Chapter 49 Chapter Forty-ninth Marriage Rejection

Lu Zhen decided to believe Gao Zhan's words again. Although she still had some doubts in her heart, she still decided to believe him again, and gave herself some hope. As time went by, her body gradually recovered. The imperial doctor shifted the focus of treatment from her body to her right hand, and she cooperated obediently. A Zhan said that her hand would be fine, so she would be fine. of. She still needed to recuperate at the moment, but the matter of the porcelain clay could not stop, so as soon as she returned to the Palace of Blue Mirrors, she immediately inspected the porcelain clay that the eunuchs had sent over these days.After several days of recuperation, her right hand seemed to have really improved, and gradually she did not need Danniang to wait on her for her daily necessities.

After a few days like this, she came up with the idea of ​​carving flowers. This craft has been abandoned for several days, and her skills are not proficient enough. If it continues to be abandoned like this, it will be really dangerous. Thinking of this, Lu Zhen immediately tried to carve flowers, but when she held the carving knife with the same strength as before, she felt sore in her hand, and the carving knife slipped from between her fingers and fell to the ground, There was a crisp sound.Lu Zhen hurriedly bent over to pick it up, but when she bent down, the words of the eldest princess that day sounded inexplicably in her ears, "I am your sister, and you actually... for a useless person..."

Useless person... Thinking of this word, Lu Zhen couldn't help shivering. She picked up the carving knife and comforted herself repeatedly, "Don't be afraid, I will definitely get better." "My lord, what are you doing?" Linglong's voice suddenly rang in her ears, she was startled, and looked over inexplicably, "Huh?" "Although His Highness agrees with you moving back, don't forget that he has repeatedly ordered you not to touch these things within a month. You don't want me to be scolded, do you?" Take it away, "I'll put it away for you."

Lu Zhen waved her hand, "Just put it in the cabinet." Linglong nodded, secretly breathed a sigh of relief, and quickly walked to the cabinet with the carving knife, but she didn't expect to knock down a box inside as soon as she opened the cabinet door, Linglong looked down, and then exclaimed, " Such a beautiful hairpin!" I saw that the hairpin was extremely gorgeous, with feathers dotted on each tail, and it shone brightly in seven colors under the sunlight, making it hard to keep one's eyes open.Linglong looked down and was about to ask a question when she saw Danniang running in quickly, raised the letter in her hand and said to Lu Zhen, "Sister, a guard came over just now and asked me to bring this letter to you."

Linglong immediately put away the hairpins, and said to Danniang displeasedly: "Didn't Your Highness tell us to be careful? Why did you just accept letters from unknown people without even asking me?" Danniang squeezed the letter in her hand, blinked innocently, and argued in a low voice: "But he knows me, he called me Danniang..." Lu Zhen smiled slightly, and took the letter to smooth things over, "Okay, don't be so condescending, it's just a letter." As she spoke, she habitually aimed at one end of the envelope that was about to be torn open, but her hand shook unconsciously without thinking. When she got up, she gritted her teeth and increased her strength, only to hear a hiss, the letter was torn open, but the letter paper was also torn.

She sighed helplessly, and opened the letter paper for a look. There were only a few sentences on it: "The truth about the Dongling trap has been revealed. I look forward to seeing you when I leave the palace. Tomorrow noon, in the elegant room of Jinxiang Tower, Shen Jiayan." It's Shen Jiayan!I did hear from Gao Zhan that Shen Jiayan was doing his best to deal with this matter before, but he didn't expect it to be settled so soon.Lu Zhen grabbed one end of the letter, lowered her head again, "Dongling Trap..." Yes, she did have to figure out who hated her so much.

Lu Zhen decided to go to the appointment, but she didn't dare to explain to Gao Zhan, for fear that he would be too worried. She only said that the people from the Sun Family Porcelain Kiln sent a bag of clay a few days ago. Said that he wanted to eat the assorted soup in Jinxiang Building in Dongcheng.Although Gao Zhan was a little worried, but he was busy with government affairs, so he could only let her go, but secretly added some more people to protect her and prevent accidents. Early the next morning, Lu Zhen took Yuan Lu out of the palace, first went to the Sun Family Kiln to have a look, and then went to the Jinxiang Building according to the instructions in the letter, but as soon as she entered the Accord, Lu Zhen felt something was wrong, because she saw It wasn't Shen Jiayan who arrived, but Shen Jiamin!Seeing the person in front of her clearly, Lu Zhen was startled, she didn't want to have anything to do with her again, she turned around and wanted to leave, but she didn't expect someone to stop in front of her.Lu Zhen said angrily, "What are you doing?"

