pocket, put it in his mouth, and lit it with a lighter.He found that his fingers were trembling slightly. Is what Mochizuki said true?Iori had never heard what was said just now.Neither Shengzi nor Miyazu mentioned this matter to him.Of course, he hadn't heard rumors about these two people either.

During the Chinese New Year, Shengzi sent him a New Year's card, with only the words "Wishing you a happy new year" written on it.Judging from the past friendship, it seems cold, but Iori is satisfied to receive a New Year's card.It should be said that since breaking up with her, through this New Year's card, Yizhi felt that Shengzi still had him in her heart. However, if Shengzi married Miyazu, the situation would be completely different.The so-called Shengzi's unrequited love for him in his heart is just wishful thinking. "Can……" Yizhi hesitated to speak, he remained silent.He wanted to ask Mochizuki if this was true, but he didn't want Mochizuki to feel the panic in his heart.Mochizuki originally thought that Iori knew about this, so he talked to him.

"Who did you hear that from?" "They sent a wedding invitation to notify you. Director, haven't you received it?" "No……" Before leaving the house in the morning, I checked my mail, but found no invitation. "A man like Miyazu is very courageous and capable. He quit his job at the firm to pursue Aizawa." It was also the first time Iori heard this. "Then where is he doing now?" "After resigning, he originally planned to start his own business, but it was very difficult. Now he seems to be working at Noda Construction Company."

Noda Construction Company is one of the top ten giant companies in the construction industry.He may have joined the company through someone else's introduction, but having said that, it is not easy to display one's talents in a large company. "Anyway, his family runs a big hotel, and sooner or later he has to go back to the country." "yes……" Iori still can't believe that Miyazu and Shengzi are going to get married.It was as if something that I thought had no reason to happen had become a reality.But after thinking about it, he felt that the combination of the two of them was not unexpected in the past.In his heart, he always felt that that thing would not happen, but in fact, this kind of psychology stemmed from his fear of such a thing happening.Even so, women's minds are really hard to figure out.She went on a trip with Miyazu, was raped by him, apologized in tears, regretted her indiscretion, and said she never wanted to see that person again. But in less than half a year, I will marry him again... Yizhi knew very well that Shengzi confessed to him frankly and apologized to him painstakingly, but he invited Xia to play around.This attitude made Shengzi dissatisfied with him.If she had been gentler to her at that time, or if she hadn't traveled to Europe with Xia, Shengzi's mood might have changed a little. But even if things turned out that way, what would happen if she married Miyazu?With so many men, why did she insist on marrying Miyazu?One might also think that she married just to make trouble.Judging from Shengzi's grief-stricken look at the time, it was really unexpected that there would be such a result.Thinking about it carefully, maybe she hates Miyazu on the surface but not in her heart.It is true that Miyazu raped Shengzi, and it is also true that he once loved Shengzi.Although he acted rudely in a moment of confusion, he loved Shengzi from the bottom of his heart.From this point of view, compared to Iori, who doesn't care about the women around him, perhaps it should be said that Miyazu's actions are far superior to him, and he is more honest. In any case, a woman is a man who tends to be by her side and who will always give her affection.They don't like people who talk about big things, and they will naturally empathize with a man who comes to her and fulfills her wishes.Between the ideal and the reality, it is not a woman's patent to tend to the reality, and the same is true for men.For hopeless people who don't know when they will return to their side, there is no need to wait forever.This dissatisfaction is most convincing. "After Miyazu resigned, he continued to date Shengzi..." He originally thought that after Shengzi resigned, he would stay in his hometown in Nagano and live alone.Unexpectedly, it was completely wrong. "So when is the wedding?" Iori turned to face the car window, and asked in an extremely calm tone. "I remember it's the third of next month, isn't it?" Mochizuki asked Iori back.Iori hadn't received the invitation in the first place, so he couldn't answer. "Director, are you here?" "Well, no..." "I'm not going either." Mochizuki blurted out impatiently. "It