Chapter 21 Two, premature death

Epilepsy, commonly known as epilepsy, is characterized by intermittent convulsions, which can be fatal in severe cases. Liu Heng is only four years old. The imperial doctor said that there are many reasons for children's epilepsy. Judging from the current state, he has frequently experienced distraction, daze, and even spastic muscle cramps in the past half a month. The situation is not optimistic.Although acupuncture and moxibustion can be used to control the disease, but the child is too young and has an active and playful personality, so the requirements for nursing are particularly strict, because when the symptoms are not obvious or do not flare up, he is different from normal children. Any difference, still eating, drinking and playing, very naughty.

Since the beginning of spring, Liu Xiu suffered a stroke first, and finally Liu Xiu's condition improved. Before I could breathe a sigh of relief, Liu Heng fell ill again.Having experienced too many blows, I have already been exhausted physically and mentally. I was busy taking care of Liu Xiu for a month after giving birth to Liu Shou, running around, and my body was exhausted.This is like a gorgeous mansion, which has long been eaten away by termites and is vulnerable to a single blow. So when this blow came again, I couldn't hold on and fell ill all of a sudden. Dizziness, weakness of limbs, lying in bed recuperating, I often keep my eyes open to paralyze myself, fantasizing that Heng'er is healthy, free from disease and disaster, and the person who was diagnosed with epilepsy by the imperial doctor is me, not my son.

Pity the hearts of parents all over the world, and only at such moments, I deeply understand the heartache of being a parent. "My lord, Chen Min is here." Shanan announced in a low voice outside the bamboo curtain. There was a faint sound of cicadas outside the window, I leaned on the bed and said weakly, "Let her in." Through the gaps in the sparse bamboo curtains, Chen Min could be vaguely seen walking into the room gracefully, bowing her head and knelt down without saying a word. Her right arm was still bandaged and hung stiffly around her neck, so her movements were not very brisk.

I took a breath: "You did a great job during Zhangling's hunting tour. I didn't have time to reward you. Now I want to ask you, but what do you want?" She didn't look up, and after more than ten seconds, she replied lightly: "The servant has nothing to ask for." "I once said that I want to find a good family for you." After a pause, Chen Min outside the curtain remained motionless, and I continued, "Lizhen in Pingyuan County, young and talented, weak at the beginning, unmarried, what do you think? how?" Chen Min trembled slightly, and raised his voice, "But the person who pleaded for Ouyang She's life two years ago?"

I laughed and said: "You have a really good memory, it is this person. It is rare for him to be kind and righteous, His Majesty commends his benevolence and righteousness, and worships the official doctor. Looking at the talents in the court, I only think that this person can be a good son-in-law, entrusted to him for life , and you are also of the same status, and can be called a good match." Chen Min was in deep thought and remained silent, while Shanan joked on the sidelines: "With the eyes of a nobleman, you can never go wrong in picking someone." After chatting and laughing for a while, Chen Min kowtowed and said in a low voice: "Slaves and servants are all determined by the Yin nobles."

Shanan jokingly said outside the curtain: "Young woman is thin-skinned, she blushes when she mentions her husband-in-law." Being able to solve lifelong affairs for Chen Min, I seemed to let go of a burden in my heart, so I breathed a long sigh of relief, and said with a smile: "When you get married, I will inevitably buy you a generous dowry. , choose an auspicious day next month, and I will marry you off in a splendid manner." "Your Honor..." Chen Min's voice was inaudible. "Go, you are still living with Donghaigong during this time, so don't be lazy and slack off your work."

"promise." Shanan led Chen Min back, I felt a little dizzy, I simply put on my clothes and lay down on the bed to sleep, I didn't know what kind of upside-down and broken dream I fell into, my heart was always empty.After resting for a while, I suddenly heard the sound of a baby crying in my ears, and I was shocked and sat up from the bed suddenly. The thin shirt was soaked in sweat, I was still in shock, so I called the court lady who was kneeling outside the curtain to hold the water, and after a while Shanan entered the room, I asked, "Have you ever heard a child crying?"