Shen Jiamin behind him smiled triumphantly and said, "Don't worry, I have no malicious intentions. I want to help you find out the truth, but if I don't ask you out in the name of big brother, will you talk to me? Lu Dianzhu, please sit down." Lu Zhen looked at her vigilantly for a moment, knowing that she would never be able to leave at this moment, so she simply sat down and looked at Shen Jiamin vigilantly, "What tricks are you playing?" Jiamin replied lazily: "I don't play any tricks, just tell you the truth about Dongling as said in the letter."

Hearing this, Lu Zhen immediately tensed up, "Who is trying to kill me?" She originally thought that Shen Jiamin would play around with her, or answer irrelevant questions, but she didn't expect Shen Jiamin to actually explain to her: "That Boss Lu is the second uncle of Liu Xu, the former palace maid of the Qingjing Palace. His niece was killed by you." Going to be buried, Master Lu forgets a lot, probably doesn't remember?" At the same time that the word Liu Xu entered her ears, that familiar face immediately appeared in Lu Zhen's mind. Naturally, she also remembered the past. She stood up in surprise, "Liu Xu's second uncle?"

Shen Jiamin nodded, and looked at Lu Zhen's face with satisfaction, "In order to get revenge, he worked so hard to set up a situation. I didn't expect that once something happened to you, Mr. Lu, the cousin of the crown prince would be so anxious that he would immediately ask the people in the yamen to take him away." The house was turned upside down. Boss Lu had nowhere to go, so he crashed his head against the city wall outside the palace...Master Lu, you have a lot of blood debts on your body." It really was another life, Lu Zhen's complexion suddenly changed, it was as white as rice paper.

Jia Min secretly glanced at Lu Zhen, and immediately continued: "If I were you, I would be ashamed to death, how could I be like you, pestering the prince's cousin shamelessly! Everyone is laughing at him now! What is your identity? A seventh-rank female official! The cousin of the crown prince puts so many ladies from famous families at risk, so why did he fall in love with a cripple like you!" Lu Zhen took a deep breath, closed her eyes and tried to comfort herself in her heart, it's okay, A Zhan also said that since she chooses to be with him, she has to face a lot of hardships, which is not a big deal.Thinking of this, she immediately opened her eyes and said: "You said these words just to annoy me. It's useless. Between me and Ah Zhan, I don't care about these things for a long time. And even if my hand doesn't heal for a while, Ah Zhan Zhan won't care either." Shen Jiamin didn't expect that Lu Zhen would refuse to give up, and said such words, her anger rose all of a sudden, and she blurted out sarcastically: "Isn't it going to get better for a while? You're completely disabled! Do you know that others are lying to you? Before You don't know anything except firing porcelain, now it seems that you can't even pinch mud!" Hearing this, Lu Zhen's heart suddenly became half cold. She thought of her current situation and the frown of the imperial doctor every time he treated her, so she couldn't help but half believe it.However, she also knew that no matter it was the case or not, she could not compromise with Shen Jiamin at this moment, otherwise, everything would be lost.She insisted and said, "No matter what you say, I won't believe it." Shen Jiamin stared at Lu Zhen, suppressed the anger in her heart, and said decisively: "Believe it or not, you will be nothing soon anyway. Since I told you so many truths, you just stay here and treat yourself well." Wait for a while. It’s best not to think about calling your guards, otherwise, I’ll turn around and tell the prince’s cousin that you came out of the palace to have a private meeting with my brother.” After finishing speaking, she sternly slapped the two people beside her. The maid ordered: "Take care of her! Let her out after two hours." The maid repeatedly promised.Shen Jiamin turned her head and saw Lu Zhen still sitting on the chair blankly, guessing that what she said just now must have affected her, and her mood improved accordingly, and said: "I've ordered all the good wine and food, don't worry Enjoy it slowly, don't worry, there is no poison in it. Oh, I forgot, you can't hold chopsticks at all now. Cuihua, if Master Lu wants to eat, you can feed her with chopsticks, remember?" This is a kind of humiliation, but at this moment, Lu Zhen is only numb. She watched Shen Jiamin leave the room in a daze, heard Shen Jiamin's voice disappearing in the corridor, and turned her head in a daze, unable to utter a word. , the voices of Shen Jiamin and the eldest princess are all whirling in my