seems that Chiba has also received the invitation. He is a junior at Miyazu University." Did Miyazu just invite Mochizuki and Chiba?If he keeps going until now, he will probably invite everyone in the firm to participate.Considering the inside story of Miyazu's resignation and the fact that the bride is Shengzi, maybe he is embarrassed to invite too many colleagues from the original company, and these two people may be the most suitable. Iori thought that Mochizuki immediately said that he would not go after hearing that he would not attend, and also explained his alumni relationship with Miyazu for Chiba.Iori may have been a little overwhelmed, but he felt that it was to show his loyalty to himself. "You can go to the wedding!" "I didn't know him very well before, besides, he has resigned and left now." In the whole office, everyone knows the relationship between Iori and Shengzi.Although no one knew what had happened, everyone noticed that Sheng Zi resigned later.They may have figured out something from it, so they always put themselves in Iori's shoes. "Yeah, both of you are fine..." Iori muttered in a clear voice.He pretended to be free and easy, hoping to show his generosity.He wanted to tell others that Shengzi was close to Gongjin, and he never cared about it, on the contrary he was quite happy. "They might be a good match." "They are still hanging out together after resigning, and they are so impenetrable. I don't know at all!" "Isn't that pretty good?" "But……" Mochizuki spoke indignantly, but Iori seemed to be persuading him. "As long as they can be happy..." Looking at the road shining brightly in the sun, Iori whispered insincerely. The groundbreaking ceremony was held on time at the site of the Setagaya construction site.First, the priests exorcised evil spirits, then the general manager of the Concord Department Store of the affiliated unit gave a speech, and finally held a simple small dinner party in a restaurant near the construction site. Forty or fifty people attended the meeting, headed by the general manager of the department store, including directors appointed by the manager of the new store, relevant personnel of Omura Construction Company who contracted the construction, and local celebrities. "Please take care of it to make it a symbol of this area." Director Suga of the department store talked to Iori excitedly.On the surface, Iori was socializing calmly and decently, but the matter of Shengzi was tumbling in her mind.The rally lasted about an hour, and Iori only stayed for thirty minutes before coming out. "Shall we go directly to the office now?" Mochizuki asked.Iori told him something and got off the bus in Shibuya.I originally planned to return to the office immediately after the ceremony, but I suddenly changed my mind after hearing the words about Shengzi's getting married. After Iori and Mochizuki broke up in Shibuya, they walked aimlessly towards Dogenzaka in the sun.He entered a cafe on the first floor halfway, and the shop seemed empty after lunch break.Iori sat there drinking coffee, thinking about Miyazu and Shengzi again. The honest Mochizuki will not lie, and even the invitations have been sent.There is no doubt about their marriage.But why didn't Shengzi send him an invitation?Judging from the old relationship between the two of them and Yizhi, the most important guest they should invite is Yizhi. Thinking about it the other way around, maybe it's because I'm the closest that I don't invite you.From Miyazu's point of view, Iori is his former rival in love and also his former boss.Now that he is going to marry the woman whom he has won, can he invite Yizhi to the wedding as if nothing had happened?Isn't that the case with Shengzi?Can she watch with peace of mind that the man she once shared the bed with appears at the wedding?This is naturally irrational. Not to invite him, maybe this is the tacit understanding between the two of them... Even so, shouldn't they have told him otherwise?Even if there are all kinds of secrets, don't you have to abide by etiquette?Iori was bitter, the only thing they didn't tell him made him feel frustrated and lonely.If Miyazu and Shengzi asked him to attend the wedding directly, Iori might not necessarily attend.If they say that the past is like water, and the past is never to be blamed, Iori is not willing to continue the stalemate with Miyazu like this.Even though he is a sympathetic enemy, if Miyazu had told him bluntly that he must get the sheng, he might have given it to him.The same is true for Shengzi, even though I have a strong affection for her, as long as she is willing, Yizhi will not make things difficult for her.He felt that at least he still had a bit of guts. Can't a