Chapter 17 Chronicle of Imperata Ridge.5

When she asked about XX from the Shanghai Conservatory of Music, a trace of melancholy appeared on her face, and she said in a soft voice: We had lunch together at noon on the day I came in.After a pause, he added that if I didn't come in, he would marry me.She looked at the place on the wall in front of her, immersed in the memories of the past.But she quickly came to her senses and said that she had a good life here. She was in the cafeteria at first, and then in the squad. She didn't like the squad. After staying here, I came here to look at the warehouse again. In a few days, there will be a singing competition. The captain asked her to tutor, because she came from the small team.When she spoke, she looked left and right, scratched her head, and her tone was very flirtatious, which sounded like she was talking in sleep.We wanted to knock her down, bring her back to reality, and almost told her brother that he came here and went back.But she quickly changed the subject and said that she would be able to go out in August next year. By then, her son would be in the first grade of elementary school. On September 1st, she would send her son to school. When I go to school, I always ask my mother to send it.There were tears in her eyes, which made our words swallowed again.This time, she was silent for a while, and we asked about the merchants on Huating Road.She said that the man was in his fifties, treated her very well, and treated her son very well. He often gave her money and clothes, and told her not to have sex with young people.She bowed her head nostalgicly, and then looked around again.She seems to fall into the role easily, and she is very competent.Her words were many and broken, and she kept typing, with joyful eyes, describing her past, present, and future scenes vividly.At this time, I suddenly wanted to confirm whether she really had a Taiwanese uncle, and I thought about how to ask. At this time, she started to talk about going abroad, saying that she was once invited to go abroad, but she declined, but now she is a little bit tempted.I just said, do you have any relatives in your family overseas?She said that her father once said that she had an uncle who drove a car in the Kuomintang army and went to Taiwan on the eve of liberation.At this time, we find it difficult to tell her what her brother said, no matter how annoying she is to us, how artificial and imaginative, but once we know, her brother, son, and Taiwanese uncle have come outside the big wall But she returned again, no matter how strong her role consciousness was, she couldn't resist the blow, and she didn't know what kind of trouble would happen, and it would not end well.Here, self-injury and other violent accidents happen from time to time, and we have no right to create another one.It would be a very frivolous act if the captains have to bear the serious consequences for our actions in pursuit of dramatic effects.We left the warehouse without saying anything.

The reeducation through labor workers are very cunning, and they avoid the most important ones.Always able to bypass important facts and say something else.But from their conversations, some information is also conveyed from time to time, allowing us to see their world.For example, when faced with the kind of request from a man, they often say: How can I be ashamed to beg like this?For another example, the peddler on Huating Road advised the girl not to have sex with the young man, "It's boring to have a relationship."In their world, the concepts and laws of morality and value are the same as those in our world, which are made up of books and periodicals.Newspapers and education in schools supersede law.Not the same concept.How did they get there when they lived outside of a recognized legal world?

And so the day passed. The days are passing fast, and the impression of Baimaoling seems to be gradually getting old. The interviews are somewhat similar and the same. I no longer have curiosity about tomorrow, and I am a bit muddled.In the morning and evening, when the bus is on the way, the scenery outside the window is also indifferent. The low tea forest stretches as far as the eye can see, looking desolate, and the cypress trees are always alone, one or two, staying in sight for a long time.On dry, dry days, the dust billows up like smoke and blocks the rear window, and the car bumps and wobbles in the dry ruts.In 1953, when the first batch of police officers and first batch of prisoners came here, what kind of scene was it like?It is said that wild wolves come and go, howling at night, calling for lost wolf cubs.The moon is in the sky.The children shouted in unison again: Thank you uncle, the elementary school is here, and the children disappeared behind a bush in a blink of an eye. What are they going to do when they grow up?Do you want to be a third-generation police officer?