ears and mind—— Shen Jiamin said triumphantly: "Everyone is laughing at him now, do you know? What is your identity? The crown prince's cousin puts so many famous ladies away, why did he fall in love with you, a cripple!" The eldest princess stared at her fiercely, "Don't tell me you want people to laugh at you, saying that the dignified Lord of Northern Qi actually married a merchant's concubine daughter!" Shen Jiamin's voice sounded again, "Isn't it going to get better for a while? You're completely disabled! You don't know anything except making porcelain. Now it seems that you can't even squeeze mud!" Lu Zhen closed her eyes in pain, and gently bent her right hand, "Lu Zhen, be stronger, she just said these words to stimulate you! You have to believe Ah Zhan, he said that your hands will be fine one day, He said that no matter how hard it is, he will be with you!" Just like this, repeating this sentence constantly, but the scene in front of her mind was gradually replaced by the faces of Shen Jiamin and the eldest princess. They kept repeating the words just now in her ears, the mocking, The disdainful gaze was like a knife, severely destroying her self-esteem. After an unknown amount of time, the two maids brought by Shen Jiamin to guard her suddenly came over, blessed her, and then left without saying a word.She looked at the place where they disappeared inexplicably, and couldn't help but wonder in her heart—they just left like this?Why did Shen Jiamin leave me here for two hours without doing anything? Lu Zhen was a little worried, and cautiously opened the door to look around. There was really no one guarding her. Lu Zhen became more suspicious, but she didn't dare to stay any longer, and immediately went downstairs quickly. As soon as he came out, Yuan Lu came up to him and complained, "Hey, I said Master Lu, why did you take this meal for so long? You are so worried about me." Lu Zhen shook her head, "It's okay, let's go back to the palace." As she said that, she was about to lean into the sedan chair, but she was caught by something out of the corner of her eye, she looked up, and there was a huge "medical" letter written on it. The flag was fluttering in the wind, as if calling to her.Shen Jiamin's voice lingered in her ears again, Lu Zhen looked down at her slightly curved right hand, gritted her teeth, then stood up straight and turned to Yuan Lu and said: "You all wait here, I'm going over there let's go." When Yuan Lu heard it, he was shocked, and blurted out: "Then how can it be..." "Be obedient!" Lu Zhen shouted, turned her head and left.But Yuan Lu was frightened by her. He never thought that Master Lu Zhenlu, who has always been gentle and gentle, would lose his temper so much. He didn't react for a while. In the sea, Yuan Lu slapped his thigh, shouted badly, and hurriedly followed, but Lu Zhen was nowhere to be seen. In fact, Lu Zhen didn't go far, because the medical center was right in front. The medical hall was very quiet, except for the apprentices grabbing the medicine in front, only the sound of the doctor's diagnosis was heard behind the curtain. When Lu Zhen entered, someone happened to have finished the diagnosis, thanked him, and came out.Lu Zhen hesitated for a moment, then walked in, put her hand on the table, and said lightly: "Please trouble doctor." The white-bearded doctor looked up at her, and listened to her pulse. After a while, he frowned and asked, "Has the girl been seriously injured recently?" Lu Zhen nodded, and heard the doctor say, "I'm afraid..." Seeing the doctor standing here, Lu Zhen immediately said, "Doctor might as well speak up." The doctor sighed, and said: "The girl's right hand seems to have been pressed by something for a long time, and now it hurts the blood, and it looks fine on the outside, but... I might as well tell you straight, girl, your hand, I'm afraid it's really real. It’s hopeless.” Lu Zhen's head exploded with a bang, she raised her head in disbelief, looked at the doctor with questioning eyes, but saw him nodding towards her, and sighed: "It's a pity..." She could no longer hear what the doctor said next, and her mind went blank.She paid the consultation fee in a daze, and staggered out of the gate of the hospital, almost unable to stand upright, the strength in her body seemed to be drained, and she couldn't support this flesh and blood body at all. There is no way to return to heaven, there is no way to return to heaven... It turns out that she is really a useless person, she has really become a useless person, she is not worthy of A Zhan, not worthy of him. At this moment, a group of children came running towards her out of nowhere, bumping into her unexpectedly.Lu Zhen staggered back a few steps, and instinctively supported