man who has been in a relationship go to her wedding?He is willing to face the two of them and let the past go with the wind one by one, and start everything from scratch, and express his blessings to them standing on the new starting point of life.If they invite, he can also say a few words of congratulations.He thinks that he has such courage, and until today, he will not open up the old account face to face, and bring up the old matter again. So, if you receive the invitation, can you really go to the wedding in a comfortable mood?All the thoughts just now are just hypotheses. Once faced with reality, maybe the situation will be completely different.When they asked him to congratulate him, would he be able to express his sincere joy?Seeing the groom and the bride lined up in front of the hall, can I really give a smart applause?To be honest, Iori was not sure about himself.He may inevitably show cynicism during his congratulatory speech; or he may say "bless you" but in his heart he hopes that their husband and wife will separate.Thinking about it carefully, maybe it would be better not to have received the invitation.Otherwise, if you are in a dilemma and at a loss, it would be better to be as straightforward as you are now. Thinking of this, Iori's thoughts flowed like a tide, and he unconsciously triggered other associations. Perhaps it was Shengzi's painstaking effort not to send invitations... Probably she thought it was better to keep silent than to cause him trouble by sending invitations abruptly.Probably because she didn't want to disturb a person who had given her care, so she hesitated and didn't send out the invitation. Yi Zhi nodded alone while sipping ice-cold coffee.He concluded that Shengzi thought so.Although she was going to marry Miyazu, she didn't completely abandon herself.Her marriage was not voluntary, but because she lost her spiritual support, she could not bear the emptiness in her heart. Marriage was the result of her choice to fill the spiritual loss.These thoughts may be wishful thinking, but until now, Iori really has no other choice but to laugh at himself like this.But when he thought that even though Shengzi was married, she still thought of herself, Iori's mood became brighter. In a thousand words, it was I who turned the virgin Shengzi into a real woman, and it was I who taught her the joy of being a woman.Although it is not enough to say that it is "painful and painstaking", it is indeed worthy of the name, and it is true that I have carefully created Shengzi.Yizhi knows everything about Shengzi better than anyone else.Whether it's her delicate breasts, slender wasp waist, or her firm buttocks like a girl, and the small mole under her right abdomen, Iori is engraved in her heart.With such a body as clear as several treasures, how should he accept other men, and what is his expression in the end?He knows all about the most sensitive parts of Shengzi's body, the strength of fingers needed for caressing, and how to make her float like a fairy.Iori spent four years discovering and digging bit by bit, teaching her how to feel. This is the secret between Yizhi and Shengzi, and it is also a feeling that only the two of them can share. The young Miyazu really understood this... Leaving aside physical strength, Iori thinks he is by no means inferior to Miyazu in terms of experience and skills in dealing with women.He has tenderness and skill that are more important than youth.In the past four years, Shengzi's body has completely adapted to Yizhi, and the whole love process has accepted Yizhi's approach from beginning to end. That's not going to change easily... Iori was convincing himself while thinking.Even if Gongjin took away Shengzi and made her decide to marry him, he still couldn't monopolize her body.No matter how obedient Shengzi is, the flesh will not obey like this.When Miyazu hugged the shengzi to do whatever he wanted, what he hugged was the body that Iori had carefully cultivated and trained.No matter how Miyazu confides her love words and how Shengzi accepts her, her body will never forget the past history.The past that has been forgotten in the mind will survive in the flesh, and the flesh will not easily betray the mind along with it. "Flesh memory is more reliable than mental memory." Iori would rather believe this now.Beyond that, he couldn't ease his frustration; the body he'd caressed for four years had now passed to someone else. His mind accepted the fact that the two were married, but he still couldn't let it go in his heart.In order to get rid of this torment, Iori got up and went to the cashier and called Don. Shengzi never came back, and now only Xia can help him eliminate the emptiness.He thought she