On Monday morning, the team site was busy again.The cadres discussed to send the girl under strict supervision to the Institute of Xuancheng Psychiatric Hospital for appraisal. This was through the relationship of a school teacher's brother.The girl remained the same during the strict control, and the strict control had no obvious effect on her. The cadres said: If she is really mentally ill, let her go back immediately; From time to time, she dampened the sense of authority and self-esteem of the correctional cadres. On this day when we were depressed and uninterested, we were very lucky to meet the labor camp with the most noble temperament. She kept us in a good view, her attitude of being neither humble nor overbearing, her self-esteem and self-love, and she still has a healthy body until now. Our humanity, our normal emotions, have allowed us to have the most equal and honest conversation we have ever had.Since all these qualities of her are maintained through all these experiences, we are extremely impressed by her stability and strength.The reason why we chose her as an interview subject was that she was born into a family of military cadres and Communists, and her case was prostitution in Shenzhen.Once, her father, an old Communist Party member, brought her long-term concubine lover, a Hong Kong man who started a company in Shenzhen, to visit her in Fengshulin all the way. She passed by our window before walking into the door. I still remember the scene of her tall and straight figure passing by the window, and the sun was particularly refreshing that morning.She was wearing a lake blue short-sleeved shirt, a pair of blue line pants, and a pair of light yellow mesh shallow-top flat shoes. These shoes can make us imagine that she is in a new coastal city. How to shine brightly.She is 1.723 meters tall, model-shaped, sitting very upright, with a dignified and quiet demeanor.She kept us still for a minute or a minute and a half, feeling that all the previous problems would be disrespectful to her and would damage our own image. She was the only one among the many labor camps who reminded us and noticed us This is not the charm of an ordinary woman in her own image.At first she lowered her eyes, then she raised her eyes and smiled, saying: If you have any questions, please ask.We couldn't help but also laughed, and the atmosphere became more relaxed.We will soon find out that she is actually taking the initiative in this conversation.This is her second time in a forced labor camp, the first time in Shanghai Women's Labor Camp.She was dissatisfied with the previous treatment. She said: Which girl falls in love only after one meeting?I took it this time—she said.What is she wearing?Where is she wrong?She was very reserved and well-spoken, and her head was so clear that we didn't want to pursue it.She said that she graduated from middle school and worked in a certain unit. There was a middle-aged man in the factory who was a painter. Because he was a rightist, he was sent to work as a worker and was discriminated against by people.And she always treats him very well, and she doesn't shy away from being fond of him in public, for example, she gives him a seat when seeing a doctor in the medical room.Then she became good friends with him, and he also taught her how to draw——we recalled the title picture on the blackboard newspaper, and asked if she drew it, and she said: Yes.Gradually, there were discussions, and she ignored them and remained close to him.When mentioning him, she was still full of tenderness. She missed him and said: If I hadn’t met him, my life might be the same as most girls, getting married and having a child... What kind of influence did he have on her? of?What other life path had he put her on?Did this path of life bring her luck or misfortune?When she finished her first education and returned to the unit, the personnel cadres reprimanded her from the beginning, which made her unbearable.It happened that a friend who went to work in Shenzhen the year before wrote to invite her to play, and she went there once. She found that Shenzhen was a suitable place for her to live, and her friend helped her find a job in a company, so she went back to Shenzhen. When going through the resignation procedure in Shanghai, people asked her what kind of good job she had found. She just said that she was in the aquatic business, and then she flew to Shenzhen, where she met the Hong Kong man, the boss of their company.What are you doing there?we ask.Help the boss with his business, she said.He taught me, writing checks, negotiating business, he taught me.How is he?I asked.I didn’t think he was good in the past, but after I got here, I think he is very good. He is very good to my parents. He buys things for them, sends money to them, and calls to comfort them. If he is good to my parents, he is good to me.I heard he came to see you once?I say.Yes, he came, was not allowed to meet, when I came out to meet Dad, I walked by there - she pointed out the window, there was a cypress tree, in the sun - saw him, I didn't cry, he cried, I said to him: I am already thirty-two years old, you can't delay me any longer, and he said: Don't worry, I will be responsible for you.After speaking, she fell silent.I asked, can he marry you?It’s not easy for me to say such things. In Hong Kong, divorce is a complicated matter, property, house... She lowered her eyes, but the circles of her eyes were red. She quietly wiped away her tears and said softly: Thinking about these things makes me sad, Usually I never think about it.We sat in silence for a while, then asked her what her father thought about this.She said: According to the tradition, we brought Dad up badly, but in my opinion, we freed his mind.We all laughed and she laughed too.We asked her how is life here?She said it was better than a reformatory for women.Why?Is it because you are more popular here?She is in the small team here, and also in the sewing group, and has been praised and awarded many times.She said it wasn't because of this, I was also the group leader in the women's correctional center, anyway, I like it here.When she got up to go, I think a bond of trust had been established between us, and we watched her walk down the road in front of the team headquarters and disappear into the gate.The sun is always so bright, Shenzhen is so far away.What are Hong Kong people like?How is the character?What is it like for them to get along together?She didn't dare to think about it in normal times, she would feel sad when she thought about it, what exactly was it?Is it the past, the present, or the future?Afterwards, I kept thinking about it, until I had Minnie, and even after Minnie boarded the boat, what I was still thinking about was her words: "If I hadn't met him, my life would be the same as that of ordinary girls. , get married, have a baby..." From her tone, not only did she not regret the current situation, but she was also somewhat grateful.I am glad that she has escaped from that kind of normal world life, although she is sad to think of some things, the scene of Hong Kong people coming all the way to visit is a sad scene.