the wall so as not to fall.The children were ignorant, and shouted with innocent smiles: "His Royal Highness is marrying a wife! His Royal Highness is marrying a wife!" Lu Zhen was startled, and listened to it again in disbelief, the children's voices could be heard in her ears, "His Royal Highness is marrying a wife!" She took a deep breath, and held back without thinking The woman watching the excitement asked hurriedly, "Ma'am, who does His Highness the Crown Prince want to marry?" The woman didn't notice her expression at all, and said with a smile: "Who else? It's the eldest lady of Duke Shen's mansion. The imperial decree to bestow marriage has already been issued, why don't you go over and join in the fun?" The eldest lady of Shen Guogong's mansion... Shen Jiamin... Ah Zhan is going to marry Shen Jiamin!Thinking of this, Lu Zhen's heart ached, and she felt dizzy, unable to hold on any longer. At this moment, someone reached out to support her, and she turned her head to see that it was Yuan Lu.Seeing that Lu Zhen's face was pale, he asked eagerly, "Lord Lu, are you alright?" "Let go of me!" Lu Zhen said harshly, panting heavily. Yuan Lu supported himself and defended Gao Zhan, "Don't be angry, my lord, those poor children must be talking nonsense..." Lu Zhen shouted violently, "I tell you to let me go!" Yuan Lu was startled, and unconsciously let go of his hands.Lu Zhen supported the wall and stood upright, walked forward slowly, and realized that Yuan Lu was still behind her, she immediately turned around and said coldly, "Don't follow me." Seeing Lu Zhen's abnormal appearance, Yuan Lu looked anxious, he didn't dare to agree or refuse, but followed silently.But Lu Zhen couldn't bear it anymore, and took a golden hairpin from her head with her backhand, and pressed it against her neck, threatening: "If you still follow me, I will..." The gold hairpin drew a bloodstain on Lu Zhen's snow-white neck, which looked particularly abrupt.Seeing that Lu Zhen was exerting more and more force, the golden hairpin was about to pierce his neck. He was so frightened that his hands and feet became cold, and he hurriedly said: "Master Lu, put it down first, if I don't follow, don't let it go." Lu Zhen turned her head, ignored him, gritted her teeth and walked forward step by step - she didn't believe it either, she just didn't believe that Ah Zhan would marry Shen Jiamin, she must, must find out about this matter. Lu Zhen walked in a daze, and after an unknown amount of time, she finally arrived at the place she wanted to go, the Shen residence. At this moment, the front of Shen's residence was already crowded with people, everyone's faces were filled with festive smiles, and the walls were plastered with flamboyant red Double Happiness characters, signaling the coming of great joy, and the servants of the Shen family were even more With a smug look on his face, he arrogantly drove everyone around him aside.After a while, an inner eunuch came out with four small inner eunuchs, and got into the sedan chair with a happy face.A commoner who was watching immediately said: "See if you see it, it is the father-in-law who came to announce the decree and bestow the marriage, hey, look at the red envelope in his hand, I am afraid it is worth ten taels of gold." Another commoner looked at it disdainfully. He glanced at him and said, "Then what's the matter? His Royal Highness is the most beautiful man in our Northern Qi Dynasty. Could it be that he still can't afford ten taels of money to thank the matchmaker?" He looked enviously at the gate of the Shen family, and said, "Only a family like Miss Shen is worthy of being a princess." All of a sudden, everyone started talking, some said they were a match made in heaven, some said they were a golden boy and a jade girl, voices of joy and envy came one by one, stuffed into Lu Zhen's ears, and mixed up with the previous mess group.She covered her ears in pain, trying to expel these voices, but the voices seemed to become countless, sweeping over from all directions.She stretched out her hand in pain, but found that she couldn't grasp anything. The weakness of her right hand was reminding her of an ironclad fact, and the big red happy letter in front of her eyes was also telling her an ironclad fact——the emperor decreed, Zhan and Shen Jiamin bestowed a marriage. From then on, her A Zhan no longer belonged to her.And even her proud right hand no longer belonged to her. Lu Zhen felt that she was about to drown in the crowd, and everything in this world no longer belonged to her. At this moment, a strong and powerful arm suddenly appeared in front of her eyes, holding her firmly.Lu Zhen looked over subconsciously, and it was Shen Jiayan who looked concerned.She took a deep breath, still