might not be home that afternoon, but a young woman's voice came on the phone, followed by Xia's voice, and it seemed her daughter started answering the phone. "Isn't there an appointment for the day after tomorrow?" The abrupt phone call made Xia couldn't help but ask, they had originally arranged to meet the day after tomorrow. "Can you come out today?" Since this year, he has found time to date Xia every week.If it was daytime, Xia might come out to meet him more often, but at night, there was always a limit.The two also have occasional trysts during the day, but in the end because Iori needs to work, sometimes they can't get what they want. "What happened?" "Suddenly want to see you...now, immediately." Maybe it was because his boyish eagerness was so funny, Xayah seemed to laugh softly. "Don't you have to work?" "I don't care about that." Iori was scheduled to return to the office, look at the documents, and then hold a meeting about the Tama project at four o'clock. If Xia can come, the meeting will be postponed until tomorrow.The participants are all employees of our firm, so just find an appropriate reason. To be honest, Iori didn't want to show up at the office today.This morning, Mochizuki immediately mentioned the matter of Shengzi as soon as they met. It seems that the invitation was received yesterday.In addition, the young Chiba also received the post.This matter must become the focus of discussion among the staff in the institute.Showing up at such a time, the heart is really heavy. Although Shengzi has resigned, it is hard to guarantee that no one among the staff thinks that she still has something to do with Iori. Even if they know that the two have broken up, there will definitely be people who are curious and want to see Iori's expression. "Can't you do it now?" "You are really disobedient..." Xia said in a motherly tone: "Then you wait." After waiting for a while, I heard Xia's voice coming from the microphone again. "Well, I'll go. I'll be out in about an hour, and I think I'll be there about four." "Thank you! I'll be waiting for you at the apartment." Iori held the microphone and bowed his head in thanks. He then hung up the office and informed them that the meeting originally scheduled for the evening was postponed until tomorrow due to urgent matters.It may be said that it is the prerogative of the owner of a small firm to unilaterally change the original plan due to his own reasons.The same is the general manager, if you are in a big company, you can't even think about it. Iori has a deeper understanding of this. People like him cannot work in dull departments such as government agencies and banks.He couldn't live the life of going to and from get off work on time every morning and evening.The company I joined when I graduated from university was relatively free. After that, I set up a separate company and ran it alone, and my time became more and more loose.The current office is implementing Iori's policy, so he doesn't even print his attendance card.Although it looks loose on the surface, Iori has his own unique insights into it.He believes that as long as the job is done well, it will be fine.Inspiration and creativity are the most important things in the design industry, and these can only come from a relaxed and free atmosphere.Of course, it is a bit too much to change the meeting time at will like today.He changed the date of the meeting purely to meet Xia, but it was just a willful move. After careful analysis, perhaps it is because of this degree of freedom that Iori still has the energy to pursue women in a serious manner at this age.Without these, he would have given up on it from the very beginning because it didn't work, and I'm afraid he wouldn't be so lustful towards women.If the surrounding environment had strict requirements and love became a taboo, perhaps in order to adapt to the environment, he had no choice but to suppress his desires, and probably the situation today would not have occurred, and a lot of pain would have been avoided.He believes that if everything in life must be done step by step, then, as a married man, he will definitely not chase other women. Is this true?Unbelievable. The kind of person who is serious on the surface, sometimes suddenly becomes lustful, or does obscene and obscene things.Repress yourself, and the result is darker, more hidden.Therefore, it is people like them who go to bars to touch women's bodies pervertedly, and get drunk from time to time. On this point, Iori can be said to be "the first to get the moon".He can appoint the woman he likes as a private secretary in his office, and everything is done in a discreet manner.Because he is not engaged in the kind of job with strict