Chapter 3 Amy: Until Death (1) -2

Willing to publish--" "Can't you --- can't write for them as an amateur? I think it's a pity that you --- gave up your major ---" "Writing such a report can't be done in spare time alone. I have to spend a lot of time to investigate and obtain first-hand information---" "Then you --- are you still getting your degree?" "It doesn't matter if you take it or not—" She said anxiously: "I advise you to get the degree. You finally got admitted to such a good school, and you have studied hard for so many years. How can you say that if you don't get a degree, you won't get a degree?"

"Do you remember the story of Lu Xun? He used to be a medical student, but he finally decided to switch to writing and use a pen to wake up the numb and sleeping Chinese---" She couldn't find any reason to refute him, and she just said in her heart: It's true that people don't know their blessings when they are blessed. The country really shouldn't allow people like you to study in prestigious schools, wasting a place in a prestigious school. read it to me. Shi Yan couldn't help asking: "Then you are going to give up your major like Lu Xun? But Lu Xun---"

Huang Hai looked at her with great interest, and asked, "Do you think I'm not as talented as Lu Xun, and I can't do anything if I give up my major?" "I don't mean that, I mean -- now it's not Lu Xun's time, he could make a living by -- freelance writing, now you -- if you don't have a unit -- you can do a lot of things No -- I'm afraid the household registration will be a problem." "My parents said the same thing," Huang Hai said approvingly, "Don't look at your young age, you're quite considerate, better than me."

She was a little embarrassed: "Well, I'm just---as a bystander---and besides, I'm also---relatively unambitious---" He didn't say anything about her self-evaluation, but said: "Then I'll listen to you, I'd better get the degree, find a job first, and then talk about it when I have a unit---" He suddenly changed the subject, "I'll come to you How about a school to teach?" She was in a hurry: "What are you doing at our school? I'm graduating soon, and I'm going somewhere else---" He smiled slightly and said nothing.She realized that she was showing her feet a little bit. He said that he came to teach at the Provincial Teachers College in C, but he didn't say that he came for her. It's none of his business whether she graduates or not, and whether she leaves or not?Doesn't that mean she thinks he's chasing her?She immediately stated: "I mean----our school is too broken--it's a pity that you--a graduate of such a famous university--come here. Even me, a provincial division C No one in the courtyard wants to stay here, what are you doing here?"

She didn't know if these words covered the horse's feet, but at least he didn't smile that much anymore, but asked her with concern: "Then where are you going to go after graduation?" "I want to take the postgraduate entrance examination, go to a better school, and improve my --- grade ---" "Then let's get into A major!" She really hadn't thought about taking the postgraduate entrance examination at University A. She felt that the professors at University A must value her "birth". How could they look down on her, who graduated from a provincial teacher's college?But she didn't want to go to a school like Provincial C Normal University to go to graduate school. She originally went to graduate school to wash away the "shame" of C Provincial Normal University. for what?

It’s a bit like “you can’t get high enough to get low”, so she is aiming at schools like University E, which are also top-notch in the country, but not as “first-class” as University A, which should be regarded as the top 15 in the country.Even if it is E University, she is not sure, so she also aimed at G University, which is also in E City. It is a normal university and relatively famous, but not as good as E University. She muttered, "How can I get into A University? Stop dreaming---" "Why is it a dream? I think many people who are older than A can't compare to you---"

"You're talking nonsense, your A big moves are all champions from various provinces and cities, how can you still compare to me?" He was in a hurry: "Really! Don't think that they are the champions of all provinces and cities. In fact, they all rely on luck. They are really not as good as you when they study. I have studied with you for several years, and I know you very well." , I have also studied with them for several years, and I know them very well. You still don’t believe what I said? I’m really not as good as you---even I am not as good as you---" Even if these words were lying, they sounded quite comfortable, not to mention Huang Hai's expression of absolute sincerity when speaking.Shi Yan felt nourished in her heart, but she was still retorting.