feeling confused, and couldn't even speak clearly, "You...how do you..." Shen Jiayan looked at Lu Zhen's bloodless face distressedly, and said in a low voice: "Believe me, I didn't know about all this beforehand." My heart, which has been tense all the time, was inexplicably relieved by this sentence.She involuntarily grabbed his arm and tried to stand up, but she didn't want her eyes to go dark, and she fell down limply. Lu Zhen woke up in a flustered dream, and when she opened her eyes, she found that Shen Jiayan was staring at her intently, she turned her head away, a little embarrassed.I only heard Shen Jiayan say: "I know a little bit of medical skills, you fainted just because you were too weak, it's not a serious problem." Lu Zhen took a deep breath and didn't speak, because she didn't know what she was going to say at the moment—Shen Jiamin was his sister, and now the emperor decreed that Shen Jiamin would become Gao Zhan's princess. How can she let it go? Seeing that she didn't make a sound, Shen Jiayan already guessed a thing or two, and explained: "My sister used your name to lure me to Dongling. I don't know about the marriage." Lu Zhen smiled helplessly, "She also used your name to lure me out of the palace." Shen Jiayan said guiltily: "She knew that if I was in the mansion, she would definitely try to stop this matter... I'm sorry, this matter is the responsibility of our Shen family. I will go to the palace to explain to the emperor." Lu Zhen was not as happy as he imagined, but just shook her head, "No need, Shen Sizhen can't do this alone, it must be the meaning of His Royal Highness the eldest princess. She is the prince's sister... Besides, the imperial edict has been issued , everyone in the world knows, can you still call off the engagement?" Shen Jiayan insisted: "In any case, if it is wrong, it is wrong. Just because it has become a fact, we cannot acquiesce that it is reasonable." Lu Zhen sighed softly, and cast her gaze out of the window.The sky was completely dark, there were no stars and no moon tonight, it was pitch black, and the bleak autumn wind rushed into the house, freezing her already chilled heart.She just felt powerless, and slightly covered her right hand, as if she was speaking to Shen Jiayan, but at the same time she seemed to be speaking to herself, "But, I don't want to fight now. They are right, I am a crippled woman. It's not good enough for Ah Zhan." Shen Jiayan only hated himself for being clumsy, unable to utter a clever word to comfort her, stared at her for a long time before saying: "No, you are very good, even if you are a queen, you are worthy." Lu Zhen looked up at him with a forced smile, and said indifferently, "Really? Thank you for your kind words." Shen Jiayan opened his mouth, not knowing how to comfort him again.Lu Zhen turned her head and looked out the window, saving him some embarrassment, but he knew that this must not go on like this, so he asked tentatively: "Then what do you want to do now?" Lu Zhen shook her head, and said wearily: "I don't know, I don't want to go back to the palace, and I don't want to see them, I just feel very tired and want to have a good sleep." Shen Jiayan tried to persuade: "You should at least listen to his explanation. I think His Royal Highness the Crown Prince must be reluctant in this matter." Lu Zhen smiled desperately, "I made an agreement with him that if there is any dispute, we must give the other party a chance to explain. But now that the matter has come to an end, do you think that a few explanations can wipe out that imperial decree? For me, he I have already sacrificed too much, if things cannot be changed, even if I see him, it will only increase my sadness." Shen Jiayan was silent for a while, "Are you willing?" Lu Zhen asked with a wry smile, "What's the use of being reluctant? This is the end of the matter, it's irreversible." Shen Jiayan was speechless again, and it took him a while to say something irrelevant, "This is an inn, so you can stay here for a while." Lu Zhen closed her eyes, and begged in a low voice: "Brother Shen, I'm very tired now, can you let me stay alone for a while?" Shen Jiayan said worriedly: "Then you promise me, don't run around." Lu Zhen opened her eyes and looked at him with a wry smile, "I can't go anywhere with my current state. If you don't worry, ask someone to watch me outside." Shen Jiayan saw that she was extremely exhausted, and saw that she was really lying down obediently, so he didn't say anything more, but just wrapped up the quilt for her, and said softly: "Then you have a good rest, I'll be right back." Lu Zhen closed her eyes, as if she had really fallen asleep, Shen Jiayan stayed for a while, then stood up and walked out quietly.As soon as the