Chapter 8 Chapter 08 Even if I am your second in my life, I will feel happy
After leaving the dormitory, Fang Zijin came to the classroom, sat down in the last corner, spread out the book, and took notes while reading.The students came in one after another, and some of them were complaining: What kind of meeting is there at noon? Isn't there political life every week?Group life can also be arranged at night.Really, most people are both league members and party members. The organizational life of party and league members can be arranged together. Why do things have to be done at noon?
Fang Zijin just listened and didn't speak.She is neither a member nor a party member, but an activist.She didn't feel that she had to be a member of a certain organization to contribute to society, but Li Shufen talked to her several times and encouraged her to write in the application form for joining the party.She thought that if she didn't write, this kind of conversation would definitely continue, which was a waste of her time.Unexpectedly, after writing it, activists have to participate in the life of party and group organizations, and she spends more time on this aspect.
Li Shufen was ten minutes late.She used to be so skinny, but now she has a big belly, showing her true colors. When she came in through the door, it looked like a Russian-made heavy tank.The tank stuffed steamed buns into its mouth as it moved forward.The steamed bun seemed to be a few days old, and it was dry. After one bite, some white powder floated down, hanging a white curtain in front of her.Li Shufen stood on the podium and scanned the audience with her round eyes.It's all here, not bad, quite neat.she says.One classmate said it was wrong, and two classmates asked for leave.Li Shufen's brows furrowed suddenly, the corners of her mouth turned sideways, her voice became sharp, asking for leave?Who did you ask for leave?I do not know how?The classmate said, Hu Zhiyan and Wu Limin asked the school for leave.What did I say, it turns out this.Li Shufen waved her hand. Today, our league branch is living an organizational life and discussing the development of new league members.
Before she finished speaking, some classmates raised different opinions.Why are we discussing the development of new members now?Didn't the National Day just develop a batch?Li Shufen immediately stared, criticizing that classmate, the league organization has never stipulated when to recruit new members.In fact, the door of the group organization is always open, and the development principle of the group organization is to develop one after another.
Fang Zijin also had this question in his mind.Not long ago, new league members were recruited, and, after all, the work of recruiting new league members is not something that can be decided by the league branch. Unless the college youth league committee makes a unified deployment, at least the general branch of the league must make some arrangements. Therefore, the party and league members Always mass produced.Li Shufen gave a list of names, all of whom had written applications for membership.Fang Zijin suddenly understood that the so-called maturity and development vary from person to person.The organizational life this time was probably just for Wu Limin.As soon as they entered the school, the relationship between Wu Limin and Li Shufen was not handled well.Wu Limin's personality is too straightforward, and she will show on her face when she sees something that is not pleasing to the eye.Li Shufen didn't seem to have the habit of brushing her teeth before, but after entering a big city, brushing her teeth has become a kind of arty.She doesn't buy toothpaste or toothbrush herself, remembering that when she brushes her teeth, it's whoever catches her.On the second day after entering school, Wu Limin had a big fight with her because of this matter.In the future, if Li Shufen touches anything from Wu Limin, she will throw it away in front of Li Shufen.Since then, the two of them haven't said a word in a serious way. Every time they discuss the issue of joining the group, Li Shufen takes advantage of the opportunity and counts out a lot of bad things about Wu Limin.Wu Limin also realized that it was impossible for her subordinates to join the League and the Party. After submitting the application for joining the League, she never handed in the application for joining the Party.The organization life of party and league members is usually arranged for activists to participate, and Wu Limin does not participate at all. When asked, she said that whenever there is Li Shufen, she will feel goose bumps all over her body.
The team members all knew that Li Shufen and Wu Limin had a feud. Although they didn't know the details, they also knew that discussing Wu Limin was a waste of effort, and Li Shufen couldn't pass this level at all.Therefore, everyone mentioned all the names one by one, but Wu Limin's name was not mentioned.Li Shufen couldn't sit still anymore, so she offered to say, let me say a few words.I think Wu Limin's recent performance is very good and fully meets the standards of a member of the league.There are many things about her that you may not know.For example, she asked for leave recently, why did she ask for leave?Where did you go on leave?None of the classmates in the class knew about it, and I only found out about it yesterday when Secretary Zhong of the Youth League Committee mentioned it.Wu Limin went to Shenyang to take care of a reconnaissance hero of the Volunteer Army in a military hospital there.Then, she greatly publicized Yu Aijun's heroic deeds, calling him the reconnaissance company commander, and naturally Wu Limin was an outstanding representative of women in the new era, and a great proletarian love warrior.She said that classmate Wu Limin had formally submitted an application to the organization to marry Yu Aijun and planned to take care of him for the rest of her life.What kind of spirit is this?This is the revolutionary spirit of selflessness, the spirit of selfless dedication, and a truly outstanding quality.This is the real proletarian love and a typical representative of revolutionary women.Such people cannot join the group, who can join the group?
Fang Zijin never expected that Wu Limin would become a heroine after what Li Shufen said.In her eyes, Wu Limin was just pursuing her own love, which had nothing to do with those spiritual qualities.Fang Zijin really wanted to tell them loudly, don't look at Wu Limin like this, she is just an ordinary girl, like other ordinary girls, love is the purest and most beautiful part of her heart, if this part is abstracted, and the other It's not real, and it's a blasphemy against her and her beautiful feelings.In such a meeting, Fang Zijin has no right to speak after all, even if she has, she is not the kind of person who is good at expressing herself, she will bury all her thoughts deeply in her heart.
The final result was not beyond her expectations. During the voting, all the team members voted for Wu Limin.
The next day, the school posted a big red announcement, and the Youth League Committee of the academy decided to approve Wu Limin to join the Youth League organization.On the third day, the school blackboard newspaper column launched a special topic of learning from Wu Limin and paying tribute to the heroes of the volunteer army.Of all the articles, 4/5 were related to Wu Limin, and the other 1/5 were related to Yu Aijun.The love story between Wu Limin and Yu Aijun has been played up as a revolutionary love. It seems that Wu Limin went to see him not because she fell in love with Yu Aijun, but because of Wu Limin's love for revolution and love for heroes, she fell in love with Yu Aijun This revolution and hero personified.After reading another article introducing Wu Limin's usual study and life, Fang Zijin felt that it was not Wu Limin at all, but another person.
Fang Zijin has not yet recovered from this series of changes. As an activist who joined the League and the Party, she was once again invited to participate in the life of the organization. This time it was not the life of the League organization, but the life of the Party organization.The college has not yet established a party committee, only a party branch.Hu Zhiyan is the leader of the party group of the teacher class. In order to avoid speaking on the tour, he pretended to be sick in his hometown in Shandong, and he has not returned yet.The organization life was convened by Li Shufen.It was almost exactly the same as the last group organization life agenda, but the content was slightly different.The last time Li Shufen presided over the meeting on the development of new members with her big belly, this time the discussion was on the development of new party members.What stunned Fang Zijin was that Wu Limin was placed at the top of the discussion list even though she had never written an application for joining the party.This time, those party members knew what was going on, and they didn't need Li Shufen's inspiration. They started to show Wu Limin's favor. In their mouths, Wu Limin became a person with only advantages and no disadvantages. The freckles on my face have become beautiful flowers shining brightly throughout Ningchang City.