"No." She looked at me with a strange expression, "I think the sound of cicadas outside disturbed your dream, did you misunderstand?" I patted my chest, only to feel my heart beating abnormally fast, and I was extremely nauseous: "It's so real, it seems to be right next to my ear." "The nobleman is worrying too much. The imperial doctor said that the nobleman is too much to worry about and needs a good rest. How can you recover from your illness when you are always thinking about it?" He said while helping me to lie down again. I grabbed her hand and said nervously, "Go to the side hall to see how Duke Linhuai is doing."

She smiled and waved her hands: "I just went to see it, and I was asleep. Before going to bed, I relied on my nurse to fan me, and I was not allowed to stop, saying that I was afraid of the heat." "Really?" I breathed a sigh of relief, "Then when he wakes up, I'll go and have a look..." "My lord, don't be like this. It's a scorching hot day, and you're struggling to see Lord Linhuai while you're sick, not to mention that you're suffering. Wouldn't it be bad if you passed on your sickness to him?" After hearing this, I also felt that what was said was reasonable, and I couldn't help laughing at myself: "It seems that for the sake of my son, I have to get better soon."

Shanan took the feather fan by the bed and fanned it slowly for me, the sweat on my body gradually dissipated under the cool wind.I closed my eyes and continued to fall into a drowsy sleep, vaguely seeing Liu Heng bouncing into the room, sweating profusely, pulling my sleeves, shouting: "Mom, get up and play with me! " I was so dazed that I couldn't move, he couldn't move me, so I couldn't help being anxious, twisting my body and crying and fussing: "Mother, get up and play with me! Play with me! I want mother to accompany me... woo woo, I I want my mother to accompany me..."