door on the other side was closed, Lu Zhen opened her eyes again, her sight was suspended in mid-air, her mind was blank, after a long time, she softly got out of bed and walked to the window.Through the snow-white window paper, you can still see the brilliant lights outside the window.She raised her hand and propped up the window door, and the scene of colorful lanterns and festoons rushed into her eyes. It was a celebration that belonged to Gao Zhan and had nothing to do with her. Once upon a time, she thought it would be a celebration for the two of them.Gao Zhan's handsome face appeared in front of his eyes, he smiled at her, his big palms were broad and warm, he would wrap her hands completely, put them to his lips, tell her that she will never let her down, that she loves her, and then... and then? Her tears fell down, drop by drop, unable to control herself. She reached out for the handkerchief from her bosom, trying to wipe away the tears on her face, but before she reached the air, she began to tremble, and the soft and smooth handkerchief fell to the ground along the crack.She lowered her head and saw that the snow-white silk cloth was covered with dust, the night wind blew in, and the handkerchief shook her body vigorously, but she was as desperate as she was. She raised the hand she had just gone to get the handkerchief, and suddenly smiled sadly, "No more, I have nothing... My hand is disabled, I can't burn porcelain, I can't be promoted, I can't avenge... Even Ah Zhan wants married someone else..." She staggered to the edge of the table, supported the table with one hand, and smashed a teacup to the ground with the other hand, then picked up the porcelain piece, and tremblingly cut it at her right wrist. A piercing pain came from the wrist, and the blood immediately gushed out, drop by drop, along the table and fell to the ground, and soon began to spread. It's really strange, she didn't feel the pain, the shocking red covered her vision, very much like the bright red happy words on the wall of Shen's residence.She involuntarily reached out her hand to touch the red blood, then walked to the window, and stubbornly compared it with those happy words.Sure enough, the blood color is still redder and brighter. Looking at the red in front of her eyes, for some reason, she actually thought of her parents. The only time she saw her father in red clothes when she was young was on the day of her engagement, and she never saw her again after that, but it doesn't matter, there is still a chance, You see, isn't now the opportunity? Lu Zhen leaned against the wall softly, slid down, suddenly saw her father holding mother and beckoning to her, she smiled and went up, "Father, mother, my daughter will come to accompany you soon... ..." From now on, I won't be able to see Ah Zhan anymore, but it doesn't matter, Ah Zhan is accompanied by Shen Jiamin. As for those promises, the promise of joining hands for a lifetime, I'm afraid I can only live up to them. "Ah Zhan, I'm sorry..." She muttered something in a low voice, and finally lost consciousness. Lu Zhen didn't think that she would still wake up, and she didn't think that when she woke up, she would see Shen Jiayan's face, the wound was so painful that she dared not move, and it was so tense.She gasped, exhaled slowly, and saw Shen Jiayan coming over, carefully helped her up, and then brought the potion to her lips. Lu Zhen turned her face away and shook her head. Shen Jiayan frowned and said sharply: "Be obedient. Otherwise, I will send you back to the palace." As he spoke, he brought the soup to her lips.Lu Zhen couldn't hold back him, so she could only open her mouth and drink in mouthfuls. Shen Jiayan watched as she drank all the soup in the bowl, and then said: "This is ginseng soup, you can drink it, and you will recover faster." Then he put the bowl aside, helped her lie down and ordered : "Fortunately, you were injured, your hands are weak, and the cut is not deep." Lu Zhen smiled bitterly, so what if the cut was not deep, anyway, it had already been scrapped, she turned her head to the other place, only to hear Shen Jiayan's introduction: "This is my other courtyard in the south of the city, few people know. You I asked the military doctor of the Habayashi Army to see the injury, and his mouth is very strict, and he will not speak out." Lu Zhen finally spoke, "Why did you save me?" Shen Jiayan didn't answer, but asked instead: "Why do you want to seek death?" Lu Zhen excitedly raised her right hand, stretched her trembling fingers in front of his eyes, and said in despair: "I have nothing left." Shen Jiayan was taken aback for a moment, then he stretched out his big palm to hold it bravely and said, "No, you still have me." Lu Zhen looked at him