Huang Hai interrupted her and said: "That's it, I'm going to take the postgraduate entrance examination of University A. As long as you want to take the entrance examination, you will definitely be able to pass the entrance examination. What major do you want to take the examination for? I'll help you find out information and get information when I go back---" She quickly shied away: "Don't do it, don't do it, I haven't made up my mind yet, I really don't dare to be a graduate student in University A---" "What are you afraid of? I said if you can pass the exam, you will definitely pass the exam--"

"Then your professors at University A -- will --- discriminate against students from other schools?" "How could it be? University A is trying to prevent inbreeding, just want to recruit students from other schools---" Her heart was moved, and she said hesitantly, "Then I'll --- try." "Okay, it's a deal! I'm also going to be a graduate student in University A---" She was a little embarrassed, as if she had heard some confession of love, she lowered her eyes, scratched the table with her fingers and said nothing.Huang Hai stated: "I don't have any other intentions. I just want to --- encourage you to take the postgraduate entrance examination of University A. It's like running with you in a race. It's just --- just --- to promote ---"

Her head drooped even lower, and her heart was beating a little bit. She felt that he was too smart, too good at observing words and expressions, and he could guess every thought in her heart.She could feel his gaze, so she raised her head bravely, and said in a businesslike manner: "I know, I just don't want to delay your career, aren't you going to be a reporter?" "I want to be a reporter, but I --- being a graduate student doesn't affect my job as a reporter. I can write articles for newspapers in my spare time. It just so happens that my parents want me to be a graduate student. Now they --- happy --- "

He sent her back to school that day, and she told him to just send her to the station, and he didn't object.The two of them walked to the Fourth Road Station together. Although it was already around ten o'clock in the evening, there were still more than ten people waiting for the bus, and they were still standing in the middle of the road.After a while, the car arrived. Actually, the car was quite empty. If they got on one by one, they might all be able to get a seat.But the people of City D seem to be used to being crowded in the car. No matter how many people there are, they don't line up, but squeeze up desperately, and they squeeze up without waiting for the people to get off the car. Shi Yan usually didn't squeeze the bus very much, and didn't want to look too "ladylike" in front of Huang Hai, so she waited behind, hoping to wait until everyone got on the bus.But what I didn't expect was that before she got into the car, the driver drove away.She yelled twice, but the driver didn't stop.She was so angry that she almost chased the car and yelled at the driver. Huang Hai came over to comfort him and said, "It's okay, we'll wait for the next trip. Maybe the driver saw that you didn't follow the crowd and thought you weren't getting on the bus. Probably this is the custom in D city. We should do as the Romans do, and the next trip will follow the crowd." The next bus didn't come until around eleven o'clock, and this time there were more people waiting for the bus, probably because the workers in the middle shift of the steel mill had left work, or because it was the last bus.All the people waiting for the bus were eager to return home, eager to fight, and they had the momentum not to give up until they squeezed into the bus.Shi Yan had no choice but to let go of her ladylike airs and follow her to squeeze the car.She found that Huang Hai was also following her, and she asked, "You --- get in the car too?" "I'll give you a ride, it's too late, and--it's not easy to get into the car--" After squeezing for a while, Shi Yan no longer knew who was squeezing whom, but she couldn't help but follow everyone's crowd. When she got to the car door, she managed to climb a step, but she couldn't squeeze anymore. One foot was on the car, and the other foot was clamped under the car for a long time.Then she felt that the car was moving, and she was afraid that she would be caught in the door and dragged to death, so she shouted anxiously: "Wait a minute! Wait a moment! I haven't got on yet---" No one paid attention to her, the driver was still driving, and no one made room for her among the people crowded by the door. She was in a panic when she felt someone push her from behind, and she got into the car with both feet.She heard Huang Hai say from behind: "I'm sorry, I have to do this, otherwise --- I won't be able to get in the car ---" She guessed that he had been watching her squeeze herself into the car just now and didn't help her because