On Sunday morning, the teacher class arranged professional classes.When class was over, Lu Qiusheng was waiting outside the classroom.Fang Zijin was very disgusted by this, but could not refuse.After all, he was her fiancé, and it was only natural for him to come to school to find her.And the more frequently he looks for her, the more people she knows about her relationship with him in school.As he gets closer and closer to her, Bai Changshan will get farther and farther away from her.
Lu Qiusheng was still pushing his three-gun bicycle.In medical school, his bicycle was much more eye-catching than himself. If Fang Zijin sat in the back again, it would not only be eye-catching, but a sensation.Fang Zijin thought to himself, maybe he just expected to achieve such an effect, and this effect ran counter to her deepest expectations, so, since the first time, she refused to sit in the back seat again.
He pushed the bicycle outside, and she put her body on the other side of the bicycle, so that the bicycle formed a natural boundary between them.When passing the bulletin board at the school gate, Fang Zijin saw a newly posted big red news, the paste on it was still wet.She glanced at it first, and then carefully read every word of the happy news carefully.This is the good news for Wu Limin to join the party. From the moment this good news was posted, Wu Limin has become a probationary party member.
Lu Qiusheng also read the happy news, he said, she will soon become a celebrity.Fang Zijin didn't understand what he meant, so he asked him, do you know her?Lu Qiusheng said, I don't know her, but the security area is talking about her these days.To Fang Zijin's surprise, Lu Qiusheng knew many things that Fang Zijin didn't.He told her that Wu Limin's deeds would soon be broadcast in newspapers.The problem of soldiers has always been a big trouble for the party and the country.During the War of Liberation, the Communist Party’s army expanded rapidly, from over one million at the time of the victory of the War of Resistance to over five million at the end of the War of Liberation. With the addition of some paramilitary forces, the number may exceed tens of millions.Soon after the founding of the People's Republic of China, the War to Resist US Aggression and Aid Korea rose again, and the country had to recruit a large number of troops again.Now that the war is over, the whereabouts of these soldiers, as well as the issue of heroes who were wounded and disabled in previous wars, especially their marriage issues, have become major issues that need to be resolved urgently.Wu Limin provides an example to the society, and the society needs to vigorously publicize their marriage and encourage more young women to become wives of disabled soldiers.Therefore, in the next few years, people like Wu Limin will definitely become the darling of the society and the object of public attention.
After hearing Lu Qiusheng's words, Fang Zijin was rather unwilling, what do you mean by saying that?It seems that Limin married Yu Aijun because of politics rather than love.Lu Qiusheng said that individuals may value love, but society emphasizes politics.Fang Zijin said that if Li Min knew that her love was understood in this way, she would definitely want to cry.However, Lu Qiusheng insisted on his own opinion. If the love of an ordinary person is raised to the height of politics, it must be the sublimation of love.
The two started arguing about this topic before lunch, and were still arguing after dinner, neither of them could convince the other.This topic did not end until Fang Zijin found out that Lu Qiusheng had led him into a narrow alley in the old city, and was surprised where he was.What did you do to bring me here?she asked.Lu Qiusheng said mysteriously that he brought her to meet someone.Fang Zijin thought that he was going to meet some important person from the Lu family, so he was not mentally prepared at all, so he stood there and refused to leave.Lu Qiusheng said, this person is a well-known monster in Ningchang.I can't even look at each other, I don't even bother to look at each other.He brought her here just to make eye contact with this person.If they match up, it will definitely be of great benefit to her.If not, there is no loss.Fang Zijin stood there, looking seriously into his eyes, hoping that he would explain further.
Lu Qiusheng gave her a hand and said that you will know after going to see it.
They walked forward together, and at the end of the narrow alley, a very luxurious gatehouse appeared.There is a pair of couplets on the gate tower, the upper couplet is "two fingers connect the world", the second couplet is "one needle rule the world", and the horizontal comment is "three-legged cat kung fu".Fang Zijin's heart was moved.Hanging such a pair of couplets shows that this place should be a medical clinic or a family of traditional Chinese medicine, especially acupuncture and moxibustion.Dare to hang a couplet like "Two fingers connect the world, one needle rules the world" on the door, it can be seen that it must be the one with the best skills.But Hengpi used a "three-legged cat kung fu", which seemed cynical.
Seeing her paying attention to this couplet, Lu Qiusheng introduced that this couplet was inscribed by the Governor-General in the late Qing Dynasty, and it was originally a horizontal batch with the words "Medical Champion".He inscribed this horizontal batch, naturally he had a particular point, this alley is called Zhuangyuan Lane, and the Xiang family who has lived in this alley for generations, is hailed as a miracle doctor by the world.I don't know which dynasty or generation has formed a rule. Anyone who passes this alley, the civil servants get off the sedan chair and the military officials get off the horse.Some people say that this is because the alley once had a number one scholar, and the emperor bestowed a horse stone to stand at the entrance of the alley.Some people also said that because the Xiang family, a family of genius doctors, lives here, the Xiang family has the ability to determine life and death, and is the uncrowned king.In the Republic of China, some outdated customs were abolished, and no one took this rule seriously anymore.Later, the warlords fought in a scuffle, and two factions of warlords wanted to invite the Xiang family to come out of the mountain, but they met at the gate of Xiang's mansion and fought.The bullet has no eyes, and the bullet fired by someone hit the horizontal plaque, and the horizontal plaque fell to the ground and shattered.Later, it was Chiang Kai-shek who won the victory, came to the door to apologize, and wanted to rebuild the horizontal criticism for Xiangfu.The Xiang family didn't want to bother him, so the old Mr. Xiang Qinyang grabbed a handful of medicinal residues, wrote the words "Three-legged Cat Kung Fu", and hurriedly asked to hang up.
As soon as he heard about Ningchang Xiangfu, Fang Zijin was in awe.When my father was alive, he mentioned Xiang Qinyang many times.His father said that every time he came to Ningchang, he would visit Xiang's mansion, but Xiang Qinyang never came out to meet him.The old man is a strange man in the medical field, he has no fate, and he can't even meet him face to face.She didn't understand why Lu Qiusheng brought her here, and she didn't understand whether this trip would be fruitful.Regardless of whether it is harvested or not, since we are in the mansion, we naturally have to give it a try.She straightened her clothes, wiped her hair a few times, and followed Lu Qiusheng into the room.
