Chapter 25 chapter 2

Since then, there has been no news from Jia Zhi. Maybe it's busy before the end of the year!However, Dongzi couldn't feel relieved when they separated like that last time. Did you lose interest in knowing you didn't have a uterus, or were you disappointed with sex you couldn't get your head around? Looks like I shouldn't have told him... Dongzi told herself that she didn't have to worry about Guizhi's affairs, since she had nothing to do with men anyway.But, having said that, she still cares!It doesn't matter if the relationship between the two ends, but if it's because of the loss of her womb, it's just...

Last time, Dongzi thought she would feel completely relieved after explaining it clearly, but now she regrets it. She began to hate herself, why is she so contradictory? Work ended early on the 30th, and the cleaning began at 4:00 p.m. After 6:00 p.m., Dongzi took Maki and Tomomi to a restaurant on the top floor of a restaurant in Chiba for dinner. While eating, Maki asked, "Miss Boss, what are you going to do during the New Year?" "Aren't you going to meet that uncle?" "Uncle?" "Is that the uncle from last time?" "Ah..." I heard that Maki actually called Kishi "uncle".

"He and I are just ordinary friends." "I'm sorry. But if we're just friends, wouldn't it be better to meet each other?" "Right……" Maki's words are correct, maybe it's only Toko herself who finds it strange. "The proprietress' friend is really good!" "He already has a wife and children." "It's no fun being too big, it's better to be a mistress." "Don't talk nonsense!" "But, he and the proprietress stand together, they match very well!" Dongzi was uneasy, thinking: what is this child thinking?

At nine o'clock, the three of them left the restaurant and took a taxi in front of the hotel. "Happy New Year!" In this way, before January 6th, the three of them will be separated for a week. Go back to the residence, take off your makeup, and lie on the sofa. And so the year ended.What kind of year is this year?Although I can't think of anything to gain, I do have something to lose, that is: the womb and the woman... At the beginning of this year, Dongzi didn't even imagine that he would become like this.Perhaps, Dongzi will never forget the year when she lost her most precious thing!

On New Year's Eve, Dongzi is waiting for Takashi's contact.She thought to herself, even if she couldn't come, she should at least make a phone call.However, after eleven o'clock, there was still no contact. Did you go back to your hometown in Nagano?Or go to a restaurant to celebrate with your family? After twelve o'clock, Dongzi gave up and watched the New Year's Eve program on TV. The New Year's Eve bells in the ancient temple sounded leisurely.It is said that it can eliminate one hundred and eight kinds of troubles, mainly the troubles related to love and desire.That being said, it may not necessarily be that troubles can be reduced a lot starting this year.

Thinking wildly, Dongzi finally drank brandy and went to bed. The next morning is New Year's Day.It was already past eight o'clock, but there was not even a single sound around. It seemed that nearly half of the apartment residents were absent. At nine o'clock, she took a shower and prepared to leave for Yokohama. During the New Year's holiday, Dongzi originally planned to stay at home, but the loneliness of spending New Year's Eve alone made her want to go home. After noon, I arrived at my home in Yokohama, and the house was full of guests.The brother and sister-in-law who lived with their parents had a child, and the younger sister also brought back her fiancé who was scheduled to get married this spring.Although the parents are still alive, the atmosphere in the family gradually turns to focus on the brother-in-law.Once the younger sister also gets married, after four or five years, maybe Dongzi will have no room to go home.

Dongzi deeply realized that she had been excluded from the happy atmosphere around her. Therefore, although her family persuaded her to stay, she still left at six o'clock. When going out, every parent asked in her ear: "How is your health?" "nothing……" "That's good." Mother nodded silently. If she had gone home in previous years, her mother would have mentioned marriage, knowing that Dongzi didn't want to marry, she still stubbornly persecuted her.However, this year, there was no mention of a word. Do you care about the surgery? Dongzi felt both relieved and lonely.

Back at the apartment, she was suddenly exhausted.Put on home clothes and turn on the TV.The acting talent of the young actors.While watching, she was still waiting for Guizhi's call.Knowing that it was impossible to call, she still looked forward to it. No matter what, she missed the bright mood of waiting for a man. The next day was also sunny and fine.In the morning, Dongzi cleans the room, and in the afternoon starts designing new hats.Only when making hats can she settle down and forget about everything! When it came to an end, it was already six o'clock in the afternoon, it was already dark outside, and lights were turned on in the direction of Shibuya.The second holiday is over again.

Dongzi felt a little hungry.I only had coffee and ham and eggs for lunch.Although I brought back mochi and New Year's vegetables from my home in Yokohama, I didn't want to eat them, I just wanted something lighter. There should be a restaurant opening on the second day of the new year! She was wondering if she was going to go out, or just to feed herself with the food she had, when the phone rang. She thought it was Guizhi calling, and after the bell rang three times, she picked up the receiver. "Excuse me, is this Miss Kinouchi Touko?" It was a familiar voice, but he couldn't remember who it was.

"Which one?" "I'm Funatsu..." "Ah..." Dongzi sighed. "Congratulations on the new year." After the New Year's greetings, Funatsu went on to say, "Are you at home? I thought you were out." "Yes! What about you?" "At first I wanted to go back to my hometown, but the flight was full and I found it troublesome, so I just stayed." I heard that the hometown of Funatsu is Fukuoka.Indeed, with a dark complexion and well-proportioned facial features, he looks like a man from Kyushu. "What are you doing now?"