he was too embarrassed to touch her. Now that he was at the end of his rope, he had no choice but to abandon his gentlemanly demeanor and push her.She turned her head and looked, and found that the car door was not closed. He was standing at the open car door, holding on to an iron railing on the car with one hand, and the car door with the other hand, probably not wanting to fall, but also Trying not to cling to her.She was very moved and said, "Stand up a little bit, and be careful not to fall down." He moved a little closer and the door finally closed.The two of them were huddled against the car door, and she could feel the warmth of his body.This was the first time she was so close to a boy, the first time she was protected by a boy like this, and she felt a warm feeling in her heart. After driving for a while, the compartment slowly loosened, and the two of them finally left the door and squeezed into the compartment.Huang Hai consciously moved a little further away, but still stood on the other side of the aisle, resisting other people's pushing and pushing, creating a safe island for her.When approaching Provincial Teachers College of C, there was finally an empty seat, Huang Hai motioned her to sit down, while he stood by her seat, with his hands resting on the armrests of the two rows of seats, and helped her clear away those crowded people. separated. She sat on the seat and saw the sweater he was wearing from his open clothes, sometimes it was too crowded, his feet were still standing in the aisle, but his upper body was squeezed to the side of the seat, his sweater sometimes After wiping her head and face, she smelled a boy-specific smell on his body, and she felt a little dizzy. She thought to herself: So boys smell like this, it smells good. I used to think that They all stink. When the bus arrived at the station of Provincial Teachers College in C, it was not so crowded anymore, but the two of them did not dare to neglect, and still squeezed to get out of the bus. It was not until the bus drove away in a man-made and unnecessary chaos that the two met each other. He smiled and let out a big sigh of relief. Huang Hai said: "It's really thrilling. I didn't expect the four-way bus to be so crowded. It's not easy for you—— when you went there, you were—— squeezed—" She blurted out: "Actually --- when I went today, I took the 15th road ---" She was afraid that he would guess why she took the 15th road, but she heard him say: "Then you are too smart, the 15th road doesn't seem to be so crowded---" he suggested, "Now---it's very quiet, I take the Send it to the door of the dormitory." She didn't object, one is that the campus is really quiet, no one moves around, and another reason is that she also seems to want to stay with him for a while.The two walked silently to her dormitory. When they reached the downstairs of the dormitory, he stopped and said, "If you have time, I would like to invite you --- come with me to interview the family of a coal miner --- that worker Already---died in a mine accident, only my wife and children are left, it's not good for me to go to the interview alone, I would like to invite you---to go together---, if it's not convenient for you---" "when?" "What day do you think you will be free?" She thought for a while and said, "The day after tomorrow, I don't have class in the afternoon---" Seeing that she agreed, he seemed very happy and overjoyed, and said repeatedly: "Thank you, thank you. Then I will pick you up at school the afternoon after tomorrow? The steel factory will send a car---" She was hesitating, and he added, "I can't get out in the car--" Seeing that his heart was like a mirror, she was so frightened that she didn't know what to say.He changed the subject and said, "Okay, then we've made an agreement. I'll come here to pick you up at three o'clock in the afternoon the day after tomorrow. Thank you." That night, Shi Yan didn't fall asleep for a long time.Over the years, she has been thinking about how to get out of this ghost place, and she has never thought about feelings, because she doesn't want to get involved with the boys around her, and the boys in the distance have no chance, and she doesn't want to "climb" those The boys in school are better than her.The boys around her knew that she didn't seem to care about it, so no one came to do those useless efforts and court her, and the boys in the distance were also scared away by her indifference, so her love life was completely blank. The advantage of being blank is that you don't know what feelings are or what the opposite sex is.If you don't know, you're not interested. But the "contact" with Huang Hai in the car at such a close distance today made Shi Yan a little curious about the opposite sex.She recalled the stories of those female classmates in the class, and she felt suddenly enlightened.In the past, I often saw the older girls in the class