Stepping into the gatehouse, there is a large patio inside, surrounded by two-story wooden buildings, carved beams and painted buildings, antique.There are many magnolia trees planted in the yard, and a huge medicinal gourd hangs in the middle of the patio.Some servants in the yard were doing their own work, completely ignoring people coming and going.Lu Qiusheng led Fang Zijin into the front living room, and a maid immediately stepped forward to greet her.Lu Qiusheng asked the employer about Xiang Qinyang's situation, and said that it was Lu Mingquan's third son, Lu Qiusheng, who wanted to tell the story.The servant said that she didn't know whether Mr. Xiang was at home, so she went to inform the housekeeper.
Lu Qiusheng and Fang Zijin sat in the living room drinking tea.He said to Fang Zijin that the Xiang family was originally a Wang family in Zhongqu Province. If one traces their origins, it may be traced back to the Warring States period.I don't know from which generation, the Xiang family began to practice medicine, but this family is very peculiar. There are three ancestral precepts, the first is to pass on the elders and not the young, the second is to pass on the sons and not the concubines, and the third is to pass on the males and not the daughters.In this way, there will always be only one family who masters the Xiang family's medical skills.In Xiang Qinyang's generation, the population was not prosperous, and there were years of wars. His three sons died of smallpox in an hour, and one committed suicide when he was young.The last one was killed when the Japanese devils bombed Ningchang.The third son left a lineage for the Xiang family, and when he was fifteen years old, the family wanted to marry him, hoping that he would give birth to a son to continue the fireworks of the Xiang family.But he didn't love the woman six years older than him that his family had ordered for him at all, so he ran away on the wedding night and never heard from him again.After the liberation of the whole country, the people's government tried hard to help Xiang Qinyang find his grandson, but after several efforts, there was no result.So he wanted to invite Mr. Xiang to come out of the mountain and dedicate his full medical skills to the society, but no matter which leader from the province or city came to the door, he would not accept it.Mr. Xiang is old after all, he has just passed ninety years old this year, he knows that his days in this world are numbered, he doesn't want to bring his medical skills into the coffin, so he let it out, he wants to accept a closed disciple, there is no limit to male or female, regardless of age or closeness unlimited.Knowing this news, I don't know how many people came to the door.
At this point, Fang Zijin realized that Lu Qiusheng wanted her to become Mr. Xiang's disciple.However, this matter easier said than done?Mr. Xiang is an expert, so choosing an apprentice is naturally different.Although she has some family background, she is now studying Western medicine. If she has a little opinion of the sect, she will definitely not accept her.When Fang Zijin was thinking about it, the servant came out and told them that Mr. Xiang said that Mr. Lu had seen Mr. Lu last time, but he didn't see him this time, and let Ms. Fang go in alone.Fang Zijin stood up nervously and looked at Lu Qiusheng.Lu Qiusheng told her that it's fine if he doesn't go, the key is to let her see the old man, as long as this goal is achieved, it will be the biggest gain today.Fang Zijin felt that he had no idea.Lu Qiusheng told her that although the old man is a weirdo and madman, there is no need to be too cautious, and it might be best to meet him naturally.
Following behind the servant, Fang Zijin went upstairs from the wooden stairs at the back of the living room.Upstairs, there is a small living room. In the middle of the hall is a portrait of Hua Tuo, and two large screens of Populus euphratica are placed on both sides. The characters in the screen are not pictures of ancient Chinese ladies or historical figures. Looking up, it looks more like an ancestor of the Xiang family.There is a mahogany table in the center of the living room, surrounded by four mahogany stools, and a set of Jingdezhen fine porcelain blue flower tea set is placed on the table.There are two grand master chairs in front, and a wooden coffee table in the middle. A man in his fifties or sixties is sitting on one of the chairs, with flexible movements and vigorous steps.Fang Zijin was judging whether this person was Xiang Qinyang, and the servant introduced to her that this was Butler Rong.Seeing her coming up, housekeeper Rong stood up, bent down and saluted her.Fang Zijin was a little flustered, and hurriedly returned the gift to him.
Butler Rong said please come with me, and led her to a door on the side, and the maid backed out.Fang Zijin followed Butler Rong through a narrow corridor.On both sides of the corridor are carved corridors, and the carvings on the corridors are actually stories from the novel.Plowing the ridges, visiting the thatched cottage three times, borrowing arrows from the straw boat, and Liu Bei supporting the orphan are all lifelike.At the end of the corridor are four screen doors. Fang Zijin followed Butler Rong into it. Looking inside, he saw a large room.In the middle of the room, there is a large picture table covered with felt and placed with brushes and painting utensils.The surroundings of the room are covered with calligraphy and paintings, and the style of painting and calligraphy can be summed up in four words: weird and sincere.One of the walls is completely covered by paintings, and it can be seen that behind those paintings is the entire wall of bookcases.In front of the painting table, an old man was concentrating on painting, but Fang Zijin and the others ignored their arrival.
Butler Rong informed Xiang Qinyang, but without saying a word to Fang Zijin, he threw her in the room and retreated.Fang Zijin stood there alone, stunned for a few seconds, and then looked at Xiang Qinyang carefully.Xiang Qinyang's hair, eyebrows, and beard are all white, but it's not the fairy beard like the Taishang Laojun in the play, but a curled goatee.Although the old man is ninety years old, age spots are rarely seen on his face, and his face is rosy and radiant.His whole mind seems to be absorbed in a landscape painting in front of him, completely unaware that there is another person in the room.
After seeing him, Fang Zijin bent his legs, knelt on the ground, and kowtowed three times to Xiang Qinyang.Xiang Qinyang seemed unaware of this, and continued to paint with his head bowed.Fang Zijin stood up, walked lightly to the side of Xiang Qinyang, stretched out her slender fingers, grabbed the emblem ink next to the inkstone, and gently rubbed the ink block in the inkstone tray.
"You are a girl from the new sect, why did you make such a big gift when you met the old man?" Xiang Qinyang finally spoke.When he spoke, he was full of breath and calm, and the pen in his hand was still cruising among the mountains and rivers.
Fang Zijin said: "Just now, it was not the salute performed by the younger generation, but the salute performed by the younger generation on behalf of my father."
"Why do you want to salute your father?" he asked.
Fang Zijin said: "My father admires my senior very much. He has visited the mansion five times, but he did not have the chance to see his face, so he regrets it. Now that my father has passed away, this junior presents a gift to my father in front of him."
Xiang Qinyang stopped the pen in his hand, took a serious look at Fang Zijin, and asked her, "Who else is there at home?"
Fang Zijin shook his head: "There is nothing to worry about."
Xiang Qinyang glanced at her again, and said to her: "The seventh book on the third, fifth, and fifth floors of the bookcase over there is a "Summary of Meridians". Go and get it for me."
Fang Zijin walked a few steps towards the bookcase, and saw seven hanging screens hanging on the entire wall, and seven landscape paintings were painted on the hanging screens.Obviously, there is a bookcase behind the hanging screen, and these seven paintings should be the doors of the bookcase.Which is the third door is not marked on it.Xiang Qinyang reported the three numbers of the seventh book on the fifth floor of the third fan, did he intend to test her?The old man is a person who reads ancient books, and the numbers are of course from the left.The problem is what to do with this unique painted door.Raising the hanging screen seemed a little disrespectful to the old man.She looked around and saw a pole made of bamboo by the door. She picked it up and weighed it in her hand. It should be it.She took the pole and walked to the hanging screen, propped up the third painting from the left, and hung it in an empty space next to it, counted to the fifth floor from bottom to top, and took out the seventh book accurately. This "Meridian Outline".