"Just staring alone?" "If you don't mind, why don't we have dinner together? I'm so bored!" "Did you date me because you were bored?" "No, that's not the case." Chuan Lv hurriedly explained. "Shall I pick you up, or meet in Shinjuku?" "This..." "The rest of the body has rested, so how about the downstairs lobby of the Keio Plaza Hotel? "What time is more convenient?" "Around half past seven?" "it is good." Dongzi put the microphone back and sat in front of the dressing table. Those who have extra time during the New Year should be single nobles like Funatsu!A man with a family is unlikely. Anyway, if you are with Funatsu, you don't need to spend too much energy, and at least you have a companion.Dongzi began to comb her hair. New Years should wear kimono!While thinking about it, Dongzi's heart jumped for joy. At 7:30 as agreed, Toko went to the downstairs hall of Keio, where Funatsu was already waiting. "Congratulations!" After greeting, Funatsu still stared at Fuyuko. "What's the matter?" "No, it's just that you are too beautiful..." Dongzi wears a kimono with a light-colored base and a white crane hem pattern. "You look beautiful in a kimono!" "Thank you." Funatsu's serious tone made Fuyuko amused. During the New Year, there are many women in kimonos in the lobby downstairs, but maybe it is Dongzi who is the most eye-catching?Many people who came and went turned their heads to look at her a few more times. When she was with Takashi, Fuyuko often wore kimonos, but she had hardly worn them in the past one or two years.It seems that if no one appreciates it, women will neglect to dress up! Having not worn a kimono for a long time, Dongzi's heart tightened, as if her back was straight and her posture was much more elegant. "Let's eat! What would you like to eat?" "I will..." The western restaurant on the seventh floor had a dinner show with several male singers, but it seemed quite crowded. "Is the Chinese food in the underground street good?" "OK!" On the night of January 2, the underground street was also crowded with people, but the two still found a vacant seat inside and sat down facing each other. "I thought you were probably not at home, but I still dialed the phone. Thank you for agreeing to meet me during the New Year." After sitting down, Funatsu thanked me again. "It's ridiculous what you said, and I'm bored too!" "Anyway, it's been a lucky start to the year." The waiter came with the menu. Funatsu took it and said, "Please order." Dongzi ordered beer and three dishes.After the beer was served, the two toasted. "It's a good thing I stay in Tokyo." Said the boat law.Drank the beer in one gulp. It was the first time for Toko to eat with a young man.Before that, although he also had dinner with Fushiki and Kida, they were both married and over thirty-five years old.Perhaps because of Takashi, none of the people I met were young people. ——It’s good to meet young people once in a while... Looking at the somewhat reserved Funatsu, Toko finally felt relaxed. Funatsu is young and polite, but he doesn't have much to talk about face-to-face. After all, his relationship with Kishi is different. "Your hometown is Kyushu?" "Fukuoka." "In the city?" "See you indoors, by the sea." "Isn't it warm over there?" "Although it is Kyushu, there are considerable differences between the north and the south of Kyushu. Geographically, Fukuoka is a cloudy place, and it is still very cold in winter. It is even colder than Tokyo because of the cold wind blowing from Genkai Beach." It seems that it is too naive to think that Kyushu is in the south and must be very warm. "Have you ever been to Kyushu?" "When I was on a school trip in college, Yunxian passed by Aso. There is a place in Aso called Cao Qianli, right? It's awesome there!" At that time, Dongzi was a sophomore in high school, still wearing a dark blue uniform, and did not understand the joy and sorrow of love.Now, ten years have passed. "There are too many good places in Kyushu, such as Nagasaki, Miyaki, Kagoshima, and..." "Have you been there?" "Almost all of them. Do you want to go together next time? I will be a guide." "Thank you." Dongzi nodded, thinking about the scene of traveling with Funatsu.What would Kishi say if he and Funatsu traveled alone?And what kind of psychology does Chuan Lu hold? However, this may be because Dongzi thinks too much, and Funatsu is probably just acting as a guide out of goodwill. "The food here tastes good." Funatsu kept moving his chopsticks. Seeing the young man eating, Dongzi felt very annoyed.She asked nonchalantly: "Is the director in Tokyo during the New Year?" "You don't know? The director went to Hawaii at the end of the year." "Will the whole family go together?" "I'll be back on January 4th." Dongzi is drinking beer.If you want to go abroad, why not tell yourself?Is it because the family is out and can't say it? "When is the departure?" "It should be thirty days." "It's family service!" "The director is almost not at home on weekdays, and it is impossible to spend time with his