Chapter 8 Part 2 The station of the soul

It is difficult for women to part with women. Women have a natural admiration for the beauty of women. When I was a young girl, in an empty studio, I couldn't help but reach out and touch the breasts of the plaster statue of Venus with a broken arm. In Japanese bathhouses, I was obsessed with my own copper body in the mirror. Later, I caught the burning of my daughter's body with my intoxicated eyes many times in the reflection of the mirror, and I developed a so-called narcissism complex. Back at the hotel, I turned on the TV to watch the evening news, and saw a familiar figure, my God!That familiar face is. . .Isn't that Sophie I'm about to forget?Still Sophie with a manly short haircut.

Only then did I listen attentively, and it turned out that this news reported the grand occasion of the annual World Gay Day Parade held in Toronto, Canada. No wonder. From the TV screen, it is really spectacular.Gay people from all over the world come together and fly their rainbow flags in celebration of Gay Pride.Why are there so many homosexuals, and where do they usually hide?A gay man proudly greets the audience on a float, and the close-up narrator says: This is the first legally married "couple" ever. I find it difficult to guess at the psychology of gay people.Perhaps the love between him (she) is indeed the same as the love between men and women of normal people, and there are men and women in the world of the two of them.We can look at it with an understanding mentality.In fact, their hearts are also very bitter, after all, there is a strong invisible pressure from society.The reason why there is a parade is also a release of psychological repression, longing for the true recognition of the society.

The shot of Sophie passed by in a flash, but I was lying on the bed, thinking about her. She is a very good woman, and a kind woman. I never saw her again, and though she lied to Graham and delayed our youth, and I lost a child in my foolishness for her feelings, I never hated her, really, no .I can't hate people. The love in the daughter country is not a crime, it is just an alternative, we don't need to make a fuss.Women are made of water and are the holiest in the world.When they were born or later realized that men in this world are not worthy to defile their sacred bodies and minds, they dedicate their love to women.

After Sophie divorced Graham, she quit her job.She is said to have set up her own law firm with "her". After Graham's death on 9/11, she called several times, because I didn't answer anyone's calls during that time, she left me some words of comfort, and she offered to provide me with free legal services. Service, but I didn't reply to him, not against her, just afraid of seeing her, I was afraid of seeing all the people related to Graham, my emotions would be out of control. It is difficult for women to part with women. Women have a natural admiration for the beauty of women. When I was a young girl, in an empty studio, I couldn't help but reach out and touch the breasts of the plaster statue of Venus with a broken arm. In Japanese bathhouses, I was obsessed with my own copper body in the mirror. Later, I caught the burning of my daughter's body with my intoxicated eyes many times in the reflection of the mirror, and I developed a so-called narcissism complex.

I can't forget the moment when Sheng Yanzi touched me in the bathroom of the military camp when I was a young girl, I felt the shock like an electric shock; in the open-air bathing place, my eyes always pretended not to care, but glanced at the beautiful naked women On the top, the black woman's round breasts, high buttocks and shiny and delicate skin; the white beauty's shiny blond hair in the sun, the whole body of fine hair and the same shiny golden body hair are so attractive, completely It is as soft as a fluffy kitten; how can a woman give up a woman? From an artistic point of view, Love in Daughter Country is a beautiful garden, and there are no men in the garden.

As for how some daughters went crazy and broke some kind of restricted area, those are people we didn't fall into, so we can't comment on it. It's still the same sentence, it's not a crime, it's really not, it's just an alternative, we don't need to give applause, But we don't have the right to blow the booing. I think that is a world that is difficult for outsiders to understand. Just as I was sitting alone and dreaming, the phone beside the bed rang. When I picked it up, it was Arthur's wife, Momoko. "I'm sorry to disturb you so late, Bellasan, I'm really in too much pain, I want to say a few words to you."

"It's okay, just tell me." "Arthur has been having an affair recently and I can feel it, so, I don't know what should I do?" "It's hard for others to say, it all depends on your feelings for him." "Actually, it's my fault. The problem is that I went to Japan at the end of last year. I stayed in my hometown Nagasaki for half a year. When I came back, I found that Arthur had someone. Hey, a man can't do without a woman. , separation is an adventure." Bai Huizi said with emotion. "Then you can win back his heart, he is just lonely." I persuaded.

"That's meaningless. I don't think I was worth it at the time. My ex-husband is the president of the famous "Takeshita Industry Co., Ltd." in Japan. In order to agree to Arthur's marriage proposal, I hardly got any child support when I divorced. The money I lost because of love is an astronomical amount, and my pain now is not because of Arthur having an affair, but why women are so stupid, what kind of love do they believe in?" Bai Huizi cried. I can't think of any words to comfort her.Because this silly and cute woman at the moment is me, I not only believe in love, but also love is supreme, I thought that one day I will drink the bitter wine of love, and I will wake up, and now I am obsessed with it.

"Bellasan, did you also break up with that handsome Wall Street lover back then? How much you fell in love back then, and envied others." Bai Huizi said again. "We still love each other today, we are not breaking up, we are separated forever..." I muttered to myself. "My God! How could it be? He's so strong, so young... I'm sorry, I shouldn't expose your pain anymore." "Killed on 9/11." "OH, MY GOD" Bai Huizi screamed on the other end of the phone. We exchanged a few words, and I put the phone down. After I took a bath, my whole body was hot, and I leaned on the bed, in a trance.

I couldn't resist calling John anymore, I even had the urge to fly directly from Paris to New York to meet him, I needed love, I needed his kind voice, I dialed his mobile number, my heart It seemed to jump out of my throat. When I heard the familiar "Hello" from the other party, I couldn't make a sound, and my whole body was trembling with excitement. "Hello, John" I finally spit out the words. "How are you, Bella?" he said, flatly. "John, I can leave Paris tomorrow, I want to come to New York to see you, John, I love you." "Bella, don't come, I'm busy." John said uncharacteristically, my heart turned cold, and I paused and said, "Bella, I was just about to tell you, let's break up, you Forget me, I'm not a good man, I don't deserve your love, really, but you are an amazing woman, don't delay yourself, find your own happiness, I will always miss you in my heart , I will never forget those good memories of ours until I die..."

I couldn't listen anymore, my hand holding the microphone trembled with my trembling heart, and the coldness in my heart immediately spread to the abyss.I didn't ask why, only tears filled my eyes, I didn't listen to what he said after that, and I never said anything again. The microphone that I held tightly in my hand at first was thrown aside... Need I say anything else?Neither love nor breakup needs a reason.That night, a long-awaited phone call completely shattered my dreams. Life is impermanent, just now Bai Huizi was still complaining about why women are so stupid and believe in love.That sweet little woman who hopelessly believed in love, in the blink of an eye... It was the first time in my life that I heard a man say goodbye to me, and it was said by a man who loved me so much and I have fallen in love with. Summer in Paris, it's so cold, I should go.