in shock, she didn't expect him to say this at this moment. Shen Jiayan opened his mouth, and then he didn't care anymore, "You probably already knew what I thought about you. That day in Hongxiangyuan, I said I wanted to marry you, it was not a lie. I am different from His Royal Highness Well, my father said earlier that my marriage can be independent. If you want, we can marry now. I will give you your salary and private money, and live alone with you. You don’t need your parents-in-law to set rules for you, and you won’t be wronged. Whether you want to have children or not, I will respect and love you for the rest of my life. Moreover, I will never accept A concubine marries a concubine." Lu Zhen stared at him for a long time before saying with difficulty: "Brother Shen, thank you for your kindness, but as I said earlier, you can't blame Shen Sizhen for the marriage, so you don't have to think about making up for it." I." Hearing this, Shen Jiayan shook his head eagerly, "This is not compensation. I didn't say anything before, it's just because His Royal Highness and I are good brothers, I can't rob you with him. But now... Ah Zhen, please give me a opportunity to take care of you." Lu Zhen lowered her eyes and looked up at him again, her voice was choked in her throat, and she couldn't utter a word.She naturally understood Shen Jiayan's intentions a long time ago, and she also understood that what Shen Jiayan said was definitely not a lie, but... when your heart is already occupied by one person, there is simply no space left to accommodate another person. Shen Jiayan sighed, let go of her hand, and said in a harmonious voice: "Okay, I know you're not in the mood to think about these things now... just remember what you said just now, you'd better recuperate with me now. After helping Luzhen to lie down, he begged again in a low voice: "I just want you to promise me one thing. From now on, don't think about suicide. Think about your parents, your family, your friend." Lu Zhen was stunned for a moment, met his pleading gaze, and finally nodded, "I promise you." In the next few days, Lu Zhen really did as she promised, and never did anything to hurt herself again. Shen Jiayan would spend as much time as possible to accompany her, take her to enjoy the flowers, watch him dance the sword, However, her thoughts never stayed in front of her eyes for a moment, and they always drifted far, far away after calming down.Finally, she finally couldn't help expressing her thoughts, "Ah Zhan... how is he doing now?" She clearly saw that Shen Jiayan's eyes dimmed, but his answer was still nodding, "If you want to know, I'll go to the palace to find out for you now." Lu Zhen also knew that her behavior was too much. She clearly said that she would give up Gao Zhan, but she still couldn't help but want to know his whereabouts. She clearly told herself that she could no longer accept Shen Jiayan's kindness and hurt him, but Still ask him for help again and again.Lu Zhen felt ashamed of her selfishness, but no matter how much she emphasized, those selfish demands still came out of her mouth. Because she knew that Shen Jiayan would definitely achieve it for her. Sure enough, soon after, Shen Jiayan came back with the news. As soon as she saw him appear, Lu Zhen immediately put down the book and asked impatiently, "You're back? He...how is he?" Shen Jiayan sat down beside her, and replied quietly: "He is very bad." Lu Zhen was startled, and the right hand holding the book couldn't help shaking, and then the pages of the book trembled, making a rattling sound.Seeing this, Shen Jiayan took the book in her hand away, and said to her in detail: "The eldest princess and Xiao Guifei stole the emperor's imperial seal, and then announced the imperial decree of giving marriage in front of my father. At that time, Zhaoyang There are many ministers in the palace, in order to take care of the face of the eldest princess and Duke Shen, he couldn't say anything at that time." Lu Zhen tremblingly said: "What?" Shen Jiayan continued: "Someone persuaded him to marry my younger sister as the main concubine and make you a side concubine, but he didn't want to. He insisted that he would only marry you in this life. The eldest princess wanted to force him, saying that he would give it to our Duke Shen. Once the government tells you, he will shave his hair, saying that he will become a monk from now on. These days, he has been looking for you everywhere." Hearing this, Lu Zhen was taken aback, covered her mouth, and held back the tears that were about to roll out, "No, I...I'm going to find him!" Shen Jiayan stopped her, "At first, I thought that since he made you so sad and engaged to my sister, I shouldn't let you see him again, but now I