After getting the book, Xiang Qinyang ordered her to bring a notebook, and copied the words from the book on the notebook in small letters.After Xiang Qinyang gave her orders, he ignored her and continued to paint with all his heart.Fang Zijin began to copy the book.At first, she was a little worried that Lu Qiusheng was waiting outside, but after a while, she was fascinated by the meridians of the human body mentioned in the book.In the past, she also learned acupuncture from her father, but she only remembered some acupuncture points, but she didn't know much about the meridians of the human body.After reading this book, she realized that the meridians of the human body are so mysterious.She was completely fascinated, she didn't know the passage of time at all, how could she even think of the existence of Lu Qiusheng?It was getting dark, she didn't know it, and she didn't even notice that the lights in the room were on.
Butler Rong came in and invited her to dinner, and she realized it was late.Xiang Qinyang had already left, and she was the only one in the study.She put the "Summary of Meridians" back on the bookshelf, hung up the picture door, placed a half-copied manuscript on the picture table, and followed the housekeeper to the dining room.Lu Qiusheng sat there waiting for her. When he saw her, he stretched out a hand and waved to her with his thumb raised.In the dining room, only Lu Qiusheng and her were eating, and two servants were serving.After the meal, the butler Rong sent the two of them out. When they were parting, Fang Zijin told Fang Zijin that Mr. Xiang told him that he hoped that Miss Fang would write an article about her experience in transcribing the "Summary of Meridians" after returning home.
Leaving Xiang's mansion, Lu Qiu jumped three feet high like a child, and shouted excitedly.Fang Zijin didn't know why he was so happy. He said that over the past six months, there have been hundreds if not thousands of people who have visited the door. Most of them, Mr. Xiang sent away without even looking at them.She was the only one who stayed and said a few words, or stayed for a few hours. "He not only kept you for a few hours, but also gave you homework. Tell me, can this be done? After you go back, finish your homework and send it to the old man."
There was a warm current rolling in Fang Zijin's heart.She remembered what her mother had said when she was still alive, that people should not be judged only by appearance, a pretty face does not necessarily mean a sincere heart.Qiusheng is a real person, and he treats you sincerely.If you can make it, you will be happy all your life.If there are only the two of them in this world, she also believes that she will fall in love with him for a long time.The problem is that she already has Bai Changshan in her heart, and it is impossible to pretend to be another person.To Lu Qiusheng, she only had deep guilt and a growing sense of debt.
Fang Zijin quickly wrote down her experience in reading the book "Summary of Meridians", but she didn't have time to send it, so she delayed it for a long time.She couldn't spare time, academic stress was only one aspect, and there was a more critical event, Wu Limin's return.
The organization made extremely careful arrangements for Wu Limin's return.Considering Yu Aijun's life and medical care after his return, he arranged housing for them by the south gate of the medical school, because a hospital is being built there, and after completion, a hospital will be relocated from Shanghai to serve as an affiliated teaching hospital of Huazhong University of Traditional Chinese Medicine.With this hospital, Yu Aijun's further medical care will become easier and simpler.The house is an old-fashioned one-story house. Walk through a narrow alley and walk 20 to 30 meters to the south, and you will find Jiefang Avenue, which is being expanded.Jiefang Avenue was expanded year by year and became the longest and widest east-west main road in Ningchang. However, when it was built in the early 20th century, it was just a dirt road less than two kilometers long, and later it became a gravel road and was named Fangzheng Road. , After liberation, the road was further widened and extended, and renamed Jiefang Avenue.When Fang Zijin first came to Ningchang, the widening and lengthening project of Jiefang Avenue had just started, and the end of the former Fangzheng Road was Wucheng Road. Therefore, the back of Huazhong College of Traditional Chinese Medicine became the key part of the expansion of Jiefang Avenue.Next, a hospital was built between Jiefang Avenue and Huazhong College of Traditional Chinese Medicine. Therefore, behind Huazhong College of Traditional Chinese Medicine became a large construction site.Between Wu Limin's new residence and Jiefang Avenue, there are some scattered private houses and some temporary work sheds of the hospital construction headquarters.All these buildings were moved overnight, and the students of the medical school did many voluntary labors here before they leveled the ground and created a large square.
On the day Wu Limin came back, the welcome ceremony started at Ningchang Railway Station.Some middle school students dressed in festive costumes and held flowers and lined up on the platform.Eight soldiers of the People's Liberation Army wearing brand-new military uniforms and white gloves marched forward after the train stopped.After a while, Yu Aijun was hugged by a soldier and came out of the car door, and the four soldiers below immediately reached out to catch him.A wheelchair was handed over from the car. It is said that this wheelchair has a good background and was obtained from a foreign country through special channels.A soldier took the wheelchair and placed it on the platform.Two soldiers carrying Yu Aijun put him in a wheelchair.Wu Limin got out of the car and stood behind the wheelchair.The military band began to play music, and the four guards of honor lifted the wheelchairs and walked out along the platform.The students began to wave the ribbons in their hands, singing and dancing.
A row of military trucks was parked at the entrance of the station, with big red cloths hanging on them, and slogans such as "Warmly welcome the volunteer army hero Yu Aijun to return with honor" and "Salute to the great Chinese People's Volunteer Army".Yu Aijun's wheelchair was sent to the first truck. Wu Limin, who was wearing big red flowers, was also carried onto the truck by two PLA soldiers.The convoy, escorted by two rows of military motorcycles, slowly drove out of the station road.On both sides of the road, there are soldiers of the People's Liberation Army neatly lined up and enthusiastic middle school students holding flowers.
From Station Road to the new site of the hospital, it is more than two kilometers away, and there are colorful ribbons of flowers and enthusiastic crowds along the way.On the temporarily leveled square at the entrance of the affiliated hospital, a temporary stage had already been set up with a huge welcome slogan hanging on it.Fang Zijin and another beautiful female student in the school were selected to present flowers. They each stood under the sun-exposed table with a large bouquet of flowers.Standing on the stage were some officials whom she could not name, most of them wearing whitewashed military uniforms, waiting eagerly.
Brother Yu originally went north with Wu Limin, and then he came back early alone. At this moment, he brought Yu's mother and brothers and sisters to meet the hero's son of the Yu family.
While thousands of people waited anxiously, the sound of gongs, drums and music first came from the east and flew into people's eardrums. The crowd became excited. Some people shouted slogans loudly, and male and female students lined up on both sides of the road played their waist drums.The float carrying the hero, under the escort of more than a dozen three-wheeled motorcycles, slowly drove over.The People's Liberation Army soldiers lined up on both sides of the road stood upright, holding guns in their left hands in front of their chests, and saluted with their right hands.A row stretched out in unison looks as neat as a person, and also looks like some puppets, standing there motionless.