family during the New Year's holiday." Guizhi said that he did not love his wife, but even so, he still took her to travel abroad during the New Year? Dongzi felt drunk suddenly sober. After dinner, the two went up to the rooftop bar on the forty-fifth floor.From here, you can overlook the night view through the glass window in front of the counter. On a clear day in winter, you should be able to see Futu Mountain in the evening, but now it is after eight o'clock, and it is slightly shrouded in fog and dew, so that you can't see it. The two sat side by side at the counter drinking brandy. Although there was no special topic to chat with, Dongzi felt her body shaking during the long jump in the night. I wonder if it was because of the fog flowing in the sky above, or was she already drunk? "Have you been helping Mr. Guizhi's office?" Dongzi suddenly wanted to ask some malicious topics. "it's been a while……" "Is it useful to stay in that kind of place?" "However, the director is currently the most talented person in the construction industry." "However, it's still very boring to listen to people's orders!" "One day I'll be independent and make a career out of it." "Then why don't you come out and do it yourself now?" "It's a bit difficult now, but if you have money in the future..." "Anyway, you'd better resign and get out of that kind of place." Dongzi didn't understand why he said such a thing. "Give me another cup." Dongzi pushed the empty cup forward. "no problem?" "rest assured." After drinking another half glass of brandy, Dongzi suddenly felt dizzy.For a moment, it was pitch black and the lights flickered.She put her hand on her forehead and lowered her head. "What's wrong?" "A little uncomfortable..." Maybe it's been a while since I wore a kimono?I feel pain in my chest. "Let's go?" "Hello." Dongzi shook her head lightly and stood up. She thought she could stand still, but staggered. "Drinking too fast?" "have no idea." Drinking beer in the underground street, and only having two glasses of brandy at the rooftop bar, it shouldn't be too much, but the tight kimono and Takashi's overseas travel made her unhappy! "I want to go home." Dongzi said when she stepped out of the elevator. "I see you off." "It's best like this." Dongzi said as if ordering, and got into the taxi parked in front of the hotel. Between the car dealerships, Dongzi leaned against the door, with her forehead pressed against the glass window, she knew very well that drunkenness made her face burn like fire. "Are you okay?" Funatsu stared at her face worriedly. "Sorry, I barely found you out." "No, I can't blame you." In fact, Dongzi wanted to come out to relax. Take the taxi via Nishisando and turn right in front of Yoyogi Forest.Immediately, I saw the bright lights of Sangongbashi Station, and up the slope, it was Dongzi's apartment. "Ah, stop over there." After passing the stone wall in front of the apartment, Dongzi said to the driver. "Do you need me to take you in?" "Okay..." Dongzi nodded.But, after thinking about it, she shouldn't let a man into her room late at night, except for Guizhi, she had never let anyone in before. However, the other party is Funatsu, he is an innocent young man, so he shouldn't have any strange thoughts! In any case, it was a little lonely to spend the night alone like this.If Kishi could go to Hawaii with his family, it would be natural for him to be alone with Funatsu in China. During the New Year, the apartment was quiet, and even the administrator's room had the curtains closed. Dongzi stepped out of the elevator, came to the door, and opened it.The curtain that covers the room hopes to reflect the light of the living room. "Can I come in?" "It's dirty!" It was the first time to let Funatsu enter my home and leave the hospital, and now it is the second time. "There is only coffee left at home..." Dongzi boiled water, brewed coffee, put the coffee in front of Funatsu, and turned to enter the bedroom inside. She hastily untied her belt and put on a haori (translation: Japanese-style long coat) outside. When the mist came, the depression in her chest disappeared. "Are you ok?" "It's easier. Want to hear some music?" "Alright..." "Listen to what?" "It will be all right……" Fuyuko plays the Billy Joel LP that she bought a week ago. "Do you want to add sugar?" "No……" Funatsu's attitude was stiffer than in the hotel bar. Dongzi suddenly had an act of wanting to play tricks on this honest young man.It was different from temptation, it was almost torture for pleasure, but it was undeniable that it was still caused by anger towards Takashi. Fuyuko sat on the same sofa as Funatsu and asked, "What do you think of me?" "How about it?" "Don't you want to seduce me because I'm a lonely woman?" "Will not." "Is it sympathy because I'm old?" "No." Funatsu said resolutely, suddenly grabbed Dongzi's shoulder, and tilted her upper body. "What?" Dongzi backed away. Unsupported, Funatsu's upper body fell towards Fuyuko. "I..." Funatsu's voice excitedly wanted to pull