The next person we talked to was a labor camp highly recommended by several captains.She once gave a speech at a reeducation through labor conference about her life in Hong Kong.One year's events have made everyone understand that the moon in Hong Kong is not particularly round.Her life is so legendary that it even makes us wonder: How much truth is there?She is about to be released from the teaching camp. She has been serving in the team headquarters for the past few days, and she is seen working diligently wearing a straw hat every day. The story that an American boss wants to marry her is extremely unbelievable.But in the end, because she couldn't bear to let down the good intentions of the captains, she was invited. She was thirty-eight years old, her body was a bit thick, her skin was fair, but she had firm wrinkles. She was dressed in working clothes. Can't think of any other way she could be dressed.She was busy making tea for us, and besides being courteous, she also showed honest concern and enthusiasm.Her voice was loud and rough, and she poured it out like beans in a bamboo tube without us asking.She said that her mother went to Hong Kong when she was a child, and then went to the United States from Hong Kong—according to the cadres, her mother was a prostitute who smuggled to Hong Kong—after her mother left, her father went to another After getting married, she went to Changzhou, where she grew up with her grandma.After graduating from elementary school, she was admitted to the Yue Opera class of Shanghai Opera School. At that time, she was beautiful and lived happily.When I was sixteen, the Cultural Revolution started, schools were closed, and my grandmother died.After grandma died, the house was taken back by her uncles. She was homeless and wandered day and night. One night, she came to the bank of Huangpu River.As soon as she jumped down, she was picked up by a boatman, and she lay on the riverside wet, crying.As the sky grew brighter, more and more people surrounded her. It was an era when suicides happened frequently. People didn't ask questions, but only sighed at her youth and pity.At this time, a woman walked by the river, recognized her at a glance, and said, "Isn't this my daughter's classmate?"Used to come to our house to play.So the woman took her home, asked her to change into clean clothes, and let her rest.She couldn't sleep, she just sat on the edge of the bed in the back room worrying.One day, a visitor came to this family. He was a lathe worker. He had been working as an apprentice since he was thirteen years old, and he had worked for twenty years at that time.People are very honest, or alone.The mother of this family was making a match for him and introduced a woman, but he didn't like it, and he came to reject it.The mother was not happy at first, feeling that she had been slapped in the face, but then she pointed to the back room and motioned him to take a look.He leaned in the door and saw a girl sitting in the room with a sad face. When he exited the door, he only said one sentence: ask her opinion.She didn't have any objections. If she followed this man, she would have housing, food and someone to support her, and her problem would be solved. She followed this man to his hometown and got married. After having three sons, she discovered that I made mistakes.She wants a divorce.What's wrong with him?we ask.There's nothing bad about him, nothing good about him, but I don't like it.She said that he only likes two things in this world, one is the lathe, and the other is fishing. Apart from that, he is not interested in anything. I want to go shopping with him. He refuses to enter any shops except for fishing rods. , I want to chat with him, he said why I talk so much, I want to buy some shirts for my son, he said to buy a few feet of faucet muslin and make two pieces... At the time of divorce, she was twenty-four years old, she They brought all their sons over, lived in a small town on the outskirts of the city, and worked as temporary workers.These days were extremely difficult, but they finally got through it safely.In 1976, one night, a secretary of the government office in the town came in a hurry in the rain, saying that there was a long-distance call from the United States looking for her, and it took him a lot of effort to find her home. , asking her to answer the phone immediately, but the phone has not been hung up yet.She followed the secretary to the town office, picked up the microphone, and a woman's slurred voice came from the