Chapter 8 The Tail of the Cultural Controversy

Ten months after the cultural debates took place, I wrote in Thirteen Years and Thirteen Months: As a small role of modern intellectuals, I know that I am just an enthusiastic little person, a little star in the sky.The arrangement of ability and chance may only make me a little soldier who is noisy and fights the vanguard. Among the angry young people, I firmly believe that there will be a large number of masters coming. When I wrote these ninety-one characters, my heart was heavy, because I was afraid that the evolution of the facts would discard my "deep belief" as a "prophecy"—even a fortune-teller's prophecy.In a re-enlightenment movement, I am willing to be a pioneer, but I am not a "Liao Hua-style" pioneer. There are no generals in Sichuan, and there are "a large number of chief generals". What is the use of Liao Hua alone?

Before Mr. Ju Haoran went to Australia this time, we had dinner together, and he said to me with emotion: "The schoolboys in Taiwan don't let me live, so I have to float in the sea, your friend, my friend, we are alone All of them are gone, because I leave you alone to be Jiang Wei!" After listening to his words, we couldn't help laughing, because only by laughing can we make an embankment for our tears. Now, I, a person who has no job and no floating guy, vaguely in a dream or drunk, brazenly accepted Hao Ran's appointment, and started Jiang Wei. My heart is heavier than it was a year and a half ago.Jiang Wei's blood and tears are the blood and tears of lonely ministers and evil sons, and Jiang Wei's sorrow is the sorrow of those who died for the times.How many times have I felt hypersensitively that I am doomed to die for the era I am facing, and it also needs such a "starry little star" to die for it.Just as Israel is the elect of God, I am the elect of the collapse of the times.

The great star of the past has fallen, where is the present great star?If the times do not allow your radiance to be greater, then perish, you little star! June 1964