My heart trembled suddenly, I was so sad, I struggled to coax him, but I couldn't make a sound anyway, and I couldn't help becoming more and more anxious. "Heng'er—" Venus collided in front of my eyes, and I held my chest and panted. Shanan's hand trembled, and the fan fell on me.I was sweating profusely looking at her, my chest was heaving and falling, the room was silent, two maids were kneeling quietly outside the curtain, and Zhizhi was screaming happily on the treetops outside the window. "Shanan...has Heng'er been here just now?" "No...no." She bent down to pick up the fan, her face was pale, and her fingers tightly pinched the handle of the fan, "Is the nobleman haunted?" Seeing her expression was different, an ominous thought suddenly appeared in my heart, so I climbed off the bed regardless of my dizziness.Shanan hurriedly stopped me: "What is your honor doing?" "I'll go to the side hall to see Heng'er." As soon as my feet stepped on the ground, I felt the whole room was spinning, I fell to the ground with an "ouch", Shanan hugged me, and choked out a voice: "Your Excellency..." biting his lips, tears After rustling down, he couldn't speak any more. I looked at her in horror, and the shadow in my heart continued to expand: "You...do you have something to hide from me?" Although it was in an uncertain questioning tone, Shanan's sobs became louder and louder, and she hugged me tightly: "Don't blame your majesty, your majesty is also afraid that you will worry, you are so weak now, how can you... ..." "What the hell happened?" I screamed sharply, my eyes went black for a moment, I held her arm tightly, my heart panicked as if I was drowning in water, unable to breathe. Shanan choked with sobs: "Last night, Lord Linhuai suddenly had a high fever, and the imperial physicians treated him overnight, but they still couldn't stop the fever. Just now, he came to report that Lord Linhuai had convulsions due to high fever, and his convulsions continued..." I pushed her away, stood up with all my strength, held my breath and trembled: "I want to see my son! I want to see my son! I want to see my son!" "My lord!" Shanan hugged me, weeping uncontrollably, "Slave... carry you!" The atmosphere in the side hall was very depressing, Shanan accidentally tripped when entering the door, I held onto her shoulders tightly, my palms were covered with sticky cold sweat. The imperial physicians in the room gathered together, and I easily found Liu Xiu's figure among them. After a night of exhaustion, he sat on the bed with a haggard face. When he saw me coming in, his usually gentle face showed sadness. Breath of despair. For a long time, Liu Xiu has been able to maintain a faint smile no matter how difficult the difficulties are. No matter how painful or painful, his smile is a great spiritual encouragement to me. It is a towering tree in my heart An immovable pillar.But now that pillar collapsed in an instant, and when I met Liu Xiu, I could clearly hear something in my heart cracking open. Liu Heng was stripped of his clothes and lay naked on the bed. The imperial doctors wiped his body with hot water over and over again.That fair and frail little body was trembling slightly under the rigid palms of the imperial physicians, and its limbs twitched unconsciously. I was stunned, and I had completely forgotten how to vent my emotions. I just felt that my heart had been emptied at that moment along with the tremor of the child. Liu Heng's little face was flushed, and his eyes were closed tightly. I watched his convulsions become more and more intense. I watched the imperial doctors nervously stuff the cork into his mouth. I watched so many hands pressing Looking at his thin arms and legs, I just watched...watched... "Hold him!" "Quickly apply the needle!" The panicked voices of the imperial doctors brought me back to my senses, and the cork that Liu Heng was biting in his mouth fell out of the convulsions, and Liu Xiu stuffed her right hand into his mouth without hesitation. twitch…… twitch…… The blushing child finally calmed down at that moment. The imperial physicians backed away silently, Liu Xiu picked up the child, and hugged the child carefully into her arms.His right hand was bitten, and the edge of the palm looked like teeth marks, and blood was gurgling from the wound.An imperial physician stepped forward to bandage him, but he pushed him to the ground with a violent palm. That naked and white body, tender and thin, like a soft lamb, lay silently in Liu Xiu's arms.I vaguely remember that year when I gave birth to him, he was lying in my arms so softly, naked, with smooth skin, soft fetal hair, wrinkled little face, pure and beautiful like a little angel . Liu Xiu touched the child's face with her hands, brushed away the sweat-soaked hair, and gently kissed the pale little face. I just watched him hugging his son and sitting quietly on the bed without saying a word, hot tears fell from those eyes that were always full of smiles, dripping down on Liu Heng's face one by one. Weakly slipping from Shanan's back, I knelt down in front of their father and son.After a while, I stretched out my hand to touch the child's cheek in fear, and my fingertips felt a little cold. I shrank back in fright, touched Liu Xiu's face tremblingly, wiped away the tears on his face, and asked stupidly: " why are you crying?" Liu Xiu took a deep breath and buried her head in sobs: "I'm the one who's sorry for you!" "You said... what?" The corners of my mouth twitched, and I actually laughed. A tear fell from the corner of my eye. I smiled and said, "Is Heng'er being naughty again? Don't be angry. When he wakes up, I'll take care of him." Teach him a lesson!" "I'm sorry for you and the child...I can't save him!" "What nonsense are you talking about!" I suddenly raised my voice and screamed, "My Heng'er just fell asleep! He fell asleep! He fell asleep!" The imperial physicians suddenly knelt down together, together with the maid Huangmen inside and outside the house: "Please mourn your majesty and noble lady Yin, Duke Linhuai is dead!" "What nonsense are you talking about!" Looking at the figures all over the floor, I roared angrily, pointing at them angrily, "Do you know what the end of nonsense is? You all... want to die? You..." There seemed to be a fire burning in my chest, and the fire burned all the way to my throat. I screamed hoarsely. When the fire burned to the extreme, there seemed to be a sudden chill in my heart, which made me shiver all over. , the whole body seemed to be frozen.My scream was frozen in my throat, Shanan hugged my waist, trying to drag me away, I struggled, and crazily threw myself at the child who had lost his body temperature and no longer twitched. But I failed in the end. Many people surrounded me, crying and persuading me, pulling me away, and carrying me out of the side hall. I looked up and saw Liu Xiu, motionless like a petrified pottery figurine. Kneeling on the bed, hugging my son tightly—the little man who is less than four years old, the little man who loves to pester me to tell stories, the little man who can forget the words when he sings Pug, the one who can say When we grow up, we will hold our little person... the little person I gave birth to in October, who I regard as my life. "My Heng'er—" At the moment when I fainted, there was a vast white world in front of me, I couldn't hear any sound, I couldn't see anything, but I knew very clearly that there was a place in my heart that was missing, and it couldn't be filled again. Henger!my baby...