image, doing so will not attract right and wrong, even if it attracts criticism, he does not have to be afraid of losing his job because of it.In his industry, as long as he has a good design solution, it doesn't matter how many women he chases and plays with, everything can be forgiven.On the contrary, if you can't produce decent design works, no matter how serious you are, you can only be regarded as an incompetent person. However, this free atmosphere also has its negative side.As a member of the station, Miyazu dared to openly snatch Shengzi, the director's favorite, which must be said to be the result of freedom. Iori stayed in the study and checked the documents brought back from the office, and naturally there was no wedding invitation among them. "You are busy." Said when Fuzi came to make tea for him.When Iori replied vaguely, he suddenly remembered, "You can go." "Are there any guests?" Fuzi's intuition was extremely keen.She immediately sensed what Yizhi casually said, and knew that there was a female visitor. "It's only four o'clock..." "Today, you can go." Iori got a little impatient.Tomiko left the room for a while, and after about ten minutes, she appeared in front of Iori again fully dressed. "Then I'll go back, and the sheets have been replaced with new ones for you." She knew that there was a female visitor, so she made the bed specially, which was really disgusting for Tomiko.Iori was silent. "Then, I will take my leave first." Tomiko finally said her farewell too humbly, and went back.She is a difficult woman to tame.Without Tomiko, Iori's daily life will soon become difficult.After all, Fuzi is responsible for all his food and clothing. To know this, it's better to be a wife... Iori was concentrating on thinking, when the phone rang.He was worried that Xia called and told her that she couldn't make the appointment, but at this moment a young woman's voice came out of the phone. "Are you Mr. Iori?" The voice sounded familiar, but he couldn't remember who it was for a while.Just as he was ambiguous, the other party's voice suddenly became excited. "dad……" Only then did Iori recognize the voice of the eldest daughter Mariko. "Can't hear my voice?" "Why do you call Dad 'Mr. Iori'? It's outrageous." This is the first time he has received a call from his eldest daughter since the official divorce in January. "But, you are Mr. Iori!" Mariko said.She was still so quick to talk. "Meiko was injured just now. She was hit by a car and broke her leg and fractured her bones." "Really……" "Now I live in the station hospital." Iori looked at his watch, it was past four o'clock.Mariko spoke quickly, and the voice came through the microphone. "Meiko went out shopping by bicycle, and was knocked down by a car on the way back. She was immediately sent to the Shenye Hospital in front of the station, saying that her right leg was broken." "What part of the right leg?" "I heard from my mother that it is above the ankle bone. If she is put in a plaster cast and hospitalized, will it be okay to walk in the future?" Yizhi couldn't answer her question because he was not a doctor. "Where's mom?" "She went to the hospital. I'm studying for my exam today, so I'm at home." My sister had an accident and she was alone at home.Mariko was probably feeling uneasy. "Isn't the corner of No. 2 Street a three-fork intersection? It's a place with a steep slope. Meizi was riding downhill from there, and suddenly a car jumped out, and an accident happened. I used to think that place was dangerous, but..." Iori was more worried about Miko's injury. "So, Mom and Miko are in the hospital." "Yes. Dad, did you call the hospital?" "Just call the doctor and ask the doctor, and it will probably be clear." "That's all well and good. But I think it's better not to ask Mom to answer the phone." "What's wrong……" "I asked her and wanted to tell you about my sister's injury, but she said no. The phone call I'm making now must be kept confidential." What on earth is the wife thinking!No, she was no longer his wife, did she no longer regard him as the father of her children?Although it was just speculation, Iori felt that she might think so. "I don't know what to do, I think it's better to inform Dad..." "Thank you, it's great to tell Dad." Compared with the divorced wife, the children are related by blood, and the relationship is still relatively deep. "Well, Dad will just ask the doctor." "Dad, aren't you going to the hospital?" "If the injury is serious, go, there will be guests coming later." "Although Mom said so, I think it doesn't matter if you go, and Miko will be very happy if you go..." After placing the phone, Iori immediately found out the hospital's phone number.After dialing the