The leaders of the city and the security area and Yu Aijun's family members stepped off the stage and stood in a row under the stage.Fang Zijin and her classmates stood in front of the row holding flowers.The car stopped in front of them, and a group of PLA soldiers wearing brand-new military uniforms, white gloves, and armed belts walked to the back of the car.The tailgate of the car was opened, and the PLA soldiers in the car lifted their wheelchairs and handed them over to the PLA soldiers under the car.The four PLA soldiers below stretched out their hands at the same time, grabbed the wheelchair, lifted the wheelchair and Yu Aijun together, and carried it on their shoulders.Fang Zijin's classmates walked over, and the PLA soldiers put the wheelchair on the ground on their shoulders.Her classmate hung a wreath around Yu Aijun's neck, and stuffed a large bouquet of flowers into his chest.Regardless of the arrangements of the relevant departments, Yu's mother broke free from the supporting brother Yu, threw herself in front of her son, and cried loudly in her arms.There was some confusion on the court.It was in this chaos that Wu Limin's figure appeared at the back of the car.Two PLA soldiers below held out their hands and took her from the car.Fang Zijin stepped forward, gave her a large bouquet of flowers, and hugged her tightly. "How do you feel?" Fang Zijin asked her in a low voice.Wu Limin said: "I'm so happy." Her voice trembled a little.Fang Zijin looked at Yu Aijun who was sitting in a wheelchair. Some staff members were trying to separate Yu's mother from her son so that the leaders could shake hands with the hero and the established procedures could proceed smoothly.Fang Zijin saw the teardrops on Yu Aijun's face, shining brightly in the sunlight.When the leader came forward to shake hands with him, something seemed wrong. What they extended was their right hand, but Yu Aijun's right hand was paralyzed and he couldn't lift it up at all.The leaders had to take back their right hands and extended their left hands to shake him.Fang Zijin whispered to Wu Limin, have you thought about it?The days ahead are going to be hard for you.Wu Limin seemed to suddenly have a burst of pride, and said to her, I know, I have confidence.Fang Zijin suddenly felt that Wu Limin was worthy of this grand welcome ceremony. Compared with herself, she was really a hero.
At the end of the welcome ceremony, some student representatives and PLA fighter representatives surrounded the hero Yu Aijun and went to his new home.Behind these people were Yu Aijun's relatives, the leaders of the city, and the leaders of the academy.Fang Zijin, as Wu Limin's best friend, has been walking beside Wu Limin, pushing the wheelchair with her.At that moment, Fang Zijin felt that he also had some heroism.Yu Aijun's house has three rooms, one is a kitchen and dining room, one is a bedroom and living room, and the other is a guest room.Entering the house was just a ritual. A group of people pushed Yu Aijun around the room, and then pushed out again.Next, the ceremony will proceed to the next procedure, a welcome reception for Yu Aijun.