have their husbands or boyfriends visiting. If they were husbands, then the wives would be very generous, and they would go directly to a very simple guest house in the school to book a room. Came back to the bedroom.The other girls in the dormitory chatted chatteringly, and sometimes they lowered their voices so that the younger ones would not hear them, saying that they were afraid of leading them down. When the girl whose husband came to visit returned to the class the next day, the older girls would chirp and joke about that girl again, and sometimes even the boys in the class would join in the jokes, but they were just pretending They shy away from these little girls. Shi Yan saw those husbands eagerly hugging their wives in the dormitory a few times. At that time, she felt very disgusted, because most of those husbands were from the countryside. servant, soaked in sweat, she couldn't understand how those girls would tolerate such a man to hug her. She still remembers one time when she saw a girl whose trousers were not buttoned properly. At that time, there was no way to zipper or open the front, so the girl only had a slit on the side of the trousers, exposing the underwear inside. In Shi Yan's view, this is a great shame, especially in front of boys.So she hurriedly called the girl aside and whispered to her that her trousers were unbuttoned. The girl asked indifferently, "What are you afraid of?" Shi Yan said in surprise: "You HUSBAND is here, are you not afraid to let him see your --- underwear?" As a result, the girl said loudly: "He is my husband, why hasn't he seen mine?" After she finished speaking, she burst into laughter, and went to tell her husband about it, which made Shi Yan very embarrassed. Tonight, she recalled the scene where Huang Hai helped her squeeze the car, and she seemed to have a little epiphany. In those two days, Shi Yan felt very happy as if eating pistachios, but she didn't know why she was happy. Anyway, it was like she had opened her eyes, and she could see meanings that she had never seen before.For example, those men and women riding bicycles on campus, if it is a boy and a girl, she can see some beauty from it: the boy looks so strong and pedals the bicycle hard, while the girl looks so delicate and leisurely. Sitting in the back of the car, the brave one put his arms around the boy's waist, and the timid one at least grabbed the boy's clothes.Those who work hard are sweet, and those who enjoy are sweet. Just like this one female and one male, one yin and one yang, one soft and one strong, they cooperate so tacitly and perfectly.If it is replaced by two boys or two girls riding a bike together, it will definitely not have such a beautiful meaning.It seems that the world is formed in this way. The Creator thought of this combination when he created man. He made one kind of person tall and strong, born with inexhaustible energy; weak.These two kinds of people need each other, complement each other, and together paint a beautiful picture. Looking at those men and women riding bicycles alone, Shi Yan suddenly felt that they seemed very pitiful.Needless to say, the woman stared at the bicycle so hard, leaning forward and backward, which was both unsightly and exhausting.And what about the boys?The back seat of the car was empty, with nowhere to use his strength, and his face was full of disappointment. She also saw those green trees and red flowers, and they matched so beautifully. She felt that the green leaves were boys, and the red flowers were girls. This combination made the green leaves greener and the red flowers redder.There is also the blue sky and white clouds, white walls and black tiles. It can be said that there is a combination of yin and yang everywhere, the combination of rigidity and softness. Everything in her eyes seems to give her a kind of enlightenment: your world is incomplete, and your life is not perfect. To be perfect, you need a "he". She didn't know if her emotions were caused by Huang Hai's arrival, she still had an ambivalent feeling towards Huang Hai, if she was willing to associate with Huang Hai when no one saw or knew about it, She is also very happy.But she didn't dare to imagine what it would be like to really let him be her boyfriend. At that time, she definitely couldn't hide it from everyone, and once everyone found out, everyone would come to express their opposition. Would she still have the courage to talk to Huang Hai? Keep dating? Every time she thinks of this trouble, she will ridicule it with a few words: What are you worried about?Huang Hai didn't pursue you at all, so what are you worrying about?It's never too late to worry when he catches up. On the day of the interview, she was waiting outside the dormitory building a few minutes early.After standing for a while, she saw a car driving towards her. She guessed that it was the car assigned to Huang Hai by the steel factory.The