number, Iori reported her name, saying that the child was in an accident and caused you trouble, and wanted to ask how her injury was.After waiting for a while, someone answered, saying that the doctor is busy now and cannot answer the phone.It sounded like a head nurse. "The right ankle bone is broken, but it's fine. There's no need for surgery, and I'll be fine with a plaster cast. The doctor said it will heal in about a month. Now the injured foot is swollen, so it's better to stay in the hospital temporarily." "Thank you very much, I am the father of the child, please take care of me." Iori thanked her and hung up the phone.In this way, there is no need to rush to the hospital now. He felt relieved and looked at his watch. It was already twenty past four.If you rush to the hospital now, you will miss your appointment with Xia.Forcibly calling her out of Tang's house, and finally arriving here, Xia will definitely be angry if she is shut down.After explaining, she might be reasonable, but it was too precarious just now. He was annoyed at his wife's reluctance to tell him the news of her daughter's injury.It seemed that if his daughter was sick and hospitalized in the future, his wife would not notify him.Although the husband and wife have divorced, the child's living expenses are still paid by Iori.Even though he is divorced, he is still fulfilling his duties as a father.That would be too callous. Maybe the wife didn't want to worry him.This time the daughter asked to contact her father, but the wife flatly refused, saying it was "unnecessary".Iori was shocked again by the level of her indifference. Still a woman is great... Iori now realizes that the children are hostages in the hands of his wife.Yi Zhizong had good intentions, as long as his wife said "no", the children would not easily approach their father. In fact, neither of the daughters called after the divorce.Perhaps that was also instigated by the wife.Although it is self-inflicted, when Iori thinks of falling into the loneliness of being abandoned by her children, a slight loneliness surges in her heart. In order to relieve his heavy heart, Iori stood on the balcony and watched the view of the building under the setting sun for a while.Just then the intercom rang.A few minutes after opening the door, Xia appeared in front of her. "May I come in?" Xia was as cautious as before, looking around vigilantly before quietly entering the room. "Fast enough!" It was a few minutes to two in the afternoon on the phone in the cafe.Xia was ready to come out, and it was fast enough. "I'm in a hurry to go out, this outfit will come out." Xia was wearing a pale orange Chanel suit, with a black-striped silk shirt looming on her chest.She still holds the coat and the bouquet in her hand. "How nice to come." "How can you not make an order! Why are you suddenly free today?" "That's not the case..." Iori was not in the mood to tell her about the child's injury.When it comes to trysts between men and women, involving family has traditionally been considered taboo.This is also the tacit practice of middle-aged love. But women always inadvertently reveal the family's only scaly claws.Xia has never, and still does not, take the initiative to talk about her family and her husband. At best, she has only talked about her daughter, and it is not her intention.But Iori will not take the initiative to talk about family.He hated the subject.Originally separated from his wife, although Iori did not learn from her, it is natural.Now tell Xia the news of her daughter's injury, and her daughter's injury will not improve. "I brought flowers, but there are still flowers here?" Xia looked at the flower arrangement on the decorative cabinet and said.Tomiko often buys fresh flowers recently.In the vase in front of the window are vigorously placed roses and rosy grass. "The maid inserted it." "It's not a joke to let her scold me, I'd better insert it quietly!" Xia said playfully, and took out the June chrysanthemum from the white flower bag in her hand. "Recently, flower shops lack a sense of season, and this flower will be on the market in January." Iori nodded, and the flowers brought by Shengzi and Kasumi's flowers and plants glared at each other in front of her eyes. The shape of the flowers that Xia arranged was indescribably elegant.When she picked up the crystal glass ashtray on the table, Iori was thinking: I don't know what she is using it for.She put Jianshan in the middle, and then inserted June Chrysanthemum.The white crystal glass jar is paired with purple Juneflowers, the two form a sharp contrast, and it looks like flowers are blooming in the ashtray. "Just leave it here, okay?" Xia put it on the table. "It would be