Dongzi. "Stop!" Dongzi knew that the young man was about to turn into a beast.The docile, honest youth has turned into an ugly man. "No!" Dongzi wanted to escape, although he was the one who took the initiative to seduce. She kept retreating and fell off the sofa, but Funatsu also slid down.When the opponent relaxed his strength, Dongzi took another step back. The two sat face to face on the floor in front of the sofa panting.Suddenly, Dongzi felt a ridiculous feeling in his heart for some reason. "How did this happen?" Dongzi coaxed Chuanlu's hand sitting on the floor like a little boy, and said, "Come on, sit down." It seemed that the momentary passion had cooled down, and Funatsu returned to the sofa obediently. "The coffee is cold!" Dongzi refilled the coffee and poured a cup for Funatsu. "If you mess around, I won't see you again." "But..." Chuanlu held his coffee cup and lowered his head. "I...?" He took a sip of his coffee and continued: "I like you." "Although I know it shouldn't be, but..." "Thank you." Dongzi said in a very calm voice. "But, I can't." "Why? You hate me?" "No, I like you, I think you are a rare good man." "Then why?" "Anyway, it's not possible." "Because there is something good in it?" "It has nothing to do with Kishi." "But……" "You're young, and you'd better like younger, prettier girls." "No, I like you." Funatsu stared at Dongzi. "I'm not just talking casually, I mean it sincerely." "Well then, I'll tell you." "tell me what?" "I don't have a uterus." "Uterus?" "It was removed in the last operation. So, I can't have that kind of relationship with you." "Understood?" As he spoke, Dongzi nodded himself. The two stared ahead, sitting side by side on the sofa. ——Why did you say it? The regret in Dongzi's heart gradually expanded.Judging from Chuanlu's silence, it can be seen that he didn't know about this at first, even though he has been to the hospital many times, he probably didn't ask about the details of the operation. There is no need to take the initiative to let the unknowing other party know your misfortune! However, if he didn't say "no uterus", Funatsu might strongly demand it from himself!However, this sentence has the most deterrent effect. The problem is, imagine that the docile Funatsu would show that attitude, perhaps, the reason is Dongzi herself, and she can only blame herself. It doesn't matter if you are invited to eat out, but there is no need to let the other party come into your residence, not to mention that it was Dongzi who ordered the other party to send him home. Although Funatsu is a submissive and shy young man, he is a mature man after all, and Toko himself should know best what will happen when he is alone in a room with such a man. However, Dongzi is very lonely tonight. Even if he drank too much wine and his chest is very tight, he still doesn't want to go home alone, and always hopes to have someone by his side. Her loneliness tonight is obviously caused by Guizhi.Since knowing that Guizhi will go abroad with his family before the end of the year, Dongzi's drinking speed has accelerated.The scene of Guizhi and his family at Wikipedia Beach flashed through her drunken mind, and in order to wipe away such imaginations, she wanted to drink even more. Even so, there's no need to say even that kind of thing!In this way, it means that both Kishi and Funatsu know about it. When telling Guizhi, although Dongzi regretted it afterwards, she also felt a sense of relaxation, that is, she thought that since he knew, she would be at ease. But, frankly speaking, Dongzi didn't want to be known by the boat rule.It is a very painful thing for a young man who has a good impression of himself to know that he has no uterus, and it will shatter the dream that the other party has finally had. It's just that Dongzi can't stand self-nucleation to redeem people, she wants to confess everything, especially the man she has a crush on, and she doesn't want to cheat.If you will know one day, it is better to say it now. If the relationship between the two is broken because of this, at least the mood will be relaxed. This is exactly the same as when you confessed to Guizhi. ——I hate hypocrisy the most... However, after saying it, I still regret it, especially the silence of Funatsuwaki made Dongzi even more painful. "You must be surprised!" "No." Funatsu Teru nodded, but his tone lacked confidence. "Therefore, I don't deserve to be loved by you." "But I don't think that kind of thing matters." "Really?" Dongzi asked. Funatsu seemed to have made up his mind. "Even without a uterus, I still like you." "lie!" "Really." Funatsu stared at Fuyuko again. Dongzi turned his face away. "You're still young, you'd better find a younger, perfect girl." "I do not want!" "You're messing with yourself." Dongzi refills the coffee for Funatsu. "Forget it, don't talk about this kind of thing again." "Why not without a uterus?" "Because I'm not a woman anymore." "No way! My aunt also had her uterus removed, but she said she was still a woman. "Your aunt also had her