When Fang Zijin came out of the narrow alley, he saw Butler Rong standing at the entrance of the alley.She froze for a moment, walked over and called Uncle Rong.Housekeeper Rong took out the "Summary of Meridians" from his pocket, and took out the copy she hadn't finished copying, and handed it to her.He said that Mr. Xiang knew she was busy, so he sent him to find her.Mr. Xiang asked her to continue copying the book.After copying, send the copy to him, and keep the original with her temporarily, and return it when she has a chance to go to Xiangfu.After the housekeeper explained, he took his leave and left.Fang Zijin stood there, thinking about it.She thought that Mr. Xiang's move seemed to indicate that he had accepted her as a disciple.Not allowing her to return the original copy seemed to have two meanings. He was worried about the loss of the book and hoped that she would have more time to digest the contents of the book.
The next ten days were the busiest and most fulfilling days for Fang Zijin in her life.During the day, she had to go to class, so she carefully studied the "Meridian Outline" between classes. In her spare time, if the time was short, she would start copying it. If the time was longer, she would accompany Wu Limin to organize the wedding.
The wedding was held in the Garrison Hall.It seems to be a balance, the welcome ceremony is mainly local, but the wedding ceremony is mainly military.The auditorium of the security area is in Xiaoyushan.From Wucheng Road to Xiaoyu Mountain, there is not only a distance of more than ten kilometers, but also a Yangtze River.Early in the morning, the security area sent a special car to pick them up. As Wu Limin's bridesmaid, Fang Zijin naturally accompanied them.Along the way, the public security and the People's Liberation Army blocked traffic on the road, and special ferries were used to cross the river.In front of the auditorium, the wheelchair was lifted off, pushed by Wu Limin and Fang Zijin, and walked towards the gate.Yu Aijun was wearing a military uniform with a big red flower on his chest, and he was sitting upright in a wheelchair.Wu Limin was wearing a maroon velvet cheongsam, her hair was tied into a bun according to a certain tradition, and she had a sweet and happy smile on her face.For this solemn and sweet moment, Fang Zijin specially made a yellow cheongsam with red and floral prints in the tailor shop. In order to set off Wu Limin, her position is not in the middle of the wheelchair, but on the side.A soldier of the People's Liberation Army walked over the moment they entered the door and stood on the other side of Wu Limin.这名穿着军装的伴郎高大英俊，一脸的肃穆，一只手轻轻推着轮椅，另一只手有节奏地摆动，行走着标准的军人步伐。在他们周围，是许多手执鲜花，穿着军绿色长裤白色衬衣的男女学生，他们挥舞着手中的鲜花和彩带。
轮椅进入礼堂。礼堂里站满了列成方阵的军人代表和各个学校选派的观礼学生代表。中间留出了一条通道，他们推着轮椅走过去，到达正中位置时，轮椅驶上了鲜红的地毯。军乐声在礼堂里响起，优美、浪漫而且欢快。雷鸣般的掌声响起，喻爱军的脸上，两滴滚烫的泪流了出来。团市委一位副部长带头呼起了口号：向志愿军英雄喻爱军学习，向志愿军英雄喻爱军致敬。所有学生一齐高声呼喊着。
轮椅在音乐和口号声中走完了红地毯，沿着用木板临时搭起的斜坡驶上主席台。主席台上坐着一排大人物，方子衿认得的，仅仅只有周昕若，他是主婚人之一。这是一场隆重的婚礼。不仅仅因为有多名主婚人和多名证婚人，还因为在主婚人和证婚人的背后，站着两排观礼成员。司仪领着喻爱军，一路走过去，一一向他介绍这些身居高位的领导。领导们热情地和他握手。方子衿跟在轮椅后面，也有幸目睹了这些曾经在炮火中出生入死的共产党高官，他们一个个英姿勃发，踌躇满志。
自从手扶轮椅的那一刻起，方子衿就被一种空前的激动笼罩着。她也清楚自己只不过是伴娘而不是新娘，作为伴娘她应该矜持而又优雅，可她控制不住自己，就像自己是新娘一般，心头的兴奋如同南海的波涛一般，激荡不已，一波高过一波。吴丽敏的婚礼按照预定程序进行着，周昕若宣布婚礼开始，军区的首长代表男方致词，然后是学院一名副校长代表女方致词。在这个极其关键的时刻，方子衿走神了，她的眼前出现了幻象。幻象中，这场盛大的婚礼，是为她和白长山准备的。白长山骑着一匹高大的白马，正是她在梦中见过的那匹。白长山穿着志愿军军服，果然是没有领章帽徽的。在英姿勃发的白长山身边，是穿着洁白婚纱的方子衿，她站在一大丛鲜花之中，鲜花为了她的爱情而灿烂着，她于是成了鲜花丛中的花后。马上的白长山转过头，对方子衿微微一笑。方子衿顿时感到眼前金光四射，幸福成了峨眉山千佛顶的云海，藤蔓叶梢、山峦沟壑间，水一样流淌，烟一样飘绕着的，是绚烂如虹缥缈如霞迷离如雾的浓情。
白长山说：“子衿，我是世界上最幸福的人。”
方子衿说：“我也是。这幸福是你给我的。”