great if it could be put in a vase by the window, the flowers are so beautiful." Xia probably avoided the roses on the decorative grid on purpose, but the June chrysanthemum blooming in her crystal glass jar was more eye-catching because of its elegance. "It's really wonderful. The flowers over there seem to be stuffed in, but the flowers on this side have a special charm." "There's no need to force yourself to say praise!" As if waiting for her to say something strange, Yizhi walked towards Xia, and gently pressed her face against her. Xia turned her face slightly, as if scolding him, when Iori put her arms around her shoulders, Xia naturally raised her face to catch his passionate kiss. Xia was sitting on the sofa, and Iori Mao was kissing her with her body on.He gently pulled her up, and she got up following his pull, and the two walked toward the bedroom with lips kissing inseparably.The matter of the child gradually disappeared from Iori's mind without a trace.The advantage of Xia wearing a suit is that she is completely naked before she takes off her clothes and goes to bed.There are long shirts that can be worn next to the kimono, but not all suits.Yizhi went to bed first this time and looked at her.Xia took off her clothes and said, "Borrow me a bathrobe." Yizhi remained silent.Knowing where the yukata was kept, Xia took out a men's yukata from the suit closet and put it on. Iori thought she would climb into bed right away, but Kasumi was standing in front of the bed, wearing a yukata.In Iori's view, Xia is no longer a big girl, and she doesn't need to be shy and coy, she can directly enter the theme, but Xia needs to brew her emotions. It would be best for her to say "Come on" softly to her or give her a hard hand to bed.This time, Yizhi pretended not to know and waited silently.Finally, Xia could not hold on any longer, and said softly: "Hey……" She looked this way urgingly.Iori agreed to her plea, and slowly lifted the quilt. "Come on, come here..." So, wearing a bathrobe, Xia sneaked in from the side of the bed. "Take it off. Wearing that thing on your body is like holding a rag doll." As Iori spoke, she lifted the hem of the yukata, revealing Kasumi's naturally beautiful naked body.Iori caressed the tender skin happily, and untied the belt with the other hand.When the front flap was opened, revealing both shoulders, Iori hugged Kasumi tightly again. Xia lay meekly on the bed, even gently twisted her upper body to cooperate with Iori to take off her yukata.In this tranquility, Shengzi and the child disappeared from Yizhi's mind, but only Xia firmly occupied his mind.Does Xia know this kind of psychological activity of men?She lay motionless in Iori's arms, holding her breath intently.However, this still moment of skin-to-skin contact is just a step towards the passion that follows.Iori let go of Kasumi's arm that was holding her so tightly that her ribs were almost broken, Kasumi let out a light breath, and raised her head slightly.伊织再次把她的头纳入左手臂弯里，右手在背部摩挲着。 霞的胴体有几处敏感且柔弱的部位。从下颚沿背脊向下延伸的一条线便是其中之一。只要用指尖若即若离地沿着背部向腰部下洼处轻柔地爱抚，她就会“啊……”地低吟。与此同时，上身随之抽动，一下翻身过来，就像一个反应灵敏、别致的电动开关玩具。有意思的是，当从上而下再由下及上地交替抚弄时，她的呻吟声会渐次高涨，最终哀告“停下来……”此时，霞全身燃烧起来，无论触摸哪儿，都会敏锐地回应，感觉全身都是性感地带。 霞的胴体已经撤去所有防卫。 然而，伊织并没有一鼓作气地冲进去，敌人既然已经举起了双手，请求归降，进入城池只是个时间问题，不用着急。 “唔……”不久，霞终于忍不住哀声呻吟起来。这时，才无可奈何般地缓缓进入。 一旦入得城池，从陶醉于美酒的瞬间开始，男人便会被抽去筋骨，最后反倒落得失败的命运，所以最好是尽可能地推迟进城。 攻陷敌城，在进行激战的同时，一瞬之间发出了呐喊，不一会儿，静寂造访，两人之间犹如什么事也不曾发生过。霞照例微微低着头，前额贴在伊织胸前，头枕着他的右腕，两人的脚就像三明治似的交缠在一起。 就这样纹丝不动地躺着。平时两人总是六点或七点钟见面，霞到九点钟回去，所以每次幽会都得记挂着时间。今天见面提早了将近两个小时，因此时间还很充裕。伊织在这之后也没有什么非做不可的事。两个人一动不动，好像睡着了。 当伊织醒来时，床头柜上的钟表显示七点。他与往常一样，觉得时间已经过了很久，但当他想起离霞回家的时间还有两个钟头时，又安下心来。 伊织近来患有轻度的失眠症。他以前从未出现过睡不着觉的情形，尤其是饮过酒后，头一挨着枕头就能雷打不动地睡着。他有时都为自己的神经如此迟钝而感到惊奇。然而，这两三个月以来，就算是上了床也辗转难眠。明明身体已经疲惫不堪，可头脑却出奇地清醒。开始还自以为看看书就能够睡着，却不料这也不怎么见效，严重时，一直似睡非睡，直到天亮。 这期间，他便迷迷糊糊地思索诸如工作、离婚的妻子、霞、笙子以及自己的将来等事情，一切都毫无头绪，而又突如其来。因此即使考虑，也只能是来回兜圈子。 伊织自己也不明白为什么会变成这样，或许是与妻子分手，独身一人才导致这样。 昨晚他也饱受了失眠之苦，或许因为睡着时已近凌晨四点钟，所以仍然没有睡够。他觉得，如果能抚摸着霞柔润的肌肤，那么就随时都能睡着。然而这样睡下去的话，到晚上恐怕又会失眠了。 伊织心里正犹豫着是起床还是再静静地躺一会儿，霞却在他身旁睡得又香又甜。她依然轻轻地趴伏着，只有左肩头微露在被角外，鼻息声很细微。但是，刚才伊织欠起上身看钟表时，她却犹如不让他动似的，轻轻地用手指划了一下伊织的手腕。虽说是无意识的，但她居然能够本能地察觉到男人要从床上起来。她这个动作，说好笑也挺好笑，说可爱也蛮可爱的。 伊织感受着霞身体的温润，头脑中再次想起孩子受伤的事。 以后怎么样了？要不要去再问一问？然而，只要他一想起妻子说“不用通知他”这句话时，就再也没有心思去过问了。看来，说女儿住在医院里，没有多大问题，无须自己担心。伊织说服自己，似乎又睡着了。 当伊织再次醒来时，时钟已转过八点。这次是霞先醒，他随后也醒了。 “太好了！……” 霞看了看表，似乎放心了，于是又把舒展的上身埋进床单。伊织也核实了一下时间，然后柔声对霞说： “睡得好像很香呀！” “啊，睡了两个小时，真不好意思。” “中途还打了呼噜。” “这绝对不可能。你瞎说！” “唔，倒也不是打呼噜，可是你的鼻息喷在我的胸口，怪痒痒的。” “对不起，可是您应该跟我说。” “不，我挺舒服。” 霞柔和的鼻息，既是她活着的证明，也似是她爱的呢喃。 “可真安静啊！” 四周确实很静寂，让人想不到现在还只是晚上八点。 “今天穿了西服，所以不用费时间。” “可是，也该起床了呀……” 每次幽会，结果都是一样。他们总是直到迫近分别时才从床上急急忙忙地爬起来。 “我送你回堂吧！” “不用了，你就这样歇着好了。” “我已经睡够了，今天也没喝过酒，不要紧的。” “你真的不用为我担心。” “我送你，不乐意？” “瞧你……” “那就送吧！我们两个人好久没兜风了，一起出去不也挺好吗？” 伊织曾经送霞回堂，那时他们刚认识不久。