car came to the front, and it was really good. It was a car from a steel factory.The car door opened, but Huang Hai didn't get out of the car, but sat in the car as he promised. The driver stuck his head out of the open window and shouted loudly, "Who is Shi Yan'er?" She hurried up and said, "I am." The driver looked her up and said, "Get in the car." The car was a bit high, and she didn't get on it for a while. A hand stretched out from inside the car to help her, and a male voice said, "Be careful not to touch your head." She saw Huang Hai, wearing a pair of sunglasses, looking at her from the side, smiling slightly.Coincidentally, he happened to be facing her on the right side, and she only saw his intact face and the sunglasses on his high nose bridge, very handsome. Before she could sit still, the car started to move. She slumped on the seat next to Huang Hai, and her upper body fell on top of him. He stretched out his hand to support her, and both of them were a little embarrassed. He asked, "Have you been waiting long?" "No, just came down." "There's a little traffic jam on the road, I'm afraid I'll keep you waiting." For some reason behind, the two of them didn't say anything, they both pretended to look out of the car window, as if they were admiring the scenery. When the car drove to the coal miners' settlement, the road became rough and dark everywhere, and there were children running around on the road.The driver cursed in a low voice, kept honking his horn, and finally stopped on the side of the road, and said unceremoniously: "This road is too bad, my car can't go forward, the worker's village is just ahead, you guys Go yourself. My car is dirty in this damn place." The two of them got out of the car, Huang Hai said some polite words to the driver, made an appointment with the time and place to pick them up, and the driver drove away.Huang Hai glanced at the shoes on Shi Yan's feet, and asked worriedly, "Is it convenient for you to walk?" "What's the inconvenience?" "I see you're wearing high heels—" "What kind of high heels are these? The shoes I usually wear are much higher than this, and it doesn't matter how far I walk in these shoes." He smiled and said, "That's good." They walked in the direction pointed by the driver. As he walked, he introduced: "We are going to interview the families of the victims of the mine accident first. They were recommended by the mine. It is not good not to go. But what we really want to interview is a man named Li Family members of the miners in Chaohai. After the mine accident, the mine made Li Chaohai a scapegoat, saying that he did not follow the operating procedures to cause the mine accident.” "How do you know he's the scapegoat?" "This is just my guess, because Li Chaohai's family members have been complaining, saying that her husband had already reported the underground problems to the coal mine safety production leading group, but no one paid attention to him. After the mine accident, her husband became a The culprit is that the families of the other dead miners received a pension, but Li Chaohai’s family did not. The mine also allowed the adult sons of the other dead miners to take the place of their father, but Li Chaohai’s son could not. Not only that, the mine also refused to allow his family members to continue living in the house on the mine, and wanted to drive them away. Li Chaohai's family refused to accept it, and refused to move out of the house on the mine, and asked the mine for a pension. But The mine insisted on the principle, saying that she was the family member of the perpetrator and could not give her a pension. She had no means of living, so she had to find someone --- "pull the side cover" to make ends meet ---" "What's 'pull the side cover'?" Huang Hai seemed a little embarrassed, he hesitated and explained: "Actually, it's not exactly a 'pull-out' --- because 'pull-out' means --- a woman with a husband --- using her own body --- - in exchange for another man's --- help --- and she has no husband --- so -- " When Shi Yan heard "Using one's own body", she understood what "pull the side cover" roughly meant, and couldn't help but blushed, and mumbled: "You don't need to explain, I understand. But---how did you Do you know? I mean how did you know about Li Chaohai --- his family's complaint?" "This incident caused a lot of trouble, because the family members of other victims of the mine accident hated her husband for killing their husbands, and were dissatisfied with her way of life - getting something for nothing. They made things difficult for her everywhere and went to the mine to sue her many times. , the mine had to come forward to deal with it, but this woman pretended to be crazy and made noises everywhere, making everyone in the city know--" "Everyone in the city knows? Then you --- what else --- interviewed? She is so famous, and everything about her --- not everyone --- knows?" "All I know are superficial phenomena and official sources. I want to dig out some facts about the mine disaster. Maybe Li Chaohai did report the underground problems to the mine, but the mine didn't take any measures. Knock him--" "Then you are here to find trouble in the mine? Why does the steel mill send you a car?" "I came here for the interview under the banner of the party newspaper above. The steel mills can't ignore face, and this is a matter of the coal mines. Of course, the steel mills hope that I will focus on the coal mines instead of digging for them. Dirty stuff on the side---" "Oh, yes," she asked worriedly, "is this going to cause trouble?" "Don't worry, I will pay special attention to---" They first went to interview the family members of the victims of the mine accident. Perhaps because they were recommended by the mine, the family members seemed to have seen a little of the world.But even such "big men" live in dilapidated and old houses. The floor is not covered with cement, but is covered with dust like coal chips. with some coals.Not far away is a bed made of black stones, with a wooden plank on it and a black cotton pad, it is considered a bed, even the quilt is black. Shi Yan imagined that she lived in such a place and slept on such a bed, and she immediately felt goosebumps on her body. She intuitively thought that the quilt and the bed must be wet, sour, covered with soot and sweat, and suddenly felt My sixteen-person dormitory is like heaven. They interviewed these families, but did not get much information. Those family members were more interested in Huang Hai's appearance than in his interview, and they all grabbed Huang Hai and asked what was going on.Shi Yan felt bad for Huang Hai, turned her head and looked away, not wanting to see him embarrassed.But Huang Hai seemed to be used to such things, and told them frankly that they were injured by forceps during birth. Several family members clicked their tongues, and one named Jin Ying asked to touch the left side of his cheek to see if the bones were broken. Shi Yan couldn't bear it anymore, and interjected, "We're here for an interview, can you tell us about the mine disaster?" Jin Ying rolled her eyes: "What is there to say about the mine accident? There was an accident, a landslide, people buried in it and unable to get out, that's all. How many times have you asked, what else is there to say? " "Then your husband—has never talked about going down the well?" "What's going on in the mine? Isn't the work in the mine just digging coal? Could it be possible to dig out a lump of gold?" Huang Hai asked: "Then who do you think is responsible for the mine disaster?" "Of course it's Li Chaohai's responsibility. If he didn't violate the operating procedures, how could my husband die?" Huang Hai pressed them: "How did Li Chaohai violate the operating procedures?" "How do I know? I'm not down the well--" "You're not in the well, so how do you know it's Li Chaohai's responsibility?" "The mine said." Huang Hai stopped asking, and asked instead: "Is the mine taking good care of you?" To this question, several family members said: "Good care, good care. Haven't you seen that we are still living in the dormitory in the factory? The mine didn't drive us away, and they gave us money every month. The boss of my family took over the job---" Shi Yan couldn't help asking: "Is this the dormitory that your mine bought for you?" "Yeah, otherwise we'd all have to go back to the country--" Huang Hai took out his camera to take pictures. Several family members were overjoyed when they found out that there was no need to pay. The two of them left those houses with a heavy heart to find Li Chaohai's wife who was called "Pork Belly".Huang Hai said to Shi Yan: "I will go to Li Chaohai's house for an interview later, just say that you are the interviewer, and I am just your --- friend, I came with you. If the interviewee is female, it is generally easier to open up to girls. Heart, to men --- they are wary of ---" She said bluntly: "Okay, no problem, as long as you are not afraid that I will take your Heavenly Skills for myself." "What am I capable of? I'm only worried about getting you into trouble—" After walking for about half an hour, I found the work shed where "Pork Belly" lived. It was worse than the houses of those families. It was a so-called "dilapidated house", a row of sheds built against the mountain. They are all crumbling and rickety, and they are supported by pillars in several places.The mine no longer allowed people to live there, but Li Chaohai's family members were kicked out of the original dormitory and had no place to live, so they had to live in a dilapidated house. Because she was abusive, the mine had no choice but to do anything to her. They found Li Chaohai's house and saw a woman with disheveled hair wearing a men's vest with the word "5" printed on it.The woman's