womb removed?" "Suffering from uterine cancer, removed three years ago." "How old are you now?" "Fifty-two years old. She is very healthy after the operation, and she is even more beautiful." "But I can't." "Impossible, the idea that the uterus is important is purely an illusion." "Is that what your aunt said?" "Someone of my former classmates became a doctor, and I asked him about it." "You have a classmate who is a doctor?" "College classmate, later entered medical school." "Did he say that?" "He said the ovaries are more important than the uterus, so there are only two ovaries." "So that's how it is." Even though he thought it was a miraculous statement, Dongzi still nodded. "There are two organs that are important to humans, such as kidneys and lungs." "But what about the heart?" "That's..." Funatsu couldn't answer. Dongzi suddenly felt ridiculous. "Anyway, he said the uterus was no big deal." "Thank you for comforting me." Dongzi thanked. "But I can't." No matter what the other party said, the sense of loss in Dongzi's heart could not be filled! Funatsu sighed, drank his coffee, and seemed to disapprove of Dongzi's firm attitude. "It's already ten o'clock." Dongzi felt slightly tired. Chuanru took another sip of coffee, then looked back at Dongzi. "Then, I should take my leave." "Oh……" "I'm sorry. I was too rude today." "No, each other." Seeing Chuanlu meekly preparing to leave, Dongzi felt overwhelmed. "Please ask me out again when you have time." "is it okay?" "As long as there is no such situation just now." Dongzi gave Funatsu a light look. Funatsu hung his head. "Were you at home before January 5th?" "should be." "Then, I'll call you again." Saying that, Funatsu gave Dongzi another deep look and left.Left alone, Dongzi sat back on the sofa and took out brandy from the low cabinet. At this moment, she breathed a sigh of relief, thinking: finally overcome a difficult problem! Dongzi recalled the scene just now in a daze.When Funatsu asked her what she needed, for a moment, she also had the idea of ​​agreeing to the other party and it didn't matter.If Guizhi and his family enjoy the joy of reunion, he can also play with men as he pleases. Even so, she still escaped, not because she was determined, but because she considered the tragedy after giving her body.What a terrible thing it would be if Funatsu was disappointed! Dongzi doesn't care that she is considered a cold and boring woman!If she was a normal woman like she used to be, maybe she would say yes... Although Funatsu was younger than him, he was the type of man he liked. Even if he didn't think about getting married, he was still the most suitable person to relieve his temporary loneliness. What's more, Funatsu works under Kishi, and in the sense of "revenge on Kishi", he is also the best target! However, Dongzi did not have the courage to accept it after all.On the one hand, although she hates the stick in her heart, she still loves Guizhi deeply, and on the other hand, the loss of the uterus left an indelible shadow in her heart. Compared with Takashi, Funatsu may have much less experience with women, and maybe he is just acting recklessly in love. As long as he doesn't say anything, he probably won't notice anything wrong. The problem is, if the other party shows an interesting reaction, It must be embarrassing for me then. If you want to loosen your body without confidence, it is better to refuse at the beginning!This way, you can live without being hurt. Even so, Futsuko's bold demand for him was beyond Fuyuko's expectation. Although he knew that he had a good impression of him before, but... what kind of relationship does Funatsu think Takashi and Toko have? From the money sent during the hospitalization and the situation when celebrating Dongzi's recovery, Funatsu should understand that the relationship between the two is very close, but still showing such behavior, is it a challenge to his boss? ——Does Ritsu have the courage to do that... Judging from Funatsu's usual attitude of adoration towards Takashi, Toko really couldn't understand. Perhaps Chuan Lu thought that the two were just ordinary friends?That's why he casually said that Guizhi was traveling abroad with his family, but if it was true, it would be too dull.No, maybe most men are like this... While thinking about it, Dongzi suddenly felt that Funatsu, who Yin Hou was eager to woo him, was very cute.Perhaps, he shouldn't be allowed to leave like this... While drinking brandy, Dongzi suddenly fell into a delusion, believing that she would become a bad woman after losing her uterus. The next day was also very sunny. Maybe on the 3rd of the first lunar month, people returning to their hometowns will start to return one after another!There was a loud noise from the atrium of the apartment.Looking down from the window, there are children playing kicking stones.After Dongzi got up early in the morning to clean, he finished his breakfast of ham, eggs and coffee, and then continued yesterday's hat-making. After noon, while taking a break