白长山说：“我会把每一个日子织成云锦，让你的生命永远灿烂明媚。”
方子衿说：“我会让我的爱流成一条河，让你一生荡气回肠。”
幸福漫过方子衿的小腹，漫过她的胸口，漫过她的喉咙，从她的眼眶流出来，晶莹透亮，霞光万道。
白长山说：“我会让你一生一世为我流泪，右眼流出的泪珠上写着幸，左眼流出的泪珠上写着福。”
方子衿说：“能这样和你在一起，我已经被幸福融化了。”
一阵《国际歌》的旋律将方子衿拉回到现实。吴丽敏的婚礼在这悲壮的旋律中结束，她的婚礼也因此成了一种庄严的回忆。
方子衿正埋头读着《经络概要》，听到面前桌上啪的一声响。她将目光从线装书移到桌前，桌上斜躺着一封信，黄褐色的牛皮纸信封，中间一个红色长条框，右边一排印刷字。方子衿的目光上移，谢谢两个字正要溜出口时，见站在自己面前的是李淑芬，那两个字又被她生生地吞了回去。
李淑芬站在她的面前，挺着越来越大下面浑圆顶端溜尖的肚子，意味深长地笑着，多少有点不怀好意地说，子衿，你可是订过婚的人，可不要玩三角恋游戏哟。
方子衿嘴角撇了撇，恨不得上前抽她几个巴掌。她很想立即将那封信抓到手里，第一时间拆开。可是，李淑芬站在自己面前，她不能让内心深处那滚雷一般浓烈的情感流露出来。她强行压制着那种冲动，直到李淑芬再次带着别具深意的眼神狠狠地剜了她一眼转身离开之后，她才装着若无其事地拿过那封信。只有她自己清楚，她拆这封信的时候，那颗心打起了急促的鼓点，手指有些发抖。
白长山在信中夹了一首写给她的诗，诗的标题叫《铁甲英雄连》。他在诗中写道：
白长山在给她的信中写道：
方子衿不敢再往下读了，她担心自己继续读下去，会激动得当众哭出声来。
如果说方子衿是白长山心空中的那颗星，白长山同样是方子衿心空中的那颗星，是悬挂在她的心野之上那颗永远不灭的星。方子衿的心一直被这封信温暖着，在温暖中她吃完了午饭，甚至不知道自己到底吃了什么。在温暖中，她走出宿舍，向校门口走去，准备去拜访自己新认下的恩师项钦羊。半个多月的轰轰烈烈过去了，生活又归于平静。当然，平静的是方子衿而不是吴丽敏，此刻的吴丽敏，或许正推着坐在轮椅中的喻爱军，在宁昌市的某一个礼堂演讲吧。方子衿一路蹦跳着一路唱着歌：“解放区的天，是明朗的天，解放区的人民好喜欢。”她如果将歌词改成“方子衿的天，是明朗的天，方子衿的心里好喜欢”或许更贴切一些。
可是，刚刚走出校门，她的好心情就被一个迎面出现的人给破坏了。这个人是胡之彦。胡之彦似乎刚刚从家乡返回，身上背着一只大包，手里还提着一只小包，独自往校内走。方子衿根本没有看到他，他却看到了方子衿。看到方子衿的那一瞬间，他的心中汹涌着仇恨和愤怒。他快速地向方子衿走过去，挡在了她的面前。“他亮的，真巧呀。”他嬉皮笑脸地说，“我刁毛最想见的人是你，没想到真结巴神了，想谁是谁。”方子衿猛地见到他，心直往下沉。再听他的语气看他的神态，心中又是一阵颤抖。她不明白，这家伙是从哪里钻出来的，外出躲了几个月，第一天回来，不仅不准备夹起尾巴做人，却还是这么趾高气扬，这世界还有公理吗？
“你想搞么事？”她怒问。
“我想搞么事？”他把宁昌话学得怪腔怪调，接着又操起了他原有的杂交官话，“刁毛，老子啥也不想做。我结巴回来啦，向你他亮的报个到，成不？”说过之后，他哈哈大笑着走开。
明朗的天空中，出现了一只挥之不去的乌鸦。这只乌鸦盘旋着，聒噪着，一忽儿高飞，一忽儿低翔。它似乎在耐心地等待着美丽变成枯萎，生命变成死亡，它在期待一次腐尸的大餐。想到这只乌鸦，方子衿便不寒而栗。它到底会给自己的生命带来什么？它会是那只啄食自己的腐肉的乌鸦吗？和项钦羊相对的那几个小时，乌鸦知趣地飞走了。项钦羊并没有明确表示收她为徒，只是像位慈祥的爷爷和心爱的乖孙女促膝聊天。他问起她的家庭情况，问起她的学业情况，问起她今后的人生理想，自然也问起她和陆秋生的关系。
所有问题中，她和陆秋生的关系是最令她困惑的。她告诉项钦羊，陆秋生爱她，而且爱得很深很真，这一点她非常清楚。她在不得已的情况下和他订了婚，并且是认真对待这一纸婚约的。可根本问题在于，她不会爱他。她爱的是志愿军的汽车连长白长山。她不清楚自己是永远地将爱情给予白长山将婚姻给予陆秋生，还是应该向陆秋生说明一切，然后去追求自己和白长山的爱情。曾有许多次，她都想向陆秋生说明，却也知道，这将会给陆秋生以毁灭性打击。她之所以说出这一切，也是希望项钦羊给她一点指引或者启发。可她没有料到，项钦羊听后哈哈大笑，笑得她莫名其妙。项钦羊说，你不应该姓方，应该姓项嘛，完全就是我们项家的种：情种。方子衿突然明白，项家确实是情种，项钦羊的后代之中，有一位是殉情自杀的，还有一位在新婚之夜夺窗而逃，至今杳无音讯。
离开时，项钦羊向她发出了另一条指令：“书柜的第二扇第三层第三本书是一本《药要》，你拿去抄出来。”方子衿明白，他根本不是为了让她抄书，而是希望她在抄书过程中理解书中的精要。拿着这本书，跨出项府大门时，那只乌鸦再一次出现在她的天空。
乌鸦盘旋了十天，方子衿的天空不再晴朗。算着日子，该收到白长山的信了，可是没有。她想，或许会晚一两天吧。然而，晚了两天，还是没有，晚了五天，十天，仍然没有。吴丽敏有十天没有收到喻爱军的来信，整个人像是傻了一般。那时，方子衿并不完全理解她的情感。现在她明白了，只要想到白长山，她的心就像是被什么人一阵一阵地猛捏着，尖利的疼痛撕裂着她，将她变成一块一块的碎片，然后又将这些碎片揉捏在一起，用大力挤压着，搓揉着。
吴丽敏在方子衿的痛苦经历中完成了她的辉煌之旅，回到了学校。两人见了面，方子衿对她开玩笑说，你回去对爱军说，叫他把老婆借给我抱抱。吴丽敏一把将方子衿抱在怀里，羞红着脸在她耳边说，今晚你自己去向他借吧。方子衿以为她是开玩笑，调笑道，怕怕，我怕他杀了我。吴丽敏说，我说真的，今晚去我家吃饭。
喻爱军生活不便，吴丽敏又要上学，又要照顾丈夫，根本忙不过来。喻大妈便住到了这里，为他们做一些买菜做饭之类的事。方子衿去的时候，喻大妈正在厨房里忙活着。方子衿进去和她打了招呼，又到隔壁房间去见喻爱军。进入客厅时，她没有见到喻爱军，也没有看到吴丽敏，见客厅通往卧室的门是开的，便推门而入。刚探进半个头，她就惊讶地叫了一声，红着脸退了出来。原来，这一对小夫妻正在里面，喻爱军坐在轮椅前，吴丽敏则弓身站在他的面前，手里提着一只夜壶，夜壶前面的嘴对准着他的裆部，有一股激烈的射水声在夜壶之中翻腾。
照顾过喻爱军，吴丽敏推着他从房间来到客厅。方子衿坐在那里和他们谈话，自然会问起喻爱军的病情。喻爱军说，这段时间，除了巡回作报告，还曾找很多专家看过，警备区以及市里的领导对他的情况非常关心，还特别组织了一个专家小组进行会诊。专家的意见比较一致，是弹片创伤引起的后遗症。就目前的症状来看，有几种可能。一是弹片切断了脑部控制右边肢体的某根神经。二是弹片损伤了这根神经。其三则可能是脑外伤引起脑血肿，肿块压迫了神经。这三种情况，如果是第一种，则完全失去了医治的价值，目前无论是中医还是西医，都无法接驳神经。如果是第二种情况，有治愈的可能，但没有一个专家有特效手段和药物。如果是第三种情况，也比较复杂，如果肿块进一步加大，不仅会影响其他神经，甚至有可能危及生命。如果借助身体的自然吸收以及药物作用，使得血肿消失，则瘫痪症状会自动消失。
方子衿问他们，是否找过中医。吴丽敏说市里请来的专家中也有中医，也开了一些药，可这些药在沈阳时已经用过了，并没有效果。方子衿想到自己的老师项钦羊，不知他祖传的针灸术是否能有效果，下次见他的时候，应该问一问。
喻妈妈进来叫他们去吃饭，吴丽敏连忙起身去推轮椅。方子衿站起身来，搭了一下手。吴丽敏家的餐桌是特制的，恰好适应轮椅的高度。喻爱军坐在轮椅上吃饭，吴丽敏则坐在他的身边，不时往他面前夹点菜，或者直接将菜送进他的嘴里。喻爱军不久前才学着用左手，不太灵便，却也偶尔夹上一点菜给吴丽敏或者方子衿。虽然夹菜只是一个小动作，方子衿却感到温馨无比。她再一次想到了白长山。她想，如果这菜是白长山夹给自己的，即使是一块咸萝卜，她也会吃出山珍海味的滋味来。吃过饭后，吴丽敏和方子衿都抢着洗碗，喻妈妈不让。喻爱军说，敏，子衿在这里，你陪陪她嘛。让妈做好了。这一声敏，叫的虽然是吴丽敏，却听得方子衿骨头有点发酥。她再一次想到了白长山，不知哪一天，自己能听他这么叫自己一声？