当时皓月当空，月色清雅，伊织眼见霞的背影消逝在绿树葱葱的宅邸，心里涌起了丝丝妒意。于是，为此他曾决心再也不送她。可是今夜，以前的印象已显得相当淡薄。 “如果开车送你，咱们还可以再歇一会儿。” “可是，已经八点半了。” 虽然嘴上这么说，可霞还是点头同意了。伊织恋恋不舍地再次抚摸霞光滑的肌肤。 与和服相比，西服穿脱起来更简单。不用三十分钟，霞就穿好了夏奈尔套装，发型梳整得和来时不差分毫。 “我真能一个人回去。” 霞还婉言推辞，伊织不容分说地让她坐到副座上。 “离上次您送我回家，已经一年了。” 霞的神情，仿佛也在追忆去年的送行。 “我基本上记得路。不过，开到附近时，请你告诉我一声。” 伊织一边踏着油门，一边再次想起女儿的事。在女儿因车祸受伤的日子里，自己却正载着他人之妻兜风。虽然他觉得很不负责，但只要一想到妻子都不愿意告知他这消息，不禁又觉得心安理得。 “这么晚了，还有这么多车在路上跑！” 由青山大道经二四六号国道，上八环线，再由此进入第三京滨高速路，这条线路与上次一样。 “今天来得突然，后天我们再好好吃顿饭。六点啊！” “还见面吗？” “后天不是定好的正常约会时间吗？你有什么不方便吗？” “没什么，只是总见面，会被你厌倦的……” “怎么会！我现在只有你一个人。” "Now……" 霞只重复了这两个字。 “唉，后天还是算了吧！” 伊织摇了摇头，望着霞肃然的侧脸。 “那么，后天就依你，下周去京都吧！” "Is there a problem?" “没什么事，但星期六可以去。很久没两人去旅行了，所以我想去。” "..." “去京都的新干线很方便。你选吧，后天见面还是下周去京都……” 霞望着前方，仍然不言语。 “哎，怎么样？” “我想去京都。” 正面出现红绿灯，他们来到第三京滨高速路的收费站。过了这儿，沿右车道行驶，便进入横滨新道。新道前端双线交汇，平时总是塞车，而一过九点，这里的车流量也减少了，道路很通畅。 “照这样，或许十点钟之前就能到。如果再悠着点出发就好了。” 伊织觉得像是吃了亏似的，而霞却并不觉得早点到有什么不好。 “去年去奈良是六月吧？” 当时，在京都住了一夜后马上赶往奈良，所以没能好好玩。这次从一开始就只定京都一个地方，那样就可以比上次玩得更痛快了。 “我们还是住旅馆吧，很久没住了。” “有熟悉的地方吗？” “东山脚下倒是有一间小型的旅馆，那地方有庭院，相当有情趣。近来没去住，明天再先定下房间吧！” 去京都和欧洲旅行时都是住大饭店，偶尔住一住日式房间也不坏。伊织回忆起来，淡淡的灯笼发出柔和的光线，映照着日式房间，想象着他们在房间的角落里铺上褥子度过一夜的情形。 “樱花还早了一些，可春分樱也许开了。” 想到又终于可以与霞一起旅行，伊织的心里激荡着欢悦。 “星期天的下午一点左右，我们在新干线的候车大厅碰头吧！不过，在那之前还想要和你见面，怎么样？” 霞不置可否地望着远处。 "Are you ok?" 伊织再次提醒道，过了好一会儿，霞才说道： "I go." "Okay, that's it." 伊织换只手握住方向盘，汽车此时好像正由新道进入一号国道，四周的房屋突然多了起来。来来往往的车辆也增多了。 “今天虽然有些阴，却是朦胧月夜。” 右手的山际，仅仅可以看到春月淡淡的影子停在远方的云端。伊织右手握住方向盘，腾出的左手悄然放在霞的膝上。 离开国道线，到达堂时，刚过十点。应该比从东京车站坐电车要早到一个多小时。 “到海岸去看一看，怎么样？” 伊织这样邀请道，霞瞟了一眼汽车里的钟表，什么也没说。伊织曾经到这附近的高尔夫球场来打过两三回球，所以这一带的地形还算摸得着门道。 “从这路口往左拐就到了。” 他一边扶着方向盘，一边伸手打开车窗。顿时，海风夹带着咸腥味，吹进车里。 “久违了。” 今年还是第一次来湘南。两旁一排排的房屋终于被抛在后面，变得稀稀落落的。迎面只有开阔而黑暗的天际。再开过一个缓坡道，好像就是海边了。 “既然已经到了这儿，你该放心了吧！” 伊织觉得已经挨近她家，霞大概就会安心了。然而，大概是离家太近反倒更让她不安，霞依旧没有回答。爬过了那道缓坡，果然不出所料，大海就展现在眼前。道路从这儿沿着海岸线平行延伸而去，大路两旁的松林连绵不断。伊织右转方向盘，向小田原方向开去。 “平时总是拥挤不堪的，真讨厌。” 伊织也记得这条路非常拥挤。正是因为这条路从逗子和叶山经江之岛到茅之崎与小田原一线，与蜿蜒的海岸线相连，所以一到周末或休假时就会车水马龙，塞得水泄不通。然而，现在除了偶有车辆往来，四周万籁俱寂。 继续往前行了二三公里，左边有个宽阔的停车场。伊织在那儿停了车，打开车窗，海浪声顿时近在耳际。 “好安静啊……” 海上浓云密布，就连来时依稀可见的月亮也看不到了。 “来这儿看过海吗？” 车的副座正好停在靠海的一边，所以伊织要看大海，自然而然地靠近了霞。 “或许因为住得太近，反而不看。” “春天到了。” 从微开的车窗飘进来的海风里，果然有着春天的气息。伊织呼吸着这微风，把手放在霞的肩上。后面开来一辆小汽车，从车旁急驶而去。 当这车灯一消失，伊织便轻柔地与霞接吻。 在熄灭了车灯的车里，男女两人相拥接吻。没有人看见这一情景，偶有车辆路过，也都悄然扬长而去，然后静寂再次降临。从微开的车窗只传来春的微风和波涛的声响。 伊织轻轻放倒座椅，放在霞膝上的手慢慢往上摸索。 伊织原本无意在车内缠绵，彼此相拥接吻后才生出了猥亵之心。他也并不想学年轻人的汽车做爱，只是想让霞发窘难堪。一旦这么分别，霞就可望而不可及了。这种想法更加刺激了他那种猥亵的心理。 伊织移动着唇，由唇至霞柔软的耳际，右手悄悄在她的两膝之间摸索而上。 霞瞬时叫道：“不行”，随即合上了双膝。伊织并不强来，依着她收了手，他打算伺机再动，重整旗鼓。 即使一时一刻不见成效也无妨。只要坚持不懈，必将取得最后的胜利。只有一点点地接近目标，才饶有情趣。霞只看到了伊织困顿和放弃的外表，实际上他的手此时已不知不觉地摸到了她的大腿附近。霞起初还在抗拒，双膝紧紧合拢，现在却痛快地敞开着，上身也似乎回心转意了。 又有一辆汽车开过来，两车交错的刹那间，车灯的光亮洒成一片，伊织却全然没在意。他全身的神经都凝结在右手的指尖上。还有一步，他想着，手在偷偷地向上袭进。在他多次反复地尝试后，一种柔软、湿润的感觉透过指尖传了上来。霞的私处，已经耐不住长时间的侵袭，变得润泽了，伊织一边移动着，一边喃喃自语。 “全都知道……” 不知霞是否明白他话中的含义，她只是不断地吁着气。 伊织现在可以断言，他对霞的一切都了如指掌，他已经知道所有关于霞的秘密。在霞纤巧的外表下，有着丰腴的体态、圆润的肩及腰的线条，还有她那隐秘处的喜好。拥有如此自信，伊织体会到无比的欢喜和无限的满足。 汽车里虽然只有两个人，却也并不自在，更没法与床上相比。伊织左手抱住霞的肩，腾出另一只手来抚摸霞。 伊织在出发之前已经要够了，他无心再继续。他只想在临别之际用指尖去表达他的惜别和依恋之情，那是想摸弄的一种轻松心情之下的爱抚形式。但是，对于接受了抚爱的女人而言，这样会给她带来不快。女人要爱就干脆做到底，不然从一开始就别去碰她，让她吊在半空中的感觉可真折磨人。 伊织也许对此内情并不知道，他从一开始就没有打算在这么狭小的空间内翻云覆雨。当然，如果霞一定要的话，他也许会答应。在这停靠路边的汽车里，做起事来不安心，这样也太大胆了。霞也似乎早已经断了这念头，所以也不会要求他这样做。但是，肉体的情欲之火一旦燃烧起来，是不可能轻易熄灭的。 “不要……”霞呢喃着，她的下身接受了已变得柔软的手指，一边娇喘着。 她小声的呻吟，仿佛是在怨恨伊织刚才的所作所为。伊织听到她呻吟的声音，多少感到了责任。他觉得，是他点燃了火焰，自己却一直佯装不知，这样做也许过于残酷了。 “我们找个地方吧……” 手指还放在那儿不动，他低声问道。 “这附近一定会有二人独处的地方。” "What did you say……" “这儿离你家近，完事就可以马上回家了。” "I will not go." 伊织的请求，反而唤醒了霞的理智。霞这才注意到自己衣冠不整，慌忙起身，按住伊织夹在她双膝之间的手。 "No more." 伊织想不到她的口吻会如此严厉，于是停了手，像个受了责备的男孩似的，沮丧地把手收回来。霞着急地理膝整发。 "Let's go back!" “就这样回去好吗？” 伊织不怀好意地问道。霞又从手袋里取出化妆镜，背过身照看自己的容貌。 伊织替她打亮了内车灯，隔着背说： “不想让你就这样回去。” 霞长叹了一声，没答话。她还沉浸在方才的余韵之中犹未清醒，所以似乎正艰难地整理着思绪。 “对面有亮光在动。” 天空上仍然盖满了厚厚的云层，既见不到月亮也见不到星星，远处黑乎乎的，海面上有一个亮点在明灭闪动。 "Let's go!" 伊织在霞的催促下，踩响了引擎。沿着海岸道路前面松林之间的小径行驶，他们回到了来时的路上。在红绿灯的地方向左拐，进入堂。伊织单手扶着方向盘，另一只手放到霞的膝上。 “这儿，好可爱……” “你好狠心！” "What's wrong?" 霞一声不吭地抓住他的手指，看来是在怨怪他调起了欲火，而又中途作罢。 “从这儿向右拐。” 伊织按她说的向右转弯。车的两旁突然出现了树木繁茂的街道。 “在那前边吧？” 远处有一片竹林，再前面还有白色的围墙，围墙尽处就是霞的家。 “星期六，一点钟！” 伊织在靠近她家门前的地方停了车，提醒她道。 “明白了。那么，晚安了。” 霞和以往一样，每当分别时总是显得很淡漠，她急急忙忙地下了车，小跑着进去了。 “晚安……” 伊织望着她背影嘟哝着。他相信，霞的爱处至今仍是湿漉漉的。 告别了霞之后，伊织的头脑里再次浮现出孩子的事情。她现在一定上了石膏住在医院里。今后会怎样呢？妻子就这样呆在医院里吗？大女儿是不是还在一个人看家？桩桩件件涌上心头。 可是又能如何呢？他直至方才都还在公寓里和霞幽会，然后又开车送她到堂，一路上还反复做着淫狎之事。他一直在做世间难以容忍的事，而如今却想要恢复成为一个普通的父亲。 哪一个才是真正的自己呢……伊织思考着，他觉得自己和基格尔博士、海德一样，具有双重人格。担心孩子受伤的事，想到打电话去询问情况时是基格尔博士，与霞沉溺于爱欲之时是海德。 然而，姑且不说外表，在伊织的内心，这二者并不矛盾。二者皆是伊织，而且他打算让这两者相辅相成地保持平衡。实际上，如果成天光想着妻儿子女的事，是做不成工作的。这样一来，也许就只能成为一个只顾家庭的慈爱的父亲。为此，必然会缺少作为男人的意志。虽说已是中年，但男人萌生出作为雄性的欲望也是情理之中的事。只不过问题在于伊织的欲望不是针对妻子，而是针对其他的女性罢了。 那是一夫一妻组织这一结构中的问题。作为雄性，产生那样的欲望也许是再合情合理不过的了。从某种层面上讲，至少这样的男人比那些对异性毫无兴趣、却为同性相吸的娘娘腔男人更好些。 总而言之，在伊织的深处的的确确潜在着两种面孔。他目前的外表体现出的形象，正是作为一个善良父亲拥有的面孔。 伊织看到前方有自动售货机，它的前面还有电话亭。于是他在那儿停下车，往东京家里拨电话。他打算如果是妻子来接，马上就挂断它。可却是大女儿真理子接的电话。 “啊，是爸爸呀，您去医院了吗？” “我还在忙着呢，没空去，美子还住在医院里吧？” “是的，但是她没那么疼了，和大家住在大病房里也不寂寞。妈妈说她很快就能回家。” “啊，今晚不要紧了，是吗？最近我会去探望她，如果万一有什么事，打电话到公寓里来吧！” 伊织放心了，他现在已经俨然成了基格尔博士。