to watch TV, Funatsu called. "Are you okay?" Chuan Lu still asked after we met yesterday. "You were too rude yesterday, are you angry?" "No." "Frankly speaking, I went to see my old classmate last night and asked him about it." "what?" "It's about the surgery." "Ah..." Dongzi frowned sadly. "As a result, he also thought there was a problem with removing the uterus." "why?" "He said the uterus shouldn't be removed for tumors." "But there are multiple tumors, very serious!" "That's true, but if it's a young woman, only the tumor should be removed, even the uterus is too much." "Since there are medical doubts, it is best to ask clearly." Suddenly being told this, Dongzi didn't know how to answer, even if it was "too much", after all, she had already undergone surgery. "Then what should I do?" "Why don't you go directly to the hospital where the operation was performed to investigate? If it is really unnecessary to remove it, there is a problem." "This..." Dongzi really didn't have the courage to investigate further. "I just remembered after talking to you yesterday. My friend from college days is currently working in the surgery department of K University Hospital. Although he is not in the department of obstetrics and gynecology, he also thinks it is strange to remove the uterus." "How? Don't you want to investigate clearly?" "But, what should I do..." "Leave this matter to me." "You want to investigate?" "I talk to my friends first before taking action." "Wait a minute! Wouldn't it be good for the doctor who operated on me?" "So, as long as you don't let the other party know." "But……" It is impossible for a doctor to perform an unnecessary operation! "You are so strange!" "The strange person is you!" Did Funatsu say this because Fuyuko refused last night on the pretext of not having a uterus?Or just purely out of a sense of justice?But, no matter what, it's all about meddling. "It's useless to investigate now." "I know that it's irreversible to remove it, but it should be investigated clearly, shouldn't it?" "I refuse." Dongzi said with certainty. "Embarrassing you?" "yes." "If that's the case, I apologize. But, hearing what you said, I think it's best to investigate..." "I'm going to hang up, I'm sorry." Dongzi put the phone back as if evading. Even if it is now known that the operation was negligent, the lost uterus cannot be restored.Funatsu seemed to be out of good intentions, but Toko didn't want to think about it again. Returning to her seat, Fuyuko continued to draw the hat.It is unexpectedly difficult to make a three-dimensional hat with a flat material like cloth. The cloth must be cut into several sides and then assembled.When cutting the cardboard, it is also necessary to draw the seam lines of each plane, so that the cut cloth grid may be perfectly combined. Even though she returned to work, Funatsu's words still remained in Dongzi's mind. ——Is there really no need to remove the uterus too... Dongzi remembered that Takashi had said the same thing.Kishi was not as skeptical as Funatsu, but suddenly shook his head during the conversation and said, "Why does it have to be removed?" It seemed that he was surprised that even the uterus was removed when he heard that the tumor could be removed. However, Chuan Lu seemed to suspect that there was something wrong with the operation itself from the very beginning.He seemed to think that young women should only have their tumors removed, but they also removed what should have been kept. Dongzi didn't know who was right.The thing is, Funatsu asked his doctor friend. While thinking about it, Dongzi unknowingly stopped drawing. If it was really the uterus that was removed that didn't need to be removed, then... The dean with a gentle voice and the round-faced nurse appeared before Dongzi's eyes.Would they do such a thing?Even if it is done, there is definitely a reason why it has to be done. ——Maybe Chuan Lv’s friends are too caring... Dongzi was talking to himself. Perhaps Funatsu's head was confused by the shock of hearing "no uterus" last night, causing his doctor friend to misunderstand what he meant when he didn't mean it. Dongzi stood up and looked out the window, trying to change her mood. The sun was dipping in the west, and the leafless branches cast long shadows on the bright asphalt road. While watching, Dongzi suddenly wanted to see Mrs. Zhongshan. She hurriedly packed the tools on the table and called Mrs. Zhongshan. Mrs. Zhongshan also seems to be bored. "What are you doing? If you don't mind coming to my house to play." "But, do you have any guests?" "A group of colleagues from my husband's university came yesterday, but no one came today. The puppy went out to play, and my husband also went to a friend's house, saying that he would come back very late." Fuyuko delivered hats twice to Mrs. Nakayama's house, which is located in a secluded residential area in Daikanyama, within walking distance from Shibuya.The house is very big, the husband and wife live together with the only son who is studying in