方子衿以为吴丽敏会将喻爱军推回中间的房子，可吴丽敏推着轮椅走过了中间的门，将他推到了最左面的那间，然后将他一个人扔在他母亲住的那间房里，拉着方子衿回到中间。方子衿见吴丽敏的动作有些不合常理，颇有了点讶异。吴丽敏带着她走进了卧室，并且返身将门闩上了。方子衿站在那里，目光随着吴丽敏转动。
吴丽敏没有说话之前，脸先就红了。红得像熟透的苹果，又像是飘动着的红云，红色在那皙白的脸上游动，散开。吴丽敏说，子衿姐，我有点事求你帮忙。方子衿说，我们是亲姐妹，说这话就见外了吧。吴丽敏说，不是见外了，是不好意思嘛。方子衿再次愣了一下，不说话，只是以惊讶的目光看着她。她说，最近一段时间，她觉得小便痛得厉害，自己弄了点药，也不见效果，又不好意思去医院。知道她跟余老师学过妇科，所以找她来帮忙看一看。
方子衿已经看过不少妇科，却从未给熟人看过，更没有给朋友看过。她毕竟是未婚之身，未看之前，自己倒是先难为情起来。愣了片刻，她才问，你们是不是不太注意卫生？吴丽敏说，怎么可能？毕竟她是学医的，这方面还是懂些的，每次都是她洗的。方子衿于是说，那我看看再说。吴丽敏脱了裤子，坐在床上，整个人向后仰着，双腿向前屈起，让臀部高高抬起。方子衿往那里望去，见那里鲜红鲜红的，颜色和熟了的西红柿相似。她暗自皱了一下眉头，让吴丽敏先穿好裤子，自己弄了些水，仔细地洗过手，再开始检查。
检查过后，方子衿去洗手。吴丽敏穿好衣服，站到她身边，问她到底是怎么回事。
“么样搞的，会阴都撕裂了。”方子衿说。
“么样搞的，还不是他太雄？一个晚上折腾五六次。”吴丽敏语气中似乎并没有抱怨，反倒有一种得意的感觉。
方子衿心中再次咯噔一下，暗想，哇，爱情原来如此？就连为所爱的人受伤，都是一种幸福？她越来越觉得，吴丽敏就是自己的一面镜子。她找到的男人虽然有了残障，可爱情是健全的。What about yourself?白长山已经十几天没有音讯了，这在以前是从未有过的事。难道他会成为喻爱军第二？还有，陆秋生怎么办？这可是自己情路之上，最复杂的问题。这种复杂之外，还盘旋着一只乌鸦。最令方子衿感到不安的，还是那只乌鸦。他不仅现在是自己的同学，将来还会是自己的同事甚至是领导。他会不会因此成为自己一生的梦魇？他离开宁昌躲回山东避难的那段时间，自己过了一段平静的日子，自从他回来之后，自己的厄运接踵而至，今后还会发生什么更不幸的事？她简直不敢往下想。
正当方子衿担心会出事的时候，事果然就出了，不过是以一种她无论怎么想都不可能想到的方式到来的。
那天晚上，她刚刚从教室里出来，看到远远的有一个人推着脚踏车站在正前方，下课的男女学生迎着他走过去，他像是一尊神似的站在那里，一动不动地盯着教室的大门。学生们到了他的面前，自然地分向两边，一群黑压压的人头，在他的面前分流，又在他的背后汇合。方子衿虽然没有看清他的面容，却从他的身形以及脚踏车认出了他。她急急地走上前去，带点责备地小声说：你怎么站在这里？陆秋生冷冷地说，你跟我来。这声音像是在数九腊月里冰冻过一般，透着一股子深重的寒气。方子衿略愣了一下，故意拉开一点距离，跟在他的后面，走向那片竹林。
寒气在竹林里转悠，竹叶的颜色都变了，瑟瑟地抖着。没有月光，三级北风吹得星星懒懒散散的，没精没采。不知哪来的一只野狗在有一下没一下地吠着，只有老鼠们永远那么精神，你追我赶，唧唧地发出痛苦的呻吟，却仍然要斗得你死我活。纺织娘显然不是累了而是冻坏了，竟然听不到声音。麻雀的叫声，还在竹林里云集。陆秋生站在那里，背对着她。她走过去，默默地站在他的身边，等待着他说话。黑夜剪出他的背影，异常肃穆，异常坚挺。烟头的火光，一闪一灭，映照着他的脸，像是上了一层釉色，红铜一般泛着紫光。
她掖了掖衣襟，还是觉得寒风往颈子里猛灌。她想早点说完话早点回去，不仅热被窝吸引着她，还有师傅给的那本《药要》，真是本奇书，可算是的补遗。why do not you talk?she says.他仍然不语，面前的火星闪动的频率加快了许多。她等了好一段时间，没有耐心了，说，太冷了，如果冇得么事，我回去了。
他突然转过身来，问她：“你是不是准备和我解除婚约？”
这个问题好突兀。她确实想和他解除婚约，可是，无论在何种情况下，她不会主动提起这件事。哪怕永远将爱情埋在心里，她也不会毁约。她不做那种无情的人。“你说么事啊，我么时候说要和你解除婚约了？”她问。
“那些信是么回事嘛？”
“信？么事信？我不晓得你说么事。”
陆秋生突然从怀里掏出几封信塞到她的手里，说：“你不晓得？这些信你也不晓得？”
方子衿紧紧地抓着几封信。天是黑的，没有月光，那些信在她的手里，只是黑黑的几张纸，没有颜色也没有字迹。她心中有了某种不妙的预感，却仍然不肯相信这会是事实。她说：“这是哪个的信？到底是么回事嘛。”
“么回事？你问我？你应该去问那个白长山去。”陆秋生愤愤地说。
白长山的信？真的是白长山的信？这样看来，他截下了那些信？想到自己为这些信何等的牵肠挂肚柔肠寸断，一股巨大的怒火，钱塘江潮一般，一瞬间漫过了理智的堤坝。久已积淀的郁结，火山一般爆发了。她冲着他大发雷霆。她说，你私拆了我的信？你竟然私自看我的信？你知道这是在侵犯人权吗？你有什么权力拆我的信？听了她的话，陆秋生目瞪口呆。How is this going?她反倒说是他私拆？他愤怒了，说，你血口喷人，倒打一耙。方子衿说，我血口喷人？我倒打一耙？do you know?在我的内心深处，我一直把你当做自己的亲人。你也知道，我在这个世界上再没有亲人了，你是我唯一的亲人。这话让陆秋生心中一动，他深情地叫了一声，子衿，伸开双臂，要去抱她。她却像见到洪水猛兽一般，一连向后退了几步，哭着说，我以为，这个世界上，所有人都伤我，只有你对我好，只有你保护我。可我怎么都没想到，没想到，伤我最深的……她已经说不下去了，转身向前跑去。
陆秋生见她要走，几步跨到她的面前，将她拦住。“你等一下。”他说，“这件事好像有些误会，我要解释一下。”
方子衿固执地说：“误会也好，事实也好。我不想再多一道伤口。我不想听任何解释，你让我走吧。”
“不！我一定要解释。”陆秋生坚决地说，“这些信不是我拆的。我拿到时就是这样的。”
方子衿露出一声冷笑。这个解释真是太苍白太可笑了。白长山的信明明是寄到医学院的，又怎么可能跑到他所在的干部培训班去了？
陆秋生紧紧地拉住她，怎么都不肯放她走。他向她解释说，这些信，是有人装在信封里寄给他的。他收到的时候，外面还有一层信封。他查过邮戳，是从武成路那家邮所寄出的。他以为这件事是她干的，目的就是用这种方法告诉他，她心中已经有了别人，希望他和她解除婚约。方子衿不想说任何话，只是泪水肆无忌惮地流着。陆秋生见她不说话，自然意识到她根本不相信自己所说的这一套，便又说：“不信的话，我明天把那只信封拿来给你看。”
无论陆秋生怎么解释，方子衿是真的不肯相信了。将信封拿来？他难道不能跑到武成路那间邮所，给自己寄信？这不是太简单的一件事吗？能说明什么？有人将信寄给了他？is it possible?除了他，谁会关心她爱着什么人和谁恋爱？
陆秋生见她不相信自己的解释，便放开了她，对她说，看来，无论我怎么说，你都是不会相信我了。你回去吧，我也不解释了。但我向你保证，我一定要向你证明我没有对你说假话，半句假话都没有。我一定要找出证据来证明我自己。
方子衿跌跌撞撞地向宿舍跑去，泪水顺着她的双颊恣意地流着。她知道，她和陆秋生是彻底地完结了，可无论如何，她没有想到，完结竟是以这样一种残酷的方式，竟是如此的深刻和伤痛。
夜黑暗着，北风呼呼地翻动着她的长辫。月亮远远地隐没在不可知的深渊之中，星星于是成为铭心刻骨的泪水。
和方子衿闹翻的第五天，陆秋生再次收到一封信。邮局统一印刷的那种白色信封，信封上的字像是一些虫子在乱爬。陆秋生没有像以前那样迫不及待地将信拆开。他对这些信已经失去了兴趣，或者说他已经意识到，这些信对自己已经没有意义。他拉开课桌的抽屉，随手将信往里面一扔，然后将抽屉锁上。
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