microphone, saying it was her mother. She only felt dazed and shocked.When he put down the phone, the secretary said why are you so calm?She wondered that he said: Why are you excited?Not long after, her mother sent her money, a total of 2,000 yuan, and she became excited. She had never seen such a large amount of money. It is a little more than two thousand yuan, or less than two thousand yuan.She picked a Sunday, brought her three sons to Nanjing Road in Shanghai, and said to her sons: What do you want, tell me quickly, and I will buy it for you. My sons are always used to restraining their own desires, and they can hardly mention it at this time. Make a request.She did it herself and bought a lot of toys. The son said: Mom, we are already grown up!She said, no matter what, this is what your mother owed you when you were young.Then the four of them went to the International Hotel for dinner and returned home happily.This day is still beautiful and exciting in the memories of the four of them. Later, her mother applied for a Hong Kong visa for her and met her in Hong Kong.The scene of this pair of mother and daughter who had been separated for many years was a bit funny. The mother hugged her and cried, but she was indifferent. The mother said: Why don't you even have a tear?She said: I really can't cry, I'm really a stranger to you, when you left, I didn't know anything.Now I also wish I could cry, but I can’t, what should I do!It made my mother very disappointed.My mother handles some business matters in Hong Kong. She has her own small business in the United States. She also remarried and has children. Among them, the eldest sister was conceived when she went out.During this period, one of my mother's friends, a Chinese boss in the United States, fell in love with her and wanted to marry her. My mother also tried her best to facilitate it, but she refused to do so because the marriage would bring her business benefits.I asked her why?She said: I don't like it.The mother said to her: If you agree to this marriage, I will give you and the children a lot of money, if not, I will not give you any support from now on.She said no, and then returned to Shanghai from Hong Kong, and her life fell into a difficult situation again. The difference is that she has two houses, which her mother bought for her.She started thinking about moving the house, hoping it would generate money.She was sentenced to three years in a labor camp for the crime of providing a place for prostitution.She didn't want to talk more about her case, and turned the topic to the three years of labor camp life, saying that it was only because of her sons that she passed the three years smoothly.There is no better son in the world than these sons!she says.Ah Da is honest, Ah Er is shrewd, Ah San is confused, but Ah Da, Er, and Ah San are very filial, and the three of them write long letters to her every week. These letters are her most precious things, and everything else is False, only the son is true!she says.Once, when Ah Er came to visit, she ran to the guest house, and someone told her: Is that young man your son?He brought a big cake, and the journey was not easy, it was crowded like hell, and he tried his best to protect the cake.She ran into the room and said to Ah Er: Ah Er, why did you bring a cake?Ah Er smiled and said: Mom, what date is it today?Today is May 25th.It's your birthday!It's your thirty-eighth birthday.Look, this is the son, you know, this is not the youth of the 1960s, but the youth of the 80s!How rare!My son showed me the first prize certificate he won in the ballroom dancing competition, and I became anxious after seeing it, and said: Ah Er, if things like dancing are not handled properly, there will be problems.Ah Er said: Mom, don't worry, just watch again!He spread out another certificate, which is the district's new Long March Assaulter title certificate, this is his son!She smiled, but tears rolled down her cheeks!With such a son, how can I go to the United States to get married?She asked us and we were speechless.I think that in the whole story, which has been organized by repetition, there is still a bit of truth after all, and I believe that I can recognize what is true and what is not in this person sitting opposite each other. of.After she left us, we all changed our first impression of her. The rough life of her was all due to some temperamental reasons: what she liked or what she didn't like.The women here seem to lack some rationality, are too casual, and like to dream.