body was covered with black handprints, making her look like a zebra. Shi Yan immediately understood the origin of the nickname "Pork Belly". The two met "Pork Belly" and said hello, and Shi Yan went up to interview.But the attention of "Pork Belly" was also attracted by Huang Hai, and he asked with great sympathy: "Your child also came from the mine, right? Look at your face, maybe the ore was smashed, right?" Huang Hai didn't comment, "Pork Belly" said again, "Don't be sad, as long as you take your life, it's worth it no matter how ugly your face is, it's better than my husband losing his life---" Shi Yan interjected and asked her about the mine disaster, and "Pork Belly" said flickeringly, "It's useless if you ask, who will believe what I say?" "I believe, I believe what you said," Shi Yan said sincerely, "I am not from the mine, nor from City D. I am here for the interview on behalf of the newspaper above. Tell me the truth, and I can help You reflect above, solve your life problems--" "Pork Belly" glanced at her sideways, and asked, "You help me reflect upwards? Then what benefits do you want to get?" Huang Hai said: "We don't want to get any benefits, just want to clarify the facts---" This reason did not seem to convince "Pork Belly" at all. Shi Yan explained: "We are college students, and interviewing you is our homework. If I write it out and post it in the newspaper, the homework will be considered completed; if I can't write it out, the teacher will not let me do it." Graduation. Just think of it as helping us." "Pork Belly" said to Shi Yan: "Men are not good things. Those who say 'don't want to get benefits' are all fake. You are a woman, I believe you, I will tell you, but you must promise not to go to the mine Sue me, otherwise, they won't even let me live in this shabby house--" "We will not sue you at the mine, we are not related to the mine--- we are students---" "Pork belly" very tactfully asked them to show their IDs to prove that they were students. They showed her the student ID card. "I have the manuscript of my husband's letter to the mine. My husband is a demobilized soldier and works in engineering in the army. He understands this and can write well. If he didn't have a rural household registration, he would have been promoted to the army. Now, where would you come here to die?" Seeing that "Pork Belly" was about to be pulled away from her husband's story, Shi Yan hurriedly pulled it back: "Where is the manuscript? Can you show us?" "That's my lifeblood, that's what I live on, and I'm not going to show you-" Huang Hai suggested: "Then can we buy it with money?" "How much do you pay?" As a result of bargaining, "Pork Belly" agreed to a deal of 500 yuan.At that time, the living expenses paid by the state to normal students like Shi Yan were only 60 yuan a month, so it was impossible for her to carry 500 yuan in cash with her.Huang Hai is a bit richer, but only a little over two hundred yuan.The two rummaged through their pockets, but they still haven't got three hundred yuan. "Pork Belly" took the money, but refused to give them the draft of the letter, saying that the draft would not be given to them until they paid 500 yuan in full.The two of them discussed it and decided to get the money back first, and exchange it with "Pork Belly" after getting the rest of the money tomorrow. "Pork Belly" was very upset and complained: "You have no money, why are you here to interview? There are many people who want to buy my husband's letter, and they all pay more than you. I can't keep waiting for you. " They promised to deliver the money tomorrow morning, told "Pork Belly" not to sell the letter to others, and put another 200 yuan as a deposit before leaving "Pork Belly" home in peace. But when they hurried to the place designated by the driver, they found that the driver was not there waiting for them.They waited there for half an hour, but the car still didn't come.Seeing that it was getting late and the driver was still missing, Shi Yan started to panic when she thought that there was still a long way to go to the bus station. It was already dark, and the driver who picked us up was still missing. Shi Yan asked in panic, "Did he tell us to wait here? Did you hear wrong?" "I heard that right, he told us to wait here—" "Then why hasn't he come yet? Did we --- miss it?" "It shouldn't be missed, we came here ahead of time." Huang Hai said comfortingly, "Maybe the driver has something to delay, and there is no phone to call around here, so let's go to the station by ourselves." "What station?" "I checked the bus route map in this area, it is No. 8 bus. It runs until ten o'clock in the evening. If we go out, we should still be able to take the No. 8 bus. Then we can transfer to No. 4 bus at the clock tower stop and we can take you home. " Huang Hai's voice was very calm and serene, which reassured Shi Yan a lot. She praised: "You are so smart, you