Chapter 73 Letter VI Julie to Gentleman Edward

Gentleman, your letter has touched me deeply and made me very grateful.The friend you have succumbed to protection will be equally grateful to you when he learns what you have done for us.well!Only those in distress can realize how precious a kind heart is.We have learned of your kindness in many ways, and we are no longer surprised that your chivalry will always move us. How good it was to me to be in the care of such a generous and chivalrous friend, and to derive from his good deeds the happiness which fate denied me!But, gentlemen, I am not optimistic about it, because I feel that fate will make your good wishes difficult to achieve.I am ill-fated to fail your zeal, and the beauty of happiness which you have offered me only makes me feel that I cannot obtain it.You offer two beleaguered lovers a comfortable and safe retreat where their love can be legally and solemnly married.I know that with your protection, I will be able to easily escape the pursuit of my angry family members.That's all too well for love, but is it enough for happiness?impossible.If you really want me to have peace of mind and peace of mind, you have to provide me with a safer refuge, so that I can not feel ashamed and guilty there.You contrived to meet our needs, and, moreover, you gave us a portion of your estate with incomparable generosity.With your gift I am richer and more prosperous than from my own, and under your shelter I will lack nothing, you will be like my father.well!Gentleman, after leaving my own father, am I worthy of another father?

This is what I feel guilty about right now, and what other people say in private is bound to break my heart.The question is not knowing whether I have the right to arrange my life against my parents' orders, but whether I will cause them grief and despair if I do so.well!I have to consider whether I have the right to deprive my elders of the joy of life.In the future, how can I handle the relationship between blood relationship and my nature?How can my tender heart express my filial piety to my parents?With this thought in mind, isn't it the beginning of becoming a sinner?Since I don't want to be a guilty person, do I have to seriously consider what duties I should fulfill?Who would not think so?will i?What I will mercilessly leave behind are the relatives who bore me and raised me and loved me, the relatives who regard me as their only hope and joy!One is a father who is nearly sixty years old, and the other is a frail and sick mother!But I am their only daughter. When they are dying, lonely and no one to take care of them, I should have repaid them for their kindness, but I want to leave them and leave alone!Let them suffer humiliation in their later years, regret for the rest of their lives, and cry bitterly!This will disturb my conscience and make me terrified, and my mind will definitely continue to show the sad and desolate scenes of my parents before they die, and there is no one to comfort them!Scenes would arise of them cursing the unworthy daughter who had deserted them and humiliated them!no!Gentleman, I cannot do this, I have abandoned morality, and morality will abandon me, and it will never remain in my heart.This terrible idea will speak to me instead of morality. It will always haunt my heart and make me restless all my life. Even if I live a happy life, my heart is painful.In short, if fate bids me live the rest of my life with such regrets, it would be too dreadful, too dreadful to bear, and I would rather think otherwise.

I admit that I cannot refute your inferences, and I think they are very, very plausible.However, you are not married yet, so you don't feel it at all. You have to be a father before you have the right to advise other people's children, right?As for me, I have made up my mind, I know very well that my father will make me unhappy, but even if I cry out in my misfortune, it will make me feel more at ease than making them miserable, so I must not Do not run away from home.The wonderful fantasies of lovers, the infatuated and yearning happiness, go away quickly!Go and disappear into the dreams of the night!You are meaningless to me!And you, generous and chivalrous friend, forget your good plan, and let it never be forgotten in the heart of one who is grateful to you.If our great sufferings had not in the slightest weakened your great mind, if your chivalry had not been utterly exhausted, you would still have had a chance to help us.The person you regard as a friend will definitely be your friend under your care.Don't judge him by what you see now; his disorientation is no cowardice, but the result of a passionate and haughty man of talent struggling against fate.Apparently obstinate men act more out of ignorance than valor; laity know nothing of great sorrow;well!But in his stubbornness is the strong emotion that makes him a noble soul, and it is this emotional force that has caused my shame and despair today.Believe me, gentlemen, that I, Julie, would not be so ruined if he were just an ordinary man.

No, no, you have long been aware of this secret love, and it has not been hidden from you at all.Although you don't know him very well, he is worth all your efforts for him.You've gotten to know him, and if possible, you'd like to do more for him.Yes, be his comforter, his friend, his protector, his father.I implore you in this way both for your sake and for his.He will not betray your trust, he will repay your kindness by the conduct of a gentleman, he will listen to your guidance, imitate your virtues, and learn wisdom from you.what!Gentleman, you will be proud of your deeds if he remains under your protection and becomes as noble a man as he can be!