college, it is really too big. "Come here right away, let's have dinner together." Dongzi thought that staying at home like this would only make her mood worse, so she decided to go out. When going out during the New Year, she felt that she should wear a kimono, but, thinking of the tightness in her chest last night, she decided to dress more comfortably.She changed into a turtleneck pullover, a Chanel suit, and brown riding boots. Since it wasn't very cold, she didn't wear a coat. She only wore a leather shawl around her neck—it was bought by Guizhi from Europe last fall as a gift for her. After leaving the apartment, I hailed a taxi and bought a cheesecake in Shibuya on the way.When we arrived at Zhongshan's house, the sun had already set in the west. "You're here? I always thought you were back home in Yokohama!" The lady came out to greet her, wearing a white round neck shirt and a dark blue dress that didn't match her age. "I went back on New Year's Day... I have been staying in Tokyo since then." "Really? I think there is a problem." The lady glanced at Dongzi and took out the wine from the refrigerator. "This is Chateau Marche in 1969. It was directly brought back from a foreign country. You can drink it." "Won't you be scolded by Mr.?" "My husband doesn't drink much wine!" Madam poured blood-red liquid into the wine glass and handed it to Dongzi. Dongzi seems to have heard Guizhi say that the wines of 1969 and 1999 are the most mellow.Although Dongzi doesn't drink wine often, he thinks it's really good. "Today, let's celebrate the New Year with only women!" Madam took out cheese, ham and eggs, and the rest of the New Year's food, and the two of them began to drink. "At my age, New Year's fun is only about eating and drinking." "me too." "You're still young, you've just started life! Have you met Kishi recently?" "He seems to have left the country." "Going abroad again?" "I heard that you are taking your family to Hawaii...?" "I didn't expect that person to be so vulgar." Madam talked. "Then let's have a drink." The lady's face was already red. "Really, being a housewife is really boring. This year, I should also find a job." I heard that my wife is one year younger than Guizhi, she is forty-one years old, but she looks only thirty-five years old, her face is smooth and tender, and her complexion is very good. Giving birth to a child very early, without any worries, staying at home for a long time, maybe they are all like her! When Dongzi was staring at Mrs. Zhongshan, the other party said: "I am very envious to see someone who works outside like you!" "But, I really envy you, madam, who can live a leisurely life in such a quiet house!" "It's not as good as you imagined! I do the same thing every day, and when I think of becoming an old woman like this, I'm horrified." The lady frowned exaggeratedly, and then said: "Come on, drink as much as you can." When Madam was drunk, she seemed to talk too much, her eyes were slightly red, and her tongue was a little knotted when she spoke. "By the way, don't you plan to go on a blind date?" "I?" "The other party is a doctor. He graduated from T University and is still working in the hospital attached to the university. He is tall and very handsome." As soon as she heard about the doctor, Fuyuko couldn't help but take a defensive stance.Ever since she had the operation, whenever she heard terms such as hospital or doctor, her scalp felt numb. "Thirty years old, my father lives in Shizuoka, and is also a doctor." The lady put down the wine glass she was holding. "I should have taken a photo from him, but I didn't know until I met... What a nice man! You are only twenty-eight years old, right? You are beautiful, and you look younger than your actual age. I Think, the other party will be satisfied." "Anyway, as long as we meet once, it doesn't matter. Would you like to meet each other?" "I really can't help it." "Can't you forget Guizhi?" "It's not..." "Ah, do you care that you have had surgery? But, as a doctor, maybe it's because you often perform surgery on patients? You don't really care about scars and the like!" "I'm not qualified to marry." "Does it refer to the past? Don't pay too much attention to it. The so-called marriage, as long as you love each other now." "no." "The other party said that he appreciates thin intellectual women, you are the most suitable." It seems that women will be nosy as they age.Sometimes, of course, it is desirable, but sometimes it can also cause trouble, and the current Mrs. Zhongshan belongs to the latter. "Besides, it's not that you're going to get married right away, it's just a meeting, there's no loss to you, right?" Dongzi didn't run away because of any loss, but meeting a man on a blind date was already a painful thing.However, the lady doesn't seem to understand this. "How about this Saturday?" "About this matter, please forgive me, I cannot promise." "Really?" Madam looked bored. "You really like Guizhi." "Wrong, that's not the case." "So, you have another sweetheart?" "No." "That's incomprehensible. Is there any other reason?" "Must it be said?" "Don't procrastinate, just talk!" "I don't……" "Then don't tell me! Is our friendship not enough?" "I don't have a uterus." "Uterus?" "It was removed together with the tumor during the last operation." For a moment, the lady stared at Dongzi in disbelief, and after a while, she nodded. "I see." "I'm sorry." Madam flicked off the cigarette ash. "Because I only heard that it was a simple uterine tumor that was hospitalized." "That's how it was originally." “切开后才发现很严重吗？” "Ok……" “我不知道。”