knew to check the bus route before you came, otherwise, we must be--- lost---" "No, we can ask all the way out—" "But outside of this area, there are no people living there. Who should we ask?" "Don't be afraid, with me here, you will definitely not make any mistakes---" With his promise, she felt much more at ease.That's right, it's not that she walks alone at night alone, and there is a bodyguard, what are you afraid of?It was the first time she realized that boys could be so useful, as if she had never felt the need for them before. The two of them started to walk in the direction of the bus stop. Shi Yan had Huang Hai by her side, so she didn't feel scared at all, but her high heels didn't match her well, and after walking for a while, she began to feel pain in her heels.She usually wears heels higher than this, and even goes shopping in high-heeled shoes, but I don’t know if it’s because the road was relatively flat back then, or the shoes were softer then, anyway, walking today was not smooth, the ground was full of potholes Yes, there are small stones everywhere, she either turned here or staggered there, if Huang Hai hadn't been concentrating on taking care of her and helping her at critical moments, she might have fallen several times. At first, when Huang Hai pulled her and helped her, she was a little embarrassed and blushed a few times, but after more times and no outsiders saw her, she seemed not so embarrassed.Later, she didn't know whether it was intentional or not, but she actually staggered a little bit on purpose, and Huang Hai didn't know whether it was intentional or not, the hand holding her stayed longer and longer, and in the end, she actually walked up with her arm. She pretended not to notice that Huang Hai was helping her, and apologized as she walked, saying that she shouldn't be wearing high heels.Huang Hai didn't seem to notice that his hand was supporting her all the time, and he was also walking while apologizing, saying that he shouldn't have dragged her here for an interview.The two walked together and apologized all the way.The further she walked, the more painful Shi Yan's heels became, the more hungry her stomach became, and her speed became slower and slower. Huang Hai suggested, "I'll carry you on my back." "How? You're hungry and tired too—" "I'm fine, as long as you don't-- see, I'll carry you--" "No, no, I'm so heavy, how can you carry it?" "You haven't tried it, how do you know I can't carry it?" Shi Yan thought about it for a while, but still couldn't bear to let him carry it. She just said, "It's not that I can't walk, but that my shoes hurt my feet. Let me take off my shoes and walk." 黄海急了：“那怎么行？这地上高低不平的，到处是碎石，你打赤脚，把脚划伤了怎么办？即便不划伤，赤脚走路也会把脚底磨破的，还是我背你吧! ” 她想到让他背就得让自己的胸伏在他背上，他的手说不定还得兜着她的屁股，那多难为情。再说他能背她多远？ 她坚持不肯让他背，他说：“那就把我的鞋脱给你穿--- ” “那怎么行？你的鞋那么大，我怎么穿？再说你赤脚走路也不行--- ” 最后他提议说：“那我们往回走一点，到哪个矿工家里去买双球鞋给你穿吧，不然的话，你肯定走不到车站那里去了。” 她想了想，好像只有这个办法了，于是跟他到矿工家里去买鞋。他花了八块钱买了一双破旧的球鞋，比她的脚大了不少，但至少解放了疼痛的脚后跟。她脚下拖着那双大球鞋，而他则把她的高跟鞋穿在手上做走路状，两人忍俊不禁，嘻嘻哈哈地往前走，终于赶在八路车收班之前坐上了车。 他们在钟楼那站下了车，黄海看看表，说：“现在离四路车收班时间还早，我们也都饿了，不如就到对面餐馆里吃点东西，我再送你回去。” 她想想也是，已经饿得前心贴后心了，回到学校也没什么东西吃，于是就跟他到对面餐馆去吃饭。两人刚在餐馆坐下，就听到有个女声叫道：“石燕，这么晚还在外面逛街？” 她一惊，循声望去，发现不远处的桌子上坐着她的同班同学姚小萍，正站起身，从人群里往她这边挤来。姚小萍原来是下面一个县中的老师，工作好几年了又考出来读师院的，所以年纪比她们应届毕业生大，已经结了婚，有了孩子，平时都是以“老大姐”自居，班里那些女生感情上有了麻烦都是跑去找姚小萍讨主意，而姚小萍从来不吝啬自己的建议，专爱替人出谋划策。 石燕不知道姚小萍怎么会在这里，但她直觉地感到今天要出漏子了，这么晚了，她还跟一个男生在外面吃饭，姚小萍肯定会把黄海当她的男朋友。这姚小萍可不是简简单单的一个“小广播”，差不多就算得上“爱情热线”了，她知道了班上同学爱情方面的新闻，肯定会通过她的热线广为传播。 石燕想装做跟黄海不认识的样子，又怕伤害了他。她还没想好怎么应付，姚小萍已经到跟前来了，一同过来的还有一个男人，大概是姚小萍的丈夫。有一会，四个人都没吭声，姚小萍和她丈夫都使劲盯着黄海看，还不时地看看石燕，仿佛在衡量两个人配不配一样。 最后姚小萍打破了沉默，说：“这位是谁呀？石燕你也不跟我们介绍一下。这是不是你那位名校男朋友？” 石燕狡辩说：“你不也没给我介绍这位吗？”刚说完，她就感到自己做了一个很不恰当的比喻，这不等于承认黄海是自己的男朋友了吗？ 而且她还怕黄海知道她平时是拉着他的大旗在做虎皮得。 她正在那里难堪，就听黄海说：“你看我象名校生吗？名校熟还差不多。”他开了这个玩笑，解释说，“我是她高中同学，现在在D 市钢厂上班，她父母让我照顾她的，我约她出来吃个饭--- ” 姚小萍好像如释重负似地“噢”了一声，脱口对石燕说：“我也是在想这肯定不是你那位'憨傻'的名校男友--- ”然后对黄海说，“你跟她是高中同学，那不是H 市人吗？怎么跑这里来上班？” “我家是这里的，我那时是在石燕她们学校借读，她父母给我关照不少--- ” 石燕吃惊地发现黄海撒起谎来还像模像样的呢，前因后果，滴水不漏，真是“现编不过夜”。 姚小萍好像真的把黄海当高考落榜的钢厂职工看待了，安慰说：“在钢厂干挺好的，听说钢厂工人福利很好。像你们这样工伤的，可能劳保金很高吧？” “嗯，”黄海一本正经地跟姚小萍谈劳保，姚小萍终于满足了好奇心，准备打道回府了。 等她走远了，石燕低声问黄海：“你怎么说是--- 钢厂职工？幸亏你还知道钢厂一点情况，不然岂不是--- 露了马脚？” “不知道钢厂情况怎么会撒这个谎呢？”他开玩笑地问，“你那个名校男友是不是以前我们班的？”接着他就猜了好几个以前的同学，但石燕都否定了。她觉得他心里跟一面镜子似的，肯定知道所谓“名校男友”就是他，而且知道她不想让班上同学看见她的”名校男友“，不然他怎么会谎称自己是钢厂的？ 她非常不安，觉得自己肯定给黄海留下了一个虚伪而且虚荣的印象。还好，黄海很快就放过了这个话题，转而谈起了采访的事：“我打算明天一早就去找'五花肉'把那个底稿买来，不然的话，走露了风声，让别人弄去就麻烦了。” “明天早上？多早？” “明天你就不用去了吧，已经耽误你很多时间了，而且你的脚--- 明天肯定不能走路。要不要上点药？” “不用，你哪里有看到过穿高跟鞋打破了脚还要轰轰烈烈上医院的？” “但是你明天还要上课，怎么走得动？” “没事，我明天换双鞋就行了。” “对不起，害你把脚搞伤了--- ” “这怎么怪你呢？是我自己要穿高跟鞋的，你还专门问了这一点的--- ”她岔开这个话题，问，“如果你拿到了那个底稿，你准备怎么办？” “我也不知道，这种采访调查一般是不受欢迎的，不光那些肇事的头们不欢迎，有时连当事人甚至受害者都不欢迎你，因为他们已经跟现状达成了协议，不想得罪单位领导，免得把一点既得利益也弄丢了--- ” "What about you?" “我尽力而为。” “其实'五花肉'挺可怜的，如果这事落到我头上，我--- 真的不知道会怎么样--- ，我们应该想办法帮她--- ” “你真是个好--- 心人，”他定定地看着她，说，“我也觉得她挺可怜的，我也想帮她，如果最后的调查结果不是矿上的责任，而是她丈夫的责任，我估计矿上是不会--- 帮她的。” "Then what to do?" “那我--- 就跟她结婚--- ” 她差点跳了起来：“什么？你疯了？跟她结婚？她多大，你多大？她的儿子都快要有你大了吧？”