think he may not be so bad." When he was inexplicable, he suddenly raised his voice towards the door: "His Royal Highness, come in." Lu Zhen turned her head abruptly, and the face she had been thinking about day and night was indeed in front of her eyes.His face was haggard, and he had long lost the unrestrained and suave style of the past. His long black hair, which was always neatly tied up, had long since disappeared, only the uneven messy hair fluttering on top of his head.Unable to hold back the tears she could no longer hold back, she gasped, and the tears rolled down one by one like broken beads, blinding her eyes in an instant. The next moment, she had already landed firmly in his arms, the familiar breath, the breath that she thought she would never be able to smell again for the rest of her life, surrounded her again. After a long time, she raised her head from his embrace and greedily looked at his face. It was clear that they had been separated for only a few days, but why did it seem like a hundred years had passed? The day we met. Gao Zhan held Lu Zhen's wrist lightly, looked at the wound on it, thought of the pain she had suffered, and felt so distressed, "You fool." Lu Zhen also stretched out her left hand to stroke his messy hair, and said in a low voice, "You are also a fool." The two hugged tightly again.It took another long time before Gao Zhan let go of his hands, supported her to sit down, and then said hoarsely: "You don't have to worry about that ridiculous marriage. On the way here, I have already explained to Jiayan that I will definitely marry you." Retired, although I am very sorry for Duke Shen's mansion, but I will definitely try to make it up. I have already told Sister Huang that if she dares to break us up again, I will..." Seeing that he was about to swear, Lu Zhen immediately covered his mouth, "Stop talking." Gao Zhan said regretfully, "I shouldn't have let you out of the palace alone, otherwise, I wouldn't have fallen into their tricks." Lu Zhen shook her head, looked down at her right hand which was still wrapped in gauze, resisted the pain in her heart and said: "But my hand is useless, I can't even burn porcelain, Ah Zhan, I am no longer good enough for you." Gao Zhan immediately hugged her tightly again, and said angrily: "Who said that? I am the prince, and I will be the emperor of Northern Qi in the future. My words are the law and the rules of heaven. I say you are the most worthy woman in the whole world. You are, you must be!" "But……" Gao Zhan didn't let Lu Zhen continue talking, and said firmly: "It's nothing to worry about. I married you, not your hands. I went to Wangzhuang a few days ago, and I still remember that you persuaded me to marry you. What about me? Even if the tendon is broken or the hand is broken, as long as we still have faith, we can still live a good life. Besides, you don’t need to wield swords. If you really can’t do it yourself, can’t you teach me more? How many apprentices?" Lu Zhen was stunned, "I..." "We both love to commit the same problem in doing things - wishing everything could be perfect. However, from now on, we also have to recognize the fact that there is no truly perfect thing in this world. You Look, now you look like this, and I look like this, isn't it a perfect fit?" He said, bowed his head and kissed Lu Zhen, Ah Zhen, believe me, even if there are many difficulties and dangers in the future, We're all going to get there together. Yes, despite all difficulties and dangers, we must be together! 她在他的亲吻中落下泪水，这一次，是甜的。 轿子在轻轻地摇晃着，陆贞的身体也随之摆动，探手进了衣袖，她再度将匕首拿出来细细端详着，这个是沈嘉彦送给她的防身之物，以哥哥的名义。 人这一生，真的会身不由己地辜负一些人。陆贞轻轻地叹了口气，轿子外的马蹄哒哒响，风掠过帘子，偶尔还可以看到高湛在马背上的挺拔身姿，她莫名地生出一股满足感来，索性掀开帘子，随即发现眼前的景物陌生得很，她连忙朝高湛问道：“这不是回宫的路啊？” 高湛神秘地笑了笑，“谁说我们要回宫的？” 不回宫？那是要去哪里？陆贞一阵奇怪，却也没有再追问下去，她相信她的阿湛不会将她带到不好的地方去。不多时，轿子就停下来，帘子被人掀开，高湛的手探了过来，陆贞微微愣了一下，随即会意，扶住他的手走出来。一抬头，她就被眼前的情形惊呆了，眼前高大的房子上挂着的那个牌匾上写的分明就是“太子府”三个字。 “怎么还在发呆？快进去吧。你可是这儿的女主人，那么多人看着呢，千万别失了体面。”高湛的声音在一旁响起，陆贞这才如梦初醒，还来不及回应就已经被他拉进了正门。 正门洞开，两排的仆妇齐整地站在院内。陆贞如梦初醒，被高湛拉着走进了正门。 一路上，高湛就像个小孩子般，拉着她到处参观，书房、凉亭、厅堂，就连卧房都拉着她转了一圈，陆贞感动得不知如何是好，一路上除了点头，根本说不出话来。 将太子府走了一遍，高湛带她来到了一个紧闭的房门前，朝她神秘地说道：“还有一个地方，你肯定喜欢。” 陆贞正好奇着，高湛已经伸手将房门推开，抬眼看去，陆贞立即被眼前的一切惊呆了。烧瓷的各种器具、瓷土、轮车、支架……所有烧瓷需要的东西，都在这里摆满了，就在陆贞觉得少了些什么的时候，高湛突然又说了一句，“后院还有一个瓷窑，只是现在还没有修完。” 闻言，陆贞再也控制不住自己的情绪，闪着泪花看向他，“哪有人在太子府里修瓷窑的？”句子是埋怨的句子，声音却充满了幸福。 高湛却没有笑，正色道：“没办法，谁叫你喜欢这个呢。” 陆贞扑哧便笑出来，泪水却抢先一步落下。高湛见状，立即伸手心疼地抹去她的眼泪，“阿贞，别哭，你是我未来的妻子，但凡我有的，全部都是你的。” 陆贞拉着他的手，激动地走进去开始行动，高湛先是一愣，随即会过意来，也跟着走进去，陆贞踩着轮车，将和好的瓷土放上去，高湛握着她的右手，配合着她的左手，也不知过了多久，一个形状不那么完美的磁盘泥坯，终于出现在他们手中。 接下来是雕花，高湛依然如先前一般充当陆贞的右手，帮她在泥坯上雕出了一个白虎的形状。看着眼前的花纹，陆贞激动得浑身发抖，她看了又看，忍住伸手触摸的冲动，转头看向高湛，哽咽着说：“阿湛，你看，我还能烧瓷！我还能……” 高湛微笑着点头，轻轻捉起她的手，盖在自己的右手上，那里，一道疤痕依然清晰。他看着她的眼，柔声说道：“你当年救了我的右手，从今往后，我就是你的右手。无论有什么困难，我们都一起承担。相信我，不会再让你一个人，你也答应我，不要让我一个人，好吗？” 陆贞深吸了口气，脸上终于露出了笑容，重重地，重重地点点头。