夫人把玩着端在手上、盛有葡萄酒的酒杯，不久，挤出笑容，说：“我和你一样。” "what!" “我也没有子宫呢！五年前，也是因为子宫肿瘤而摘除。” "Really?" “要我让你看伤口疤痕吗？” “不必了……” “也没有什么可羞耻的，反正彼此同病相拎。”夫人站起身，解开长裙的腰扣。“我从未让任何人见过哩！” 大概很注重身材保养吧！夫人丝毫没有中年女人的臃肿，双腿线条很美。 在薄薄的裤袜下，可见到小花图案的内裤。 中山夫人毫不犹豫的掀起套头衫，用另一双手褪下内裤，立刻，很难想像是年过四十的白留肌肤呈现于冬子眼前。 “你看！”按住内裤的手边有一道横的疤痕。略有脂肪的白留肌肤上，只有该处稍呈淡红。“见到了吧？最初大约有十五公分长，现在只剩下十三．五公分了。” “觉得奇怪吗？其实随着年龄增加，会稍微缩小的。”虽然让冬子看自己小腹的疤痕，夫人的态度还是很开朗。“现在你明白了吧！” "Ok……" “除了外子，你是第一个见到之人呢！” "Sorry." “没什么好道歉的。”夫人转身，背向冬子，穿上放在椅子上的长裙。“因此，我们干一杯。” 这就是所谓的同病相怜吗？冬子依言和对方碰杯。 “你的伤口也是横向？” "yes." “大约几公分？” “一样大小。” “是吗？我想也差不多。”夫人额首。“医师说我有瘢痕性扩散体质，手术后还重新缝合过哩！所以，看起来有点脏，对不？” “不。没有这回事。” “你的疤痕也让我看看吧！” "I……" “像你这样的皮肤，应该愈合得很漂亮的。” “不行！”冬子摇头。 中山夫人微笑。“算了，今天放过你。”然后，她瞄了冬子一眼。 “你不知道吧？” “是的，完全不知道。” “已经是五年前的事了，再说也并非值得焰耀之事，但，这样一来，我俩是同病姊妹了。” “无论如何，我们的感情应该更亲密才对。”夫人说着，一日喝光杯中的酒。 冬子重新打量着夫人。斜坐在椅子上的那种姿势，怎么看都是满足现状的中年贵夫人，很难想像她小腹也有摘除子宫后留下的疤痕。 “对了，手术后有什么不一样吗？”冬子问。 “没有，而且身体健康了，生理现象也没有，反而感到舒爽多了。你呢？” “一样……”没有生理期，冬子虽也觉得清爽，却总有一抹淡淡的寂寞萦绕不去。 “不管有无子宫，皆不会影响人类继续生存，没什么好在乎的。” 医师也是这么说。但，冬子却无法看开。 “没有了子宫，也不会影响生活的。” "yes?" “当然啦！又不是用子宫做爱，不是吗？” “可是，摘除子宫，也没有了荷尔蒙……” “真糟糕，连你也会这样认为。子宫只是用来保护、养育胎儿的袋子，不是制造荷尔蒙的地方。坦白说，摘除子宫对我毫无影响。”夫人充满自信的挺挺胸脯，但，马上接着说：“不过，男人就不行了。” "Why can't I?" “像我先生，知道我摘除子宫后，就认定我已不是女人了。他是那种老顽固型的人，不管我怎么说明，仍旧认定子宫是女人的生命。” 中山夫人的丈夫是T大工学院的教授，今年应该五十岁了，头发花白、戴跟镜，身材很高，看起来诚实可靠。 “所以，讲出来很羞，但……从那之后，我们之间几乎完全没性的生活。” “但是，为什么……” “在那种时候，他说'感觉很奇怪'。” "strangeness?" “好像是进入的瞬间觉得冷冰冰的。” "how is this possible!" “我也认为绝对不可能，但，外子是这么认为。”中山夫人说，又斟满葡萄酒。“结果，他开始在外头逢场作戏了。” "real?" “我知道的。”突然，中山夫人的丹风眼中泪水夺眶而出了。 冬子一句话也没有说，移开视线。 夫人拭去泪水，笑了。“对不起，我太可笑了。” "No!" “真傻，尽是讲些没趣的事。” “可是，教授对你很温柔的，不是吗？” “问题就在这儿。因为我已没有子宫，他认为我是个可伶的女人，才因为同情而对我温柔。” “但，他出国时也都带你同行吧？” “那只是做给人家看而已。因为，外国人都带着太大参加宴会，对不？所以有我在身边比较方便。” “可是，他一定是爱你才会带你同行的。” “即使在国外时，他也不想跟我做爱哩！上了床，立刻就呼呼大睡。” “也许是旅途劳顿吧！” “在国内时也一样，亦即，他自始就认定我已经不行，不是女人。” “哪有这种事……”冬子想否定，但，这种事并非外人能够置喙。 “他表面上讲得很好听，说我动过手术，不能够勉强做这种事，其实却到外头找女人。” “教授真的这样吗？” “我不会说谎的，再说，我也知道对象是谁。” "you know?" “是研究室的助教，胜濑川，不过也已经三十五岁了，整天穿一条牛仔裤，根本不是好女人！” 夫人很憎恨似的说着，冬子反而感到可笑，说：“教授可能只是抱着逢场作戏的心理吧？” “没有这回事！参加学术会议时，他都带那女人同行呢！我常常在想，那种女人有什么好？难道只是因为她有子宫？” “怎么可能？不会吧？” “男人一向都很任性、自以为是的，总是借口自己老婆没有子宫，已经算不上是女人，借此激起女人的同情心。” “对方那女人连这种事也知道吗？” “外子告诉她的。．至少，女人听了都会同情的，不是吗？” “若是真的，未免就太过分啦！” “就是嘛！所以，我也可以红杏出墙。”也许是醉了，今天的中山夫人讲话很大胆，与平时在店里或附近咖啡店见面时完全不一样。 好像因为手术疤痕都让冬子看了，而完全放开自己。 “我要让他知道，我也是完美的女人！” 夫人已经连脸颊都红了，再喝下去很可能会烂醉，但是，她是在自己家喝酒，冬子没理由劝止。 “目前我已有了欣赏的男人，但，介绍给你的话会被你抢定，所以不能介绍，但，应该是和贵志差不多年纪吧！外型差不多。你呢？” “我实在没有那种勇气。” “但，即使动过手术，那种感觉也丝毫没变吧？” “医师都说没问题了，当然不可能会改变。” “动过手术也没有不一样吗？” “那是当然了。虽说摘除子宫，也是肚子的事，和那个地方完全没有关系的。手术后，你还没有？” “是的……”冬子慌忙低头。 “做也没问题的。” “可是，我总感到害怕……” “不可以这样想的，最重要是有自信．相信绝对不会有问题。” “你在手术后也相同……” “我是完全没有改变，但，外子却自以为是的认定已经不行。” 在冬子来说，似是自己想得太多，可是夫人的情况则是过于放在心上，看样子，因人而异也是性的复杂和不可思议之处。 “性行为实在很微妙呢！” “那当然了。医师只会讲道理，事实上精神方面非常重要的，不过，若太拘泥于精神，明明不是冷感也会变成冷感。” 这点，冬子也非常了解。的确，相爱时，必须忘记一切的投入其中。但，对现在的冬子而言，或许已经太迟了也未可知，可能失败的不安仍无法自她脑海中消失。 中山夫人站起来，走向洗手间，不久，回来了，手上拿着苏格兰威士忌。 “接下来换威士忌吧！” “还要喝吗？” “谈这些奇妙话题之间，我开始兴奋了，不会那么早让你回家的。” 被夫人这样先下手为强，冬子无法推拒了。 “我的秘密已经全部都说出，接下来换听你的了。” “我没有什么秘密。” “骗人！像你这样的女人，不可能没有。”夫人拆开黑牌戚士忌的封口，在杯中放人冰块，倒上威士忌。 “对了，你冈Q刚说过的男朋友之事，请告诉我到底是谁。”冬子想转移话题。 “啊，那可不行，还未到公开的阶段，最少还得再等一、两个月。”夫人说着，调制渗水威土忌。“你别因为子宫被摘除说畏缩！既然已不担心怀孕，更应该尽情享乐才是。对了，有什么年轻又英俊的男朋友吗？” 冬子边苦笑的想起船津了。船津讲过，不管有没有子宫，他都喜欢冬子，但或许那只是年轻的时候这样，也许等年纪一大，想法又改变了。 “反正，现在不享乐是一大损失，等到变成像我这样的老太婆，就没有人要找你了。” “你又说这种话……” “真的呢！二十多岁，人又年轻漂亮，当然大受欢迎，但是到了三、四十岁，就算仍然漂亮，会不会受欢迎还是一回事！” “这我很清楚的。” “所以，你正是女人最巅峰的年纪。” “能否问一些其他事？”冬子想起船律的话。 “请说。只要我知道的话……” “关于子宫的手术，只摘除肿瘤，却连子宫也一并摘除，不会太过份了吗？” “可是、我也是因肿瘤而摘除子宫的。” “有人说，二十多岁的未婚女性，即使情况相当严重，医师也不应该摘除子宫的。” “是这样没错……”夫人交抱双臂，沉吟着。“可是如果肿瘤严重，也是没有办法的事。” "I feel the same way." “年轻女性还要结婚、生育，自然是应该极力保留。” “不过，身为医师，总不会把可以不必摘除的子宫也故意摘除吧？” "Yes!" 看来船津的话是太多心了，不应该怀疑这种事。 “既然已经摘除，事到如今也没必要为此苦恼了，不是吗？”夫人说。 冬子忽然心情开朗多了，喝了一口威士忌，却岔了气，不停剧咳。 “不要紧吗？”夫人马上替她倒了一杯开水。 但，冬子全身不住颤抖，喝不下开水，仍咳个不停。 夫人来到她身旁，替她揉着背，问：“要喝水吗？” “不，已经没事了。” “你的身体真的又纤弱又柔软呢！” “不……”冬子拾起脸。夫人的脸就在眼前。 “好可爱！”夫人拉过冬子，轻抚她的头发，然后柔软的手由颈部移向耳朵。“全部都又小又柔软哩！” 夫人唱歌似的说着，轻轻将嘴唇贴近冬子耳朵。“如果是我，你可以放心的。”她静静托起冬子脸孔，喃喃低语：“我真的好喜欢你！” 夫人的嘴唇覆盖在冬子的嘴唇上。 “不要紧的……” 夫人的动作很细腻、温柔，慢慢移动舌头，边舔着牙齿，边用另一双手温柔的抚摸冬子耳朵。 “不行……”冬子喃喃说着，但，她感到全身乏力，一股甜蜜的馈懒如波纹般扩散。 “我们都是女人呢！”夫人低声说着，继续将舌头深入。 "what……" 冬子低叫。但，不知不觉间，夫人的舌尖已舔着她的舌背了。 嘴唇吸引，套头衫也被掀高，夫人的手指由底下伸入，从胸罩边缘探入，抚摸乳头。她的手法大胆、细心，毫不令冬子产生抗拒感，逐渐的让冬子上身一丝不挂。 “我们都是女人呢！” 这样的轻声细语令冬子安心了，陶醉在甜蜜的触感里。 "Let's go..." 被催促时，冬子好像受到催眠般站起。 “我会非常、非常温柔的。”夫人在冬子耳畔呢贿，拉着她的手走向卧室。 很大的双人床钦边亮着有红色灯罩的床头。深蓝色窗帘已拉上的卧窒，如深海般眩惑、静寂。 冬子的上身已一丝不挂了。她自己什么也不必动，完全由中山夫人主导。 没有男人饥渴时的急促呼吸和粗暴动作，一切宛如理所当然殿进行。 不久，冬子全身只剩一条白色蕾丝内裤了。这时，夫人脱掉套头衫，褪下裙子，一口气全裸。 “来，你静静闭着眼睛。”夫人像催眠师般喃喃说着，褪下冬子身上最后的内裤。 “啊……”冬子下半身有了温柔的感触，她缩起双腿。在如电流掠过的兴奋里，另有一般妖眩。 “不要……”冬子轻叫。 夫人的手和嘴唇慢慢的，却不停止动作。 两具白皙的胴体交缠在一起。 “只有我们两人哩！都是女人。” 夫人时而发出如念咒般的声音。 “都是没有子宫的女人。” 在冬子感觉中，这些话有如远方的海潮音。 此刻